lyrics:
in you, I see a bleached feather falling
from a pale night sky
into a winter cityscape
grayed slushy snow piles on the streets

in looking up, I've caught a piece of you with my eye
I hold out my hand as if it were a cup
I wait patiently, gracefully 
I'll bring you home and you'll be mine

pale night sky
bleached feather falling
a pale night sky
gray slushy snow
hands like a cup
cityscape...

~for Emi ♡~

Demo

Indianapolis Winters

lyrics:
when Marnie was still there for me
there were still things to smile for
you were the blueprint
you became the cut up Pinnochio in me
I can still hear you whispering
"less heart and more teeth"

you stand over me while I stir in my sleep like you're a vampire
gripping a knife that was really always a rose
you take all of me, you take all of me

Less Heart, More Teeth

lyrics:
the scars in my skin spell out your name
and even though they ache, I'll make sure that they never fade
I promise I'll keep collecting sounds for you and making your knees blush
just please don't forget me someday

we can't (we can't) quite kiss yet, too much water in the way
so let's (so let's) play make pretend that our lips are touching

Permanent Winter Relapse

lyrics:
haptic feedbacking razors sew shut the skin
while blackened star viscera afterbirth splatters on the porcelain
someone is emetophilic and wet with blood...
you tell me my reaction to everything is bleeding internally
what is the anatomy of me?
and who do I make up?

credits:
Maisy - vocals, toy acoustic guitar, synths, lyrics, mixing & mastering, album art, logo

Everett

when Marnie was still there for me
there were still things to smile for
you were the blueprint
you became the cut up Pinnochio in me
I can still hear you whispering
"less heart and more teeth"

you stand over me while I stir in my sleep like a vampire
gripping a knife that was really always a rose
you take all of me, you take all of me

I am done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
make it all go away
I beg

make it all over now...
I'm done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
make it gone
erase me from my own life

I'm done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
make it all go away
but there is no end, there is no end in sight
there is no end, there is no end for me

I'm done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
done now, make it stop
terrible, terrible noises...

icherishmyamericangirl

Isaiah 40-6–8

I went away to see an old friend of mine
his sister came over she was out of her mind
she said Jesus had a twin who knew nothing about sin
she was laughing like crazy, at the trouble I'm in
her light eyes were dancing, she is insane
her brother says she's just a bitch, with a golden chain
she keeps coming closer saying "I can feel it in my bones
the schizophrenia is taking me home"

my future is static
it's already had it
I could tuck you in
and we can talk about it
I had a dream
and it split the scene
but I got a hunch
it's coming back to me

Schizophrenia (Sonic Youth cover)

Kittencore Is Dead

...And Then the Sound of Armor Falling From Your Body

Angel of Yours

can I freak out in the Honda?
(my heart! we were made for each other!)
one more time?
(I can't, I can't give you - give you my heart!)
can I freak out in the Honda?
(Honda! I break!)
one more fucking time?
well, I was born a no-good, cheatin' drunk's daughter...
(I was your daughter!)
can I freak out in the Honda?

My Lo-Fi Tennessee Heart

every day I come undone with dead pixels in my hair
I cough and she blinks
the smile you've inflicted in me, I'm eviscerated by
and it was the spoke that broke me
the edge of the mountain town where once or twice we'd meet
it's gone now

my math problems, my bad
...no I'm not!

(I'll ride with you tonight, I'll ride forever
there's no way to predict this kind of weather
ashes fall to Earth, words are severed
and feathers turn to weighted iron pillars

Midway Park, streetlights shine on a road that is dark
down on the grave where we'll lie, we'll lie, we'll lie)

Smile You've Inflicted

she gutted me like an angel fish with a cresent moon
this hole in my heart won't close up any time soon
and I was wanting you to be obsessed with my pillowcase
I'm feeling heartsick and getting stuck in the burgundy carpeting
I have another strawberry crush on a girl

I can never learn
the light in my soul cannot be stomped out
that is my curse, I guess
I guess it will always be all smiles for everyone else
just sore throats for me...

Gish

newskin grows back like moss on a slick rock
while the blood rusts my temple
while my salvaged body becomes an examined pawn

I sat on the lap of a man I never met while he mowed the front lawn shirtless in a John Deere baseball cap
I saw that much in an old photograph
my mom told me he called me Smiley because he hated my real name
I can't remember that
he left me a die-cast NASCAR car on his death bed
but I can't feel that

but I can bear my heart and soul over a million times and I'll still feel this shame
so completely unlovable, so completely through
the bruised purple and bloody Guatemalan hillbilly boy-angel library kid that can't seem to ever force out enough tears
cry, crywolf - cry, crywolf
the ribbon cables of blood and soul can't meet each other through the backwards, Southern fried internal walls of meat
I just cough and everyone around me always blinks
always blinks...

