https://open.spotify.com/track/6CbxhNDiS43RkM728SpInl?si=e92a5e39fcfc4020
prod. @dercept + gateway & danielsara
cover art done by kittikyu <3

this ain't a ballad; fucking unbalanced
give me a challenge, i'm in the smog
tossed like a salad; thought i had talent, guess i was wrong 
putting the p in pain, everything ain't what i want 
you put that shit away, it's new a day, in a NEW DAWN

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego, but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

two-faced; show faith
walkin' round the town in my mind with a mace
i'm a fucking loser, so i never show my face 
wish i never knew her; couldn't believe what i'd say
so i rest admist the panic, going manic, tryna change
if ur talkin' shit then can-it, all your bullshit; it can wait
i got way too damn satanic, pull me closer to the flames
you should quit this life and hand it over, imma take your place

(i'm looking through the fog)
(i've been confused for so long)
(the things that i've undergone)
(are proof that i don't belong)

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

leeches! [prod. dercept x gateway x danielsara]

lyrics ⬇️

it’s getting harder to breath now and no it’s not cuz I been smokin the leaves

everything falling apart how
you look at me and then I start to freeze

so hard to function everynight I look at you in my dreams
your filled with assumptions I’m sure of it so plz do not do that to me

i purposely do what I do I believe 
&
everyone exit the room when they see me

is it cuz they jus wan hear me on cd 
so sad that ain’t nobody see the real me

anxious like every day
Nobody gon save me
I been changing every way
But they don’t see no changing

look at the ceiling when I go to bed
stressed out from everything stuck in my head
it’s something to do with a personal issue
It make me think that they all want me dead
I cannot rest 
I cannot wake up and go to next

never impressed so I reset everything that I ever thought was best

put to the test 
Look to the left
somebody looking at you for some trust
No coming down from all the drugs
ur just as useless so everyone judge
you for the look 
of the disgust

look in my eyes
you won’t say nun
look to the sky 
you better run
or I’m comin after you I don’t got guns
but I got an attitude it ain’t so fun
Yea you don’t wanna deal with me if I’m in love
if you out to trick me I’ll fly like a dove
i didn’t want issues I just wanted trust

like I had said way more than once 
we had those issues when we were at lunch
i gave you tissues when you needed sum 
now you just ridicule all of my songs
oh my god
what have I lost
i lost the feeling that I wanted most
i lost the company I wanted close
hope they remember when I’m a ghost
oh no
I’m out the zone
i need some help if I ever get home
they breaking the barriers more than my bones
so I say my prayers that you wouldn’t know 
the Holy Spirit can protect my soul
it’s way too late for those who have sold

look at me (cxrter)

**lyrics**
do you think it’d be okay if I could stay for awhile?
you can pick my clothes, 'wanna wear your style
I can smile at your laugh, while you laugh at my smile
'Want you get your rest while I drive a hundred miles

you can pick out shells while we walk on the beach
and if your legs get tired, then just jump on me
I can carry you, cause you carry me
let your love be known, let your heart be free

please don’t worry 'bout the drive, or the time, or the weather
I’ll be there in an hour and I’ll make it better
I think the comfort of my home is me and you together
I know you really like this color, you can have this sweater

and we don’t have use our words, just let’s talk with our eyes
I wanna listen to the birds & see you’re standing where my life is
did you know you’re the only girl I think I see the sunrise in?
but there’s no better morning view than the brink of your iris.

i want nothing more than the love that you give (x2)
i want nothing more than the love that you give
                                   me

I don’t wanna go anywhere stay right here
put your heart in the fold of my hands, have my life dear
they say that time has a way of flying by, well let’s fly then
spread our wings, lift each other to the sky, spending light years (x2)

i want nothing more than the love that you give (x2)
i want nothing more than the love that you give
                                   me

i want nothing more, darling (michael harrison)

lyrics ⬇️ 

thats typical 
wishing for a rainbow by the waterfall
Cuz rn i cant even really think straight
when you look my way i try my best to stand tall
everything i do and everything i say
i think all the things i do just make you frustrate

feelings coming out when i see the lighthouse
which way would you rather see me find out

time out, think i wanna live my life a little more
take pride now in everything i do and what j got in store
ear drums get too loud
i dont hear them walk in
tryna make my parents proud but i dont do it that often

but i would do this another hundred times over again
super cold inside but i need a walk in the wind
I dont wanna try fixing up whats broken for them
need a lullaby so i can go sleep in a tent

Trap door 
get me out this cycle of sin
four walls got me here until i dont give in
or give up
outta luck
used to washing all my cuts
in a rut
oh so what
you got better things above

yea and thats a promise
no tbey dont give a **** bout me
i seen the comments 
yea maybe i do live cheap but i been savin up my money so that i could be free
its not so common but i do know that my people love me

i made a promise then i realized it was too hard to keep
dr pepper and some kettle chips for lunch by the sea
never thought that i could see it where i wanted to be

super beautiful nightgown 
always matched with a sad frown
push on me i wont tap out
lately live in a glass house

typical (yunnygoldz)

