(carlus)
(Chorus)
I can't believe I'm ever right
To see a never new light
You are the apple of my life
I'll stab my heart out with a knife

(home)
(Verse 1)
There's this one thing I'm always gonna hate about you
That I love you so much I hate the ground that decays around you
Sometimes I doubt you like me like that because you fight me right back
I'll stab your cold heart and you'll slice me right back
You hear I'm fucking on a bitch, so you suck another dick
You'll piss me off only so I can expose my love quick
Who chosen us, shit
You're the work I never end with
I'm a slave to you bitch, even though I never been whipped

(carlus)
(Chorus)
I can't believe I'm ever right
To see a never new light
You are the apple of my life
I'll stab my heart out with a knife 

(home)
(Verse 2)
You stupid slut, bitch, hoe, pussy beating, swallowing
Kidney fuck, pissy drunk, kid gargling
Whitney drug sniffing, hoe twitter following
a bunch of niggas just to have em all in ya garden and
Fuck your wet glands just to piss me off
Like I'm gonna take that
You think I'm soft 
You're such a bitch but it's neglect if I abandon you
I drop you off in a zoo but the keepers couldn't handle you
So we fuck like some animals
Stay in my arms and I'll strangle you
Just imagine what your dad will do if he saw how I dangled you
From the third floor but you love how I put my hand on you
Must have an evil deed because look at the seed I plant in you
Plus I granted you, You ain't leaving until you a grandma, fool

(carlus)
(Chorus)
I can't believe I'm ever right
To see a never new light
You are the apple of my life
I'll stab my heart out with a knife

carlus X home - relief

i'm falling apart knowing what i could have been.
i'm tearing in two knowing what i could lose.
i'm falling apart knowing my tears aren't safe.
i'm tearing in two knowing what i could have been. 

you know how we always told them
to see is to believe.

you don't say?

i uploaded this a couple months ago but i figured to record everything again from scratch because of my new microphone

there's one room
there's one light
there's one night
in the fire
in the pain
in the wire
this from me
this one lie
that seems right
time can't climb
it can't be
it can't see
i see to be right
i fall down tonight
i go to hell to be what i sell
falling again is such a welcome end
can the end of today be more than tonight
echoes of these far reaching sights
stuck with the pain of knowing you should have tried
give me your hands
and we'll never die
this love song
it sits wrong
it means jack
the time's right to be wrong
all night long
i feel good
i feel so far away
this is mine
it could be any day
i saw what i saw
i call up a man
distance is what gets me right in
i had a hand in everyone losing their place
never must stop
it's stealing my heart
a moment to squeeze begging on its knees
i know i'll never be right beyond tonight
give me your hands
and we'll never die

what i saw

i've got a million to choose from
a million ways things could be
in dull moments i feel like
there's a million options i see
the trouble is choosing one
the trouble is doing one
a slave in the fields one night
he's running along
gets far enough to be a free man
and he's feeling so strong
that's how actions should be
freeing
step after step is our only choice in a walk
when we run at the mouth we jump back and forth
there's only one place I'm going
there's only one destiny
and if my mind tells me otherwise
then it's a poor guide for me
all of the energy in life
is nothing more than a spark in a fire
the whole course of time is the blink of an eye
rain in the slums
ah yom
into the cards
ah yom
rain in the slums
ah yom
into another world
ah yom

ah yom

i got lost looking for you
around the sides of light where we're flying
and if you were to leave my side
i've never been painted ever so blind
by my light.
i'm feeling new again; the weight's gone.
the weight of guilt and sorrow
a child's game.
tell me if we were all around.
the weight of guilt and sorrow
a child's game.
we're lost.

i'm lost
another day without you baby. 
i'm lost
another day without you baby. 
now that the rain is gone I'm seeing 
another day without you
i'm free.
tell me if we were all around.
the weight of guilt and sorrow
a child's game.
we're lost.

lost

all instruments recorded by me.

