Sometimes in the dark of night
Or even in broad daylight
My darker angels take flight
Fueling anger
Feeding despair

Even when I’m feeling good
I don’t do things I know I should
It’s all still there under the hood
All my anger
It isn’t fair

They’re always around
They keep dragging me down
These angels of mine
With their wings and their teeth
Always reminding me
Love’s never finding me
I wish they would leave me
And let me find peace

Never in the dark of night
Do they let me feel alright
So viciously do they bite
Fueling anger
Feeding despair

Even when I’m at my best
I feel them beating in my chest
It’s where they have made their nest
In my anger
It isn't fair

They’re always around
They keep dragging me down
These angels of mine
With their wings and their teeth
Always reminding me
Love’s never finding me
I wish they would leave me
And let me find peace

Anger

This is a remaster of a song from an album I wrote in 2012. I've always liked this song, and so I gave it a better mix. 

This dead state
In which I find myself
Without love or hate
How to define myself
Without a clean slate
In this mortal concession
Is there a lesson
That I need to learn

This dreariness
That envelopes me
In its hollow breath
And suffocates me
Like a living death
Like a love with no name
If love is a flame
Then I will burn

The emptiness you feel inside
Isn't yours alone to claim
I also know its name
The tide will always ebb and flow
But I think you'll be glad to know
That somewhere love lives on

This futile game
Turgid with irony
Leaves us just the same
And not so nicely
Does it point the blame
And love is felt
Like an aching welt
That burns in your mind

The emptiness you feel inside
Isn't yours alone to claim
I also know its name
The tide will always ebb and flow
But I think you'll be glad to know
That somewhere love lives on

The Dead State

Nihilistic obsession
Overrated dreams
Belated realization
Oscillates with fear

Dreaded confrontation
Yelling, shouting, screams
Confiscated creations
Assigned to disappear

Ready to just give up
Sinking to the floor
It's all so overwhelming
Anger’s out the door
Out the door
Out the door

Nihilistic obsession
You embrace me well
Maybe we will meet again
Over a wishing well

Ready to just give up
Sinking to the floor
It's all so overwhelming
Anger’s out the door
Out the door
Out the door

Realization notwithstanding
Erase all previous lines
Erase all previous lines
Erase all previous lines
Erase


Eraser

Ruined fields of memories
What once was is no more
Crumbling arches rusty hinges
Broken glass on the floor

Broken dreams under my feet
It's enough to make you cry
Watching children in the street
Waiting for the world to die

Waiting for the world to die
Waiting for the world to die

Graveyards filled with sour hopes
Once upon a time they lived
Now they've reached the end of their ropes
And they've nothing left to give

Here I wander down this road
Feeling like I need to cry
Watching children become old
Waiting for the world to die

Waiting for the world to die
Waiting for the world to die
Waiting for the world to
Waiting for the world to
Waiting for the world to die

Here I stand so helplessly
Watching as the walls come down
Hold my hand can't you see
Nothing left but salted ground

Should've acted while we had the chance
It's enough to make you cry
Watching children run and dance
Waiting for the world to die

Waiting for the world to die
Waiting for the world to die
Waiting for the world to
Waiting for the world to
Waiting for the world to die


Waiting for the World to Die

Like the body learns
Just what burns
The mind denies
When the spirit cries

Like the body learns
When it twists and turns
The soul believes
What the sense perceive

But it's more than what you hear
It's more than what you see
It's more than I can bear
This eternal gulf
Between you and me

Like the body learns
When your stomach churns
The spirit cries
For what the mind denies

Like the body learns
When the universe turns
And you're not aligned
With the grand design

It's more than what you hear
It's more than what you see
It's more than I can bear
This eternal gulf
Between you and me

Like the body learns
Just what burns
Like the body learns
When the universe turns

Like The Body Learns

Death comes
We lose things
We grow old and frail
Lingering memories
Bring us pain
But it’s okay to fail
Chances are
We are all the same

Silence holds us
Not so gently
We can’t bear to lose
Wisdom can’t console
Desire to be whole
We can’t always choose
Open your arms
We are all the same

