prod. aisen
初めてのやつだ
lyrics:
we get freaky in this bitch we get crazy in the club
when I pop another bottle you know what the fuck is up
we get freaky in this bitch we get crazy in the club
repping 世田谷区 till the 日本sun is up
fuck you and the way move
I wanna spread your legs to the beat of the groove yeah
Fuck you and the way move
I wanna spread-

受電の前てさー
君の彼氏はどっこだっけやん
just wanna another lover don’t want no aftermath 
just wanna another lover don’t want no aftermath

don’t touch me I don’t wanna go back 
don’t love me saying that you want that
don’t fuck me I won’t ever call back 
don’t trust me don’t trust me

we get freaky in this bitch we get crazy in the club
when I pop another bottle you know what the fuck is up
we get freaky in this bitch we get crazy in the club
repping 世田谷区 till the 日本sun is up
fuck you and the way move
I wanna spread your legs to the beat of the groove yeah
Fuck you and the way move
I wanna spread-

evolve

prod. me (aisen)

いがいと僕は最強
I’m a psycho
take my hand I’ll take your whole life hoe
Im a psycho
don’t you try tho
君と会った時さー
クソ人間のライブ見てやんー
本当にお前は大好きなー
クソが浮気しったんだ

クソが浮気しったんだ
浮気しったんだ

ああああああああああ

saikou

prod: me
pic: vicaxx___ss7

I think I'm going crazy
why don't you stop here baby?
I'm hating what you're saying so don't you dare keep waiting
tell me what you want I could do much better

maybe I'm conceited
or maybe you're just treating me that way
this shit just started last week
so why you got that look up on your face
I can't stand you baby fuck you and your attitude
you tell me that there's other dudes
well okay
okay

I think I'm going crazy
why don't you stop here baby
I'm hating what you're saying
so don't you dare keep waiting
tell me what you want æ- I could do much better
better better better
tell me what you want æ- I could do much better
better better better

maybe I'm conceited or maybe you're just treating me that way
this shit just started last week so why you got that look up on your face?

conceited

prod. me

I can feel it in my bones
knowing you I won't let go
telling stories of our old selfish ways
I can feel it in my bones
knowing you I won't let go
no fuck that I won't go
you know

I can feel it in my bones
knowing you I won't let go
telling stories of our old selfish ways
I can feel it in my bones
knowing you I won't let go
no fuck that I won't go
you know

I need you
I need you

(when) you said you'd take my pain away
did you mean it that way?
did you mean it that way?
when you said you'd make me feel again
did you mean it that way?
did you mean that you'd stay?

I can feel it in my bones
knowing you I won't let go
telling stories of our old selfish ways
I can feel it in my bones
knowing you I won't let go
no fuck that I won't go
you know

in my bones

I would have loved to work more on this song, but a large portion of my files have been corrupted including this song :0

I find myself panicking, hyperventilating, banging my fist against my desk, the wall, my chair, I'm so scared I'm so scared I'm so scared
I scream into the nothingness that is the forest I'm surrounded by
I scream until my throat is sore and I can't scream anymore
I burst into tears wondering why, why me?

pic: peep tv show
/

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい

don't tell me how you've been

are you the sun_

remake of lilbesh ramko's nichijou:loopmania, with my vocals at end
vocal : lilbesh ramko, aisen
@lilbeshramko
スタート！^_^
might release higher quality mix later, but just kinda wanted to release this

lilbesh ramko - nichijou:loopmania (aisen remake)

apr 2024
WANNA DIE 
WANNA TRY
WANNA GIVE YOU TO MY LIFE
TAKE THE SKY MAKE IT MINE
AND I THINK WE'LL BE ALRIGHT
JUMP UP HIGH
INTO THE ATMOSPHERE
SEE THE STARS
AND YOU KNOW WE'LL BE HERE

