*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
Please like or repost if you also feel people would come to like you If they only gave you a chance.

[Verse 1]
I'm seeing things which aren't there
I'm doing things I didn't dare
I wouldn't know what's right or wrong
But I wonder if you care

[verse 2]
And I wonder what you feel
Or how to break this wall of steel
Do you feel for me or not
Is it fake or is it real?

[verse 3]
This distance that you keep
Let me know I'm losing sleep
If there's one thing that I know
this love for you is deep

[verse 4]
I am careful and alert
I feel a fool I act absurd
But the real me stays inside
If you treat me like a flirt

[verse 5]
Oh girl can't you see
You haven't seen the best of me
My outside hides it well
Let me show what I can be

[Bridge]
But now you have to let me know if you
See a future for us
Cause if not
I'll be out of your sight forever
And I'll do it on my own

[Chorus]
That wouldn't even be a big step from
Where we are now
But if you give me half a chance to show who I am
I know I will touch your heart
I will touch your heart
Touch your heart
Touch your heart
I will touch your heart
Touch your heart
Touch your heart
Touch your heart
I will touch your heart

[Verse 6]
Still seeing things which aren't there
Still doing things I didn't dare
Still wouldn't know what's right or wrong
But I know that you don't care

Touch your heart

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
Please like or repost if you are also shy and sometimes just don't have the nerves to say what you feel.

[Verse 1]
We met a while ago
I liked you from the start
You didn't seem to notice it, but 
You caught my heart

[Verse 2]
I like your look on life
The way you say my name
I like the way you move your head
I'll never be the same

[Chorus]
I should reveal my feelings
But when I try to tell
Words remain within my heart
The shadows hide them well

[instrumental]

[Verse 3]
Your voice it locks inside my head
But you still don't know
I haven't got the guts to tell you that 
this longing hurts me so

[Verse 4]
Confession seems impossible
But I'd love you to be mine
I know there is a way out of this, 
I should [sigh]

[Chorus]
I should reveal my feelings
But when I try to tell
Words remain within my heart
The shadows hide them well

[instrumental]

So Shy

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
[Verse 1]
Please let me wake up and open my eyes
Please let me wake up and see all the lies
Please help me over this threshold of nerves
Please help me get the things I deserve

[Chorus]
I should have seen what was there
I should have taken it everywhere
So now I know
How I must change my life
I must change my life

[break]
Do you think my life would be better than before
Do you think my poor heart wouldn't be so sore
Do you really think
Do you really think

[Verse 2]
Please let me wake up and open my eyes
Please let me wake up and see all the lies
Please help me over this threshold of nerves
Please help me get the things I deserve

[Chorus]
I should have seen what was there
I should have taken it everywhere
So now I know
Now I must change my life
I must change my life

[break]
Do you think my life would be better than before
Do you think my heart wouldn't be so sore
Do you really think
Do you really think

Please help me wake up

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
You weren't there in the end...

[Verse 1]
Time just took another day
I only watched it slip away.
But it failed to tell me why
It is only passing by

[Chorus]
I think time used to be my friend
But then I didn't know what that meant

[Verse 2]
Now it only steals from me
There is nothing left for me to be
I see clouds in empty skies, 
I have trouble on my own advice

[Chorus]
My self I used to be my only friend
When I was lying face down in the sand

[instrumental]

[Verse 3]
Sometimes I lonely go insane
when my life just seems in vain 
Most days I want to get away
There is nothing left, for you I would stay

[Chorus]
You said that you would be my friend
But  you weren't there in the end

[instrumental]

In The End

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
I am left here with a scarred soul...
English Transaltion below.

[Verse 1]
Ik denk nog wel eens aan je
Als ik het  liedje zing
Dat ik voor je heb geschreven
Toen je terug naar hem ging

[verse 2]
Ik denk dan: is hij lief voor jou?
Houd hij je nachten warm?
Maakt hij je wel gelukkig nu
dat ik dat niet meer kan.

{Chorus]
Ik weet ze zeggen dat de tijd
Alle wonden heelt
Maar ik zit hier nog steeds
Met littekens en eelt op mijn ziel
(La da da da da da da da da da dum la da da da da da da dum la da da da dum)

[Verse 3]
Ik denk dan aan die dagen
dat ik je glimlach dragen mocht
Dat mijn hart in je armen lach
Misschien lijkt het vergezocht

[verse 4] Maar ik dacht toen echt 
dat jij degene was
die bij me blijven zou
Waar ik oud mee zou worden
en ik denk dat niet zo gauw

{Chorus]
Ik weet ze zeggen dat de tijd
Alle wonden heelt
Maar ik zit hier nog steeds
Met littekens en eelt op mijn ziel
(La da da da da da da da da da dum la da da da da da da dum la da da da dum)

English:
[Verse 1] 
I still think of you sometimes 
When I sing the song again 
That I wrote for you back then 
When you went back to him

[Verse 2] 
I wonder: is he sweet to you? 
Does he keep you warm at night? 
Does he make you happy now 
Since I have lost that right?

