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everdayyy  :(  +akiyo <3 (rubbish)

w/ @bedhead2001
epic background vocals at the end by @rit_hk
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cover by @toxin_brewer & me & luke

forever +bedhead

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Tracklist:
0:00 - @love3244 + @syntheus
0:52 -  @newgarasu + @prodsoulsss
1:34 -   @prodsoulsss
2:10 -   @odel007
3:02 -  @veezuh
3:45 -   myself
5:28 -  @tamino404
6:18 -   @rpsu
8:24 -  @g_rippo
8:51 -   @tommet45
9:16 -   @kojowav

December Clips ##2k21 (+ lov3ly, odel, kojo, veezuh, tamino404, garasu, irusu, rippo, + more)

pitfall - racket (original pitch)

auxina:

want me to be your dirty little secret 
can’t believe it 
i can’t keep it 
tear me to pieces 
this was a mistake 
i don’t need a heart to break 
bleeding out on a stake 
cut the real from the fake 
said you’d stay 
i knew you’d flake 
no more friends only foes
im counting benjys on the floor
record highs no more lows 
pack of woods from the store 
posted like the crow 
begging give me some more!

i knew you wasn’t sorry 
just another broken soul
tryna harm me 
since you got what you wanted
discard me 
this what happens when my demons
don’t guard me

better off alone 
tears fall in the snow 
fragile yeah I know 
ive been here once before
another cataclysm 
and my condition is critical 
had a ego death
to reach my pinnacle
i been to hell and back 
and my soul freezing cold
wish that I never 
gave you the green light to go 
severed all connections
cut my wrists to seal the note
my demise is destined... 
but it’s nice to leave with hope!

Hook:

want me to be your dirty little secret 
can’t believe it 
i can’t keep it 
tear me to pieces 
this was a mistake 
i don’t need a heart to break 
bleeding out on a stake 
cut the real from the fake 
said you’d stay 
i knew you’d flake 
no more friends only foes
im counting benjys on the floor
record highs no more lows 
pack of woods from the store 
posted like the crow 
begging give me some more!

spiralforever :

i think i lost my grip 
i wake up feeling sick
i get burnt out quick 
i cant stand that shit 
this life this world through these eyes, 
it’s never real enough in this life, 
this world i’m a ghost in the shell 
ghost of myself 
somebody else 
somebody else 
i’m somebody else 
(someone someone someone someone) 
do you even know what it feels like baby 
to lose who you are, 
lose who you were 
to forget why you’re here striving for nothing

auxina:

want me to be your dirty little secret 
can’t believe it 
i can’t keep it 
tear me to pieces 
this was a mistake 
i don’t need a heart to break 
bleeding out on a stake 
cut the real from the fake 
said you’d stay 
i knew you’d flake 
no more friends only foes
im counting benjys on the floor
record highs no more lows 
pack of woods from the store 
posted like the crow 
begging give me some more!

hellheart! + spiralforever (CLOAK)

Lyrics<3

auxina: 

I just can’t get over you
Like what am I scared of?
All alone inside my room 
All these voices in my head (ummm) 
Your sweater on my dresser
Still smell like your perfume 
I just hope you’re hurting too
If your crying Ima need the proof [x2]


dethkitty:

can u hear me? can u feel me?
call ur name but i know ull never reach me
ive tried to change but im scared that this is all ill be
stuck in chains, and i might need u 2 set me free

hold me down
get me out of this town
i can breathe whenever ur around
cuz with u, i feel so safe and sound
i can feel, and this is so confound [x2]


auxina: 

I just can’t get over you
Like what am I scared of?
All alone inside my room 
All these voices in my head (ummm) 
Your sweater on my dresser
Still smell like your perfume 
I just hope you’re hurting too
If your crying Ima need the proof [x2]

crying perfume (CLOAK)

lyrics! 

spiral🌀 

i get too invested
saying things i didn’t mean you know i never meant it
i’m in too deep and i can’t leave i guess i’ll just accept it
sometimes i only think about myself
sometimes it feels like i don’t have nobody else
living in a dream
nothing is real and nothing is what it seems
u took a part of me and i don’t want it back 
the way u look at me u know i can’t stay mad
(i can’t stay mad)
treating me like a lesson
treating like i’m less than
you
(saying things i didn’t mean you know i never meant it)
sorry to bother you
i’m just another you, we got too much in common
back to you, i tried subtracting u 
if we’re being honest
(if we’re being honest)

liliya 🥀

ive been moving forward im not going back
drugs in my system the room turn black
went too far and there’s no turning back
i don’t wanna talk just give me a rack 
i don’t wanna hang with none of y’all y’all wack
used to quit on myself but ima come right back 
he talking crazy and he finna get slapped
my life so shit but you know I’m fucking back

gleam✨

i get obssessive in the night time
blood drawn fangs out like its fright night
behind my back i didnt know u were a rat now
shooting bullets thru ur brain it make a splat sound
im in too deep baby girl in in the background
im sinking deeper baby girl please dont let me drown
please dont let me drown im in the deep end
wake up from this dream like it was pretend
i remember we was kissing on the weekends
all the armor on my heart i couldnt defend
i couldnt defend im filled with defects
u shut me out of ur life like im a reject

auxina🌐

About a bag 
Only things I build is stacks
Friendships fall between the cracks
I’m not trying to break my back
hate my old memories 
Hallways no one would speak to me  
shake demons off of me
my heart up as a offering 
I wonder what you meant 
When you said
That I couldn’t ever be the one
So sad
I’m just a girl inside your crazy world
No pity 
I could kill your heart 
You should fear me

mariana freestyle 24’ - spiral forever + liliya + gleam (SHINJU + APRIL 21)

lyrics🌐💫

auxina:

