my most creatively free project i've ever done. every weakness in me embodied in each track.

all credits will be in the description for each song

art by @n9kki

Lines of Death

s/o @starfallxo :D

production: mistmurk (@mistmurk), me and rift (@musicbyrift)
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

stream :)

fiction w/ starfall (mistmurk + avit + rift)

production: me & soma (@prodsoma)
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[intro]
feel alone n helpless
i paved this road w/ no end
tired of playing pretend
just wanna get out this mess

i’m not okay, i confess
these last few months, i’ve been stressed
i just have so much regrets
i just have so much regrets

[verse]
i’ve only had myself to get through all of this, it’s hell.
it’s lonely when the ones u used to know have said farewell
bleeding out, my eyes r open
can’t see, all my senses broken 
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless

[chorus]
nobody even knows it, but i’m tired
i can feel killin all of my desire
doesn’t help when all my “friends” don’t even bother
not a thing that i can try to make me calmer
i’m drowning in emotions down beneath 
i’m grinding all my teeth
it’s getting hard to breathe, so...

tell me, was it a waste?
dug six feet down, no escape.
feels like i just got replaced
by someone better than me
if i left w/o a trace, no one would ponder
this path i’m going down, don’t even wanna 
staying silent cuz i don’t want any drama
heart is bleeding on the floor, guess that’s just karma 

[verse]
i tried my hardest just to be there for y’all
gave every person my all
but u still let me just fall 
u stare and laugh at me when i’m at my low 
don’t have to say it, ik
all that u do, yeah it shows
that i’m not welcome here
that u don’t even care
act like i’m unaware
a sight i cannot bear
i tried my best, i swear
heart on my sleeve, i wear [s/o rod wave]
just left me in despair
u never were a friend

[chorus]

apathetic (avit + soma)

production: me
mixing & mastering: me & orchid (@0rch_id)
cover art: ddertbag @ddertbag

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[chorus]
make me nothing again
mother, i’ve sinned, i repent
i’ll make amends w/ my death
don’t wanna waste your time
so sacrifice my life
i’ll make amends w/ my death

[verse]
i feel it all flow
inside my veins
down below
what i’ve done, i know
my guilt has tainted my soul 
let’s put it all to rest
no more lyin 
in that tattered dress
make me feel like i’m j worthless
everything that i did, i regret
my body shaking, cold 
persisting at my core
my essence, broken, old
my cries, they go ignored  

[chorus]

lilith

i tried at least.

production: me
mixing & mastering: me & windfield @findwield

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

these last few months in these thin walls
blood spilt w words, i’ve been through it all
n i grow tired day by day 
watching all my “friends” leave me 
wish they’d just stayed...
don’t know who i am anymore
i just don’t wanna b ignored
sick of it all…
cuz i’ve changed for y’all for far too long 
n all ur lies roll off ya tongue 
i’m done j being what u want 
it’s clear that i do not belong 

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk 
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me 
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further 
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

my memory’s faded and i’ve lost who i am
this piece i’ve painted, fragments of what was then 
let’s leave it in the past
let it decay to ash
let it just falter… away
feel like my whole life, i’ve been erased
always made me feel like i’m a waste
wishing i could never ever wake 
people switching up on me, it’s hard to say 
but i don’t really feel a thing but apathy
yeah every part of me is numb to pain 
everyday is just a cycle of my misery
and i hate it
cuz it’s always my fault and i’m always the cause of my fall

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk 
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me 
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further 
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

stream <3

same old me

a song ab my struggle and journey w/ identity and dysphoria :)

ty to @nclkyr for being on this with me <3

production: soma @prodsoma
mixing & mastering: orchid @0rch_id & me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

[verse]
ripped all my clothes from my closet
couldn’t bear it
tried breaking every mirror in my home
couldn’t do it
never felt quite right in this body of mine
it’s like i’m living a lie and i feel locked inside
been tryna find the answers to this all my life
but still i hide…

[pre-chorus]
i could dress like this
and i could talk like that
but it would never amount
this feeling just won’t quit
no matter what i do
it lingers back to me
can’t run away…

[chorus]
cuz every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be anymore
x2

[verse: kyra]
im scared to know whats right and wrong 
cuz everything just takes too long 
the way that everyone looks good
and im just stuck here, im thinking 
wish i could do it again and again 
i feel so amazing when im in a dress 
little do they know…
i just dont know who i am anymore

