The atmosphere we create when we are in active addiction, it can swallow everything we are and transform us into a stranger with dead hopes and dreams along with ashes of those we leave behind.  In the most heavy stage of my active addiction, I was sliding in and out of self awareness, it had been 9 months in full blown relapse....Music was the only thing keeping me on this side of life.. I hadn't the least bit of knowledge about how to make music. I always loved to sing and play and at a point in time I busked my music on the streets because of the joy and peace it brought to me, still, always others songs, never even tried to write or compose for myself. I wrote this song, and had help mixing down the beats, sang it over the course of 3 weeks. It took a month total to record and edit and feel like it was what I saw in my head when I asked myself, "What am 
I fighting for, Why does it matter, who is left?"
This song is inspired by every soul that helped drag me from my hell. For all those that share the demons and disease, who have grown with me through my hardest stages and cheered me on when I was unaware. To my daughter, Loralye Mae, my tiny painter, worthiness maker, resilient and braver than I ever was. Today, March 15th, 2020, I'm 101 days clean. & this song is for you. That thinks you're too far gone. Too fucked up, too messy, too, YOU. Just for the length  of this song, Be here now, take inventory of your greatness. It's still there. 
YOU'RE STILL HERE, Wherever we go, we bring ourselves, so maybe bring yourself together and go for gold. Just for today, Just for today, Your worth, is my worth.

Ashley-Martin