i made it through today, just to be brought back into tomorrow.

cover art done by me & @_bluberri 
entire project's vocals mixed/mastered by me
prods:
acey
@nate2timezz
@not-a-fucking-hero
@emptychest
thank you above and beyond to everyone involved in the making of this project.
this project holds extreme amounts of sentimental value to me, and i hope that whoever may be  listening to it, is able to find and capture your own version of whatever you may be going through, and use this to get you through it. 
none of this would be possible without the support from every single one of you for listening. it was just a singular year ago that i had hardly any of a following, let alone knew anyone that would lend me a hand to get to where i am now; i'm sincerely so grateful to how many amazing people i've met, and bonds i've made throughout my time creating. so i truly, truly, thank you. 
- autumn

tomorrow through today

i appreciate you just even being here

mostly mixed by @emptychest

~~~lyrics~~~
text me one last time
sure i’m a swine
but i can shine 

lavender skies
they remind that i love you
swear that i’m trying 
cause i know there’s no undo
got both of my hands tied
so i’ll cut loose
thoughts that assault my mind 
till i subdue 

feel so bleak 
why my bones so brittle
i can’t speak 
it’ll sound like a riddle

hate it 
when you’re not around me so
tell me girl i could 
be your home

text me one last time
sure i’m a swine
but i can shine

shine. (sadtxnshi)

hey, thx 4 listening, seriously.
this is the first song i've mixed completely from scratch,
so i hope it doesn't sound too foul </3
prod. @prodskellington <3
cover art sketch by @bleulmao

~~~lyrics~~~
a minute away
i’m gonna fade
back into the nothing
shit what do you say
fear to be fake
look at my face
fucking disgusting
throughout the day

i can’t talk if i can’t even breathe out
she seems off there’s gotta be a reason
raindrops fall everywhere i don’t need it
think this calls for the death of a weakness

check, check, check,
troubled mind, covered ears
less, less, less, chitter-chat full of tears
let’s, let’s, let’s, get the fuck outta here
can’t afford being gone
but i’ve lost will to care again

the cycle ends
what’s the point in this
low love, slow thumbs, so numb

winter crept upon my hands
and all i am’s ideas through a screen
is it true that you were never meant to be?

troubled mind, covered ears (skellington)

Biteki AMV: https://youtu.be/aMOX-qUEWMw
prod. farber
this 1 been in the works for a while 🖤
i hope some of you find relation & or clarity.
ft. @user-411557229

[autumn]
so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

cause i’ve always really wanted space
now i just wanna see your face
(see your face)

girl i want this bad
i told you that
i’m not just sad
my world’s been plaid

hello?
praying you’d pick up the phone 
how’d it go?
being on your god damn own

so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

[not home.]
they wanna be me
she gonna leave me
for somebody new
off of the shrooms
cold in my room 
lost in the ceiling
look at the moon

[autumn & not home.] 
(2x)
look at my face when you’re talking
(when you’re talking)
i get bored so i smoke now i’m coughing
(bitch i’m coughing)
all the friends at the house 
now i’m yawning
(what the fuck bitch)
they be chasing all the
shit up in my pockets

obsessed w/ not home.

there's not much to say besides that i hope this song heals
whoever's soul is in need of it, because mine sure as hell is lmfao
prod. @splashgvng

~~~lyrics~~~

4x
(so wrong)
4x
(so i’ll rot)

wake up everything stays 
the way that it was
so angry, yet so numb
it was more than words that stung 
tell me, what have you done?
something might have begun 
i’m ready to move on
quit telling me to be strong
aren’t i more than you want?
all you put is a front
weight on my chest; got a ton
“i’ll care about what i want”
doesn’t it mean that we’re done?

i will crawl throughout fall
you’re so disgusting, trust me oh
want, want, don’t know what i want
legs were bloody, and so were her palms

i’ll say it again
you never meant 
swore you’d get better 
you fucked with my head
caught in the red 
but it doesn’t matter; 
the factors of how i express 
distance how could i miss it
i’m an example of agony shut up and listen
4 in the morning alone in the kitchen 
constantly mourning the 
thought of existence 

something might have begun 
i’m ready to move on
quit telling me to be strong
aren’t i more than you want?
all you put is a front
weight on my chest; got a ton
“i’ll care about what i want”
doesn’t it mean that we’re done?

(2x)
done
(4x)
yeah we’re done
(yeah we’re done)

her palms (splashgvng)

@prodsunsetlover
i've been taking my time with releases lately
i just, want to start making things that mean a lot more to me than they usually would, and to do that takes a bit more time than I usually would give myself to make a song.
so i hope you guys enjoy this 1. be safe & make good choices :") 
get well for those of you who need it <3