[chorus]
every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be…

[post-chorus]
i could be just like them
or anything that i want
in between or nothing at all
it doesn’t matter to me
cuz in the end, i may not know
what i really want, idk
but i finally know who i am

[outro] (avit + kyra)
who i am 12x
yeah i finally know who i am…

just like them feat. Kyra (Prod. Soma)

produced by me & ginko (@ginkomo)
mixed & mastered by ginko

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

in time, i'll learn (Prod. AViT & Radio Ginko)

production: jacy nyte @jacynyte
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

lately ive been fallin down
but tell me how you doing now?
its been so long since you left town
i miss when i could see you around
u know, i know 
what we both had 
is never ever
coming back
emotions flooding, feeling drowned
but now I guess
ill see you around

i miss your shine of moonlight
glowing bright on you tonight 
i could never be enough for anybody in this life 
walked around this empty town just so I can look upon the night 
and it hurts me without you here
i just want my friend to stay
why’d u leave me without even a single goodbye?
it was all just so soon…

i know i gave a lot of me 
but you know
you stole a part of me
sunrise
shining on your face
me and you
could never separate

ghost town re:do (jacy nyte)

produced by me w/ additional melodies from @1spoof
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
all i wished for is all gone
lines of sight, they’ve been redrawn
wires in my body firing out without u here…
my insecurities
they’re taking shape in me
i know that i can’t do it
but i don’t know

how much can i take
before i finally break
is there still will in me
that i don’t know

existent
inside me
my nerves feel so numb to me
and i can’t accept it
when my heart’s locked up all the way
sickening to see that my body is falling apart
but maybe you’ll just save me again

i keep expecting you 
to be my savior
but it was never true
i feel so fucking used
the truth’s that i’m no good
dependent all on you
to keep me living on
and make it to the other side 
it feels so empty without you
to numb it all
and take away
what i have left
so i can separate myself from everyone
i wish i didn’t need u
to keep me alive
all the vomit and the anguish 
isn’t it all so pitiful?
painted words with all your poison
it’s just so fucking pitiful

my savior

stream

my savior (Prod. AViT & Spoof)

with @prodmusa :)

produced by ria @ria_chuelo & me
mixed & mastered by me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
the numbers going down
and i can’t get enough
obsessed with all my pounds
its been so fucking tough
counting everything i eat
throwing up what i don’t need
the sight of it just makes me sick
dont wanna take the risk
i cant quit it
each day just passes by
don’t even know why i try anymore

its all on the floor 
what i see, i deplore
but i just want it more
dont have any remorse
its all on the floor 
what i see, i deplore
but i just want it more
dont have any remorse

hallowed bones wither away
just rip my cuts I hate my skin
a silhouette of nothing appears in my room while my house is on fire

used to call me everyday when u need my help
when i’m breaking down this bed it’s like show & tell 
you just say you would choose your words carefully 
it’s not how it’s supposed to be

the darkness surrounds me
my eyes bleed when I sleep
these mirrors around me…
my eyes bleed when I see
the darkness surrounds me
my eyes bleed when I sleep
these mirrors around me…
my eyes bleed when I see

deplorable feat. Musa (Prod. Ria & AViT)

produced by ria @ria_chuelo & me
mixed & mastered by me

additional help from @oolacile !

Released under @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
this pain inside me i can’t stand it
im all alone cause i can’t fit in
gotta be like this or that… but i can never be just me
cause im such a mess and i can’t control it
at least i’ll admit that i am just worthless
but u are the one that’s giving me hope
even though truly ur killing me slowly

its so hard for me to win
when all i do is just pretend
im not okay, im not alright
i only want u by my side…
its so hard for me to win
when all i do is just pretend
im not okay, im not alright
i only want u by my side…

u make me feel alive as ur poison drags me down
and every time i cry, ur always there to numb what’s left…

im nothing without u
u make me sick but i dont care
blood oozing… constricting…
it’s all just coming out
weighed down by ur machinations
you’ve ruined my life, congratulations…

poison (Prod. Ria & AViT)

w/ @jacynyte :)

produced by @prodsoma , @zekzo099 & @nicopatty
mixed & mastered by me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:

i laid bare everything that made me weak
yet every1 knew me more than i did 
and i could never see myself from where they stood
until i finally looked deep inside my soul
and now..