I…
I don’t wanna try
I don’t wanna look you in the eye
I just know this all a lie
And you know I’m not alive 
Not alive 
Try and try 
To set aside 
All the things that
Put that put us down
All the things we can’t 
Surmount 
I don’t know 
This ain’t all of me 
But I know this ain’t a dream
Hold my hand and breathe 
I can’t really promise where we both will be

cloudii:

i really did try 
numb to my feelings
yeah is this real life? 
u ruined every wednesday for me can’t even lie 
u said i was special then just pushed me aside
no reasoning 
my literal nightmare 
i know i didn’t deserve it 
yeah i know it was not fair 
when things got too hard
all of a sudden you’re not there
i would wish u the best
but it’s hard when u don’t care 
well..
most of the artists that i like are dead anyway 
what would it matter to u if i met an early grave? 
maybe things really could’ve been better
yeah
maybe in another life..

auxina:

I…
I don’t wanna try
I don’t wanna look you in the eye
I just know this all a lie
And you know I’m not alive 
Not alive 
Try and try 
To set aside 
All the things that
Put that put us down
All the things we can’t 
Surmount 
I don’t know 
This ain’t all of me 
But I know this ain’t a dream
Hold my hand and breathe 
I can’t really promise where we both will be…

ଘｎｏｔ ａｌｉｖｅ✶ + cloudii ☁️(VIEN OPAL)

lyrics🌐💫

auxina:

Little star drops 
Falling around my feet
Avoiding sharp rocks
From cutting into me 

Things aren’t the way
They used to be 
Seasons behaving 
Like I was split into three

bey: 

can you leave me alone
i just wanna go home
and that home was you
but now i feel like
i'm on my own

did you even notice
all my cuts and bruises
would you even care
if i jump off a 50 foot cliff?

and i know its different
and ur wasting my breath
but i can't help it
i'm still waiting for you to text

call that wishful thinking
but my faith is sinking
down to the ocean floor
oh i guess it's now over for 
me
for me

auxina:

Little star drops 
Falling around my feet
Avoiding sharp rocks
From cutting into me 

Things aren’t the way
They used to be 
Seasons behaving 
Like I was split into three

💫 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓭𝓻𝓸𝓹𝓼💧 + beybladegirl🦄 (FLESH)

super crush + ilyporo (MIDSO & ENAZE)

happy thanksgiving yall! 💜
Produced by liminaldream
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

I tried to wait, I swear 
But you were never there
So what do I do in this situation?
'Cause you’re not around to care
And everything you’re doing, it ain’t fair

Girl, I don’t know about this
Walking away, you’ll hear the silence of my friends
I’m so numb, can’t do this shit again
You’re moving away, don’t think I’m seeing you again 

I’m wasting my time, I’ve been waiting so long
It doesn’t seem right with the fact that you’re gone
The days just fly by and I’m waiting on you
To save me from myself and what I do
I don’t need no more discussion
'Cause you’re always up to something 
Even if I’m far away, he’ll find a way to show you loving
Girl, I think I’m suicidal and I never gave it thought 
I’ve been in solace, I’ve been idle
I’ve been to scared to walk it off, (Walk it off)

I tried to wait, I swear 
But you were never there
So what do I do in this situation?
'Cause you’re not around to care
And everything you’re doing, it ain’t fair

Girl, I don’t know about this
Walking away, you’ll hear the silence of my friends
I’m so numb, can’t do this shit again
You’re moving away, don’t think I’m seeing you again 

I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb

trials

numb

numb [p. liminaldream]

shoutout @sensuku

Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/65v9zhkgbFE7OAduXBgYmO?si=82bbfeee6a2f42dc

what do i know ft. sensuku (irisv)

@ilyexotic

i've been makin too much money had to break my own limit
everything I do its not the same yeah it's different
yeah I feel disconnected, something is missing
your not with me lose connection yeah your redacted

stab myself I'm not acting, tripping off acid
and I suffer in silence everything I did
I'm obsessed with the violence I love the toxicity
you'll just get rid of me, I hate the way you see things (fuck you)
everything I wanted to be is missing
I just wanted to be in your heart
but now that were apart, can I take your scars
took this shit too far

I cant see
I cant breathe
yeah all this fucking ecstasy
yeah I take your pain away I put it all in me

this shits been so hard
I think I might go far
Im driving these fast cars and I crash into a wall
I might not just go far
but that will be ok
I'm hitting the pedal and I slam into the wall
all these lifeless bodies and I think I killed them all
yeah hiding in the cut yeah we punch you in the skull
and you know I'm cold as shit I keep my jacket on
this hk-416 gonna keep you running keep them asics on

redacted (eczotic)

elfin - breathe

HOLD MY HAND (샤이보이토비 x 포기앳더바텀 타입 비트)

LATENIGHTSINTORONTO

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super crush + ilyporo (MIDSO & ENAZE)

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