This is a raw, spontaneous time of honest worship before the Lord. I've come back to it time and again. Thought it may be helpful for others as well. :)

Trust (Your Ways Are Higher)

Words:
Creation embraces dependence
It looks nice this childlike existence 
Could I be that carefree and trusting of You

You told me there’s nothing I’m lacking 
You told me when I seek I’ll find 
You told me Your burden is easy and light

I find my place reclining at Your table
With just a taste, I’m ruined for the stale

I bring You fresh praise
As I feast on fresh grace
Your mercies are new with every morning
I can’t escape this goodness
I bring You fresh praise
As I feast on fresh grace
Your mercies are new with every morning
Great is Your faithfulness

Your eyes are like fire consuming
A passion that doesn’t burn out
You gave Your own body and blood for communion

You have me, completely
Again and again
I give You my yes

Fresh

Words:
I'm a Mender of the broken hearts
I'm Defender when they're down
I'm the Giver of a royal crown
And the oil of joy instead of tears

And they will be oaks of righteousness
The planting of the Lord of the Harvest

And You will display Your splendor
You will display Your splendor
Bloom, bloom, bloom

Mender

Written in December of 2014, this was the most honest thing I had ever sung to God. As I wrote my honest heart, I found myself in His Presence and experienced the safety and belonging I had always longed for. Like a psalm of David, my song of disconnect and discontentment turned into a song of connection and contentment. He turned my mourning into dancing. My prayer is that you feel released to be honest with God. I know He will meet you right where you are.

Words:
I build walls against You
Wonder why I do
Sometimes it's hard to wait on You to come through
Like You promise

I get so offended
When You don't move exactly as You should
I put up all of my defenses
Hold You in the highest contempt

Please forgive my resistance
All of this distance has made my heart cold
Speak; Your Word is my lifeline
You Spirit is like wine warming my soul
Warming my soul

Oxygen's waning
Fingers have turned blue
This heart of stone gets heavier each minute
That I don't have You
I remember water that first woke me up to Life
So break down the dam I built
And let it burst forth inside

Please forgive my resistance
All of this distance has made my heart cold
Speak; Your Word is my lifeline
You Spirit is like wine warming my soul
Warming my soul

Here, I'm lost in Your River
I breathe under water
It's where I belong
You surround me on all sides
I'm safe in the confines of Your steady heart

Lifeline

Words:
Meet Me in the early morning still
While the earth is drinking in new mercies
New mercies

You're the one I want
I've been waiting up all night for you
All night for you
You were worth My blood
I've been waiting up all night for you
All night for you

So won't you wait
Won't you wait
Won't you wait
Can't you wait?

Early morning still

Words:
Love is a roof that covers a multitude of sins
Love is a roof that doesn't hold on to past offense
Love is a roof

Ashton Barber