i can see where the lines meet
and every weakness in between
my bloodshot eyes tell me all i need
so you will never have to peek
written on these closing walls
the words i never got to speak
so i embrace it, all my wrongs 
and finally i feel so free

but it just feels so fucking fake
told all the time that i should change 
in truth, u never believed in me 
to overcome what i became 
but it’s not ur fault
it just wasn’t enough
everything that you say 
(is) like a knife through my heart
and to think that we could end it all
in the blink of an eye, these lines just halt

i can see where the lines meet
and every weakness in between
my bloodshot eyes tell me all i need
so you will never have to peek
written on these closing walls
the words i never got to speak
so i embrace it, all my wrongs 
and finally i feel so free

the way i look and how i talk
don’t say you’re sorry it’s not your fault
my eyes are tired of it all
my every flaw always gets involved
already know what is wrong with me
the silent words just make it hard to breathe
try to force it but it’s hard to be who you’re supposed to see
wanna fall asleep till i…
cannot think about it anymore
let it hurt till it’s silent in my core
try to be me, just another thing i force
now every word you say is like a sword to my heart
let it all
fall apart
right where you can see it
these heartstrings tangled up with vines
let go, it’s way too much to hide

lines of death feat. Jacy Nyte (Prod. Soma, Zekzo & Nicopatty)

produced by me, soma & nicopatty @prodsoma @nicopatty
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

it sounds like i'm losing! (Prod. AViT, Soma & Nicopatty)

produced by nicopatty @nicopatty & soma @prodsoma
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
these eyes on me just staring me down 
they pretend like they know who i am
but i’m not the person i used to be
and i’ll never look back on with grief

endured all your pain
but i never want to see your faces again
they all laughed and stared at me
fingers pointed and always ashamed
always anxious
always fearing what’s ahead
but i’ll never heed your words of defeat
who i am doesn’t matter to me  

i apologize for not failing now
guess i’m not as weak as you thought i’d be
i’ve ignored it for so long, all your doubts
all just paperweight, the shit that you said

these eyes on me just staring me down 
they pretend like they know who i am
but i’m not the person i used to be
and i’ll never look back on with grief
the years i spent just wasted on 
what you could never change
it still hurts inside what you forced in me 
and i fucking hate that now you just stare 

watching me, my every move
just waiting in the dark
for me to fall down asleep
awaiting till i’m weak 
all i wanted was to be left alone 
but it was never enough for you
you wanted more when i had naught
but it was never enough for you
you wanted more when i had naught

hate how you stare (Prod. Nicopatty & Soma)

produced by nicopatty @nicopatty
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
been thinking of what i'll do next
but i could never think ahead like that
and ive been stuck just gazing at these endless lines
wondering where they lead
cuz ive been runnin circles round n round
a never ending spiral of my doubt
this path ive paved
i never felt it ever fit me

dont know how much i can blame it 
on my mistakes, but im breaking
but i cant sit in my misery when i'm so close to what i want

its in my hands, its in my hands
all my hopes and dreams inch closer to me
all up to me to finally grasp what ive yearned for my entire life

been so dependant on what came to me
that i never made any chances for myself
was it really worth the risk
to try again and again
repeating my mistakes
to think it'd all just end this way

this dream that i once had
just leave it to decay
it lingers, it just stays
ill let it rot away...

in my grasp (Prod. Nicopatty)

produced by jacy nyte @jacynyte
mixed & mastered by jacy nyte & me
additional vox by jacy nyte

Released under @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:

the breeze falls down
the light goes out
it’s another day i’ve gone lost and afraid
anxious waiting for my future
and what’s next
cuz i failed everyone i knew
i succumbed to it all again 
i hate this feeling of defeat
i never wanted any of this

it was never meant to be like this
only wanted to hide my feelings
never wanted to show weak i am
but it was all inevitable…

the weight is on me
and i can’t handle the pressure
by myself 
will u be there
to guide me
to help me?

i never wanted this (Prod. Jacy Nyte)

i just need some time alone.

produced by soma & me @prodsoma
mixed & mastered by me
art by yonosora https://linktr.ee/yonosora

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
so sew my eyes shut
don’t ever want to see it near
it’s like these deep cuts
blood’s pouring out, it’s all over me
i’m feeling weak and can’t get off my knees
i need a break, i need to fucking breathe
can’t promise anything that i won’t keep
don’t stay by me, please do not look at me now 

yeah i never wanted 
any of this pain, it’s killing me now 
it’s all just self-inflicted
this air, it’s filled with toxins 
and i feel surrounded
heart’s pacing round it
this pressure’s closing
but i never wanted to admit it 

it fills my lungs
and it all feels so wrong
all my work undone 
i just no longer belong 
no place to call my home
nowhere that i can run
no one i can believe
no time to fucking breathe 

feel my time is up
got nothing else in luck
i’m bleeding out my words
and oh i know, it hurts to say it
don’t wanna pick the pieces
given too many chances
do not deserve forgiveness
from u, i don’t deserve it
i need some space
to catch my breath
i need it bad
i’m ripping apart at every seam