[Chorus] 
I know they say that time 
Will heal the wounds and make us whole 
But I sit here just the same 
With scars and calluses on my soul 
(La da da da da da da da da da dum la da da da da da da dum la da da da dum)

[Verse 3] 
I think back to those days 
When I could hold your smile 
My heart lay in your arms 
Though it seems a little wild

[Verse 4] 
But I really thought back then you were the one
Who would stay with me forever 
With whom I would grow old 
And that’s not a thought I easily hold

[Chorus] 
I know they say that time 
Will heal the wounds and make us whole 
But I sit here just the same 
With scars and calluses on my soul 
(La da da da da da da da da da dum la da da da da da da dum la da da da dum)

Mijn Ziel (My Scarred Soul)

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
Please like or repost if you also feel like you want to wake up from the life you lead.

[Verse 1]
Please let me wake up and open my eyes
Please let me wake up and see all the lies
Please help me over this threshold of nerves
Please help me get the things I deserve

[Chorus]
I should have seen what was there
I should have taken it everywhere
So now I know
How I must change my life
I must change my life

[break]
Do you think my life would be better than before
Do you think my poor heart wouldn't be so sore
Do you really think
Do you really think

[Verse 2]
Please let me wake up and open my eyes
Please let me wake up and see all the lies
Please help me over this threshold of nerves
Please help me get the things I deserve

[Chorus]
I should have seen what was there
I should have taken it everywhere
So now I know
Now I must change my life
I must change my life

[break]
Do you think my life would be better than before
Do you think my heart wouldn't be so sore
Do you really think
Do you really think

Please let me wake up (acoustic version)

Please like or repost if you also feel like you want to wake up from the life you lead.

[Verse 1]
Please let me wake up and open my eyes
Please let me wake up and see all the lies
Please help me over this threshold of nerves
Please help me get the things I deserve

[Chorus]
I should have seen what was there
I should have taken it everywhere
So now I know
How I must change my life
I must change my life

[break]
Do you think my life would be better than before
Do you think my poor heart wouldn't be so sore
Do you really think
Do you really think

[Verse 2]
Please let me wake up and open my eyes
Please let me wake up and see all the lies
Please help me over this threshold of nerves
Please help me get the things I deserve

[Chorus]
I should have seen what was there
I should have taken it everywhere
So now I know
Now I must change my life
I must change my life

[break]
Do you think my life would be better than before
Do you think my heart wouldn't be so sore
Do you really think
Do you really think

Please let me wake up (pop version)

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Gart
Powerfull piano ballad with orchestral support.
This is in honor of my friend, who wrote this song and who took his own life. Please like or repost.

[Instrumental part]
[Verse 1]
Stars in the night
Shine so bright
Shining all their light upon my lonely face
Brighten up the space, of this lonely time this  space
After having been so lost, so long without your warm embrace

[Verse 2]
Hand, hold my hand
Understand
Why my soul belongs inside your loving eyes
How my love defies nature laws and culture lies
Living peacefully, within the bound'ries of our last goodbyes

[Chorus]
And the truth will set me free
Free to be one among the millions who we came to be
Searching endlessly for the genuine you and me
Dreaming our illicit dreams, of dignity

[Verse 3]
Dreams, senseless dreams
How it seems that you live inside a land of make-believe
Trying to achieve the unachievable,
believe the unbelievable like children's expectations Christmas eve

[instrumental]

[Verse 4]
Time, endless time, so inclined
for the one who spend their time to find a friend
Finding in the end that there is no time to spend
Just a journey to be traveled with choices to defend.

[repeat chorus]
And the truth will set us free
Free to be one among the millions who we came to be
Searching endlessly for the genuine you and me
Dreaming our illicit dreams, of honesty

 [Verse 5]
Stars, in the night
Guiding light
To the lonely lovers lost along the way.
Waiting for the day that love will finally come to stay
Always hoping that this hope itself won't fade away.

One among the millions

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
Please like or repost if you also feel that sometimes the dream is better than the real thing.

[Verse 1]
How do I explain to you the things I want to say?
What do I have to do to make you look my way?
Should I go talk to you?
What do I have to do, my dear?