~~~lyrics~~~
(2x)
when will we learn 
it’s making me hurt
yeah i ain’t complacent 
yet i ain’t been changing

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i can't reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

i can’t go out
i’ll get overstimulated
guess i’m home bound 
how the hell am i gonna make it?
leaves they fall down 
i can sense the aberration 
ever since i found a little solace 
during isolation

no more dreams when i wake
i’m covered in sweat 
many things that i see in all of them
they fill my heart with pure regret 
just when will i get over it? 

conscious is biting my brain
(conscious is biting my)
(biting my, biting my brain)
but it don’t matter 
i swear that i’ll find a way
(swear that i’ll find it)
(i swear that i’ll find a way)

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i cant reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

threads of hair hang low
the angel you once knew 
turnt her back on the helping help 
that gave her thy wings 
simply in danger
let go
this is just a fever
(this is just a fever...)

thy wings (sunsetlover)

@produforia
i hope you guys like this one. 
been hanging in there (somewhat) 
keep at it everyone, you're doing great :') 
don't let anyone tell you otherwise. 
stay strong <3

~~~lyrics~~~
(2x)
talk that shit, imma crash on the floor
talk that shit, yeah i’m begging for more
talk that shit, i exist, but what for?
talk that shit, while i’m already sore

(2x)
talk that shit
imma crash on the floor now
talk that shit but it won’t ever sort out 
never knew why i would settle for change
think about every lie that you told to my face 

overdramatic, i’m over my head
telling me things? i would rather be dead
take me for granted, all fucking upset
ain’t talking bout you girl
i’m tryna reflect

yeah i got issues, issues
told you i was mental while i
kissed you, kissed you 
don’t need a parental like i’m over it
am i sentimental? cause i’m so distressed

forever a cocoon 
i would move if it weren’t the stress
holding me up to the roof 
got a gun to my chest
i would shoot 
i would lose, everything that i have
but it’s cool, yeah i’m cool
don’t forget me when i’m dead 

yeah i try to fucking try
even though i’m not enough
swear to god that i’ll be fine
every night i’m throwing up
can’t believe that i was right
ain’t nobody i’m above 
baby take the fucking knife 
drive it straight into my gut

(2x)
talk that shit
imma crash on the floor now 
talk that shit but it won’t ever sort out 
never knew why i would settle for change
think about every lie that you told to my face

(told to my face)
told to my face
what a shame
so ashamed, go away
just go away, i should go away
go away

chrysalis (uforia)

this is a full on collaboration between
me & my extremely talented friend/artist @emptychest
literal sweat and tears were put into this project
so i hope the lot of you enjoy it :')
prod. @iofmusic
mixed/mastered by me & @emptychest
cover art done by the amazing @akanenosketch 

~~~lyrics~~~
[the entire song has me and empty's vocals somewhere in the mix]
vvv
i’m scared of these visions
i’m fed up, this instant

don’t leave me, i’ve been dreaming lots
yeah you see through my eyes

oh what a surprise, its not
and it never, never will be
no matter what i do
you're never satisfied (never satisfied)
satisfied (never satisfied)
you're never satisfied (you’re never satis-)
never satisfied

i tried to make amends
but our fates were meant to end
so i defy the myth 
that i shouldn’t exist

i’ll be the worst & you’ll be the best 
and i’ll try harder than you ever will 
but that’s fine with me
its gonna take a lot more than that to 
fire me
(but i know you’ll try.)

to be honest with you
i dont think i ever understood
(you give me melatonin)

and to be honest with you
i don’t really want you anymore
(i need serotonin)

satisfied (2x)
you’re never satisfied 
satisfied

i cannot hear the words
the ones i never said
although it fucking hurts
i shouldn’t dare regret

i’ll kill myself in spite of you
fuck six guys; that’s not new to you
i don't know what i expected
i don't know what i-

you’re heartless…

that’s where i went wrong in the first place
dating someone better than me 
in the first place
you got what you wanted, didn’t you?
i fucking hate you now

i’ll never be satisfied
(never satisfied)
satisfied
(never satisfied)
you’re never satisfied (2x)
(never satisfied)
i hope you never forget that 
you’re dead to me

emptychest x autumndropsdead - satisfied (iof x michaeltucker)

i can't pinpoint what this song is about, but it means a lot to me.
i love each n every 1 of you so much w all my heart.
hope you enjoy. 🍂
prod. @wisssery & @pekarot_161