Breathe (Prod. Soma & AViT)

with @serginaa :D

produced by zekzo, tanuki & soma @zekzo099 @prodsoma 
mixed & mastered by tanuki & marmal8
art by: https://twitter.com/kmk221B

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:

why do i try?

all my time is running me out on me
yet i never got to tell you my thoughts
was too scared to get close to you 
but i’ll never make the same mistakes again

i would never let you go my dear
without you, I’m empty without a soul
no one understands you just like i do
so just wait, so just wait for me

sergina:
u could lift me up then just watch how i melt
through ur fingertips 
put up with all the cards you’ve dealt
if you cared how i felt
you’d never say that to me
but it’s no surprise 
when i look into ur eyes

avit:
and just see how empty you are
walking ‘round like you’re already dead 
makes me sick to see u like this
don’t understand it 
but my hands are all tied

sergina:
i can’t force it out of u to tell me that ur fine
when the hour fades 
ur heart is cold compared to mine
i know u forgot
it doesn’t mean that ur alright
so come find me somehow 
find me somehow 

avit:
i would never let you go my dear
without you, I’m empty without a soul
no one understands you just like i do
so just wait, so just wait for me

sergina:
i would never run away, i’m right here
and forever will never be enough
i don’t care what u decide in the end
so just wait, could u wait?

gina:
do u see me?
do u feel hurt?
watch as i bleed
for what it’s worth 
is this the cost?
is this what’s love?
cuz if it is
i should give up

avit:
i would never let you go my dear
without you, I’m empty without a soul
no one understands you just like i do
so just wait, so just wait for me

sergina:
i would never run away, i’m right here
and forever will never be enough
i don’t care what u decide in the end
so just wait, could u wait?

No One But You

Stream!

No One But You feat. Sergina (Prod. Zekzo & Soma)

Produced by Tanuki & Soma @prodsoma 
Mixed & Mastered by Tanuki & Nick Hyatt at Precursor Studios
Art by https://twitter.com/hazisirazu_606

Instagram: instagram.com/avit69
YouTube: youtube.com/c/avit69
Website: www.avit.wtf

Lyrics:
Couldn't imagine
What really has happened
Was blinded by the lies
And missed it all
Didn't believe that
You would just drag me down and
Wrap me around your fingertips
When I opened my wounds for you
Tied up in knots
Breaking me down
With everything gone
Blood spilled
Locked inside
Tired of all these feelings…

It feels likes waves are crashing
Drowning all of me
There's just no end to my sorrow
And I can't face it
Memories flowing right through me
Want it erased
My worthless state
These chains I made
Is this my fate?

Fading from me
I'm waiting
For the day I can
Finally unpaint this tragic story
Serenading to no one
Walls I broke down
Just for you
To break me down
Cause it's all I know
To never let it show
Emotions in tow
All written in notes
But it never works in my favor
To let them know
That I'm hurting and a burden
To everyone close to me
Don’t want them to drown in
These waves of my contempt

It feels likes waves are crashing
Drowning all of me
There's just no end to my sorrow
And I can't face it
Memories flowing right through me
Want it erased
My worthless state
These chains I made
Is this my fate?

Your existence has made
My living a hell on earth
And I can’t bear it now
Glaring at me
With those eyes, can’t perceive
Flooding in my wake
These waves
These waves
Let it wash over me
Cleanse me of my ways
My ways
My ways
And consume these flames

These depths I'm falling into
I'll never come back from
It all returns to me
It sinks my heart
I can feel rising below me
The tides turn and seek to stay
You came back to
Bring me down with you
So drown me whole

Drowned in Sorrow

Drowned in Sorrow (Prod. Tanuki & Soma)

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Avit-angel-lyrics

Production: Yago @yagoproduces & Spyder @prodspyder
Mixing: OuterSpaceVortex @outerspacevortex
Mastering: OuterSpaceVortex @outerspacevortex

➠ Instagram: instagram.com/avit69
➠ Youtube: youtube.com/c/AViT69
➠ Streaming Platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

Heaven From Above

Angel

Stream ⚔️

Angel [Prod. Spyder & Yago]

it'll be fall soon.

