produzido por mim
ft. @roddiexo

letra:

eu to doente mas fodase, eu to com um album pra gravar ne

e eu ja guardei minhas coisas na minha mala pra sair daqui
perdeu sua semana vendo jeitos pra me destruir
e isso se ce conseguir, nunca mais eu vou te ouvir
outro desprazer na minha vida que eu conheci

mas agora mano eu sou o papo
a discussão sempre ta caindo no meu lado
querem copiar o que eu fiz ano retrasado
e eu to ligado, se eu me importasse ia ser meu fim

só vem pro show, ja que o preço abaixou
seu ex foi embora por que ele acordou
e olha pra essa grana que junto a gente gastou
o que eu achei me ajudava atrapalhou

(eu nunca tentei fazer pop ne entao)

e eu ja guardei minhas coisas na minha mala pra sair daqui
perdeu sua semana vendo jeitos pra me destruir
e isso se ce conseguir, nunca mais eu vou te ouvir
outro desprazer na minha vida que eu conheci

eu ainda te amo após tudo acontecer
quando fica tarde eu não posso mais correr
o que ce plantou o karma faz vc colher
que se foda a ana (maria braga) (referencia 2nite) eu sou muito mais voce

roddie:
se eu virar as costas eu não volto mais
se perguntar pela cidade ninguém nunca mais me viu
ate troquei de telefone não adianta ligar
sumi do mapa, por ai nos quatro cantos do brasil

sei que toda a vez que a gente briga n e legal
sempre a dona da razão acha que o mundo eh seu quintal
e se voce quiser um amor pode ligar não leva a mal
mas se ce não quiser ligar a sua amiga ja me deu mor- (roddie)

eu:
outro desprazer na minha vida que eu conheci (x4)

desprazer w/ roddie

Song in the album "for the rest of your life" by artist "twikipedia".

Lyrics:
onde voce foi e passou
pra ter mudado tanto
que canto pra eu ir?
ainda fui correndo atrás
pra ver se era minha culpa
desculpa qualquer coisa

eu ainda quero te encontrar
os tapas e beijos não vão mudar
mudar
eu so queria ser o que eu..
ser o que voce quer impossível
minha mascara, tudo que eu ja vi
assim..
muito longe de um final feliz

(solozinho legal)
1234!

ainda sim, eu quero ser algum tipo de herói
so pra te socorrer
e que eu ainda to correndo atrás
eu temo o olofote
e mais forte do que eu

e se a mare subir, voce ja sabe
que eu vou estar aqui, no mesmo lugar
se o medo não sumir, ou algo o trocar
eu não vou lembrar, não quero lembrar

eu ainda quero te encontrar
os tapas e beijos não vão mudar
mudar
eu so queria ser o que eu..
ser o que voce quer impossível
minha mascara, tudo que eu ja vi
assim..
muito longe de um
muito longe de um (dois!)
muito longe de um final feliz!

a vida e tão lenta, e eu so acelero
tudo que eu queria e fazer algo dar certo
não quero ser sua, eu não quero nada..
aceno pra alguém pra me tirar dessa estr- VAI!

os tapas e beijos não são
o suficiente pro meu coração
e eu so te tratava assim
pra ver se voce aprendia uma lição

for the rest of your life

final feliz

Lyrics:
ah ah ah ah (x4)

maybe if changing was easy
like the videos that i saw on tv
I'd be aware of what i have to do
to look like someone, somebody who looks nothing like you

and when i look up at the mirror (and i know)
try to cleanse myself (that sometimes it come off as acting cold)
how does a face look so familiar ( i held your and hand and begged you not to go)
letters i spelt
so when you look into my eyes it's me
it's the only thing i get to be 
I've heard it all
and you can't tell me I'm wrong, I'm wrong
those were your eyes i was reading
my wardrobe looks like yours and you can't tell
you're gone

this time
i'm gonna get all my things and go
somewhere where i can be on my own
and as far always as i can get
i tried running from change
sitting rotting as the years go by
i look at it from the outside in
fucking up on yet another try

i know
there's no place quite like home
thick blood, stop calling my name
i'll do everything i can to make sure we're not the same
i'm not scared to say
i'm not scared to say i changed

ah ah ah ah (x4)

you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will
you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will (you're never gonna get it)
you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will
you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will

