letting go w/ flourysh

i wanna wake up at noon

i put myself on the edge for you and you pushed me off

to miss you more

2 years or so

for what it does matter

i made this song maybe 3 years ago, since then i've remastered and mixed it a bit different.

probably still one of my most compelling pieces i've ever written, thinking back to it. i didnt think how it would age, everything was just raw, unfiltered, expression of everything i didnt even know was in me. i dont create much nowadays, im tired most of my days, and i struggle to keep up with the world. despite everything in my mind telling me those horrid thoughts. i have to remind myself, i'm put on the earth for a reason and i think that reason - like everyone, is to just be me. 

thanks for sticking around for all the years, the changes and what not. i appreciate you more than you could ever know, take care <3

-alice

they remind me, i'm me

*~~“cynicism is obedience”~~*
*~~“cynicism is obedience”~~*
*~~“cynicism is obedience”~~*
*~~“cynicism is obedience”~~*
*~~“cynicism is obedience”~~*

forgot about this, 9 month old thing that got lost to an Abyss. welcome back the lfos

i cannot stop thinking about the flood

this was supposed to be an ep, two years ago
i got through 3-4 songs, got too intense to keep up w/

i was worried i wouldnt be able to keep up with how creative i wanted it to scope out, as
-concepts still around 
--maybe next time

---song on the 24th - bday song. 
more updates then 
xoxoxo

the art project

i dont remember recording this song, it was parsed through 4+ years ago. 
long story short: it's what happens when you take 20mg of ambien, and wake up w/ art you didn't know, was in you?
yeah,
oops


they'll be a story about it, 
https://yapperofwords.com
xoxo

'nighttimedemoofambien'

i'm really trying, over here

if there ever was a lapse in judgement, you can always make it up - along the way.
https://atimetowait.com

i don't think i'm winning this game

i tried for the longest to outrun a plague, majesties. all the same.

there's something special in classical arrangements like i've always said, it's the sound i believe in, without a doubt
xoxo

watch your step

i think of the darkest nights still fading, lovely kiss beside your throne
for if you were holy, maybe i would have found you by now

alas, there's still peace in a setting sun.
would you still want it then?

oh, what color have they painted you now

where ever you may be, from a creed. to religion, to dejecting it all. there is only one thing that can move forward - that in solidarity, that with empathy i pray - hope, know. that the days will get better. for there's no way but forward. and there's only your former selves there, thanking you for the work you have done to make, here. a better place for us all - i love you, i love the world. and there needs to be nothing more but - love.

be you.

episodics for the lovers

im not sure why i really made a 13 minute long track but i hope it makes you feel something like it did for me
i've been writing on https://atimetowait.com

cozy place for thoughts,
big love

in forms of reality

it feels like i've felt everything there is to feel sometimes
no idea here or there

you can just enjoy the moments anyways

don't let me sleep

2/2 i hope whoever finds this does so with their heart

Can You Take This Weight

lately, i've been losing words on what to say...to the matter of the world, to the senseless violence, crude wakenings. 

i feel somewhere between wanting to watch it burn but in that, you all eventually burn too. there's too much love to love, to succumb to a weight like that

for now i made something,

thanks
xx


bearer of weight, suspended in time

to learn to love again

for the love of god and everything holier than Him

keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going keep going 

there is something inside of you that is remarkable

piano improvisation v1.2503404595
https://atimetowait.com 

"i'll soak my pale skin in the sun"

sometimes i get scared of living forever

"i have a longing for life, and i go on living in spite of logic. though i may not believe in the order of the universe, yet i love the sticky little leaves as they open in spring. i love the blue sky, i love some people, whom one loves you know sometimes without knowing why. i love some great deeds done by men, though i've long ceased perhaps to have faith in them, yet from old habit one's heart prizes them."

from old habits one's heart prizes them

this isnt quite finished but i dont see myself being able to do vocals + add an outro for a lil bit so i'd figure it's best out in the world - off my hard drive and out of my circulating head for a bit. 

i hope it feels different but sounds similar to what i do with my productions, it's maybe been over a year since i've really been this excited on something so seriously - im proud of this one. 
and i hope you enjoy it

any suggestions for a name would be appreciated too
xoxoxo

soulbound with your nebula

sometimes i look and have trouble concentrating on a body that isn't mine, a world that doesn't work, a piece of paper that sometimes means a lot or a little - the letters i send mean more than the money. the ones i receive are more valuable than that of wine. i get tired very easily and i tend to gravitate towards the exhaustion more these days, it's subconscious. i only realize after the fact - like how it's been a year since i finished chemo & treatments.  i think finished is silly though, i may & lean towards having to start up again. autoimmunitory diseases don't go away, i feel like people don't understand that. that i have to be the one who appears and then dissipates the same. 

i am the water beneath the fault, the land at the crack of the sea, the pile of rust ungoing decay from the moisture of the fall. and i always have to wonder, if not me...who?

thanks,
-alice
https://atimetowait.com

spaced out lines in between

i made this song over 3 years ago, it's still a favorite - idk why i never post the favorites, if i read too far into it i'll go mad so for now. i like this one

atimetowait

i'll be the moon, you be the sun

update: i have a discord server! feel free to join and hang out with me
discord.gg/hVQZaVdHRv


working on much bigger things. this is just a small song for now. 

thank you for listening, for caring 

it's been rough but this keeps me going, 

music is always free. download if you wish x 


lyrics:
i hate myself 
every night
I’m drowning in apathy and ecstasy of all of these pills that i take every night
i can’t get up 
i can’t wake up 
i can’t be the man that you think i can 
be 
im a waste of space 
pathetic and weak   

what if i said 
this was my last day 
said fuck this life 
and cut my breath
maybe then i could live
maybe then i could be the person i thought i could be

i can't be anything

one day
when your eyes burn out, and all that’s left is your blood
i’ll climb inside, like salt on a wound 
burn all that’s inside
burn all that’s you
maybe then we can be 
together 
my dear, is it too soon to say i love you

you and your mind are both really beautiful

huge thanks to will for letting me contribute to this project,
another thanks to justin for the amazing song 
thank you for the memories this song holds with me 

hope you enjoy it

ghosts (prod. will goodwin) (crywolf cover)

65 down a 35 
hope i die in the firefight

firefight

you made my body fuse with yours till i no longer had myself to hold.

a walk, a stroll, whatever it is, it's short lived

i tried calling, you didnt pick up, i was worried that you'd get lost on the way home

and with that, you are everything in this world to me

spotify

halo w/ flourysh

i've uploaded a lot of music i like to keep as a time capsule here
circa. 2016
manic dev w/ a heart
a friend

- - - https://atimetowait.com
- atimetowait@gmail.com

keep it up
xoxo

freya langley

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