It feels
Lyrics by Oscar Perez Music by Krz Souls and Oscar Perez

It feels like I’m dying 
You have the cure
It feels like I’m lying 
You bring the truth
It feels like I’m crying
You take on my sorrow
It feels like I’m denying what you are to me

I’ve been suffering
Where have you been hiding?
I’ve been suffering 
Can’t hold on anymore
I’ve been suffering
Where have you been hiding?
I’ve been suffering
Now you’re finally here

It feels like I’m dead
You’re the peace in rest
It feels like I’m safe
You make me feel safe
You’re my cozy coffin
It feels like I am smiling 
You brought back the sun
Repeat 1x
You brought back the sun 
That sparked from your lips

It Feels

The Home girl at Bathsalt Tragedy reminded me I had this song.
I wrote this a good minute ago. I was following the advice Sandee Hex had given me. I was feeling down about a relationship that didn't pan out. Her advice- feel everything to the extreme, don't hold back, get it all out. So this song came out of that.

Bleeding Out-
I'm so tired of dying
Just to show I care
I'm so tired of dying
to prove something's there
I'm so tired of dying Love never hurt so much
I'm so tired of dying black rivers burn to rust

You offer heaven
Then take it all away
You give me damnation
To suffer for eternity

I'm lost when you find me
Broken air noise and shadows
I'm lost when I'm found
Silence so loud trembling near
I'm so tired of dying 
Love never hurt so much
I'm so tired of dying
Red rivers turn to dust

Bleeding Out-UNRELEASED TRACK

How could I fall for you?
How could I do this for you?
How could I sell myself so cheap for you
Because I once cared for you
Because I once loved you

I'm so torn
I'm so torn apart
Let you step on me
Let you hit me 
Push the pain aside
Just to see you smile
All the while I was trying

Learned you only cared for yourself
When you have it your way
I dont have a say
Because you know whats best
Thats always right
Now i cant understand why your always right

How could I love someone like you?
Let you step on me
Let you hit me
Push the pain aside
Pushed it deep inside
Just to see you smile
All the while. . .

You dont know whats its like
to feel like this
you took everything from me
I cant believe you stole this
I cant believe you took my 
dignity, sanity, my happiness
I hate you 
I hope you rot

How could I love someone like you?
Let you step on me
Let you hit me
Push the pain aside
Just to see you smile
All the while
I was dying
How could I love someone like you?
Let you step on me
Let you hit me
Push the pain aside
Just to see you smile
All the while
I was dying

All For Your Smile (1st AVM song from mid 2000s)

I pulled away from my social life in October of last year to sort myself out. Through out the process I've been recording none stop. These are the latest tracks I've been working with, but there are nearly 10 more that aren't as complete. Thoughts? 

A Sampler of what's next for AVM

A previously unreleased track featuring Luna Frances from 2014.

Monster featuring Luna Frances

This has yet to be mastered. However I wanted to give those out there an idea of the music I'm making.

Shadows and Whispers

Blaq
Lyrics and Music by Oscar Perez

Made a wish that never came true
Wasted scores of shooting stars
Candles on frosting blown out in sync
Clutching to this desperate hope
To thrive where I have always choked
Seething in bouillons of misery
Bought and sold, gave most away
Still left with more than enough
So strike my name and paint me black

I’ve given up trying to be 
What you have been dying to see
I am becoming something better
Much more like me, less of you
After I rise above your all
You’ll never seen a sight so tall

I’ve been running so long
When running from thyself
Your left breathless and never went anywhere
Longed to feel the sun on my face
Till I was love by the moon
Screams and howls sang in chora
The shadows I bathed in cleansed my soul
And on quiet nights they still whisper my name

I’ve given up trying to be 
What you have been dying to see
I am becoming something better
Much more like me, less of you
After I rise above your all
You’ll never seen a sight so tall


Blaq

Home Movies
Lyrics and Music by Oscar Perez

Watching home movies of us
Watching the smiles rust
Burning every picture of you
Burning the emotion I hide
We danced in black and white
Now I lay in black and gray
Ashes ashes all around
Ashes ashes fall to the ground

Watching home movies of us
Watching the house burn
Burning every reminder of you
Burning the past inside
Locked you in the closet
Now I pour out accelerant 
Ashes ashes all around
Ashes Ashes fall to the ground

Watching home movies of us
Watching the flames grow
Burning the pain inside
Burning you alive
The police are on their way
I’m not going anywhere
Ashes ashes all around
Ashes ashes kiss my lips


Home Movies

Krz all your help has been much appreciated. Love you brotha.

6 minutes left
6 minutes on the clock
save myself or you all
5 minutes left
I'm left with no choice
time to do or die
4 minutes left
I'm left on my own
no one to guide me no one to hide me
3 minutes left
the time is drawing near
no time to think or give in to fear
2 minutes left
Krz comes to mind
what would he do?
what answer would he find?
1 minute left
will I rise or will I fall?
what would Krz do?
Krz would delete it all

Krz would delete it all

no time left
zero on the clock
saved myself from you all
no time left
left with no choice
time to do or die
no time left 
left on my own
Krz to guide me Krz to hide me
no time left
smoke begins to clear
no one to call my dear
no time left
Krz came to mind
what would he do
the answer he would find
no time left 
i watched it fall
what would Krz do?

We would delete it all
Krz would delete it all

Deletion Before Dishonor

AVM started as me making music that I would like to listen to. I've grown up listening to Industrial. I love the music, the scene, and the people I've met that I now call friends. I've tried to combine all the aspect of gothic music that I enjoy into one being. While my influence is very aggrotech, I hope that doesn't pigeon hole me into the genre. I hope you enjoy what I'm creating. Industrial with a humble approach. Currently AVM operates as a duo with Sid in studio and on live keys. Thanks for reading. 

Till we get the album mastered, here are our demos.


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