WANNA DIE 
WANNA TRY
WANNA GIVE YOU TO MY LIFE
TAKE THE SKY MAKE YOU MINE
AND I THINK WE'LL BE ALRIGHT
JUMP UP HIGH
INTO THE ATMOSPHERE
SEE THE STARS
AND YOU KNOW WE'LL BE HERE

tell me where to go tell me where to be
I just wanna see the world in your dimension
tell me where to go tell me where to be
I just wanna be the one that sticks and lingers
tell me where to go tell me where to be
I just wanna see the world in your dimension
tell me where to go tell me where to be I just wanna be the one that you remember

WANNA DIE
WANNA TRY
WANNA GIVE YOU TO MY LIFE
TAKE THE SKY MAKE IT MINE
AND I THINK WE'LL BE ALRIGHT
JUMP UP HIGH
INTO THE ATMOSPHERE
SEE THE STARS
AND YOU KNOW WE'LL BE HERE

WANNA DIE
WANNA TRY
WANNA GIVE YOU TO MY LIFE
TAKE THE SKY MAKE YOU MINE
AND I THINK WE'LL BE ALRIGHT
JUMP UP HIGH
INTO THE ATMOSPHERE
SEE THE STARS
AND YOU KNOW WE'LL BE HERE

atmosphere

wake me up before you go
drink my blood and stain your coat
just take my love and sate your throat
fuck me up and rip my clothes
chains on my neck got me twisted I feel sick now
you just love to kill but you never had a breakdown
how you think it feels when you think you could escape now
how you think it feels to be 15 with a stake

you love to win
but I know sin won’t break
you take me in
but I don’t feel anything

you love to win
but I know sin won’t break
you take me in
but I don’t feel anything

oh your presence feels sickening
just bask in your victory
oh I’m not here for too long
oh just take it once I’m gone

sate you

happy birthday

feel the space caving in
your esoteric self suppresses my will to live
this suffocating feeling won't subside it just drifts
you hold me back so steady like your gossamer gifts

I've been broken so many times
makes me think that you forget that I'm
still holding on to your love
I'm still holding on to your love
I'm still doing things that don't feel right
like hitting you up when you got that time
why don't you need me like I do?
indelible pictures of you

feel the space caving in
your esoteric self suppresses my will to live
this suffocating feeling won't subside it just drifts
you hold me back so steady like your gossamer gifts

agesen

half a cover of aldn's tellmewhatuwant https://on.soundcloud.com/hUfCGxJo5jjEVzce9
half my own stuff
listen to the end, the first part is just a 1:1 cover basically, the interesting stuff is at the end thank u

I can't read your lips
Tell me what you want (Tell me what you want)
Lean in for a kiss
Don't act so nonchalant (Act so nonchalant)
And I can't handle this wait for you to stop
I can't read your hips
Tell me what you want (Tell me what you want)
(Tell me, tell me, tell me)

You're giving mixed messages
I can't tell which side you're on
(I can't tell which side you're on)
I really doubt it's what I think it is
Why do I always come out wrong?
(Why do I always come out wrong?)

But I'd wait for you 'Cause I adore you
But I'd wait for you but I'd wait for-
But I'd wait for you 'Cause I'd wait for you
I'd wait for you


don't tell me what u want

tellmewhatuwant

inspired by @thatcherblackwood

prod. me ofc
you touch the glass, bleed
I can’t believe your revery
I feel so damn weak
you look so pleased to sever me 
you touch the glass, bleed
you burn the wound with your cigarette 
you lick my neck clean
you make me feel like a maniac

I wanna run away
none of you understand what I face
I wanna be your drapes
wanna see you like that face to face
I wanna be okay
all this blood surrounds me and my face
I wanna leave a trace
all these days repeat and feel the same

I wanna run away 
all the ropes and chains are hurting babe
I wanna be your drapes
wanna see you like that face to face
I wanna feel okay
like the time you said I would be safe
I wanna take your grace, but you took my faith
contort my face, ah

lick my neck
face 2 face

prisma

prod. me

it’s just you and I baby
glass it breaks the time phasing
catch me on my line saving
you up watching mine, crazy 
(uh) (uh) (uh) (uh)
inhale once I feel crazy
I don’t give a fuck save me (baby)
wake up do it again
繰り返すまだ日数えへん
幽霊は囁くで
僕に言うわれて「死ね」
(uh) (uh) (uh) (uh)
幽霊は囁くで
僕に言うわれて「死ね」