~~lyrics~~
now get the fuck out 
this ain’t even a house 
and i’m not proud 
but my head is getting loud
soul is screaming to get down
i’m not as greedy as i sound
not as greedy as i sound 
don’t turn around

clogs in my brain cause i’m selfish 
and if there’s a blade in my vein
never felt it
guess i'm forced to play 
till i cave from exhaustion
i'm already dazed
get away; you’re obnoxious

tell me what the fuck i gotta say
just for you to stay
i’ll pray upon the stars
but they all seem to fade
i tell me i don’t really know any better
sell me; just another scar for the beggar 

i’ve been up all week
won’t sleep tight
i can’t brush my teeth
nor eat right
way too many dreams
seem to terrorize
every single sheep 
when i shut-eye 

let’s drift down the creek, till i notice
it’s my time to leave, hope you know this
isn’t about me; my emotions 
tend to dive too deep into motion 

ice thin; drowning on the daily 
would you care to stop by?
quick someone save me
(save me)
ice thin; drowning on the daily 
would you care to stop by?
quick someone save me
(i’m gonna drown)

how the fuck am i alive?
tell me what am i
in the pond i spot a lotus
coloring me blind
fuck a nine to five 
i wanna live a life
i wonder if i’ll flourish or 
lie among the vines 

dad is in the yard smoking packs
till he’s greener
momma wears a mask 
so her past looks cleaner
fully out of grasp 
with my siblings’ demeanors
mind is running laps, i collapse
in the bleachers

tell me what the fuck i gotta say
just for you to stay
i’ll pray upon the stars
but they all seem to fade
i tell me i don’t really know any better
sell me; just another scar for the beggar 

fuck around, now i’m throwing up
stay away, imma fall in love
too late, maybe i’ll be fine
lead me to a better life

broken but i’m holding on
to the universe i’m below a pawn 
any given moment i could lose it all
the sound of silence is a subtle call

𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘩?.. 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘩! 𝘪 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶.
𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺.
𝘤𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴?! 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦?!
𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪’𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶! :(

i tell me i don’t really know any better
sell me; just another scar for the beggar

color me blind (wisssery x pekarot)

Biteki AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LT7FyConbo
thank you all for the amazing support just in general.
love you all. take good care <3
featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater (afterlife)

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below (branwen x rvrhiv)

just experimenting <3 lmk what u guys think of this 1 :')
prod. @johnnyfriend 🤍

~~lyrics~~
i'm a fucking asshole
yeah that's what she told me
i would try my best 
and i still cannot control me
aren't i a hassle?
always saying sorry
why the fuck you love me

don't even try me & ask
if i'm over the past
all i am is grotesque
and i swear you're the best
all i do detach
dodging all these attacks
flew right over my head
now you hate me instead

this life, is it really worth living?
i'm falling in & out of all my visions
i'll be dead either way
just say my name as i decay

passed out, woke up in the same place
no fucks left to give, screaming mayday
you know i know you can't save me
but i'll be waiting, yeah i'll be waiting

stuck in a division
that i'll never see the end of
every decision that i've made 
is where i end up
broken, beaten
tell me what's the cost
ears been bleeding
spiders in the walls

hope you break a leg along the way
i'm so tired, just give it up
no consideration for your fate
past expired, i've had enough

don't even try me & ask
if i'm over the past
all i am is grotesque
and i swear you're the best
all i do detach
dodging all these attacks
flew right over my head
now you hate me instead

(2x)
oh~woah~a

mayday (johnnyfriend)

hope you guys like this one, personal song n whtvr. love you guys sm. 
ty 4 the ongoing support with just everything.
i appreciate it more than meets the eye.
prod. @sorrow_bringer 🖤
cover art concept by me
drawn by @akanenosketch :")

~~lyrics~~
fuck where’s the trust
leading lust, between us 
heating up, on the cusp 
self-destruct, blowing up
into dust
i wanna fall
(don't wanna fall)
into my own hellish spiral

