i was there when this beautiful piece of art was concived

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production by maxeem

sure its funny 
but its still jst hard 2 talk abt
sayin that u luv me but its toxic evry time arnd :/
sure ive got some problems but i shudnt b who u talk abt

i dont lik when ur lik tht :/
i jus want another chance
some things come n go
its another one of those
u have 2 push against the stone
its okay no one ever knows 
"wont u shut up? let it go."

srry..

dont covr ur face
its 2 hard 2 look away
didnt work out :/
mayb we shud try another day
im attached to a screen
i cant seem 2 put it down...
i was screamin out ur name
didnt u hear me call it out...

sometimes its 2 hard 2 let go..
i was way to attached..
its like u shuda known tht.
mayb its my fault after all..
losin sleep over a dream
i dont think life is what it seems.

stream

addict (p. maxeem)

wubz - my room smells like alcohol

(know im still dancing with the ghost of you, shadow moving on my wall when im alone inside my room, never got to tell you how i feel)

know im still dancing with the ghost of you
shadow movin on the wall when im alone inside my room
never got to tell you how i feel
when i knew you were the only one that

could heal or save me, im sinking
theres no escaping, we'll all be by ourselves in the end
knife inside my back thought i could call you my friend
always say im ok know its all pretend
focused on the wrong things
pulse been slowing down but still this shit does not alarm me
thought that i could make a difference, thought that id be there to fix it
now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave

(know im still dancing with the ghost of you, shadow moving on my wall when im alone inside my room, never got to tell you how i feel, tell you how i feel)

know im still dancing with the ghost of you
shadow movin on the wall when im alone inside my room
never got to tell you how i feel
(tell you how i feel)
never got to tell you how i feel
when i knew you were the only one that

could heal or save me, im sinking
there's no escaping, we'll all be by ourselves in the end
knife inside my back thought i could call you my friend
always say im ok know its all pretend
focused on the wrong things
pulse been slowing down but still this shit does not alarm me
thought that i could make a difference, thought that id be there to fix it
now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave
thought that i could make a difference, thought that id be there to fix it
now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave
(now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave)
(now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave)
(now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave)
(now you're laying in my arms watch your life leave)
(now you're laying in my arms watch your life) leave

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geíst (31sentinel)

produced by @jolst

lyrics:
i don't know why u were saying that u had my back
u treat me like a punching bag every single chance u have
sick of u keeping me on my ass
push me down a hundred times and i always come back

gas pack gas pack think i need a gas mask
triple sevens in my wallet but i still can't
i apologize to everyone for not giving a fuck
i apologize to myself for never being enough

i can't find my way home
so much for not being alone
so much for so much for so much for not

lately i just feel like i have not been part of this community
do some drugs every day that shit got thru to me
i took way too long and no ones here to help me out
raindrops on my head i'm looking for some shelter now

and when i kiss u can u kiss me back for once?
make me feel like we're not doing this for fun
i've had enough i'm so done
at this point i just keep feeling that i'm not the one

i always come back (jolst)

follow my ig - https://www.instagram.com/fukfiji/

lyrics
Still got your picture on my nightstand
Said that we would be forever but you got up to go
I miss when we had matching black vans
Told that girl I really love her and never did that before

And you don’t wanna go fix the broken heart you left to die
You said you love me but I guess you didn’t mean it
I don’t wanna live this life like a lie
I cut my wrist yeah you’re the reason that I’m bleeding
Living so fast that I don’t even know it’s next up
Live for the past cuz as of recently I’m fucked up
I’m not my best I’m off of Oxys till the sun is up
Live for the past cuz as of recently I’m fucked up

Are we living like this are we living like that
You said that you didn’t know I said can you come back
Life is going so quick life is going so fast
I said why are you playing games when you see me like that
I don’t want to have to tell you that I hate my life
I wish I could go and tell you that I was just fine
But like I told you I can never live my life with lies
Just like I told you I can never live my life with a lie

fix the broken heart you left to die
You said you love me but I guess you didn’t mean it
I don’t wanna live this life like a lie
I cut my wrist yeah you’re the reason that I’m bleeding
Living so fast that I don’t even know it’s next up
Live for the past cuz as of recently I’m fucked up
I’m not my best I’m off of Oxys till the sun is up
Live for the past cuz as of recently I’m fucked up

fijimar - past

past

all plats

past [siemspark x 1heyrick]

official music video: https://youtu.be/_9n5A6eBnc0

if u bring the camera, make my life a movie
i could b the actress if u wanna shoot me
what i mean 2 ask is how u wanna do me?
im not trynna mask, yr not trynna b a groupie
now im on my last ditch efforts of the nite
i dont wanna not hold yr hands this tite
i dont wanna stop, when we dance feels nice
and im feeling like myself, hope yr seeing this rite
when im out up on display, hold my heart up 2 the light
and im screaming every choice i made 2 lead me 2 tonite
and theyre saying that im made of star stuff, gotta shine
ive been starkid since 2 0 1 9
push 2 start it, light it up and spark it
torch it if its getting in yr way, its a target
u would think im famous when im working at a target
u dont kno what fame is, never even seen guitar picks
never had the grip tape tearing up the carpet
pedal board skateboard, amp sounds garbage
iPod touch only tunes when i charge it
i done fell in luv w/ the music when it started