anyone but you

Lyrics:
(blxty: we need a picture on the phone... me: oh ok)

we should be statues on the ground
i watch as you act, martyred for a day
and i felt all of those years pass
no they didn't fly, but still i rot away
please give me my clothes back, i hate your house
and i can't drive back there, cause i know that i'll wanna stay
when i look at the camera i forget my own name
i begged you to change and stop playing games
it's to the point where.. i fell apart
i swore i'd never let you get me to go that far
you looked at me
and chasing you has been the happiest i've ever been
and chasing you has been the happiest i've ever been 

do you ever think about it?
about how it feel makes me feel?
here i thought we were obsessed with eachother
i can't deal with standing still
fast, like always, you're so quick to take my time
so quick to leave me stuck behind
i was walking at a lower pace
letting you get in the way
hoping that you notice it this time

and the paper plane was crumbled
dismantle everything that we once stood for
and i'd even walk in quicksand
if you dragged my hand, if you told me, if you told me to

if i'm your dog, please put me down
i don't wanna have to follow you around anymore
you're out of sight but still engrained on
i'm your stupid lab rat drinking whatever you pour
and in the end, i still thought i made it somewhat obvious enough
i never wanted to fuck you
i got so used to your couch and i just wanted to stay
oh you can't lie to me, why did you look at me that way?
the bus ride home's so dim, the buildings made me feel so small
i rode our paper plane until the moment it hit the ground
the ground

na naa naa naa naa naaa
oh wey wawa na na naaa

paper planes

Lyrics:

I see you get home drunk sometimes
I watched you fight and break a rib
You always yell when you're alone
I watched you lose all of your friends
You try to sit me and tell me what you do and don't regret
There's something you teach me every time
But something you never learn yourself
(I tried to be person, i tried to be somebody else)
(I put on a shirt that won't fit..)
And it hurts but it can't be figured out
(I'll try one more time)
(And leave knowing you'd die for me)
(He has some love) But when i fuck up he counts me out

I'm drawing out the plan
I'm gonna fix you with gasoline
I'm gonna burn what you really love

Open baskets
Fire on cans and dying maggots
I hear the fire crackle loudly
I burnt the house now I'm surrounded
If you're gonna kill me then do it loudly
I see myself in an open casket
I can't turn out like you wanted, sorry
A part of me wants to let you have it
I can't feel bad cause..

There's something you teach me every time
But something you never learn yourself
(I tried to be a person, i tried to be somebody else)
(I put on a shirt that won't fit..)
And it hurts but it can't be figured out
(I'll try one more time)
(And leave knowing you'd die for me)
(He has some love) But when i fuck up he counts me out

learn yourself

Lyrics:
don't ask me how i feel
you know that you're the only one (you're the only one.. aah)

and don't ask me how i feel
about your brand new boy
when you made me cry for mine

and you say i act like someone else
when you don't even know yourself
what, do you think that i'm like this on purpose?

fuck me over, say it's best for us
and take control when you're the only one

i tell you i wanna stay, cause it's what you wanna hear
so what i don't wanna change? what's wrong with staying the same?
you miss when i still ten, way too young to understand
i know you wish you could start over again
so paint the walls get your cardboard boxes
guess i'll just know every part of "someone's" house
door that won't budge ever again
just toss away all your dirty carpets
say i remind you of him another time
and then you won't move ever again

i move boxes around!
i cry in the bus drive!
i cover my face!

(epic synth)

so what i don't wanna change
i like the way that i am
i'll stitch myself a new face
and leave the old one for them
one day i'm gonna be gone
and i'm not saying a word
the cardboard box will be mine
i'm throwing out all those rugs

cardboard boxes

lyrics:

i’ve been so harsh these days
im chained to something that i had before

boy
im not taking a chance
cause i don’t wanna know
and just because i knew i had to take a choice
doesn’t mean that i can
you turned me into two
i can’t run back to you

i can’t flip the page i tried but it won’t budge
so stuck up about it i don’t think i’ll ever learn
i don’t wanna turn into what i hate the most
and im so sick of the change
we’ve been so harsh these days
and i can’t seem to tell you why 
i’ve been getting more distant
the paper yellows, time goes by
it makes me sick to think
you never even gave it thought
so tell me something that i know im not