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blow my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

co-depend, don’t forget
that i’m fucked up in the head
leavings cuts cause i’m not enough
and you won’t believe a single thing i said

i got too much on my plate
so i just puke it up & regurgitate
i do not fuck with the fate
pushing away the people
that would try to relate

trust my spirit
(where is the trust?!)
do you hear it now?
(i’m not enough)
it hurts falling down
just let me drown

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blew my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

i know what i’m doing, i know what i did
what i would give to go back to a kid
selfishness underneath my skin
to begin again, i would have to end
i’m a letdown, fight it off
hellbound, so fucking lost
count down, until i’m gone
ultimately i’m not what you want

(3x)
not what you want
(yeah…)

hellish spirals (sorrowbringer)

ty all for the incredible amount of support this year.
cover art conceptualized by me
drawn by @akanenosketch
prod. @genshibeats

~~lyrics~~
(can’t breathe, can’t speak)
(when i’m full of regret)
(you stomped on me)
(with your foot on my neck)
(i cant believe that you didn’t accept)
(that you didn’t accept)
(that you didn’t accept)

can’t breathe, can’t speak
when i’m full of regret
you stomped on me
with your foot on my neck
i cant believe that you didn’t accept
nor see the huge gauge
inside of my chest

oh god i tried to do what i can
i’m sorry your world was in my hands
but the thing was
you couldn’t seem to comprehend
just how detached i really am

four to the dome
somebody just take me home
it’s been a long fucking night
of people coming at my throat
could never do anything right
it’s your hand i wouldn’t hold
i wouldn’t do it outta spite
i just had to let you go

so i peel it;
the skin that holds me back
never knew what i lacked- *throat gets slit bc stfu lol*
this isn’t as easy as it gets
couldn’t you see that i’m a wreck

falling outta place
like an angel out of grace
i just wanna get a taste
for the love of what is fake
i didn’t seem to make
any use of any snakes
all it took was a mistake
NOW I’M BARING HEAVY FANGS!!! >:(

can’t breathe, can’t speak
when i’m full of regret
you stomped on me
with your foot on my neck
i cant believe that you didn’t accept
nor see the huge gauge
inside- side of my-

ha, ha, ha
break, break, break
fa, la, la
don’t be late
knot, knot, knots
causing pain!!
who i’m not is who you hate >:’(

heavy fangs (genshi)

sharing a piece of my soul w u all :')
w @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
(i'm within the walls)

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater

prod. @afterlife66
cover art drawn by @wolfff_art <3

i get that it's all my fault
i should've never called..

my bones are melting, again
(again)
so guilty; i'm better than that
(better than that)

thread caught in us all
you're not in control
& i'm just a soul
for the manufacturing of an end that was meant
another casualty but without the consent

and all my life, been feeling scorn
i've tried to hide,
but these feelings tore up my insides
and left nothing more
than pitiful lies; tangled wires and cords

now why did i think that was okay?
remembered that moment was so vague

turning, learning; does it matter?
undeserving; losing stature, oh
swear i'm hurting, breath is flatter
"just desert me, leave me shattered"

guilt every night, and i can't move 
on when she's right by
& she fucking hates me, 
but it's alright, 
in some way, there's no way...
THIS ISN'T RIGHT

my bones are melting, again
(again)
so guilty; i'm better than that
(better than that)
better than that
(better than that)

i don't wanna make it out alive
it's a part of life, i'm sorry that i lied
there isn't excuses for the way i treated this
i'm just a vessel losing grip

(4x)
grip, grip, grip
losing

i'm craving my last breath
when i change it'll be for the best
but nobody'll fucking believe me anymore
for everything i said and did
like are you fucking deaf???
i feel your resent...

vessel (afterlife)

would've posted way sooner but idk what i was thinking
hope you like :') <3

prod. @user-218664467-767868486 & @user-876854174

cover drawn by @jwzo !!

