my art teacher told me to make an album for my final so here we are

grad'23 (AVXiD x Sorrow Bringer)

lyrics 

Ik that u used to love me
idk now
I can't tell now
Idk of my life worth something
idk now
I can't tell now
I been talking to a ghost
gimme hate that's all I know
I been walking on the coast
of my brain and I might go
back to hiding in my hole
ion know tho idk

is it fair tho
blood up in my hair tho
and I'm scared tho
now my pulse froze
and my hearts on ice like my wrist cold
ribs close
and my eyes roll

IDK
WHAT I KNOW
AND I WISH
I COULD
 GO
HOME
BUT MY HOME
IS WHERE MY HEART IS
AND MY HEARTS GONE
AND IM NUMB

Ik that u used to love me
idk now
I can't tell now
Idk of my life worth something
idk now
I can't tell now
I been talking to a ghost
gimme hate that's all I know
I been walking on the coast
of my brain and I might go
back to hiding in my hole
ion know tho idk


my heart is_gone

lyrics 

we fight
we fall
we try again
each night
im lost
and can't be helped
I wish you treated
me an equal
but I'm nothing
but fodder aren't I
I don't say
what I think
bc I promise
it'll hurt
so I won't
so I don't
somebody put me in the dirt
I don't say
what I think
bc I promise
it'll hurt
so I won't
so I don't
somebody put me in the dirt

I remember summer nights
alone and I
wanted to talk to you
but I didn't know how
and I wish we
could go back then
with what we know
in the current tense
on no
not again
im thinking about everything again
I wish
I had just
ignored it
like I said I would
we're not good
we're not good

we fight
we fall
we try again
each night
im lost
and can't be helped
I wish you treated
me an equal
but I'm nothing
but fodder aren't I
I don't say
what I think
bc I promise
it'll hurt
so I won't
so I don't
somebody put me in the dirt
I don't say
what I think
bc I promise
it'll hurt
so I won't
so I don't
somebody put me in the dirt


i wish we could turn back time

lyrics 

Soul eater
desecrate the theatre
from the past leader
one liter 
of my blood quenched his rampant thirst
oh but u know how bad it hurts
cuz he got to u too
and it must suck
when it's all thru 

and I'm back to my old ways
honest it's just like old days uh
wait
idk what they told u 
but past this point no one goes thru
2 deep in this bottle 
honestly should go full throttle uh
I ain't gone let me wallow
dead are dead and there ain't no follow up

im in the trees and Im followed uh
up to my knees in the problem 
I just won't acknowledge em
I jus won't let them up
all this talk about me just makes me feel like no one rly pays attention
cuz then they'd kno it's wrong

this was our favorite song
the one about seeing, staring , swearing, I'll always be caring, what
listen to wear by xona
that was the first time I should've saw the end but I ain't let myself
I wasn't prepared, but I always was prepared huh

Soul eater
desecrate the theatre
from the past leader
one liter 
of my blood quenched his rampant thirst
oh but u know how bad it hurts
cuz he got to u too
and it must suck
when it's all thru 




spirit_ devourer

lyrics

and everything we thought
had left us on our own
and everything we want
slips from out our grasp
and when I play this song
I hope u feel something
because I went numb
a couple monthsago
I had my future laid out and you were in my plans
but I know everything good, has to end
and when I move on I hope you have felt the same
because at this point I don't know what to say

I know the terms were on lead us to a worse place
I promise you I wasn't mad, I just dont wanna face
the person who I ruined my relationship with
because I wouldn't forgive myself if I did

I had my future laid out and you were in my plans
but I know everything good, has to end
and when I move on I hope you have felt the same
because at this point I don't know what to say

and if the future holds promise of a better life
Id throw it all away to burn in your light
and if the past was indicative of the future
I hope you save me when I'm too far in my own world


future_ interlude

lyrics

U hurt my heart n u kno
everything just goes to show
im dead 
but I want more
i said
I tried
im floored
my heart breaks like a vase
don't wanna see my face
im ugly I'm terrible
i know I'm dead to you all

it's me and half a monster vs the world
flowers wilt and my flesh start to curl
my vessel running low
it's may but I wish for snow
barely slept in the past 2 weeks
n now I'm seeing things
I keep my room pitch black
bc I don't wanna see anything 
ion wanna be reminded again
of what i Lost then
my head is killing me
Ill sleep better when I'm dead

