3NIGHTS (feat. guardin) [Remix]

been sitting on this one for like two years now. i hope y'all enjoy it. thank you for all the love & support. i can't even begin to tell you how much i appreciate it. <3

lyrics
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i wish i had friends
i wish i had anyone to save me
but i ain’t like them
i’m just a nightmare in the making
i pray that this ends
that the baphomet will take me
away from loose ends
cause i’m not to be forsaken 
maybe it’s a part of me
the anxiety
but the funny thing
is it’s all i can see
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
yeah it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

i should dive in
swim to the surface when i’m stable
let’s skip the pretend
cause this life is not a fable
this story don’t end
till i’m hooked to all these cables
& start to see red
as they lie me on the table
maybe it’s the start of things
something i can’t see
it’s beyond a dream
an advisory
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

somebody wake me
cause life is a daydream
& i’m wasting time with you
so many faces
yeah i’m losing patience
& i’m stuck on loving you

feels like i’m on drugs (x4)

all i can see (prod. nick furlong x tony livadas)

PPL ALWAYS MAKE SHT FKN WORSE

PPL ALWAYS MAKE SHT FKN WORSE (feat. Days to Waste)

bite down on my neck

rehab (unfinished demo)

castle with the cobwebs

I work myself, EXAUSTED
not knowing what the cost is
I smoke until I'm breathless
I'm young, stupid and reckless
~
Growing pains!
I got growing pains
but these drugs up in my veins
make them fade away
so I roll another spliff to take the pain away
feeling tight in my chest
Still I fight never rest til i'm gone
~
I'm fiending to get in the spotlight
But I'm not ready; keep my aim steady
These people they giving me frostbite
I cope all alone under starlight
~
I've been trying to be
to be free
I've been trying to be
to be me
~
But I want so much more
Sad that can't be the case
All these memories I hold
mold my empty face
Who I am
Maybe god had left me out the plans
Who am I besides thoughts and actions in a dance
~
So much beauty intertwined
good and evil in my mind
Nothing but a ball of pure potential I must find
gotta walk beyond the pines
Carve a path to my design
Every action taken is a step in a direction
Hope I make the right choices but you never can tell
waking up in hell kicking screaming oh well
I've been taking these desisions
hoping one day I'll be grinning
I just wanna live a life that matches with what I invision
oh lord knows that I've been sinning
I've been blurring out my vision
burning all the weed I have to make me feel alright
All these songs I'm singing help me sleep right thru the night
I can't live without them, they have been my guiding light
Thru the darkness
Thru the harvest
we are stardust
we are comets

Growing Pains [prod. neverforever]

Track two from Make It Through Fall

Guitar Lyrics And Vocals: Lil Xtra
Additional production: Kado

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Lyrics: 
Yo I'm Doomed to a life of 7.25, 
No point living right won’t make it out alive 
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codine in my sprite 
Leaning on the hollows in his fucking four-five like,
Put it to my head and we’ll see if I can fly 
He don’t really care if I’m impaired just stares, says 
What the fuck is up, bruh you really want to die? 
Yeah, I been blessed with a death wish 
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig 
I’ve been too distressed to address this
But I know I can’t be the only one who feels helpless 
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so selfish
I’d change if I could, but I just can’t help it 
But I know who I am, no need to pretend 
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up, and let down again.

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can’t see the sky to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different....

Why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her step dad did 
I keep the secret so she can pretend 
That her innocence hasn’t been lost in a sense 
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit 
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness 
I just need a check and some ice I can flex 
A few more drugs to feel a little less 
A few more hits and a girl that’s obsessed 
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything’s okay 
But the world’s so black and I’m so grey 
I hope in the end one day I’ll say 
I see the same old world in a brand new way

Cause I’ve been feeling down can’t wait until it passes 
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress 
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can’t be perfect I know that something’s missing

Cause I’ve been feeling down, can’t wait until it passes 
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can’t see the sky, to find my own position 
I know it isn’t working, I know that something’s different