~~lyrics~~
don't you talk back, tell me why u thinkin' that you all that?
fall flat; every single note i hit it crawls back
i'm a fucking menace, never let me be ur fallback
choking on the memories of enemies and combat

rotting really quick, like my body needa stitch
sick of planning out this life of mine, i'm boutta fuckin' hitch
if this shit don't work out, i'll turn to my clique
but i can't put the pressure of me up on them

i ain't fuck with ur tone, won't you leave me alone?
like a thorn to a rose, it hurts just being close
i lay in my bed, plummeting quick
if i ain't upset, then i'm fucked up instead

wear and tear; do i even care?
it's not that i'm scared; just unprepared

carry out my body in a tomb, to a place you never knew
i cannot take in any news; fuckin' all night
severe every letter in my center, for the better, till the deter
is a figment of fatuation for lowlives

who the fuck you think you is?
i can feel the weight in my legs giving in, this
sorta state that i'm, is shoving my face in the dirt till i perish

don't you talk back, tell me why u thinkin' that you all that?
fall flat; every single note i hit it crawls back
i'm a fucking menace, never let me be ur fallback
choking on the memories of enemies and combat

rotting really quick, like my body needa stitch
sick of planning out this life of mine, i'm boutta fuckin' hitch
if this shit don't work out, i'll turn to my clique
but i can't put the pressure of me up on them

hitch (rainbxw x mort1s1)

@sorrow_bringer 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
[Audio Sample from King's Game]
~~lyrics~~
it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

hoping i heal, but i'm proof of the damage
everyone i kill's either hungry or manic
refuse any pills that i'm offered, then panic
if i'm really real, would you feel if i vanish?
let's trace back to the start
i ain't got no time here to waste on my heart
if i wanted peace, i believe i would be "anybody"
can't feel defeat when i'm coated in honey

permanently flawed; let me get my head straight
living at the cost; on the brink of being dead weight
no headspace, just silence.
what do you expect when the sky's blaring sirens?
but i knew the consequences all along
i used too much strength tryna grow stronger
the rapture, and endless disaster

take me by the head 
(okay)
leave no evidence 
(nor trace)

the moon is turning red
the air is so condensed 
simple lives and foolish lies
i raise a knife up to my eye
if one should seek, then one shall find
but what if i've already died?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬...
𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦... 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦,
𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut
like it wants in my gut...

sugar in the spice (sorrow bringer)

@prodskellington 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛

~~lyrics~~
i have the right to prove
moving on from the past
sick of the attitudes; glass infused with laughing gas
these days swear i'm gone, but it's alright
cause i can see my fate in the moonlight

rainfall creeps in the back
blood on the coat as it hangs on the rack
know i'm not a clone, cause my heart don't match
the pattern of her's was a different path

too little people; too little changes
can't find the energy to make arrangements
say that i'm evil; is that a statement?
or are you lost in the thought of society's cave-ins

why did i sacrifice all that i had
all your advice, wasn't the best
it grew way too much for me; i'm a selfish cunt.

(run, run,)

i have the right to prove
moving on from the past
sick of the attitudes; glass infused with laughing gas
these days swear i'm gone, but it's alright
cause i can see my fate in the moonlight

laughing gas (skellington)

first ever self prod 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
hope it isn't too bad :')

~~lyrics~~
i tried my best to stay with you
but i've been bombarded by truth
the words i speak, do they have any say?
cause after it all, you're still in my way

i can hear the birds chirping my name
they're calling me out, saying "fly away"
there wasn't a morsal i could've saved
in a world i'm obligated immediately

the tastebuds in my mouth are falling out
i just wanna breathe without the need to want
(yeah...)

(i tried my best to stay with you)
(but i've been bombarded by truth)
(the words i speak, do they have any say?)
(cause after it all, you're still in my way)

tastebuds [intro]

https://open.spotify.com/track/6CbxhNDiS43RkM728SpInl?si=e92a5e39fcfc4020
autie season. >;"/
prod. @dercept + gateway & danielsara
cover art done by kittikyu <3

this ain't a ballad; fucking unbalanced
give me a challenge, i'm in the smog
tossed like a salad; thought i had talent, guess i was wrong 
putting the p in pain, everything ain't what i want 
you put that shit away, it's new a day, in a NEW DAWN

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego, but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

two-faced; show faith
walkin' round the town in my mind with a mace
i'm a fucking loser, so i never show my face 
wish i never knew her; couldn't believe what i'd say
so i rest admist the panic, going manic, tryna change
if ur talkin' shit then can-it, all your bullshit; it can wait
i got way too damn satanic, pull me closer to the flames
you should quit this life and hand it over, imma take your place

(i'm looking through the fog)
(i've been confused for so long)
(the things that i've undergone)
(are proof that i don't belong)

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

leeches! (dercept x gateway x danielsara)

istg it'll sting.
https://open.spotify.com/track/2qjQWdbB6ymgA3ixd0Mhhr?si=32a06c461024433a
prod. @dercept & @prodmichael
cover art done by @aliensplanet !!
enjoy <3

(3x)
(take a chance)

is that a fact? 
or do you think that you know me
cause i work off my ass, and get attacked 
i think i'm staying lonely
but i'm fine with that
it's just i want my slate to be clean
go and spread another lie, i swear to god it'll sting

i let, i let everybody walk all up over my face
in a fear that if i spite, i won't become what i dream
just a fucking machine; i'm blowing out steam
i'm like a lion in a cage who is a-
(boutta be freed)

i let it get to my head
(i gotta quit that shit)
i wouldn't dare to pretend
(i'm just so sick of this..)