I just wanna die but maybe I could trust
someone who could cut me when I feel the lust
flashback 7 days I don't see a damn thing
I don't take percs but I still feel this damn pain
It's just you and I baby
consequences, no tracing
on the web on my bed
fuck it we get down phasing
it’s just you inside baby
I don’t care who lies face it
in your heart, in my soul
I want 2 get bound baby

it’s just you and I baby
glass it breaks the time phasing
catch me on my line saving
you up watching mine, crazy 
(uh) (uh) (uh) (uh)
inhale once I feel crazy
I don’t give a fuck save me (baby)
wake up do it again
繰り返すまだ日数えへん
幽霊は囁くで
僕に言うわれて「死ね」
(uh) (uh) (uh) (uh)
幽霊は囁くで
僕に言うわれて「死ね」

it's just you and I baby
glass it breaks the time phasing
catch me on my line saving
you up watching mine, crazy
(uh) (uh) (uh) (uh)
inhale once I feel crazy
I don't give a fuck save me (baby)
毎日引っきこもって
時間は長くに伸びる感じへ
(進む)
この未来はゴミぜ
だからお願いね死にさせて

thank you for the ambient sample ! @balynsus
prod. me
picture (of me) by: askns09 on instagram

over and over I wake up, same thing same place
will this ever change?
do I want this to change?
I do not know, but regardless I struggle to escape

cause I wake up
nothing left to do
I feel fake ugh
take a pill and drive my mood
to the drapes huh
feel like I could disappear 
any day now
I might break out 
Into tiny little pieces
of my state
I’ve been feeling such a burden in my brain now
I can scream all night and day but not escape

fake

there's poison inside me I just wanna get out
but I can't stop thinking bout what we had left now
you tear up my shirt and tell me I can't go out
u force me to watch this grotesque scene I can't get out

#dubstep

there's poison inside me I can't feel my lungs now
I'm driving a 40 like 100 over I can't drown
destruction feels sickening but I just don't wanna go to hell
don't wanna go down

poison

can you see me?
when I take off my clothes
Is there someone you know?
inside the one you chose?

can you see me?
when I take off my
can you see me?
when I take off my clo-

It's hard to look at myself
In the mirror, even if I'm trying to cry
It's hard to have a breakdown
without thinking am I really here, alive?
It's hard to look at myself
It's hard to have a breakdown
It's hard to look at myself
without thinking am I really here, alive?

can you see me?
when I take off my
can you see me?
when I take off my clo-

can you see me?
when I take off my clothes
there's such a gaping hole
inside my chest, I know
and when you touch my scars
you make me feel so far
could I be more than broken to you?

can you see me?

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
don't tell me how you've been
I couldn't give a shit

死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい死にたい
死にたい死にたい死にたい

don't tell me how you've been

protect me
just make me feel okay for the moment
just make me feel okay for today
not tomorrrow, it's over

it's okay to be okay
don't walk away
I'm waiting here
it'll be okay I swear
it'll be okay

It's okay to be okay
don't walk away
I'm waiting here
it'll be okay I swear
it'll be okay

I told my mom I'd kill myself
at six, I didn't know what I was in for
I feel the rain it starts to pour
next thing I'm smoking two packs on the floor

how did I get here?
how did I fall?
how did I make it out?
how did I crawl?