[Verse 2]
But do I really want to say anything to you?
Do I really want you to notice me too?
And spoil a perfect fantasy 'cause the real thing may not turn out to be so good

[Chorus]
But it doesn't matter 'cause the dream is always better
So whether you call me or not
I'll keep the fantasy 'cause true life really proved to me that all good things turn ugly in the end
It's only dreaming I make happy endings, happy endings, happy endings, happy endings

[Verse 3]
I really tried before to make all my dreams come true
But all that's left of that is a broken heart or two
It turned the perfect girl for me into someone that I don't like to be around

[verse 4]
So now I'm here alone and I'm staring at the wall
Dreaming of that perfect love and wait for her to call
But I hope she doesn't 'cause I know by now what would happen if she did

[chorus]
And it doesn't matter 'cause the dream is always better
So whether she'll call me or not
I'll stick with the fantasy 'cause true life really proved to me that all good things turn ugly in the end
It's only dreaming I make happy endings, happy endings, happy endings, happy endings

(The Dream is) Always Better

*Music, Melody & Lyrics by Astiaen
Please like or repost if you've felt insecure as well.

[verse 1]
To me you top everything that was, 
you are the best thing that happened so far.
Am I biased or are you really that perfect?

[verse 2]
Our roots don’t feed on the same soil, 
our pasts are strangely disconnected
And yours seems so rich, so wild, so colorful

[chorus]
Am I enough? 
Is my love good enough? 
Is my touch good enough? 
Is my body good enough?

Am I enough? 
Are my kisses good enough?
Is my mind bright enough? 
Do I make you laugh
Really often enough? 

Ooh Oooh ooh oh oh ooh

[Break]

[Verse 3]
I’m scared, to enter the space of your past,
 I leave the light off
Cause I don’t want to see what's in there.

[Verse 4]
It’s fate you know that brought us so close together, 
do I  know to much
And you, can you answer this question?

[chorus]
Am I enough? 
Is my love good enough? 
Is my touch good enough? 
Is my body good enough?

Am I enough? 
Are my kisses good enough?
Is my mind bright enough? 
Do I make you laugh
Really often enough? 

Ooh Oooh ooh oh oh ooh

Am I Enough?

Please like or repost if you know somebody so awesome that you want to be them.
Lyrics were written by my friend Gart, who unfortunately took his own life.
*Music & Melody by Astiaen, Lyrics By Gart.

[Instrumental]
[Verse 1]
There has to be a reason for the sunrise
There has to be a reason for each day
A reason for the mountain and a reason for the sea
For the rainbow in the fountain that the sunlight brings to me

[verse 2]
I'm looking for the reasons why I love you
But it's not as easy to explain
As the symphony of the seasons by the summer to the sky
Oh there has to be a reason why my love will never die

[Chorus]
Your ebony skin
Your ivory smile
Your naughtiest grin, your millionaire style
Your ebony skin
Your ivory smile
Your naughtiest grin, your millionaire style

[Verse 3]
Your heart is bigger than most people's egos
Those envious looks wherever that we go
The touch of your hand, the song in my heart
Oh I cannot understand why we are so far apart

Accustomed to your voice for many years
There have been many joys and many tears
And then when my life must come to an end
Oh I come to realize why I've been blessed with a friend

As gracious as you, as loyal and true
And beautiful too, I wanna be you

[Chorus]
Your ebony skin
Your ivory smile
Your naughtiest grin, your millionaire style
Your ebony skin
Your ivory smile
Your naughtiest grin, your millionaire style
[Instrumental]

To Be You

Waking up from a trip (Techno version)

Dutch ballad sleeping on an electronic bed.

Open Deur (Open that Door)

Like or repost if you ever feel like your life is slipping away from you...
Music, Melody & Lyrics By Astiaen.

[verse 1]
She thinks her life was just a waste
She didn't play it right
Life asks her for an answer now
She only feels the fright

[verse 2]
Standing on a crossroad
She doesn't know where to go
The clock it ticks, she's standing there
Her past it hurts her so

[Chorus]
Why, oh clock, did you take away her time?
She wants to start all over, she wants to give it
Another try
Why, oh clock, did you take away her time?
She wants to start all over, she wants to give it
Another try

[Verse 3]
Every day it tells her that time is passing by
Some days it's only crawling, on others it seems to fly
Search and find or just to wait, she wants to play it right
She's making her own answers now, holding on real tight

[Chorus]
Why, oh clock, did you take away her time?
She wants to start all over, she wants to give it
Another try
Why, oh clock, did you take away her time?
She wants to start  all over, she wants to give it
Another try

The Clock

I am a songwriter bringing my old demos to life. All lyrics, melodies, and chords are written by me (human); Because I don't have the means to use a band or expensive equipment, some songs are produced with the assistance of AI (Suno) to create the full band sound.

Astiaen

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