I KNOW WHAT HAPPENED THEN
SO DONT SAY ANYTHING
I DONT KNOW WHATS BEEN SAID
BUT EVERYTHING WE DID
AND EVERYTHING IS GONE
AND I JUST CANNOT RUN
FROM THE FATE I ACCEPTED
TWO MONTHS AGO AND STOP

U hurt my heart n u kno
everything just goes to show
im dead 
but I want more
i said
I tried
im floored
my heart breaks like a vase
don't wanna see my face
im ugly I'm terrible
i know I'm dead to you all

ugly

lyrics 
Welcome to the end
of me 
why don't u ever listen when I speak
I barely ate in a week
these r the things u will never see
YOU KNEW THAT I LOVED YOU
AND GOD I TRIED TO TRUST U 
YOU KNOW THAT I TRIED 
AND YOU KNOW THAT I STILL LOVE YOU

take 2: the end of me intro

Shangri-La fent trap hood invasion thug saucer unidentified flying object

Lyrics-

You can’t stand me 
So I up the ante
Score streak 
Quad feed 
I found the Easter egg in life
Like I’m playing zombies
Put the perk all on my pizza
Overdose I’m hungry
I turnt the Netflix to a theater
Bitch I’m that guy
I turn the heads when I walk in 
Hoe I’m that fly 
Grab a fuckin sprite and I’m pouring
Fuckin Hotel sky…
View when i walk in 
Hermes towel
Instagram stalking
2k balling
2k swag got the white hoes falling
2 plannet ass 
I love joggers while I’m driving

2Kay) (@Noedev)

lofi cover of home by ilyl1ght

https://on.soundcloud.com/UPsTw

home (ilyl1ght)

anywhere.

track 11
release
drums by @ejcarrmusic
mastered by david kowalski

lyrics:
stay
its what i couldn’t do
pray
they’ll get a hold of you
i’ll release all i’ve done
see the ways that i’ve won
on a summer night
if it decays with the sun
do we see winter months
by the candlelight?

i want to scream out my lungs
but won’t they hear what i’ve done
they could reprieve me
but you see, i just can’t justify
im baring teeth like a dog
so i can see what i’ve lost
if you were me, neither of us
would dare put up a fight

i know its all gonna change, don’t wait for the rain
i’ve had these feelings the same, but don’t remember the place
it took a year just to fade, don’t ask me again
‘cause when you say what you said
i’m ten all over again
when you say what you said
i’m ten all over again

TEN (OVER AGAIN)

track 10
took a big swing
drums by @ejcarrmusic
mastered by david kowalski

lyrics:
i’ve got this delicate thing in my hands, i might break it
i never know how to react so i fake
every motion intact though i know when to save it
i’ll bring it all back to ya, know i might hate it

‘cause all we do
is lie to ourselves
oh all we do
is lie to ourselves

my senses all impaired
you want what you know that you can’t share
the fruits of our labor left in air so cold
theres no one even there to hold you
love then lose, i swear
the cycle we push through isn’t fair
the weight of the world we hate to have to hold
the years of old come back to haunt you

is there more to life than brief dilapidation 
i’m just sick of all the chances that i’m wasting
if you’re here for me i’d rather you just say it
these relationships are never as explained
yet i know
if i want it back ill have to move a mountain
and twofold
there’s no going back to save me when i’m drowning

‘cause all we do
is lie to ourselves
oh all we do
is lie to ourselves

my senses all impaired
you want what you know that you can’t share
the fruits of our labor left in air so cold
theres no one even there to hold you
love then lose, i swear
the cycle we push through isn’t fair
the weight of the world we hate to have to hold
the years of old come back to haunt you