lyrics: https://genius.com/Avit-seasons-lyrics

production: spencer hoover @spencer1629
mixing & mastering: vendr @vendr

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

seasons (spencer hoover)

i'm sorry.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5A4Hjx2RAeo

production: maknae @mkne
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:
i fell in luv with u last year
your pretty smile and eyes, so clear
i thought that we would be forever
but we’re not together now
you made me better every time
we’d talked for hours on facetime
and every call we always said
“i love you baby and goodbye”

say goodbye
you fucking lied
you left my messages on read
when i said: “i don’t want to end”
say goodbye
i fucking miss you all the time
i hate feeling this way
but i can’t help it tonight

tonight
tonight
you left without warning
my heart on fire, burning
the pain tonight, it’s hurting
i’ll write it down, record it

after i write this verse
my mind will go blank and blur
this is the last time
you’ll be on my mind
tonight it ends
tonight it ends
tonight it ends
tonight it ends

say goodbye
you fucking lied
you left my messages on read
when i said: “i don’t want to end”
say goodbye
i fucking miss you all the time
i hate feeling this way
but i can’t help it tonight

goodbye </3 (maknae) // video in desc.

to everyone new and old who've been supporting me. thank you :)

production: noki @nokiyzu
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:
just a while ago, i was callin your phone
hitting you up all night, saying:
“i love you, goodbye”
now all our texts are so dry
but at least my streams going high
i really do not know why :/
it’s so funny you’re talking to me
when you see me, moving like stocks in the scene
don’t act like you know me
if you see me on your feed

fuck you, i don’t need you
you can tweet at me, but don’t expect a follow back ;)
i hate you, i despise you
you’re just a memory to me
fuck you, i don’t need you
you can tweet at me, but don’t expect a follow back ;)
i hate you, i despise you
you’re just a memory to me

yeah i spent all my nights
stayed up, writing these fucking lines
wasting my energy and time
(god damn, i really need a life)
just know that i will never fold
cuz i got me and all my bros
strapped up and ready to fucking go
if u keep talking shit, you hoe
shout out to all my goons
kenny, gage, eric too!
the real adventure was the friends i made so far it seems.
you’re all i fucking need.
you’re all i fucking need.
(except for you bitch. fuck you! :D)

fuck you, i don’t need you
you can tweet at me, but don’t expect a follow back ;)
i hate you, i despise you
you’re just a memory to me
fuck you, i don’t need you
you can tweet at me, but don’t expect a follow back ;)
i hate you, i despise you
you’re just a memory to me

twitterloser (noki)

follow @blackwinterwells :D
production: kuru @kggn & kojo @kojowav
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:
i've been so damn down bad 
baby i won't lie
but i hope that you understand just why i cry
and i know that the pain inside me won't subside
until my lungs collapse inside from all these lies
baby you and me
could never be
what we both needed
left alone, bleeding

i'm so tired of the mess i made and
wish i could take back what i said then
and i know it hurts to say it
i still love you and i hate it
your lipstick still stains my neck
and this ice i have cannot cover it
your voice still haunts my head 
it'll kill me till i'm dead

down bad w/ blackwinterwells (kuru + kojo)

i'm trying my best to get better. i’m sorry.

this a single off my album lol

production: heavn @heavenindaclouds
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:
baby all this medicine is killing me
i know it hurts you slow, so please just leave me be
lungs collapsed, i cannot breathe
wide awake but still asleep
my body’s breaking under pressure
my mind is always under the weather
i hope that one day i won’t be
such a fucking mess and leave

take me out my misery
break my heart and let me bleed
fuck these drugs, i wanna be
happy just for once, god please

falling down
i wish u were around
so you could tell me that this is not the real me
i broke my promise to you.
i’m sorry for hurting you.
i hope this relapse will be my last.

take me out my misery
break my heart and let me bleed
fuck these drugs, i wanna be...
fuck.

relapse (heavn)

lol fuck u

this also a single off my album lol

art by @n9kki

production: coleslau @coleslau & ria @ria_chuelo
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[hook]
she said: “baby, i don’t like to waste no time”
well shawty ion ‘member asking you a single time
you’re always fucking stuck up, yeah i see right through your lies
girl look me in my eyes and ask me if i seem alright?
yeah, you always rushing into shit
you never know when to fucking quit
i hate how you run around my head
but baby i love how you pretend

