i’d fuck up my life if you told me to
but i don’t need your help
i do it by myself

maybe a lie is a second truth
but i can never tell
so we can’t do this my way

suck up all my time for the moment
drowning in my fault and I know it isn’t healthy
but can anybody sell me for this art

i don’t wanna spend time with you
naw you don’t fucking know me bro just tell me what you got
before i claim your spot
still you’re stuck in my favor
it’s all the same
you got my attention but I won’t listen
can’t walk with conviction
been out of state
so how come i’m burning out
tryna make it out of here alive
 
i want more from men and women
if we take it slow then i won’t hesitate
we could do it thirty minutes
and you can ask me any second of the day
i’m gonna miss you but I’ll never hit the brakes
cos i’m fucking or i’m fucked up
and if I ain’t gonna sing that shit you better see me
work a nine to five to fill my plate

so you best watch me pop
when people get the jist they be like oh my god
i got more time off
still tryna figure out who you are
can’t put my thoughts to speech unless i steal your magic and i put you on my sleeve
all i really know is i should punch the snare in when i’m feeling beat

and i’d fuck up my life if you told me to
but i don’t need your help
i do it by myself

maybe a lie is a second truth
but that shit don’t go well
that shit don’t go well

i suck up all my time for the moment
drowning in my fault and I know it isn’t healthy
but can anybody sell me for this art
nah i don’t wanna leave home
i can’t free smoke and it’s all my fault baby
but it’s alright just know i feel you
i feel you

this ain’t all my love
i got way more love

sunder

I'm dropping a song for every day of suicide prevention week.
This is song 4.

VILLAIN

photo by 50Landing

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG

heartache comes in many forms
one day opens any door but
i’ve never seen this distant
what success? my eyes are on a screen
if you’re hurting call my line and if you’re doing good, it’s not like i don’t care
i wanna see the world
this shit ain’t the same if i can’t breath your air

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG
hope you find someone who can be invested
i’m not over you that’s not my objective
so obsessed with my mistakes i gotta accept them
so i’m not gonna listen to him

he always wants a little more
lost in his fake love and subliminals
won’t stay true if it’s difficult 
a lie’s a lie won’t hide the real to waste your time
that’s just being honest
shouldn’t fall in love and i shouldn’t go to college
gotta fight off all the pain he made in august

i’m not who you think i am

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG
i won’t put no filler or no dud in my setlist
you should up your standards for what i can be impressed with
out your metric
i’m alive and i need help
hit concrete bottom you could say i learned my lesson

fuckboy tryna play my homie
but 2020 i’ma take time on me
out the window where my mainline goes
this is sacrilegious how i’m gon fade off IG

fuckboy

dropped out i was 17
wasting all my money mixing dope and lsd
man
momma said don’t get ahead of me
but i don’t wanna go to college I got hella dreams
i don’t know what’s gotten into me
ever since i stopped pretending it was history
dropped out i was 17
now i got more freedom than i’ve ever seen

life don’t have directions
and i’ve been tryna quarantine the thought of heaven
in the meantime
i realized ive been there before
all the doors i’ve closed wanting so much more
now it’s nice to know
there’s no inner me or a victory
it’s all costumes, funny dances to play my mind

dropped out i was 17
wasting all my money mixing dope and lsd
man
momma said don’t get ahead of me
but i don’t wanna go to college I got hella dreams
i don’t know what’s gotten into me
ever since i stopped pretending it was history
dropped out i was 17
now i got more freedom than i’ve ever seen

i love my momma don’t wanna be apart man
but my brother sajes gon get an apartment
flipping pages to get into the garden
by now the mara taller, climb it with a god damn
feelings rolled up and it’s bout time
exhale and the ninth cloud cloud nine
i got money i’ll expand on itp
cancel your plans authority couldn’t handle us
this the type shit make my hands fall asleep
low blood sugar and some more caffeine i don’t
need loving but i want that cheap
so much luck that i laugh to peices
looked inside for some consolation
i found a bi dime and some pride embraced it
and learned it was never complicated
you are who you are don’t keep you waiting

dropped out i was 17
wasting all my money buying 1-P lsd
man
momma said don’t get ahead of me
but i don’t wanna go to college I got hella dreams
i don’t know what’s gotten into me
ever since i stopped pretending it was history
dropped out i was 17
now i got more freedom than i’ve ever seen

dropout

slow down
breathe
what’s in the ground beneath your feet?
get out that screen and let it go
a blue check screams
i always whispered what you want
and it was right here all along

cos i found something with a taste you can’t describe
you take it in and all your roots get intertwined
and every time i call you back you’ll know you’re fine
i know you’re fine

there’s no cancer in the water
it’s not an answer or a dream
your mother and your father would rather blow it all on ginger tea
more than offer than a feed

you’re ready for it
think it’s for the best you leave this town
you’re ready for this now

breathe
slow down
breathe

terrified when i’m bout to be brave
since danny hit me i been killing the game
power to you if you’re riding the wave
could give a fuck about the money or fame
take you and your girl right back to my place
cos man or woman i’ma fuck you the same
picking me up when she’s back in my state
a quick flight to nyc for some cake
touch down 50 came in the clutch
my boys bound for something bigger than us
cuts deep like a knife it’s some shit you can feel
my momma love me and her willpower steel
ex’s heart bouda beat out my chest
i’m sorry bout me and i wish you the best
i just wanna fuck
the marajuana got me scared of trauma but i’m gon be okay
good sex every day
green checks life ain’t grey
this is fate
fill my plate with acid salad and breaks
i get drunk and she gets stupid high
i just chilled cos I don’t wanna try
when i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say

ginger tea

Prod. GrandMastaFunk
Engineered by the fabled @eonzero

Cranberry!

Hope you like it!

Art by JR Grafix @jrgraphics.co (instagram)

Instrumental by Mantra Beats

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I Should've Opened My Fucking Eyes (Eon Zero x Austin Rudin)

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Serenity

Austin Rudin


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