I'm drowning 
Need to get away
Come to the rescue late
Guess I'll sink in a pool
Of fear and shame

But there's a silver lining
You might survive 
There's a silver lining
It saves me every time

My heart beats 
Strong and fast
So fast
But I'm not alive
It's not just any disease
It's mine

But there's a silver lining
You might survive 
There's a silver lining
It saves me every time

And I shake when I move
Around the lake
Consumed by fear and shame
And I shake when I walk
Into the world
Awash with pain
Consumed by hate
Consumed by hate

But there's a silver lining
You might survive 
To see it come crashing down
It warms this heart of mine
But there's a silver lining
You might survive 
To see us eat ourselves
It saves me every time

Everytime

We'll make it there
Out in the cold light
We'll crawl down the stairs
Yeah, it's a hard life
We'll lie and beg our way
We'll make it another day
Yeah, it's a hard life

There is no substance
Only green bile
We may as well
Stay for a while

And if you had your way
You'd take me down
Under the ground
Our belly's empty

There is no substance
Only green bile
We may as well
Stay for a while

Fell down
The dragon's well
Sinking in green bile
We may as well
Stay for a while

Dragon's Well

It was such a long way back
The story's warped and cracked
It's just a raided tomb
I feel sorry for you
Even if I hate myself
Can't take it back now
He said, 
"Don't you feel regret?"

I said,
"No
Not for you
Not for you"

And all the guilt in the world
Could not save you
As useless as a raided tomb
I said,
"Why don't I just kill myself?"
He said, 
"Would you?"

No
Not for you
Not for you

He said 
"I'm only here for me and mine"
He said
"I'm only here to fight"

He said 
He wants a better world
He wants a better world
Don't you?

This one's an empty urn
It's a raided tomb

Tomb

What's that emptiness?
It's the warmth you feel inside
What's that changing face?
Don't you recognize 
Your inner light?

The enemy of happiness
The agony that never ends
The agony of happiness
Never ends

Welcome the reign of night
The moon is out 
The stars shine bright
I only want to feel
The pain inside

The agony of happiness
The agony never ends
No never ends

Happiness

All the kind words
All the memories
I can't see the
Tears in your eyes

I can't feel you
This is nothing new
We're only here 
For a  short while

Under the stones
Walls of earth around me
In the dirt I lay

All the words
All the tears you shed
I can't hear them
I'm dead

We can sin
We can mourn
We can pray
There will be no more 
Days like today

Under the stones
Walls of earth around me
In the dirt I lay
The world goes on without me
Running straight 
Into its grave

So make the best of 
What time we have left
Come into the light
And seize the day
Never fear the grave

So make the best of 
What time we have left
There will be no more days like today
No more days like today

Under the stones
Walls of earth around me
In the dirt I lay

Straight into the grave

So make the best of 
What time we have left
There will be no more days like today
No more days like today
There will be no more days like today

Straight into the grave...

Into The Light

I felt so happy
I got lost in the life
I even let it take me
I never said goodbye

This is the last time
We never said goodbye

I just want to sink down
And close my eyes
When it gets cold at night
Press your hips to mine

I could stay with you
For the rest of my life
I'm out of my mind
I know I'm not mine

Where do you end?
Where do I begin?
This is the last time
I'll never love again

I felt so happy
I got lost in the lie
As far as I can see
I'm blinded by the light

When it gets cold at night
Press your lips to mine

I could stay 
For the rest of my life
But I gave you mine

Where do you end?
Where do I begin?
This is the last time
I'll never love again

This is the last dime 

We never said goodbye

Sixteen

Some will never leave
And it's alright
They've never seen the outside
Too afraid to go
It's all they've ever known
It's no place for you and I

I see a familiar face 
Everytime
I can't go outside
In the shadow of the mountain
They know me
But not by name
They keep you in your place
They laugh at your disgrace again
Again
Can't get out
Will it ever end?

Help 
Get me out
This town leaves a stain on you
Cuts you up 
Knocks you down
And has its way with you

It's had its way with you

The selfrighteous 
Set themselves alight
We''ll watch the whole city burn
tonight

It's a black hole
Here in the shadow of the mountain

In The Shadow Of The Mountain

We can always take it
If we want it
You know it's better off
In our hands
Throw it back in their faces
They won't even dare
You know they're all so crazy
No one would even care

They say it's all stolen
Either way it's mine
You can always fake it
And say it's a lie

We can always take it
If we want it
You know it's better off
In our hands
Throw it back in their faces
We did it better
You know they're all so filthy
It doesn't matter

You say it's all stolen
Either way it's mine
We can always take it
Again 
Any time

Ah, La Perfide Angleterre

I know we'll make it
I know our day will come 
Like birds we'll fly away
Staring straight into the sun

I know our day will come

We won't give up the fight
I know when darkness comes
I know we'll chase the light
And burn in the sun
 
Still we must go on
We will never stop
Whatever comes our way
We can never stop

Our hopes
Are blind
Efforts
Futile
Desperate
Futile

Striving to get ahead 
To be the master's new prized horse
Racing to a bitter end
We're skinned and hung up on the wall

Our lives
Fragile
Our hopes
Futile
Festering 
Futile

Our hopes
Are blind
Efforts
Futile
Desperate
Futile

Foxhunt

You leave my heart in chains
You know you do
You'll leave  my soul in flames
You know it's true

No hesitation
Doing the crime with you
It's a strange elation
Doing the time for you

You left my life in shambles
I envy you
You make it look so simple
So clean and new

No hesitation
Choosing sweet crimes with you
Spare no malefaction
Doing the time for you

Fat with all you've taken
You they'll never catch you
More speed and strangulation
They'll never see us coming 
Would you?