I just wanna meet you again



can you see me, jade dragon?

jade dragon

I'm sick of falling for your bluffs
I'm sick of calling you my love
I don't want you to be my sun
I just want you to be my crush
I'm tired of being what you want
I'm tired of fucking waking up
I'm locked inside of here
just let me out in fear

I'm fucking heliocentric
you got my heart in a mention oh
I think I'm falling in head first
I think I lost all of my worth
I'm fucking heliocentric
you got my heart in a mention
I'll give it up for you
cause you're my sun till the ending

you call me up at 5 am when you need to
talk about sum or do a little something more
I want you baby baby
I need you save me, save me
you make me crazy crazy
you make me you make me

I'm fucking heliocentric
you got my heart in a-
I'm fucking heliocentric
you got my heart in a mention
I'm fucking heliocentric

heliocentric

why won't you
whisper in my ear just tell me something beautiful
your eyes a pretty chandelier, I really wanna get to know
you up inside my bed so comfortable, I really wanna know
what is it like to be your boyfriend?

pull up non-stop, baby I just wanna feel the love
make it drop-top, I just wanna be the one you want
but maybe I'm wrong, maybe I just wanna be your love
but maybe I'm gone, maybe I'm devoted past the fun

let me get this straight
people always seem so fake in your reverie
tell me why you seem to hate
every word I say
why you make it seem so fake?
in your eyes of grace
tell me why I can't feel safe
everything you do feels fake
why won't you just give me space
why won't you stop touching me

eyes of grace

make them pop like a bubble
watch them panic as they freeze
make them drop like the rubble
watch them all crush me
only four more hours 'till I can't bleed
only four more cycles and I'll be free

(If the effects of a particular drug are so bad that they need to be made illegal)
(Then shouldn't the negative side effects be enough of a deterrent?)
(Enough of a punishment to anyone who uses them)
(That we don't also have to begin involving everyone else in the community?)
(Police, Politicians, Lawyers)
(To stop the use of this drug)
(Shouldn't the punishment it inflicts on the person who use it be enough?)
(Apparently not)

how long can I go on?
these angels waiting for me to move right on
how long will I be me?
stuck in this paradise where you cease to be
how long can I go on?
these paper-thin razor marks make me feel wrong
how long can I go on?
within this paradise dream fueled the mirage

panic freeze

taking time to myself make me feel like your enemy
watch me burn on the steps of your door make me want to leave
you got me stuck inside your ways, just let me out
you never take the blame, when will you grow out? (of here)
I wanna leave you and this whole town
I'm sick of all this fucking around
just wanna leave you and this whole town
so sick of so sick of so sick of
just get me out

what is this feeling
I feel inside?
you come out
in front of me
and tell me
"It's gonna be alright"

feel me inside of your skin
don't you see when we pa-

get me out of here
don't you feel it dear?
feel the way I feel
burning holes in fear
get me out of here
your body's like the poison I take
you torture me to get to my brain
you paint me like a fucking maniac
feel the way I feel
I can't see the wings around you
you seem just like the devil-
I just wanna get out of here

get me out of here

tell me when it feels right
baby, you're my 9 to 5
tell me when I do this right
you're the only one that I satisfy
I'm sick of waiting for you
your emotions get me stuck up on you
I'm sick of waiting for you
I just wanna get on a move on a move

feel so sticky get a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how you want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
feeling at the cusp of dying
but you pick me up make me fine
feeling like I need some time
but you angelic let's take five
feel so sticky take a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how u want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
bend it over treat you right
baby, I'm devoted fine
構わないこっち来い I just want you bad

I don't wanna break your trust
I don't wanna break apart this love
is it what you need?
am I really just a fantasy?
you took all my life
how could I enjoy in peace?

feel so sticky get a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how you want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
feeling at the cusp of dying
but you pick me up make me fine
feeling like I need some time
but you angelic let's take five
feel so sticky take a bite
I've been working 9 to 5
take it how u want and like
baby I'm all yours you're mine
bend it over treat you right
baby, I'm devoted fine
構わないこっち来い I just want you bad

9 to 5
bend it over treat you right
baby, I'm devoted fine
bend it over-
構わないこっち来い I just want you bad
come- come-
want you bad
come- come-
come- come-
come-
baby, you're my 9 to 5

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