boy
im not taking a chance
cause i don’t wanna know, know
and just because i had a choice
it doesn’t make it much more obvious
it’s not easy like you make it seem
not as simple as just you and me

why can’t you be my boy?
i did it all for you
and ive planned so many things
so much i meant to do
and i’ve been feeling so afraid
but you don’t even wanna know
boy you don’t even wanna know

if i ran back to your loaded gun
and i spent one day under your wing
doing whatever i wanna do
staying wherever i need to be

boy
throw away my one chance
i was looking at you
noise
i don’t even get words
you split me in two
it all went sideways
when i got everyone figured out
stepping all over us, in your garbage after throwing it out
it’s for the weak
so i guess that means you did it for me..?
so i guess that means you did it for me..?
so i guess that means you did it for her

;p

voce é so uma criança
por que insiste em tanta aprovação?
estamos a distancia
e voce quer o meu perdão?
(eu nao quero mais)

nao foi tanto assim em vão
(nao quero me importar se eu nao vou aprender)

por que voce entende o que eu falo quando sao escrituras?
a alma da gente ja se foi espalhada em colunas

nao foi tanto assim em vão

espalhadas em colunas

preciso de paz pra nao enlouquecer
voce quer sumir e eu quero te ver
aonde ce ta? eu queria te encontrar
mas nao vai da

se eu precisasse de tu faria ce perceber que eu te quero
eu nao te odeio mas tu nao gostava mesmo disso
percebi com o seu sumiço que ainda gosto

medo de te perder me assombra desde o inicio
desde o principio
nao faço as coisas valer porque eu sou inutil

se eu precisasse de tu faria ce perceber que eu te quero
eu nao te odeio mas tu nao gostava mesmo disso
percebi com o seu sumiço que ainda gosto
e se eu fosse a pessoa que te deixou?

eu não consegui fingir

how much little cats can fuck up your mind?
i'm living in a spiral
i dont see as if i am blind
no social media
i'm not wikipedia
just loneliness
i got so many roses
got so many problems

but i can't see anything on it
pretending im not running
you got all of this but its just disgusting

i'm not fighthing
getting crazy with all missguiding
looking at the sky
when will the night ends
you are so chill out i'll not recommend
you are my ex friend

i'm not fighthing
getting crazy with all missguiding
looking at the sky
when will the night ends
you are so chill out i'll not recommend
you be so mean

but i can't see anything on it
pretending im not running
you got all of this but its just disgusting

it's just disgusting

you will cry when you see me smoking in a portrait
and will laugh when you remember me talking shit and regret
fragile boy dont look at me
i know that are some things that you cant fucking see

january

like a fucking ugly boy
u cannot see but its on me
was it awful this time
me am i fine?
me and my five
me am i fine?

pretty fucking like

you wanna start but unfortunately i moved
you wish you were a star in this shit
i dont approve

huh

and you know i went back
forget the things i said
i'll see you real soon 
i fucking swear

you gave me one more month so can you wait?
switching all my sides is the only way
i'll give anything just for you to stay
what you want me do you were the one who forgot my bday
no thats no love
that is not true
put your brain on top
i'm sorry i dont like you

(shots fired)
i now it's sad enough
no hashtags no long
really bad in any kind of sport
but no more

please put your fingers in my mouth
your legs are broken i said aw 
you know i dont play by laws
you were so angry and now want to talk

lost everything
it wasnt me
it eats your brain and either me

please put your fingers in my mouth
your legs are broken i said aw 
you know i dont play by laws
you are so angry and i want to talk

you gave me one more month so can you wait?
switching all my sides is the only way
i'll give anything just for you to stay
what you want me do you were the one who forgot my bday
no thats no love
that is not true
put your brain on top
i'm sorry i dont like you
i dont like you
i dont like you

i dont like you

nos na mesma linha soa estranho pra mim
nao vou ensinar, pois ja estamos no fim
vai me apedrajar? vai acabar com a festa?
eu vou descobrir
olhe pela frestra diga o que vera
oleo no teu jardim

pasmem, se acabem
mensagens nao ardem
pro seu bem ja queimei
talvez, talvez

assumi o que eu senti
mas foi tão ruim
menti o que eu fiz
historias no meu jardim

se eu podesse acabar de vez eu jogaria uma bomba duas tres
uma duas tres
facil assim? to tentando sair do jardim
mas so arrumei cicatriz
cicatriz