(bite your tongue and swallow, digest
sweet sweetgrass by the lake where we caught minnows
in the summer, by the flowers
I still miss you the way I will forever.)

Crywolf Always Blinks...

tell me why everything has to change
tell me why I have to change
tell me why, tell me why I have to move on
I'm not ready, I'm not ready yet, I loved you...
tell me why, tell me why, tell me why, tell me
right now

(dear black goodbye, dear black goodbye
don't forget to write your name inside)

Hester Prynne

...And a Third of the Night Did Not Shine (and Likewise the Night)

self-sufficient greed
ectoplasmic love rectangle
apparition that replaced me
full moon Monday

speak dolphin math tongue
awake in bed
where it's the 4th of July every day
I made sure of that a long time ago
yesterday, hours ago

eating wheat / cattails on the side of the road
baptized at church camp
when wishing I was drowning in the flood

The Choking Heat

I'm tired, so tired and I'm tired of taking turns. of taking turns holding your hand. but never being able to feel your skin against mine. against mine, in time I might, if I can stay here long enough. there'll be time. to stay. and you'll stare with your mouth wide open. and my mouth is used up and stupid. I'll stay away, I'll stare too. I'll cough and you'll blink. and you'll miss it, you'll miss it, you'll miss me when I'm gone. I loved everyone. but now I'm not there, now I'm an apparition, and I've replaced who I used to be.

In Memory of Keith Martin Orzech

terminal! on my deathbed
warmed up spoonfuls of hospice strings from needle felt silk worms
spewing ropes of rape around my heart-thing
as if to say I'd ever had such a thing

and to a girl who has blood so loud...
I imprint on the thin veil of skin on her pale neck
leaving a puncture wound
I tried so hard to stay with you

(so I guess, if you won't love me
I guess I'll have to love myself!!!
if you won't love me, and no one else will
I'll love myself)

went swimming in the bathtub the day after my birthday
watched the water turn black
vomit burned like hell inside of my nostril
as I failed to self-immolate with tap water

she likes to cut me with spades while I sleep...
so I'll never close my eyes anymore.

I promise myself, I'll make just a few cuts tonight
I promise myself, I'll bleed myself dry tomorrow
I promise myself, that this is worth it
I promise myself, that this is love
how could anybody do this to me and call it love?
how could anybody think that this love?
if you won't love me, I'll guess I'll have to love myself!

Terminal! on My Deathbed (ft. Zodiacs on the wing)

tinnitus and visual snow on the tip of my tongue
sentenced to a lifetime of swallowing the cirtus and rust of braille
I saw bludgeoned anteater corpses
they were torn apart by ponies
(you've destroyed my flower-like life, you destroyed me)

red rewired veins
hardware against the tightrope promises of salt
Calliope is calling in calico

Torn Apart by Ponies (ft. Flowers for the End)

as a child, I thought that I must be fatherless
now fully divorced from my body and pregnant with colored light
things must be different...
(kill Satan! kill Satan! kill Satan!)

I swear, I still feel your hand through the doorknob
there's pure gore in the backseat of my skull

I'll trust you, if it's the last thing I do
kill Satan, pure gore

Pure Gore (ft. Flowers for the End)

I left you for dead
back in that baseball field
they told me, they said
it was their first time seeing such a mutilated angel
I didn't expect to see you again
I don't think about anyone except myself...

I'll be the first to admit when I'm wrong
and I'm going to Hell
I'm coming home soon, I'm coming home
I'm going to Hell...

Mutilated Angel in the Baseball Field

A Love Letter in Cursive on My Skin

Emi, trust me
I know that lately you've been getting so sick in the snow angels
Emi, trust me to stick it out with you
I love you with my whole heart and being
how could I forget the glow of the monitor against your face?
against your skin while you smiled so brightly

I just like you
I just love you
that's all that I can do

I wanna see you heal
dual winged pelican piety was always about you
our hearts conjoined forever
someway, somehow

I love you Emi
so much, I can't explain or express
you're an angel

(Emi, trust me
I love you
you mean the world to me

Emi, just stay
Emi, please be safe
I love you
I can't take back that

Emi, I love you
Emi, please be okay
please, you're so special to me
Emi

I love you
I love you so much
Emi, I love you

Emi, you are my best friend
my best friend
Emi, always be safe
no more fear, I'll love you more)

Für Emi

traumatized n pissed off Appalachian outsider emo / heartcore to browse imageboards to.

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