(2x)
(it's o-, it's o-, it's okay)
(4x)
it's o-, it's o-, it's okay

is that a fact? 
or do you think that you know me
cause i work off my ass, and get attacked 
i think i'm staying lonely
but i'm fine with that
it's just i want my slate to be clean
go and spread another lie, i swear to god it'll sting

i stuck my head inside a nest full of ants
in advance, i already had my hands behind my back
take a chance! for the people who play life like they're a cat
CALL ME TRASH >:"/
i'll show em what it's like to be surpassed
WITH AGGRESSION!!! >:((

ants (dercept x michaelwarren)

hope you guys enjoy this one <3 each track i put out means a whole lot 2 me, 
so tysm for taking the time out of your day to listen

prod. by @sorrow_bringer 🖤
cover art done by my friend molly !! 

(got me asking my lungs)
("can you cave in?")
(in need of a reason for clearing my head)

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

heart's beating, now i'm way heated
took off and ran on my own
asking my past demons, "did i really mean it?"
was i in control of my soul?
now i gotta wait. 
i know what i am; shit wasn't great
so why do i stand?
never complained; wished that i did
they'll get what they get
i'm not giving in

they all wanna see me fall, hear me bawl
i know i shouldn't have set foot
into the cage that i'm in
the person i was; he told me to stay where i must
oh the ground personifies
we walk all about it and never bat an eye

let me loathe (let me loathe)
swear i'm changing..
this feeling i know
lessened the seasons

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

subside (sorrow bringer)

AMV 💜: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jC996g3VWGc
one of two songs released under @bitekivibes <3
prod. @sorrow_bringer & @boyfifty
"temptations" is on their page; go give that a listen too :")

s/o to my friend @kittiyu 
for getting the cover art done on such short notice <33

i should leave her cause i’m always grey
watch a second turn to minutes
now the crowd fades away
i’m a little fucking prick
leprosy all up in my brain
everyone is so pathetic
but so am i so i break fate

you stay vague, make way
i speak to me in tongues
and watch while they play
i swear i try my best to open doors
i’m afraid it’s far too late
to be the way i was before
(way i was before)

the ruckus of the press
corrupted everyone around me
is there anybody left to tape
my mouth when i am shouting
why’s it always cloudy?
what’s the point in doubting?
i’m stuck up & fucked up
my head’s always drowsy

let’s fill the lies with glue
so they’re stuck on track
if i knew what i know now, would it be bad?
i could tell by the way
she would hold me back
i could tell by the way
i had to hold my breath

eh i can’t seem to break the silence
so i decide to lie beside it
coincide with all the violence

and i admit it...
that i’m so fucking garbage
but i wouldn’t ever want you back

i should leave her cause i’m always grey
watch a second turn to minutes
now the crowd fades away
i’m a little fucking prick
leprosy all up in my brain
everyone is so pathetic
but so am i so i break fate

you stay vague, make way
i speak to me in tongues
and watch while they play
i swear i try my best to open doors
i’m afraid it’s far too late
to be the way i was before
(way i was before)

body’s shaking
head is split and torn
the fall felt weightless
you’re all i adore
adore... (3x)
you’re all i adore…

leprosy (sorrow bringer x boyfifty)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3PMZOguzvVjniDrURFbpdL?si=84e189e1d5984fc1

really hope u guys like this one. put my god damn everything into it :)
prod by my bro/the goat @blvnkface & @012207 on guitar!!! 🖤
cover artwork done by @hh3vc <3

they don't wanna 
cut me off these vines
shit's outta control
this is quite the haul

i'm blessed with 
friction of the mind
i gave it my all
BUT THIS IS GETTING OLD

red bleeds into green
i can see it through my chest
i'm seen as a fiend
who doesn't deserve what he gets
if you're talkin down on me
i'm tellin' karma do it's best
if you're fuckin' with the scene
I'M COMIN' STRAIGHT AFTER YOUR HEAD

i'm an addict; is it adding up???
never passive
don't think that i've had enough 

read a passage
it told me "mass erupt"
so i damaged
EVERYONE I KNEW AND LOVED

AND IT'S TEARING ME UP
(OH IT'S TEARING ME UP)
BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP
(NO I'M NOT GIVING UP)
LOVE IN THE WORSTEST OF WAYS
THAT'S HOW I WITHER AWAY
STUCK INSIDE THIS FRAGILE FRAME
AND IT'S BURNING ME UP