Chains

All roads lead to Rome
All roads loop back around
Stray from the path
You'll only hit the wall
In this melancholy town

Birds who try to take flight
Will only fall down
Melancholy town
The river's dried up
No one makes a sound
In this forgotten town

Once you feel it 
You cannot shake it
It wants you alone
Calling you home

You turned your back on us

Continuum

All the men pass you around
When you come back in town
For a pizzo
And a silver ring
yeah

You don't own anything
But a pizzo and a silver ring
Yeah

There is no night to calm the day
You can't take away
The way they threw us all away
Yeah

The filth you cannot wash away

There is no light to call the day

You don't owe anything
But a pizzo
And a silver ring

Broken Glass

Better catch up
Cause we won't stop
We are done now
Where will you go?

There is no one no
It's cold and empty
out there
yeah

Where will you go?
There are no second chances
no

A universal law
Mercy for the weak
Will get you caught up
There is no hell
Like one's own
Obsolescence

We are full up
Won't you just stop?
We have moved on
You'll never catch up

There is no one  
no
It's cold and empty
Out there
Yeah

There are no second chances

Where will you go?
There are no second chances
No

No one else
In this cruel, vain world
There is no hell 
Like yourself
yeah

Devastation (Feat. Sweet Melissa)

There's a storm outside
We can take you in
Just for the night
Let's get you out of the cold
Won't you come inside?

Inside
You're safe in our hands now

There's a blizzard out tonight
You'll be safe inside

Inside
We won't lock you inside
But who would want to leave?

You've got a belly full tonight
You've got the warmth of the fire
You've got the warmth of Jesus Christ
You wouldn't want to sleep outside...

You're safe in our hands now
You'll do exactly what we want now

The Shelter

Come to me
Come out and see the light
Come to me
Do not fear the blind
Come to me
Come out and see the light
Come to me
Do not fear the outside

The Outside

You are our favorite song
You are our only smile
The warm grin
That burnt our faces
We haven't seen you for a while

Come to me
Out into the light
Come to me
You've strayed too far inside

Come see our sharp grins
Come See our haunted smile
We're laughing all along
A stone's throw from where you cry

The Clown

she said she's been forsaken
laughing in the night

(indistinct)

Gaze into our vacant 
Hollow eyes
All is empty
The world is all desire

She said she's been forsaken
Laughing in the night
She said, 
"We're running to Paradise"

Follow the way
That's paved in gold
Down to where
The sinners go
We've known 
All our lives
And now 
It's time to go
Follow me down 
To Paradise

Gaze into our vacant 
Hollow eyes
All is empty
The world is our design

She said she's been forsaken
Laughing in the night
You know it's in the making
You know it's our demise

With all the vitriol
Of Meloni's smile
No shadows cast by 
Marble white
Fear their 
Naked hollow eyes

All along the way
It's paved in gold
Down to where
The sinners go
We've known 
All our lives
And now 
It's time to go
Follow me down to Paradise

Follow Me Down (Paradise)

Dissolution
Simple
Selfless
Clean and pure

Wake up shaking in your bed again
Does it haunt all your conversations?
There is no clean
Solution

Simple
Selfless
Clean and pure
Dissolution

Just the tiny pieces
Look at the mess you you made
There is no clean
Dissolution

Selfless
Without a trace
Martyr
Dissolution

I'm not gonna die today
there's no solution

I'm not gonna die today

Myoclonic

I saw you drown
Each and every night
I wept till you came back to life
The banging on the door
Keeps us locked  inside

You hurt me more 
Than you will ever know
I hear your voice every time
They play "Down"
On the radio

Chop it up
Steal the rest aside
Lock it up
In your safe to hide
Leave your tender heart
To rot inside

Down

it's okay if you make it violent
no one here has ever been innocent

see how your shame's gone out the window
find yourself
find me
condemn the men
embrace the beast
condemn the man 
find  god
find peace within you

within you
upon me
you feed the light inside me'
feel you 
beside me
ignite the fire in me

it's okay if you make it violent
no one here has ever been innocent

see how your shame's gone out the window
find yourself
find me
condemn the man
embrace the beast
within you

within you
upon me
you feed the light inside me
feel you 
beside me
ignite the fire in me

if it doesn't 
it isn't true love

shames gone out the window
find your way to me
ive  waited here for so long
find your way to me
when it doesnt hurt enough
then it isnt true love

(chorus)

Pillow Queen

I am a solo artist. I make electronic songs via Bandlab influenced by postpunk, alternative rock, shoegaze, gothic rock, and grunge. My main influences are The Sisters of Mercy, Alice in Chains, PJ Harvey, Slowdive, Sad Lovers and Giants, The Kinks, Joy Division, Portishead, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Switchblade Symphony, Smashing Pumpkins, The Doors, The Knife, Кино, Electric Wizard, and The Cure. In no special order. I seek to blend these influences and create something new.

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