nao morra agora, nao me deixa
mas vai embora
morra por mim mas nao me deixe sozinho 

não foi meu jardim

se eu podesse acabar de vez eu jogaria uma bomba duas tres
uma duas tres
facil assim? to tentando sair do jardim
mas so arrumei cicatriz
cicatriz

nao morra agora, nao me deixa
nao vai embora

jardim

twikipedia - tudo

não vale a pena

letra: 
sera que era
coincidência
e tudo era coisa da minha cabeça
saiba que ja quis ser alguém
que por voce faz de tudo
e que achava que você
iria me levar junto pra todo o lugar
mas fui perceber
que a lua não brilhava mais igual brilhava
e nenhum por do sol me impressionava
eu lembrava de tudo que eu ja fiz
pra tentar achar a coisa errada
quando eu cheguei no fundo do poço
olhei pra trás e não tinha escada
eu sei, mas so entre nos
eu não fui veloz o suficiente
pra te parar ou te alcançar
tente esquecer, mas o mundo o lembrará

nao va se segurar no corrimão
não tropece mais e tente sair daqui
a culpa vem a culpa volta mas não vou dividir
não tenta falar da sua historia eu não vou te ouvir

coincidência

Standard

i don't wanna fall back in love
i don't wanna be the one that you were thinking of
sometimes my arms weren't enough
and you might have a hard time reaching up above
time keeps passing so I'm counting on it to make me a little less sick
your opponent's always been somebody else you would've known
if you knew yourself

look how
look how you made me
and thank god for my new shriveled ways
I'm looking up from the bottom
somewhere under the bridge
i don't wanna be a martyr, i would rather be free

why don't you say what you want?
maybe you should go wherever you want for once
i can't pass my time

i gave staying an effort
somehow i still fell behind
and i don't want a cure, i just wanted to feel fine
and it seems like nothing's changing how i thought it would
i just wish that i had wanted something easier

easier, easier
life's all about getting what you want
why chase something that you will not be catching instead of giving up?
giving up?
give

in the midst of it all, i could see your face, i could try again
oh don't be so cold, you just wanna say i told you so
and watch as i fall flat
listen i just wanna change
and if it's really that simple why don't you come and fix my brain
who am i to judge if you're all alone?
and no one hangs your coat when you get back home
(no one hangs your coat)

medicine

Eb Standard

Even in fall
You'll live out your sunny days
So when you're all alone
I hope you can find the missing space

And even in a dream
Even in a dream you found the words

I write this knowing you won't see it
We're both missing puzzle pieces
And i can't really explain right now what it is I'm even grieving
And everything's been drastic
And I'm not used to the feeling
I'm used to nothing at all

There's no point in knowing what there is to know of, what they all talk of
If you lose while trying, weaponizing dying's easier for most
If i was a rifle maybe then you'd hide me underneath your bed
When they chop my head off for the sin of being, they'll come for you next, you dumb fuck

rifle

Eb Standard

se voce não me lembrar
vai ser melhor pra nós
o seu mundo vai rodar
ganhe o dia, ele sempre foi seu
se o retrato quebrar
jogue o fora
sem dó
os meus restos vão ficar
na sua vida depois

eu sei, voce não faria outra vez
mas falei, nos ainda queremos ser assim, quase alguém
sentados a espera de uma vez
eu fiquei

se meu mundo acabar eu não vou mais correr
minhas pernas vão secar
eu ja fiz meu dever
então voce vai ver

eu ando atrás de uma certeza, ela tem que ser perfeita
algo surreal, fora do normal
e eu nunca quis acreditar, em nenhuma profecia
é que gente como eu não tem por que sonhar

mundo

FACGCE

Lately i’ve been struggling 
Separating seriousness From light hearted comments 
They all blend inside my head 
If that weren’t me, i would laugh B
ut there’s no one else in frame 
I don’t see the joke 
The irony in dirty busses home 
In acting like no one would ever know 
I tried hard to to shut myself up until i couldn’t stop throwing up on the floor 
Trying to solve, oh some riddle that’s not there at all 
Am I heaven-sent if i keep this body 
Selfishly waiting and selfishly rotting 

There’s a merit to it all 
Place your money on yourself 
There’s no getting out of this one
No one coming for your help

;c

audrey