IMPAIRED

[ghøst]
i let the weed, racks, fame get to my head
i feel like candy
my head so damn inflated
pipe down lil bitch, you hatin
i know you dont wanna see me make it
2 bad lil bitch, ima make it
i been talkin to God, i been prayin
too bad that im not worth saving
they dont understand whats goin on in my head
they just tell me that i “act like i dont care”
but they dont see me stressin in my bed
crying out my eyes cus ik that i fucked everything up

what is my luck
pls just tell me something, i know that its all love
they gon shit on me for nothin, prolly say i aint do enough
but my momma said im good as long as i aint givin up
okay im good
just spark that wood
this gon get you higher than you ever thought you would get
why would i need a lighter when i know she gonna spark it?
ion need a driver, im my generations Hamilton

[aachzz]
they know everything i make is hard
thats why they gave me a bag
cant be havin my name on a track
cus they know im gon blow up instead
& they know that they cannot have that
ima pass all of yo favorite rappers

im in the studio like every night 
come in & catch you a vibe
they think im cookin up right now but this is something light
they wanna be me but they dont believe me that this is something slight
you couldnt do this

[ghøst]
i let the weed, racks, fame get to my head
i feel like candy
my head so damn inflated
pipe down lil bitch, you hatin
i know you dont wanna see me make it
2 bad lil bitch, ima make it
i been talkin to God, i been prayin
too bad that im not worth saving
they dont understand whats goin on in my head
they just tell me that i “act like i dont care”
but they dont see me stressin in my bed
crying out my eyes cus ik that i fucked everything up

candy (tiresss)

prod. ryan kelly + nihil2free

lyrics

i cant feel safe with u in my head
i slammed it back to kill off my dread
i pick skin right off of his flesh
its always toughest right by the chest
the creaking house foreshadows his death
he thinks he can but be will not rest
he wakes up relieved in his bed
to find hes missing limbs with wounds fresh

it gets better when u wake up
cover it all up with makeup
honest i don’t think ill see ya
anytime soon my mind is made up

spent 3 days in this old wood cabin
u dont seem to get it when i tell u i am past it
i see like 30 something shadows here on average
and none of them are mine they belong to the captain

i had shown so much
and u had known so much
i can call your bluff
but it wont same me from this hunt

i cant feel safe with u in my head
i slammed it back to kill off my dread
i pick skin right off of his flesh
its always toughest right by the chest
the creaking house foreshadows his death
he thinks he can but be will not rest
he wakes up relieved in his bed
to find hes missing limbs with wounds fresh

sleepcycle (p. ryankelly + nihil2free)

highway (p. ryankelly + nihil2free)

im no different than yesterday
days will bleed together
we’ll all be replaced
some of are us fake
but i’ll share my thoughts out
you won’t hear me 
you just hear my sound

i got lots of words to say
i don't share them here
they're all on my alt page
i hate to leave my house
i fear they laugh at my face
i walk into work in fear 
and i dont know how to behave

idk where i'm going
same song it’s still not flowing
what if they hear
what if they find the real me
change their mind
they'll change their mind about me

all they say is ‘nice song’
like did u read the lyrics...
ignorance is bliss 
maybe they just don't see it
maybe they don't know

i'm crashing out in a song
where did this come from
where did i go wrong
i have been feeling this
i have been feeling this for so long
wanna ruin my body like i ruined my brain
the cycle is repeating and the cycle is insane

oh its only 10pm on a wednesday
why it got me feeling this way
tell me how to erase my brain
all my songs are sounding the same

everything just sounds the same now
in the mirror i've been looking lame now
i don't even wanna fucking go out
i ruined everything i ruined everything

do u still listen
to my songs
used to see ur name
now it's gone
seems i've been replaced by the one
i don't think she's changed
why don't u run

real me [nctrn]

RUN AWAY! (+dead yami)

i will see it thru

4EVER // deadwood

avxidmgmt@gmail.com

future_ interlude

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