[verse]
yeah you’re fake as hell to me
i wish your face just went away
rude, i know
but you’re so cold
i’m sick of falling for your games
by the end of this, ik you’ll play it off
tellin all ur friends: “it’s cool, the issue’s gone”
but we both know that’s far from true

[breakdown]
laugh all u want
idc
prefer to be blunt
think that’s fair
and you wonder why
you got no reply
u don’t deserve my attention

don’t even try
it’s not worth it
just say goodbye
yeah you won’t be missed

[bridge]
yeah you won’t be missed x2
i can’t believe i let you waste my time
everything u did, still do not know why
after what u said to me x2

[hook]

stuck-up (coleslau + ria)

production: heavn @heavenindaclouds
mixing & mastering: me & heavn

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[hook]
ur voice rewinding in my head like a recording
if i could take back all the time, then i’d restore it 
i never gave u ‘nough of my love or attention 
and it’s my fault that what we had are now just fragments 

[verse]
wish i could hit restart
b4 we fell apart
yeah i’d give everything to pause that moment of our lives
and all those fights were meaningless
whenever i start to reminisce 
about the past
can we go back?

[bridge]
can we go back?

[hook]
x2

[outro]
yeah I've been picking up the pieces
of this broken home we've made and
i need you x2
and if I tell you all my secrets
will you keep them close to your heart?
for me <3 x2

broken record (heavn)

shout-out @sanriorose ily

production: glasear @glasear & skress @skress
mixing & mastering: me & heavn @heavenindaclouds

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[hook]
i feel you creepin on me
haunting, while i sleep at night
crawling around my head like spiders
waiting just to bite
yeah like a stalker, you be seekin me at every sight
yeah you know
you’re on my mind like all the time

[verse]
i feel the tension in the air
the cigarette smoke
idc
as long as i’m close to you
you’ll always leave me in awe

ik that baby that we
always seem to disagree
but i promise you
we can start anew

the chills you give me
run down my spine
it always keeps me up at night
please stay with me tonight
i’ll make it worth your time

[hook]

[verse: d0llywood1]
ur on my mind like all the time
what was urs was also mine
and u kno im always right
its not fair to pick that fight
and u kno i see thru it
beat u to it
now ur gone
take my soul i dont need it
and ur creeping
caught it all

ill make it worth ur time
ill make it worth ur time
ill make it worth ur time
ill make it worth ur time

[hook]

all the time w/ d0llywood1 (glasear + skress)

feat. the bestie <3 @angelus7k

production: noki @nokiyzu , heavn @heavenindaclouds & blackwinterwells @blackwinterwells
mixing & mastering: me & heavn

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

make-believe w/ angelus (noki + heavn + blackwinterwells)

basically twitterloser but i’m even more mad

production: jane remover @janeremover
mixing & mastering: me & heavn @heavenindaclouds

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[verse]
get out my head
wish u were dead
yeah when i bled
u laughed n stared
while i was down bad
left with dread
without a friend 
left in the end

i’m all alone and i’m ok with that
as long as u stay way the fuck right back 
yeah baby don’t attempt to come right back
cuz baby i don’t rlly know ‘bout that

[pre-chorus]
and even though u been gone from my life so long
ur presence lingers on and on
and all those scars u left on me
just make me want to fucking scream

[hook]
i h8 u! 
despise u! >:(
ur the reason i’m this way
suicidal
can’t get up, no
ur the reason i’m this way
i’m numb to 
the pain now :/
ur the reason i’m this way
your lies and 
your fake love
ur the reason i’m this way

[verse]
yeah it’s so hard for me to just pretend 
it’s all ok
when u were close to me, and u just gave my love away 
i trusted u, guess that’s too bad :/
i shoulda knew, it makes me mad >:(

well it’s ur loss
n it’s ur fault 
that we fell apart
n u left me to rot 
what we had, i laid it to rest
those wasted years, i feel regret

[pre-chorus & hook]

[outro w/ 28 ppl :o]

ur the reason im this way (jane remover)

ima be honest, i just winged it on this one.

production: jane remover @janeremover
mixing & mastering: me & jane remover

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

lights out
darkness shrouds ‘round my head
my doubt
clouds my thoughts ‘til i’m dead
without you baby
i can’t stand
to even sleep inside my bed

lights out
i wish that i could forget everything
lights out
i wish this void wasn’t consuming me
lights out
everything i do, you’re always right next to me
lights out
i just want you out my head
lights out
let me breath for one damn sec
lights out
i hope this pain inside won’t last
lights out

AViT

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