Silence takes us
To lonely islands
Where thunder amplifies
Oceans separate us
Inner demons berate us
Fill our heads with lies
But you should know
We are all the same

Death comes
We lose things
Every now and then
Ancient memories
Linger on
Dragging us down again
But it’s okay
Because we are all the same

Death comes
We lose things
Chances are
We are all the same
Chances are
We are all the same
Chances are
We are all the same

We Are All the Same

Soul biter
Hate igniter 
Comes at inconvenient times
Kindness killer 
Pain instiller
Openly commits his crimes

Soul biter
Gaslighter 
Would have you believe that right is wrong
Fate twister
Devious mister
Lives in your head for the price of a song

Everything under the stars
Is his personal playground 
Everything under the stars
Everything in this town

Soul biter 
Violence igniter 
Leads us to a world of pain
Compassion hater
Makes suffering greater
Wherever there's love he comes with pain

Everything under the stars
Is his personal playground 
Everything under the stars
Everything in this town

Soul biter
Kindness slighter 
Soul biter
Pain arbiter 
Soul biter
Hate igniter
Soul biter

Everything under the stars
Is his personal playground 
Everything under the stars
Everything in this town

Everything under the stars 
Everything under the stars
Everything under the stars 
Everything under the stars

Soul Biter

Put a bullet in my brain
To take away the pain
Of all the hurt I've known
To be erased
What more can man take
While drowning in the wake
Of all the dirt he's owned
Like a sour aftertaste

Waking up sane
Gets harder every day
How I manage I don't know
But I'm sure the pain
Isn't going away
Just on my say-so

So put a bullet in my brain
A bullet in my brain
Put a bullet in my brain
A bullet in my brain

More than half the time
I need morphine for my mind
A mental sedative
When the violence gets repetitive
For some it gets old
Grown callous and cold
All in good fun
While the damage is done

Just put a bullet in my brain
A bullet in my brain
Put a bullet in my brain
A bullet in my brain

This passage of time
Is too much to bear
When all I can hope for
Is yet more despair

Waking up sane
Gets harder every day
How I manage I don't know
But I'm sure the pain
Isn't going away
Just on my say-so

So put a bullet in my brain
A bullet in my brain
Put a bullet in my brain
A bullet in my brain

Bullet In My Brain

You've gone so much farther than most
Walked far beyond the farthest post
Still you can't outrun your ghosts

I wish I could understand
Where things got so out of hand
Memories like firebrands

I used to want you dead and gone
(Gone, gone, gone)
Now I only want to move on
(To move on)
Yet your spirit lingers on
(And on and on)
Like a fragile, (fragile) hungry ghost

Silver tongues could not boast
The silence your doors claim to host
Whispers blame forgotten ghosts

Every time you open your eyes
You act like you're so surprised 
This was where love met demise

I used to want you dead and gone
(Gone, gone, gone)
Now I only want to move on
(To move on)
Yet your spirit lingers on
(And on and on)
Like a fragile, (fragile) hungry ghost

In the silence, doors do not open
Time is frozen
It all slips away
Until nothing remains

I used to want you dead and gone
(Gone, gone, gone)
Now I only want to move on
(To move on)
Yet your spirit lingers on
(And on and on)
Like a fragile, (fragile) hungry ghost

You still can't outrun your ghosts 
(I still can't outrun my ghosts)

Ghosts

Everything's alive
I can feel it in the stars
I can see it in your eyes
I can sense it near and far

Everything's alive
Like a river wide and deep
And I gaze into its depths
Praying this will keep

I may not know
Where this river flows
I only know
I go where it goes

The universe dances
Take more chances
Everything's alive
Everything's free

Everything's here
Within your grasp
All you have to do
Is embrace it in your clasp

Everything's here
It's not unattainable
If only you believed
Prayed at your mind's temple

I may not care
Where my body goes
I only know
That the river flows

The universe dances
Take more chances
Everything's alive
Everything's free

And it's time you realize
There is no compromise
The universe is ours
The universe is free

The universe is ours
The universe is free
Everything's alive
Everything's free 

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