Washington State

The inevitability of death has been keeping me awake again

Don’t call in the doctor
I just want to talk to her
They’re telling me to grow up
When did things get so rough?

Is it out of my hands?
I don’t understand
What did they take from me?
I didn’t want you to leave

And you were my best friend
We were in it to the end
Where do we go now?
I can still feel you around

Now I look outside
At the birds and the sky
It doesn’t make any sense
Is this how it ends?

Shame is like a bad dream
I’m sweating through the sheets
Please make it go away
So I can stay awake

But it’s cold in my room
And it was cold when I left you
Come on back inside
I’ll leave on every light

I wish it was Summer


don't call in the doctor

You were talking about something
I wasn’t listening
I was thinking about the Summer
We’ve been missing
Never look back, that’s what I heard about it
Never mind that, memory keeps you living

Sadness, so sweet
You never seem to let me down

I’ll wait, by the grave
At the station for what I found

Somedays, so sad
I won’t ever let you down

I’ll wait, patient
Surround the state, will you hang around

Sadness, so sweet
How soon you come around

I’ll wait, awake
In the morning I’ll look up at the ground

Look Back

When I was a young man
I could’ve had the world
I opened every window
To see what’s out there

When I left my home
On a bright sunny day
I didn’t know
What I could be

Upward over the mountain
Or on the bottom of the sea
It doesn’t make a difference
Where I’ll be
Because I’m still alone at night
There’s something more I need
When I wake up I want to see
You waiting for me

When I close my eyes
It’s too hard to fall asleep
I want to go home
But home is what I need

Upward over the mountain
Or on the bottom of the sea
It doesn’t make a difference
Where I’ll be
Because you’ve gotta share your life
If you want to be happy
And when I’m with you my love
There’s nowhere I’d rather be

July 12, 2022



nowhere i'd rather be

Rough Jam- Wait A Minute

Rough Jam- Jam1

First song I ever recorded. Yes, it was in the bathroom. But don't worry, I washed my hands after I was done.

Matt Mordarski