(it's never too late)
(to disintegrate)

letting karma do it's thing
don't you worry about me
even in a state of panic
i can manage how to breathe
it doesn't matter if you brace
imma break your fuckin' face
i can tell they're in a trace
by the way they retaliate

the reptile; it lays awake
in hope the sun will finally fade
for colder blood is due today
if i corrupt, dissect my brain

AND IT'S TEARING ME UP
(AND IT'S TEARING ME UP)
BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP
(YEAH)
LOVE IN THE WORSTEST OF WAYS
THAT'S HOW I WITHER AWAY
STUCK INSIDE THIS FRAGILE FRAME
AND IT'S BURNING ME UP

vines (blvnkface x baz)

https://open.spotify.com/track/47m9QOCl9GBaznSaAELQIJ?si=bb470e6ea22a4041

mix master n all that by me
cover art sketch drawn by @punimonnn 
tysm 4 listening, hope u enjoy 
this song means a lot to me
show some love to the goat  @012207 who popped tf off on the prod <3

(2x)
i said i gotchu, don't you worry
shit ain't ever gonna happen
till my heart; it filled with fury
now i'm losing all attraction
don't wanna live inside the past-tense (past tense)
but i'm way too weak for taking action

everyone wanna party
while i can barely stand; fucking hardly
pack up my shit and just move on
treating myself like a nuisance
counting the days i've been awake
even in my dreams, i can't catch a break
"how many followers does it?!"
never enough, you fuckers are fake

i'm on ice, catchin' colds
in the night, crackin' codes
hold me tight; never leave
but it's nice being lone
laying low every week
in a hope that i peak
how your soul stayin' content
when the feelings never leave?

ion go outside
i'll just get another migraine
head and heart collide;
i guess that i'm a lightweight
blame it on bad timing
chakras ain't aligning
every step; i love me less
how long have i been crying?

four years; still despise me
took a lot to come out of hiding
took a lot right outta my psyche
but i'm putting all that shit behind me
this story's mine for the taking
i woke up, hands shaking
doing my best to face this
why can't i just erase it?

i said i gotchu, don't you worry
shit ain't ever gonna happen
till my heart; it filled with fury
now i'm losing all attraction
don't wanna live inside the past-tense (past tense)
but i'm way too weak for taking action

evil dances on my spine
twists of fate prove i'll be fine
i miss my sanctuary
find my sky like aviaries

(2x)
i'll re-find just another sunken hole in the ground
maybe then i'd rewrite
the pages that are scattered all around me

i said i gotchu, don't you worry
shit ain't ever gonna happen
till my heart; it filled with fury
now i'm losing all attraction
don't wanna live inside the past-tense (past tense)
but i'm way too weak for taking action

i-i-i
miss my- miss
w-weary
my sky like aviaries

attraction (baz)

start loving yourself, to quit loving yourself
i was sleeping on the edge of my bed till i fell
awaken to the morning sweat 
of being trapped in this hell
could i forgive like all i did to puncture holes in my health?

it's not about you
but i sorta wish it was
cause i hope you're doing well
i know we don't talk much 
but this is not the way i deserve to be treated
i'd do anything to have a sixth sense or a reason

cause i am constantly bleeding
but no one can see it
i'm sure they know a lot about it
and are sick of the sequence
since i have turned to a demon
do not come near me
you know i mean no harm
but i don't wanna feel guilty

cause i'm selfish as fuck
i hate what i make
yet i'll still put it out 
in hopes that it'll do great
it's way too hard to portray how i feel
when i'm sober as fuck, and not off on the pills

my brain is stupid
i find it useless
i only leave my room when it has to do with music
and you can call me pudent
that's only half what the truth is
sick of the tones on my phone
tryna convince me to use it
i know this won't make it easy
but you should know what i'm thinking
it helps me comprehend what's real
and not just imagination
(was it imagination?..)
WAS IT IMAGINATION

