Name: I-D-E-K by Ashleigh Oli
Duration: 3 min 10 s
Description: Dunno what to call this but its depressing asf xx

this has been my favorite song  for years 👼🏼🥰🥰

your hickeys last longer than your promises
you shut of your feelings like a fucking light switch
and everything you said to me, it was all bullshit 
it's kind of sad how easy this was for you
cuz here I am wearing our love like a tattoo
you said I was your everything, well that wasn't true 

chorus:
I feel like I'm drowning
and now I've got a pang in my chest 
my heart physically aches 
and now I'm feeling nauseous
I'm suffocating cuz my lungs are flooding with sadness
and in the mornings is when it hurts the most
cuz you and I can only exist in my dreams
I hate to wake up &  face reality
is that what heartbreak feels like?
is this what heartbreak feels like?
my heart is broken.
this is what heartbreak feels like.

I wish you would've never left that voicemail 
I've listened to it on repeat, makes me miss you like hell
"hey natalie I love you a lot"
bullshit 
looking through old pictures texts & videos
how was it so easy for you to let go?
you told me you loved me more than I could imagine
just two days ago 

[chorus]

and was I just being delusional,
to think that you cared about me at all?
silly me to think we had something special 

[chorus]

you once asked me for a song 
and I said, "well that'd be impossible,
cuz baby I can only write sad songs"

this is what heartbreak feels like

What Heartbreak Feels Like

lil cover of my favorite song by halsey
hope you guys like it :-)

Is There Somewhere // Halsey

here's a song i recently wrote, feedback would be appreciated xx
Photo by Trent Leith: https://www.instagram.com/trentl14/

Broken Hearts Lie(original)

Habits of My Heart by Jaymes Young (Lauren Wilkinson)

a song i wrote, inspired by the amazing artist GNASH
i wrote this in a week, and managed to remember it
hope you enjoy

'Deep Thoughts' is now available on Apple Music and Spotify! 
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/hoody/deep-thoughts

LYRICS :
there’s still things i regret, i don’t know what to do
i walk around everywhere and i still think of you.
while you’re out in this world, i hope you miss me too
that drags me out my mind, i don’t know what to do   

im fragile, i can break soon
this hearts like a typhoon
everything that i see or do, will always lead back to you
but then my mind knows how to deal with this
whether I’m hurt or thinking of what i miss
it’s a like a memory far away
but i can still feel the touch of your lips

highlights of the events in a book
going back to our days where we had our looks
that one jacket i loved that you took
that scent of your perfume that I shook
shook it off, shook it off, it’s no more.
like that one picture we use to adore
thinking of what our love was for
now its on a boat, being lost in a shore

i loved, it hurt, but it was worth a shot
headaches, deep thoughts, thats all i got
stupid reasons to be worried for
no one knows what anyone has got in store

but love feels good, it never feels great
if it ends, there’s all the pressure you take
no one notices the fake smiles
it’s like they’re adding the tiles
of a wall that they don’t see, let it be

there’s still things i regret, i don’t know what to do
i walk around everywhere and i still think of you.
while you’re out in this world, i hope you miss me too
that drags me out my mind, i don’t know what to do

my mind, it’s sick, like there is no cure
something so silly that i can endure
but it’s non sense, i keep having conscience 
deciding where i can stay
it comes to me almost everyday
shape or form in every way

my mind is lost, its in need for help
i feel trapped like I’m wearing a shell
I’m sad, but i don’t think they can tell
i need a spot alone for me to yell

me and you, lets keep it low
stop with the attachment, don’t let it show.
overall, i just want you to know
that we still friends, we’ll just go with the flow

finding someone new, its not that hard
now i know where i came to so far
that I’m to the point of forgetting you
and going out to find someone new

Deep Thoughts - Single

Deep Thoughts

deep thoughts.

hi this is 2018 me — I was on his bucket list and yes he checked me off :)

bucket list

Dunno what to call this but its depressing asf xx

I-D-E-K

a lil bit about the song... in the start of the song its about me feeling sad & worthless , like im misunderstood and forgotten. the chorus is pretty empowering basically sticking up for myself, after being pushed around a lot. & second verse is about getting there, starting to get back to me and realizing that i can do it. i hope u enjoy, this song means so much to me. P.S- whatever you're going through right now.
 U AREN'T ALONE N U WILL GET THROUGH THIS.
COVER ART CREDS : GABBIE WRIGHT


LYRICS
i don’t see the purpose, i’m trying i’m trying 
i don’t feel worth it , i’m trying i’m trying 
u don’t understand me.  no no /: 
u jus see right past me. ): 

gotta b strong enough thru this, i cant give in i’m trying ohh, trying my best. 
u thought i was fool for u but i’m worth it 
tired of everyone telling me, i have to b perfect 

i can get out of my bed mhm
i can get out of my head.
i know i cant give in, no
u cant win , u won’t win again. 

gotta b strong enough thru this i cant give in 
i’m trying ohhh, i’m trying my best. 
u thought i was lost in you, 
i’m finding myself without u. 
oohh. oo, ooh.

lost in time.

this song is very heavy on my heart n very personal, if u feel it too..  im here n u are NOT alone. things will get better.

missed attempts.

after the worst chapter of my life, and hearing false rumors about me i decided to tell my side. this song is copyrighted. this is an original song performed on the piano.

i'll be fine

"Lemonade" Ukulele Version

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I-D-E-K

Ashleigh Oli

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