still

produced by elroy

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would you love me if i
smiled more and stood up straight
or got new clothes and lost some weight
or cut my hair and shaved my face
would you love me if i changed

cause i just wanna 
take your hand and spin you around
and change your plans and make you proud
cause i need your love and you want space
would you love me if i changed

i can’t sleep, i lay in bed just wondering
and idle hope inside my head comes rushing
i can’t sleep cause i’m convinced you’re the one for me
but you disagree

if/then

drop me off at her house like dead weight
been a minute since i felt my heart rate
feels sweet but it’s obvious it’s fake
my aspartame
“let’s think this through,” yeah i think a lot
but living complacent’s harder than i thought
idk when it’s time to stop
talking

and i think i wanna start over

count it up like 1 2
only do it cause i have to
if i only do what i want to
why am i sat here looking right past you?
i go hide in the bathroom
text a couple friends all ab you
if you didn’t know then you’re bout to
why i’m sat looking right pastttttt

drop me off at her house like dead weight
been a minute since you raised my heart rate
i act sweet but it’s obvious it’s fake
i’m aspartame
we’ll talk this through, watch me think too much
i’ll keep overthinking til it feels like love
and if it gets too loud and you’ve had enough
shut me up, shut me up

shut me up, shut me up
shut me up, shut me up

let’s pretend we don’t know how it really is
cause what it would change might be irrelevant 
you say you gave it up for a chance
but i know you better than that
(what kind of future doesn’t run from the past)
“we can run together” but that’s no way to live
you said you gotta take what you can get
but baby, i know you could get better

shut me up

blocked your calls for another day
cause i don't wanna talk to you anyway
don't bother me don't bother me
don't bother me don't bother me
can't you tell the way i keep you on DND
can't stand when your face lighting up my screen
don't bother me don't bother me
don't bother me don't bother me

...

checked you off my list yeah i did!!
and babe you said you never gave a shit
but now im gone you wanna pitch a fit?
baby quit switchinggg - tried to warn you
but you never listen so i got some distance
yeah i got some distance cause
i can't stand when you walk my way
but god i love the thought of you a couple hundred miles away

say i can call you later but i don’t need your permission
swear your girl won’t know
but i don’t wanna be the villain again
you’re wasting space in my head i’ll go ghost in the end
cause i don’t wanna fall in love and find out you were pretending
swear you never meant it
i’ll block you for another day to earn your attention
like i don’t have feelings at all and i just wanna call you
but i know you love when i leave

blocked your calls for another day
i don’t wanna talk to you anyway
don’t bother me, don’t bother me
don’t bother me, don’t bother me
can’t you tell the way i leave your messages on read
you’re just wasting space in my head
don’t bother me, don’t bother me
don’t bother me, don’t bother me

don't bother me!!! (w han.irl)

Lyrics:

Tears fall on the keys
A gentle melody
Unspoken words
This love is not meant to be
Heartaches and sighs
I'm drowning in the pain
Rejected love
My soul's caught in pouring rain

Soft notes collide
Echoes in the silent room
Lost in memories
A love story in gloom
Whispers of regret
Haunting every chord
Rejected love
My heart's been deeply floored

In the symphony of our shattered dreams
I play the keys
Notes filled with silent screams
Rejected love
It's a melody that won't fade
Forever haunting
The sorrow softly played

Unspoken Words

@brakence @50landing
_

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely
than be by myself
dont wanna go home
or put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help
from anyone else

and ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad
trust me im working on it

i thought i'd die young
likes didnt do shit
i know well being well known's useless
ill go to hell too eager to care
im on a screen island where no one stares

i wanna find whats inside me
feel every fiber
done sucking up cause
im no longer a liar
dont know how to be myself sometimes
but whenever i need your help
i always tell you now

i know now
it was all costumes, funny dances
to play my mind
now i need to believe it
and i wont hold onto something familiar
we were kept back from the people we really were
its a start
i just hope i agknowledge the gifts from the past
when we run out of time

i just wanna be known well
not well known
id rather be lonely than be alone
id rather sleep in a hotel
than sleep in my home
but ive been pulling my weight in my thoughts
no matter where i go

ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad

i got a star studded cast of friends
that never answer the phone
no matter when i call
gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard
otherwise ill have nobody at all

im still learning to be direct
cause for years ive been a mess
in '18 i changed address
not the right one but the best
cause my parents are my success
i still need to earn their respect

im just tryna figure it out

theres probably a lot
that i should've done differently
and i, oh i went to hear it out
but i was never listening
i knew that it's not alright
just trying to find the light
summon another spark
or maybe its gone and died
i try to stay out of sight
i gotta leave by the night
i cant seem to clear my mind

but i know now, that it was all
a bad dream, crash scene playing in my mind
and i shouldn't believe it, so i
cant hold onto something familiar
when ive lost sight of the people we really were at the start
and ive started to see it. cause

i dont wanna be well known
i dont wanna be well known

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely than be by myself
dont wanna go home or
put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help from anyone else
_

thank you to will and graham for the bgv in the second chorus
thank you to the boys, and bekah, and my parents for knowing me well

if/then

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