The Repetition of Desire

when you look in the night
do you see the sky line

those fucking city lights
they get me everytime

my bitch a hole in one
shit she put my soul in one

them ghosts just stay been haunting her
dont think her fam is fond of her

just promise that you,ll think about me
when you’re all alone

just keep my memory 
we got plenty
love me when im gone

you lost that part of me
opinion more like honesty

i ruined you to ruin me
i want you down i want you to be me

is it so toxic?
ima memoryholic

ima go back and polish
ima remove your actions

am god

ima do what kenny do
they gon kill me when me due

keep they pockets bountiful
wont dish no plate of food

ya u wish they were able to
more like if they wanted to

cause they could
and they should
when they would
they would do it

i held my hands open
wishing loathing
auntie owed them

lessened all my tropes 
and didnt cope
i let it go

missing all my goals
life inside a tote
we can take a road 
trip inside a boat
on a island tho
with a cayman island ho
all A honor roll
more B honor roll
she C honor roll
aunt DD on the phone
knock em 
leave em lone
tiffny went and brought it home
 
i went and lost a bag 
i went and bought a home

aint tearing off the tags 
on all these prada clothes

i,ll keep on fucking shopping
until the building close

been knocking over shit
like it was dominoes

he threw a pissy fit
over some dominoes

they pressed about a kid
but love the commas tho

they wait on awesomecat
to come and bring it home

bouta get an awesome tat
encapsulate my home

chaotic atmosphere 
i must’ve hate my home

i almost shed a tear
i contemplate my home

but when u flip it like a bat
illuminate my home

dandelion

sticks and nines
clips all the time

she be giving cold shoulder
and i be feeling everytime

and my dealer gon andalé
he gon speed up fuck the line

my crazy white girl doing lines
im nodding off are you in line

i say you are mine
and we in love

bae come roll this spliff
hit a j

lets go roll it up
she like my sunshine or some
she help me see the light

i love you and what you do
id hate to lose you

you the only 1
not 3 or 2 u number 1

fuck what come over me
dont what be holding me

i see u in my destiny
if the fortune got us good 
then we good
baby god is good

bae lets celebrate 
lets go smoke
smoke 100 woods

im not from the hood
from a gated fucking neighborhood

neighbor fucking crazy
bet he got a fucking weed farm

oh when i enter
what do you wanna infer

baby what you in for
baby where you headed
baby where you going

fleur c’est me

where ever u are i am
where ever u arent i aint

i aint

i love it too much to die
i,ll never be afraid 

i stared at her retinas
into her eyes i,ll never be the same

she pray i fucking overdose
i pray the fucking same

they all just see me geeking out
they all think im insane

drugs not the problem
its my solution 

pray i overdose 
with a smile
i want it over

wasnt be covert
could tell who u were (2x)
dont lie to me

feel just like a butterfly
i just really wanna fly
out my cocoon tonight
i just wanna fly tonight

sober is my kryptonite
shawty to my crib tonight
we can play a game or sum
we can do a bunch of drugs

weed saved my life (4x)

put my habits overdrive
fuck you doctor
ima alive

stuck inside a limbo
heaven hell
been both

banging on da windows
my heart beat crescendo
feel in my blood oh

eyes shot oh no
hope that they dont know
just another druggie hobo

fuck it roll up two more
capsules on the table

drank spilling everywhere
lost the feeling everywhere

the repetition of desire

got people scrambling
like actors tryna find position

sprite act
yea that composition

made a pact
to the competition

no flags
for the opposition 
 no tags 
riding apparition

no past
fucking apparition 

no sales
fucking demolition 

you done
no win

dont let em in
no letterman

get better man
write better man

read testament
cause you suck

suck and duck shots
second buckshots

up and run shots
pour me up shots

hoe from amsterdam
18 hours till i land

i run my tour
nah fuck a band 

never opened up
my hand

i gave em shoutouts
outhouse  they’re full of shit

gave em the plates
that they went ate off
now they treat me like im adolf

tried to push back
from like 8 walls
but they come back build like 8 more

thought my life
was just like jersey shore
now my life is just like jersey shore

i keep my young ones good
they always drink ensure
tl;dr keep it short
shoutout dr 
mi amor

mayleen head like a xenomorph
her head shape like a v of course
this bar is just a size report

broken off the walls of balance
i feel like sean o malley

born in my own lil alley
i thought my mom would help me

sunny weed it come from cali
i love it cloud my memory

i hate my peers i envy
want what they have and then be

i think my childhood fucking sucked
them drugs i keep fucking up

them families wish they were us
my bad we wish we were them

the things we would do for ms
impossible more like kim

but pops want us more like him

cant afford therapy cause
black ppl hate the doctors

the doctors just hate us monsters
the offers are scam artists

bet they just all vampiric
they talk but they dont hear it

no wonder we loud mouths
no wonder we got big ears

no wonder we dance for them
no wonder we dance for them

crow

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