do not ask me
cause i dont wanna know
i feel disgusting
been left out on the road
and i can't harness the ability to go it alone
you're talking with your hands and im just tryna empty my throat

fuck it up again, replacing all your friends
rolling over to the colder side of your bed
leave me desperate, always second guessing
learning lessons that I dont seem to take in.

theres alot of this i really need to take in
always changing, shedding all this snake skin
and the rain coming to my shins
i made a pact with myself to never leave but never let you win, but i guess you win
take everything 

barking like a dog in a hot car, shaking fucking up my life im a lost cause making everything little thing so sedated. im anxious

thought it was just a bad day, its a bad week, it's a bad month
i don't care what you say now, im just losing it and im so gone.
take me to a better place, put some oxygen in my lungs.
no pics, we offline, yeah im doing this in my downtime

antipathy

deathlands periphery i

can't see your face through the cellophane
you should stay safe, ill disintergrate
i said that i'll be okay going either way.
but this path is paved with a sentencing.

ill wait inside, it's not hard to let me down
late autumn rain turns to hail, echo city sound.
solace is strange when you split from your bearing bound
ecstasy, tastes like decay this ain't parity.

guess you got what you want, and it's haunting me.
the attic is locked, throw away the key
i just see tesselate patterns in anarchy, part of the reason i paint you so passionately

so don't hit my phone and don't talk to me
i see your thoughts in patterns like symmmetry
i hate your attempts of endearing me
maybe thats part of the reason it's killing me

pull out all of my hair
cant sleep live another fucking nightmare
im fine, couldn't say that my visions clear
told me you won't even see me when you visit here
im transparent, no britney spears
in the catacombs tryna face all my fears
rotting at my skeleton, i was born from decay
maybe thats the reason im acting this way

can't see your face through the cellophane
you should stay safe, ill disintergrate
i said that i'll be okay going either way.
but this path is paved with a sentencing.

ill wait inside, it's not hard to let me down
late autumn night turns to hell, echo city sound.
solace is strange when you split from your bearing bound
ecstasy, tastes like decay this ain't parity.

cellophane

something i could never forget

i been swallowed by the water 
watch me breathe in the salt
treat me like i am your daughter or i'm nothing at all
i see somebody in the mirror she just points out my faults
im masquerading with a spell i can't reverse on my own

to live in tandem with my body, synchronised to my skull, 
to see the colour in the morning where the coffee tastes dull
im on the metro hide my face, so you see nothing at all.
i won't forget all of the times i thought that i wasn't wrong.

i waste time trying to figure it all out
but there’s nothing else i could do

mirror girl (int.)

believe me, i’ve got nothing left to say
and if the words fall out, you will mould them in your hands like clay

and there was a time, during summer solstice that i was happy.
with every line, that pretense started to fall astray

i know i have failed, i let it dominate me.
concurrent feelings of instability let me decay all my integrity 
now I don’t even know just who i am.

cellophane

aval0nn

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