lyrics:

i don't know the real from what i thought i saw
i can't remember where i went
where i was

i'm gonna move towards a point in time
where where you are is a state of mind
and anytime i can read your thoughts
some of them yours and some of them i thought up

there's no good reason for a heartbreak
nothing's repeating every monday
it's no good saying you'll always be mine
these jokes life's playing it makes me so tired, so tired

it's already too much to always see you
the sense that hours go back is enough 

i like to fade when i write this line
there's every reason to paint a decline
and every mile i walk is five 
i'll get where i'm going in the next life
and all the while there's a false face
this every killing is left untraced
this kind of falling saved my son
this constant longing for what's gone, what's gone

what's gone
what's gone

the real

all instruments recorded by me

i'm a lucky guy since i broke my mind, 
take a walk by the river, i'm a little retard oh oh oh
cow pat in my feet, when i go to meet you,
you feel happy to see me, but your daddy says no, oh oh oh
playing with the sand, making castles for you, 
an incredible tsunami, takes away all the funny, oh oh oh 
at last we got married, flying to xanadu, 
we have a preferent places, 
but the terror is too oh oh oh

i'm a little retarded

do you even see what you mean to me?
do you even hear what i have to say?

Do You?

there's somethings that i've kept to myself
hidden in a safe place where no one goes

there's a riddle now that i can't seem to solve
an equation where the math appears all wrong
if the boat i sail on sinks below the sea
would one not hold his dying breath?

everybody seems to float away
when nobody wants to speak their mind

one says yes when they don't know what "no" is
so i left the town on my two bare feet
when i found the key that opened the doors to my mind
i found the problem

i found the man that hid behind a shelf
no one but himself
up and over; the words that slipped my mind
now they're hard to find

beyond my eyes a person lies inside
a curse put on my soul
pain in my heart; i longed for me and you

i longed for me and you

beyond my eyes

I noticed myself, I was breathing
And then there was rain in my vision

If I picked my colors yesterday
Then why must I bear my blue today?
I knew that place before
I mean oh yes, of course
How could I ever understand it?
It rained all day...

I noticed myself, I was breathing
And then there was rain in my vision

Why am I the person that I am?
If I could I wouldn't know a thing
And all this time to spare
Is stripped down to the air
How could I ever understand it?
It rained all day...

I noticed myself, I was breathing
And then there was rain in my vision

When will I change for the better?

and then there was rain

this is a soundcloud exclusive song (for now) that I wrote in self-isolation.


If you think that I’m not enough
You could try to tell me
If my heart isn’t warm enough
You could try to tell me

It’s time to face the truth
About who we were in the past
Cause I can’t stop watching
I can’t stop playing those nights back
It’s killing me

All my life I searched for you
and I thought I had it good
But I can’t stop thinking 
I can’t stop blaming myself babe
It’s killing me

If you think that I’m not enough
You could try to tell me
If my heart isn’t warm enough
You could try to tell me

If I can’t believe in you
Who could I possibly turn to?
Still, I can’t stop thinking
I can’t stop blaming myself babe
It’s killing me

If you think that I’m not enough
You could try to tell me
If my heart isn’t warm enough
You could try to tell me

try to tell me

Rose Isabella
Beautiful girl
You know I love you in so many ways
God sent an angel 
Made by the stars
You are the cause of my happiness

Just reach out and call my name
and I'll be there, just call my name

You are my sunshine
and you are my moon
You are my everything and more, Rose.
So that's why I wrote this song just for you
Just so you see how much I love you

So just reach out and call my name
and I'll be there, just call my name
So just reach out and call my name
and I'll be there, just call my name

There's so much stuff in life that you will go through
And if anybody knows it would be me
and it's lonely if you don't have somebody
to love and care for you

Just know that I am here for you Rose.
I'll be the shoulder you need to lean on
Life's just a game we all need to play
So if you need, then I'll show you the way

So just reach out and call my name
and I'll be there, just call my name
So just reach out and call my name
and I'll be there, just call my name

There's so much stuff in life that you will go through
And if anybody knows it would be me
and it's lonely if you don't have somebody
to love and care for you

I'll take care of you.

Rose

Thought Loops

What About Me?

Dreaming

Experience

the heart's an ocean
where we dip our toes to test it
but in the water
there's a vine your foot gets caught in
and it wraps around you
as you try to loosen its grip
so it pulls you further
till your breath fades into water

the heart is an ocean

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