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

ALL PLATFORMS

starkid2019 (+ crybabycam) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

spent time away letting myself go
i was showing myself i could make a home
i could change you’re mood if you let me through
set in stone
time went still
i was trying to help
i always slipped through
it was not my intention, but my words came true
craning my neck, changing the hue
bloodshot eyes
mix out the blue
you live life blind, i can’t be you
surprise myself by trying something new 
take from me, and i’ll find you
sacred piece
might end you
i let go but then you came true
live my life but only for you
no enemies, i can’t lose
you hear me 
i see you


i just flipped another page
i still heed the words when i don’t know what they mean
deceived by your eyes this isn’t what it seems
they only create nightmares when they sell you dreams
all this hunger left me painless
at least nothing’s ever gainless
i’m taking pride in what you don’t have to say
hold me down and i’ll guide you through the rain

simple minded humans could step into your place
clamor for your god but i’ll still light up the stake
so naive to think that we’re built the same
you lost it all when you forgot it’s a game
you sold your soul for 15 minutes of fame
to end up all alone nothing but hunger and pain
you ain’t worth the blood inside your veins
to hold me down you’ll have to put me in chains

hunger

lyrics :D

Eyes red
Bloodshot
No I don’t know what fucking wrong with me
I can’t stop thinking how your lives the only thing I need

Eyes red blood shot
Hate it when we stop but I hate it when we start
All the problems and anxiety they’re tearing me a part
you ever feel so damn alone like your world is going dark
Eyes red blood shot
But now I met a girl she’s not playing with my heart
Every day is getting brighter no more living in the dark
Now, the only time I feel the pain is when we are apart

Picture perfect I think I could see this girl is flawless
Hit my phone you say my name and then I went and lost it
Back of the club we living our lives it’s OK
Praying to God that I can make it to Sunday
The boy fan know that boy a fake a toupee
I fell in love with money and drugs and gunplay
Back of the club I’m still pouring up like all day
Praying to God and thanking him that it’s Sunday
You still a fan and you still a fake go away
I fell in love with money and drugs and gunplay

Eyes red blood shot
Hate it when we stop but I hate it when we start
All the problems and anxiety they’re tearing me a part
you ever feel so damn alone like your world is going dark
Eyes red blood shot
But now I met a girl she’s not playing with my heart
Every day is getting brighter no more living in the dark
Now, the only time I feel the pain is when we are apart

bloodshot [johnnyfriend]

i found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
i can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
there's so many things that i wish i could say
i guess i only wonder if you're playing it safe
everything was meant only to be, just not as long as it seemed

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than us going steady

it's such a shame how the times have changed
i renounce it all and let the feeling remain
another day, dead and gone to waste

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song

all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
and i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy

show me mercy

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than

i spent my days trying to be multifaceted
in some years i'd try to tally up the damages
i can't hope you'd take me back, i guess i'm past it
and like the other song goes, "i like to do magic"

fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
i still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
our different phases of life, i'll never blame
i light the spliff and hope the emotions fade

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song
all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

how can ever keep myself from harm?
running away to scream inside my car

MERCY

camera action full of passion
this my therapy

Ill NyQuil - Your Eyes Light The Sky prod. cartoonbenn

:)

videoo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZ-vYeRh2Tg&feature=youtu.be

lyrics:

i feel lik im toxic 
everytime that i talk
but recently im thinkin
im probably not
u can find me bottom board
becuz im a bot
...i dont have a chours dont except one..
thers not....

i love feelin loved even tho im probably not
ur still in my head but i never give u a thought
i feel like im toxic everytime that i talk
i love feelin loved even tho im probably not

catch me up to speed 
i think that i am probably lost
u deny makin these calls
ur tongue is tied in knots

2am n ur knockin up on my door
i told u im fed up 
i cant take this anymore

everything is opening
but i still wont go out
plz still wear ur mask
im filled up with all of this doubt
u wont hit my phone no more
u think im goin south
i wont take dis shit no more
i think that im fine without

im way 2 fucked up bb
i woke up on da floor
i think that ive fallin in love
but i cant b 2 sure

i think id like love but 
i could b fine without
i dont have any stimulants 
i think that im out :(

i dont like adderall
i know i could benefit :(
i have no work ethic 
i think im jus really sick

i think i finally lost it..
i think that im obnoxious..
x2

Ill NyQuil - Your Eyes Light The Sky prod. cartoonbenn

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