wish you were here

[ pt 1. ] (I originally posted this song in the midst of a severe mental breakdown when I ended up running myself into the ground, ready to end everything. I’m better now tho dw, just wanted to add some context here)

prod. @areywtf

I'm sorry

my stomach it turns at the thought of ur face
add 2 the list i stay numbing my pain
please ease my mind wont u giv me a break
i sit in this chair just to rot in a grave

as i walk its on thin ice i
waste my time and tell these lies i
drug my brain with chemicals
berate my mind and open up my eyes

unbeknown to me i cause  grief
i live my life in fear why dont we
breathe the air that we pollute see
spend my time so blind i cant see
do me a favor and open my eyes
show me a reason that i should say that im fine
im so done with trying
im so sick of lying
(its an endless cycle of pity, i cry....)

*hook repeats*

[ pt. 2 ]

prod. maxime

garden [p. recycleBin + benjithemachine]

produced by @deadyami

lyrics:
ran out of options way before i knew it
i can't even exaggerate what i've been through
i don't know what the fuck u want me to do
maybe it's bout time i put my brain to use

meanwhile while ur healing i'm not 
never see me again it's ur loss
u put in more i put in less
with everything i do there's never someone to impress

and it hurts to know that u wish u never met me
it felt like i couldn't break out
it feels different when i'm looking at ur face now
i'll stay alive if u just set me free
i never even know what u mean
now i'm just a 1 man team
i'm not what i wanted to be
no i'm not what i wanted to be

graduated and they're still not proud of me
it's always been so hard for u to see
maybe if i finish college i can get a move on
i don't need u pointing out the things that i do wrong
u put in more i put in less
with everything i do there's never someone to impress

and it hurts to know that u wish u never met me
it felt like i couldn't break out
it feels different when i'm looking at ur face now
i'll stay alive if u just set me free
i never even know what u mean
now i'm just a 1 man team
i'm not what i wanted to be
no i'm not what i wanted to be

not what i wanted 2 b (dead yami)

prod from Jordan and michael harrison and ashtonshinu

lyrics- 
rouri404:
knowing things wont ever get better or worse
and i thought i did my part it hurts
breaking down everything feeling worthless
starring at a picture knowing we'll never be perfect
i cant try to hide where my head is
your voice is a weapon
your killing me slowly now
everyday my head is clouded with the voice guilts and doubt
never gonna let it down
never gonna let you
ashtonshinu:
run it through my head
of things ive got to say
running around town
waiting for the sun
running through my head
of things i should have said
face down on the ground
nowhere to be found
running through my head
of things i should have said
Kalki: 
Rob my time, feed me lies, suck me dry wicked concubine. drop me off; don’t come back. breaking hearts is your habitat. maybe it’s my fault. never thought I could be so difficult. I’ll be damned if I invest a broken dream. take a good last look before I’m never seen. one more time, what the hell? beg for me, I’ll put you in a spell. one more time, then I’m gone. disappear at the break of dawn.


ashtonshinu:
run it through my head
of things ive got to say
running around town
waiting for the sun
running through my head
of things i should have said
face down on the ground
nowhere to be found
running through my head
of things i should have said

ghost town ft. rouri404 & Kalki

cattles2cadillacs (kayohbeats x joe leytrick)

produced by @p-guda x @ilikecatsuknow

featuring @kryst3n

lyrics:
(kryst3n)
and i know
i'll never compare but i tried
thought ur heart was where i could reside
thought ur there for me but u lied 
u can kill me it's eye for an eye
cuz i was eating u up alive
wasn't there a lot but i tried
and if u ask me ur living a lie

(claude)
i just give more
what is this for?
u stay on the high ground i've been done with this war
i'll pretend u never left me sore
located my hideout then i start to miss more
always been a bitch, whore
u might see me hanging from the ceiling somewhere in the store
(x2)

high ground ft. kryst3n (guda x 1win.rare)

★..just so i can hold on to all of this..★

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/kingtheta

[artwork]
myself lol

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/all-of-this-prod-king-theta-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]

verse one:
you dont have to say another word to me
i know when to call it quits, theres clarity in all of this
cause i was too stubborn and had to be right
i never could listen, without a fight

pre chorus:
but all that i wanted in here in my arms
im sorry for everything i know its been hard
i promised a change and i swear that its true
it may take some time but i want it more than anything

chorus:
i cant, remember that
guess i have to write it in pen
that i am the cause of this
just so i can hold onto all of this

i cant, remember that
guess i have to write it in pen
that i am the cause of this
just so i can hold onto all of this

verse two:
you know that i care,
im just shit at showing it
the stitch is undone 
and i am sowing it

cause after everything you said
i took some time to self reflect
way way back to when we met
before i fucked it up

pre chorus:
but all that i wanted in here in my arms
im sorry for everything i know its been hard
i promised a change and i swear that its true
it may take some time but i want it more than anything

chorus:
i cant, remember that
guess i have to write it in pen
that i am the cause of this
just so i can hold onto all of this

i cant, remember that
guess i have to write it in pen
that i am the cause of this
just so i can hold onto all of this

ending:
just so i can hold onto all of this
just so i can hold onto all of this

★streaming★

★all of this★ (prod. king theta)

[LYRICS]
there’s blood in my mouth i’m licking it up 
you wanna go down but i don’t give a fuck
no you better be you better be you better be

sleeping with your eyes wide open 
leave ‘em in the dirt while he choking
and i got my knives out showing
cut you in the throat i ain’t joking
lay my bones down to rest
no i don’t like when you flex 
i’ll snatch that chain off ur chest
i’ll put it on when i’m next 

one shot is all i got
i’m not bout to drop 
everything that i’ve been
fighting so hard for 
look at me now you said 
i’m just an eyesore 
100 rounds, when we show
i think it’s time you pay me back what u owe
i told u a hundred times, u should know
now u leakin bloody red on the snow
@nokerbforever :
tear my heart out cause i don't think that u know now
all the things you've done they fucked me up bad 
i'm just having fun, shoot around with my gun
i can see u wanna run, i just wanna see u down
cause i'm running with my knife, cut
yeah that bitch is all talk
tell that hoe to shut up
i don't wanna hear u talk
yeah we're about to have a one on one
imma shut you up real fast
clearly u dont wanna fight
i feel so undone
i don't think that u know
but my heart's made of stone
and u just tore it down
tearing it down
i can hear u loud
u got a long tongue
to step on

sleeping with your eyes wide open 
leave ‘em in the dirt while he choking
and i got my knives out showing
cut you in the throat i ain’t joking
lay my bones down to rest
no i don’t like when you flex 
i’ll snatch that chain off ur chest
i’ll put it on when i’m next 

mastered by kerby :3
thank you guys for listening you rock! <3 ^-^

ghost town ft. rouri404 & Kalki

ashtonshinu

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