I hope I'm always different

I hope
I hope
I hope...
I hope I'm always different

Different

lyrics:

always melt when we're alone
you on the way over
let's get it over with
i'll make time if you make time
we'll never run out of it

(ignorance is bliss, ignorance is bliss)

I do this to myself all the time
tell myself that i'm fine 
but I know inside i'm on fire
feel this hole in my heart
wish you were in my arms
but it never seems to work out right
it never seems to work out
wish that we could figure it out

I do this to myself all the time
tell myself that i'm fine 
but I know inside i'm on fire
feel this hole in my heart
wish you were in my arms
but it never seems to work out right
x2

Always melt when we're alone
You on the way over,
let's get it over with
get it over with

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Hole In My Heart

(prod. shattered, bangss & ryan medina) 

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

hope i die slow
in a car crash far from home
you can't stop what you've created
i am everything you hated
i know i'm not the best at everything
i'm trying really hard just to get you to finally see
you're pulling on my lungs and you're making it hard to breath
i'm going over 90 right into this fucking tree

everything stops when you say that it's over
i never wanted this
i just wanted some closure
you just wanted my clothes off
i just wanted your heart, 
but i fell too deep and now you want us apart

falling down on my bedroom floor
i dream of days where i don't have to feel anymore
im overwhelmed with emotions that i can't explain
i think im dying slowly every day i mask my pain

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

you can take the wheel i got my eyes closed
wonder what the fuck goes on when my eyes close
night-time see you when the blinds close
every other days like the same it doesnt change

fall out
fall out i can hear you call out
from a far like a fallen star
gone so far
off of it
so im stuntin hard
and you get lost in it

caution to the wind
and often i find
that all my friends are coffins
gone and lost again so toss it
all your effort is forgotten

i think it's time to let go
drive with my eyes closed
baby i don't wanna die
tell me imma be all right
cocaine nose
driving real slow
i don't give a fuck if you cry tonight

driving with my eyes closed (ft. dylon bangss)

Gone by Lil Yung Pharaoh
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lyrics:
Yeah, yeah
We doin' drugs in the party
Shit, somebody come stop me
I might OD on coca
I can smell the aroma
We got that snow, Nova Scotia
I sip until I'm slumped over
Shit, we off Percocet pills
My bro just touched me on shoulder
He said he wish life was over
Then I said, "Bro, why you trippin'?"
I wish I said something different
'Cause if I said something different
Then maybe he'd still be livin'
I swear sometimes when I'm drivin'
I wanna fucking crash the whip
I don't like being in public
So I just do the dash and dip
I always wish I told him this
Instead of, "Homie, pass the spliff"

Don't commit no suicide
Right now, it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I
Don't commit no suicide
Right now it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I 
Buss down on the Cartier
Sad songs my guitar, ay, yeah
Do drugs in the party, yeah
Buss down, buss down, Cartier
Do drugs, do drugs, Cartier
Do drugs in the party, yeah
Yeah, yeah

I was gone off some molly
If I OD it's on purpose
I'm just tryna stop the hurting
But shit man these drugs ain't working
I just touched bro on shoulder
Told him I wish life was over
Same bro that I grew up with
Them birthday parties, sleepovers
He just brushed me, said I'm trippin'
I don't think he was sober
He must have thought that I was joking
He was gone off the coca
I'm so gone off the molly
Tell my family, "I'm sorry"
I tried to reach out they brushed me
Now this blade finna cut me
20 years up on this earth, then I just turn into a ghost
They said I could have been so much
But that's how the story goes
(So I just do the dash and dip)
I always wish he told me this
Instead of, "Homie, pass the spliff"

Don't commit no suicide
Right now, it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I
Don't commit no suicide
Right now it's a do or die
Wish it was just you and I (Dee B got that heat)
Buss down on the Cartier
Sad songs my guitar, ay, yeah
Do drugs in the party, yeah
Buss down, buss down, Cartier
Do drugs, do drugs, Cartier
Do drugs in the party, yeah

rehab (unfinished demo)

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