U killed it again bro I love this ur flow was insane have a wonderful day my friend

the mixing on this is still the best mixing like on any song

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

spotify

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

produced by caves : )

were u being sincere when you calling me
everynight for a few months you were onto me
its getting too much when you leave
why'd you make it so hard just to breathe
i blame it on you but i think it was me
i knew you would go but i thought we would speak
just stay get rid of my fears
the last thing id say is that i love you dear
your head on my bed im holding you near

im nervous another year you look over
you're perfect i need to let go of her
but i cant but i cant wish i could but i cant
but i cant cos i loved her

id kiss on your neck but it brings it my tears
stay right here get rid of my fears
i cant even say your name
no way your happy being mine
touch my neck im getting shivers down my spine
not getting better but i tell everyone im fine
i think that you would be happy when i die
i want it end it all when i see him lie
i wanna hurt him bad if you cry
all i ever had was the sky
now its all bad when you fly
im really not glad your my ally

im nervous another year you look over
you're perfect i need to let go of her
but i cant but i cant wish i could but i cant
but i cant cos i loved her

now your just a name on my phone

nervous

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me 

u hurt me again
fuck all of ur reasons
ur fucked in the head 
alone in the end 
fuck ur fucking treason
ur fucked in the head 
i gave you all my love
when i had nothing left
u never gave it back
so aknowledge u fucked my path 

look, the seasons changing
sunny days but it's still raining 
the look u gave me
i always knew that u fucking hate me 
stop, with all the blaming 
if u shut up i'll simply take it
ur attitude is still the same and
i know that u won't change it	


i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me

i can't tell lies with this cup (vyle & rxhff)

enjoy; haven't done something like this in a while
prod. @isitmalloy & @sorrow_bringer <3

got tripwire hooks where i'm standing
they taunt me cause i'm too outlandish
i'll scorch their skin like a god damn dragon
they ask me "autie, how the fuck do you manage"

told me i reap what i sow
i ain't do shit; i'm on the go
so many people i don't even know
wishing me well; i just wanna compose
write me a eulogy, be sure to show
all that i overcame way down the road
you wouldn't believe it 
coming from the mouth of the one 
who's already been disposed

it's like i'm not here
and i can't take it
i'll set off a flare on my tongue
till i'm breaking
and she don't hit up my line, but i get it
we're one in the same
i love isolation
i'm living in a masquerade 
my mind had mutated from it's radiation
i know me best when it hits dusk
but then i'm falling off by dawn
this patience forsaken me; heartless and gone
so i stay prolongued
well, more-so i'm stunned
this madness that was casted
i honestly love.

got tripwire hooks where i'm standing
they taunt me cause i'm too outlandish
i'll scorch their skin like a god damn dragon
they ask me "autie, how the fuck do you manage"

hate in my veins
i do not self-proclaim
bit the metal in my mouth
i'm pouring red right outta my face
empty tank, but i'm up
i'm exhausted and i rank
for every fodder, it's our father 
that'll grant you heavy rain

it's too calm
for such an uneventful evening
my stomach's in the corner teething
scold me as my breath's depleting

i guess that you ain't understand the first time
i ain't gonna run it back, there's way too many landmines
i'm numbing to nostalgia
that's the only thing that's kept me in a safe space
I'M SICK OF FEELING STUCK INSIDE THE SAME PLACE

got tripwire hooks where i'm standing
they taunt me cause i'm too outlandish
i'll scorch their skin like a god damn dragon
they ask me "autie, how the fuck do you manage"

this is not where i belong
there's piranhas in the pond
pawn-
pawn-
pawn-paw-paw-p-p-p-

fuck
i need a challenger
i'm up so early, i'm my own manager
even if my name is someone's you haven't heard
they'd still wanna 
rip me out of the fucking earth
these scissors and wine are combining
shut the fuck up
let me get back to dining
the taste of acceptance is oh so refreshing
when mixed in with vengeance
old habits are tempting

they ask me, "autie, how the the fuck do you manage?.."

pawn [prod. malloy x sorrow bringer]

prod. me

rest easy pops<33

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

ever since u've been gone
shit's been different 
i hate myself
and can't take this distance 
been fucking my health 
i can feel the symptoms 
i need fucking help 
but can't face my feelings   

(i been hiding emotions
behind all the drinks
i been hiding emotions
behind all the weed 
people know about this
and still don't talk to me 
i might be fated to 
live the rest of my life all lonely)

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

dad can u remember me?

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
livid..
why'd it get so tense?
tryna find the cause
just at what expense?

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

in motion, no i'm not the same
what i've chosen, was to leave the fray
so golden; but the sun betrayed
in search of yesterday

feelings fleeding fast
i've seen past the colors of this place
for what they truly say

i told my mind that night
save the pity
for every blemish on my chest confessed
that i am all but pretty

so listen here
this is all i have
let my stomach sear
it'll grow right back

but this'll be the one
could give a fuck bout if it's done

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

death is nearing tonight
give her my sight
into the tethered light

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

relapse; decay

SPOTIFY

autumndropsdead - relapse; decay (nate2timez)

chapter ii

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics 

dragged by our feet
through the snow
the watchman saved our lives
and welcomed to his home
he has advice to give
he thought you needed some
this is no way to live
what have we become

the watchman lives to keep his lantern lit
he smells of edelwood and cigarettes
inside the forest you won't meet your death
beware the beast
this innocence is on his breath

he said they will turn on us
and we will burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are you scared of us
cus we were left to rust
u think you care that much
this is what's left of us

don't let your mind disconnect 
from the world that you been living in
no I'm alright in the forest 
I'm at peace with all the denizens 
so keep your eyes on the track 
tho I know they feel like wandering
no I'm alright: it's an act
you just can't let doubt start setting in
several souls I know
well they left years ago
they took the lonely road
and they got lost in hope
so I'm a lonely rope
she left a lonely note
this is our only home
you're all I have to hold

decks

well I was born in blood and guts but who was counting
spoilt what I thought was mine to drown in
hold ur breath for as long as it's allowing 
the last of us are here for u
but now's it's go
go sleep in the snow
wake up to visions I'll never remember
I know now
where do we go
sickened and feeling ur losing ur tether 
it's part of the path that we take
born into hate and decay
everyone here is the same
look at the mess that we made

several souls I know
well they were once my home
they found a new one tho
and they got lost in the snow
so im your only hope
it's hard to let them go
I wish I'd never known
but now on forced to cope

betweentheveinsandi 

he said they would turn on us
and we would burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are u scared of us?
cus we were left to rust?
u think u care that much.
this is what's left of us.


left of us ft. decks (ztope)

vocal problems//healing
 (indefinite hiatus)


thank you for being here

pawn [prod. malloy x sorrow bringer]

autumndropsdead

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