It’s only been a year, why’s it feel like 10
It’s only been the difference of my life back then
You were everything, the foundation of it all
I can sing as much as I want about it
No one even notices what this has done to me
I keep getting criticised on everything that I release 
Cause it’s not the same, how could it just be the same? 
I don’t have passion anymore, without his in my face 
I don’t care about nothing, I don’t show any love
I don’t show no companionship to anyone I know
It really was just me and him
I don’t know anymore
I don’t know anything
Just that a piece of me’s gone 
Ship is sinking, I’m starboard with a cold embrace 
Cause I know you’re not in the water here and that’s okay
Maybe when I’ve drown, I’ll travel to yours

Oh idk idk

Vessel

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
(my body's been remote, but i'm all ears)

crush two and i'm in it, he's waking bruised and deflated,
i got this habit of spitting, but all this acid come with it
he's turnt to ash every minute, a song and dance resurrection
you rabbits ripping up carrots, i'm canis lupis incarnate
got sonic booms when i'm barking, converting rooves into starships
this ain't your average invention, it's more than natural selection

thought she was safe up in his head
so he'd removed the padding covering his weakened flesh
but abrupt departure cut the flora thriving on his skin
now cattle's grazing on the flowers bursting through his chest

the green evades from being subject to an open wind
in apprehension of it's fate awaiting overhead
so nature waits in subtle breaks between the pavement
for many moons are to elude at compensation, but still, he's anxious

uncertainty enveloped through subtly of enthrall
but i regulate that haze through a blizzard of getting gone
with remedies for those emmitting vacancy of want
disheartened, hurt, and starving, yet crucial to it all
cast within a marshland, enhardened, enswamped
in emergance of that influence, the arteries are clogged
but the potency that comes with it is rightful in it's wrongs
as doubt within neglect to beauty's sewn within the flaws

so what's the word? you know i'm down for it
as mother earth determines counterfeit
the now dispersed yearns inhabitance
of bird and fern, the worm is blurred

might be universe impairing peers with lightning
a white screen thrown about, a crown ensures the stifling
so often i'm haunted and falter from nonsense,
the world's still revolving, he's not what she wanted
if you were just honest, it'd lessen the starving
this trail led of crumb that you thumb's disembarking
he's all but undone, but is stunned from the heartless
injected was rust, muck, and lust in her harvest

always unheard, speaking my word, they just wanna flirt
better or worse, embracing the curse 'till covered in dirt
wrapping in silk, given the earth, i know it'll hurt
off of the pills, downing that cardi, merlot, for the heal, yea

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
my body's been remote, but i'm all ears

bird and fern (dash)

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on facetime 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 

don’t promise me - i know you’ll break it
on my knees im begging 
cus i want you there
but you’re somewhere else 
she said “boy that praying won’t save this
when you fall don’t blame the pavement”
okay well fuck you then 
cus i’m good right here 

did you hear that?
she said don’t blame the pavement 
when i fall like that’s hilarious !!!!!!!
baby tell me all your favourites
i’ll put em in a playlist and keep it there with us
you want crazy? i’ll show you crazy
i’ll pull up on your friends and i’ll fucking bury em
i’ll lock you in this plain white room and when we go out they can’t help but stare at us 

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on face time 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 
x2

blame the pavement (mackk)

Oh that’s your twin he playing both sides 
I highly advise to stay away from me

I put the duct tape on the Gen 5 for the niggas that’s been acting funny 

I gotta sit down gotta analyze every situation put in front of me 

I get the TEC-9 through the metal detector can’t name a nigga that’s in front of me

I’m on the south side with the bad guys if you play with this shit leave you flat lined

Play with the O’s then we X’ing you out I got a few members that’s still on the baseline, frontline, Carbine, we getting em gone

She play with her pussy while playing my songs
I put a bad bitch in Chrome Hearts thong, on bro

Yves Saint Laurent for the denim I’m letting the chain swang yeah that shit hitting 

I put a runway hoe on a video shoot she really a video vixen

So much narcotics I really got so many customers I had to close down the kitchen

I made the AMG right from the website I got every package you know that I’m whipping 

I get the Wockhardt from the container, that’s 3 years ago and my brother still sippin’

He dissing the dead trynna add to his gang
we coming through there finna do some division 

Oh that’s your twin he playing both sides 
I highly advise to stay away from me

I put the duct tape on the Gen 5 for the niggas that’s been acting funny 

I gotta sit down gotta analyze every situation put in front of me 

I get the TEC-9 through the metal detector can’t name a nigga that’s in front of me

I’m on the south side with the bad guys if you play with this shit leave you flat lined

Play with the O’s then we X’ing you out I got a few members that’s still on the baseline, frontline, Carbine, we getting em gone

She play with her pussy while playing my songs
I put a bad bitch in Chrome Hearts thong, on bro

Yves Saint Laurent for the denim I’m letting the chain swang yeah that shit hitting 

I put a runway hoe on a video shoot she really a video vixen

So much narcotics I really got so many customers I had to close down the kitchen

I made the AMG right from the website I got every package you know that I’m whipping 

I get the Wockhardt from the container, that’s 3 years ago and my brother still sippin’

He dissing the dead trynna add to his gang
we coming through there finna do some division

$$outhside [yoursvulora]

Come Wit Me

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bird and fern (dash)

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