thank you ally, bow, everyone in rue
when i'm down on my luck
i know that ya'll will come through
but that's like all of the time
so how's my conscience alive?
(there's just been way too many times)
(that i've had to realign)

i always wonder
"am i still me?"
(do you feel me)
if i'm putting out a track
would you listen?
intentionally fucking up my health
just to heal me..
IT'S JUST A CYCLE THAT I LIVE WITH

if my mind is a prison
i'll call the guard and i'll sick him
i push through every division
while all the while feeling livid
you know, i must be the sickness
i'm the root in itself
when i come back to this shit
i still won't know how i felt

cause the tone in my voice,
whether i'm singing or speaking;
it makes me wanna vomit
oh dear god, now i'm shaking
yet they say it's amazing
i wish that i could believe em
so that once i'm gone
this could be my requiem

(oh, don't you know?..)

fuck
asking questions of questions upon answer-
you win.
(or is it just me?)

there weren't enough words 
within this timeline we call home
that moment had passed
and now i've come to understand..
that there still isn't
and won't ever be.
maybe it's the way we've all come to lie down 
next to who we were the day before
(the day before)
but never come to terms with that poor soul.
every now and then..
i wonder what would have been...
where i would be..
if i hadn't spoken at all..
silence speaks for itself
(but do you?..)
and engraved into thin air..
i rest.
(i rot.)

artemis//requiem (hero x emptychest)

let us make a deal
this is not a fill-in
it's just how i feel
and right now i'm the villian
lately i wanna waste this time of mine
watching myself as i decline

but this is everything to me
watching the moon as it recedes
into conclusion
there's no truth
back where i started

where is this going?
(i'm frozen in motion)
they're constantly groaning
(bout shit not important)
their interpretations of me doing better
is one of the reasons for making my head hurt

one chance just to trust myself
to portray myself
to betray myself
it's a cold, damp world
is it sick i'm all about it?
you'll never learn to grow if you
just go around it

being numb ain't enough
the fact that i'm here and i'm living 
is still reminiscence 
of everything that i'm not
gone in the beat of a heart
if you blink you would miss
don't call me a kid, or treat me like it
the key won't fit, cause you never locked in
i'm fuckin rottin'
(but not forgotten)
how long has my heart been made out of cotton?

are we humanoid, or programmed to become one
some day?
i'm diving into oblivion
when i'm tugging upon on my vocal strings
but they will snap
god i know that
feed on the wills of the ones who have once passed
their efforts all gone to waste
now i'm in their place
i promised i'd make it back

(oh, i'll make it back)
(i'll make it back)
(4x)
i gave up all of that

but this is everything to me
watching the moon as it recedes
into conclusion
there's no truth
back where i started

nowhere; incomplete where i am now
these alleys reek throughout this town
fingers pressed against a spindle
it's been years; can't get them out

cotton (acey x nate2timez)

can't tell if the room's getting big
or if i'm just small
cause it only takes a second to fall
i crawl into bed when the sun starts to rise
i simply can't handle the smoke and the smog

my ribs are transparent
must be malnutrition
i feel so decrepit
i'm clearly indifferent
yet heaving persistence
with every decision
the outcome is rigid

mortality hates
that there is an end
to everything we wanna protect
blue screens emulate when i was a kid
nothing would phase me
save me once again

verbally gone
no, i don't wanna talk
deteriorate what i ate till i rot 
it takes up a lot; my energy's shot
take in the scent of a bird that was caught
it's leading me home
mentally not or physically there
i continue to trot
i'm walking on air; mentality rose
but then i wake up to find out i'm alone

shadows approach as they
rip me apart from my desk
all they had wanted was means to an end
but i sense dishonesty filling their heads
you don't know grief till it's conquered your chest

i'm still not impressed
seventeen and counting
oh please, i digress
from everyone around me
i'll tear me to shreds;
fed up with the scowling
i'm a rodent; the fox it is prowling

it was so different long ago
i can't get rid of this vertigo
but honest to god, who would've known
that being hurt feels like home...

𝘪 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳, 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵-..
𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘨𝘰 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸?..

endow me
endow me
and i'll be your hatred

endow me 
endow me
endow me in all your hatred

fox claws (acey x nate2timez)

tomorrow through today
out now, everywhere 

new song 7/8

@rueredemption
@timeless-archive

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