This is a work in progress, these songs some i've recorded, some i've started to, The songs i upload onto soundcloud i feel are at an acceptable demo stage, the idea is to record all these tracks and pick the best ones or tracks that work well together as to go onto the finished album, i wanna get it to 12 tracks.

The cost of living

1. Intro : The Revolutions Here
2. Chasing Highs 
3. Smalltown Minds
4. Limitations
5. The Cost Of Living
6. Am I Being Brainwashed 
7. Kingmaker
8.The Departed 
9. Versions of our Younger Self
10. Half-Lught
11. The Space Between Us
12. Glass Houses

The Cost Of Living (Album demo so far)

I wanted to write something thats a general feeling of how things are at the moment, everything in world seems to be in a mess with no light at the end of the tunnel, it's easy to lose yourself, sometimes you don't feel strong enough when the world or people kick you down, you just gotta come back fighting and set your your path straight no matter how off course its become.

                            Smalltown Minds
                        (all Lyrics. J.Harvey)

Small-town minds going round in rotation 
Prison cells of our own creation
I never thought that I could find salvation
But do I really care at all 

All caught in the same situation  
Money talks piling high as inflation  
Do not have drive, do not have determination
Building up together, on a false foundation 
Walking through a nation, a mutation of its self. 
The measure of your worth  is determined by your wealth 
Is this not a mirror a reflection of yourself 
How many fall, lose their mind 
Some people never learn  
 
- [ ] Times have changed, we’re just digging in the dirt
Do not leave your station for a minute leave your work 
Think I’m on a down is it slowly getting worse 
I can’t navigate this life can not put it in reverse 

Going down to a town, boarded down, run it down, government don’t care they not there, they just sold you out.
Make it out, run you out, told you what it’s all about. 
Does not pay to have your mind and head in the clouds 

The 1 percent, the no percent, who controls the money, 
a system build on greed, they will grieve, is it funny
It all about a roof getting food in your tummy 
They only wanna no when the sky’s blue, sunny 

Console your debt, card rejected, not protected, funny 
As I projected, un-respected, I don’t think i’m happy 
Street neglected, not connected,
do not have the money, it’s all about the gangs and the drugs, chase the Honey. 

Minority, equality, to never feel priority 
Taking on authorities project a superiority  have a status quo, is it real democracy
If don’t know no truth 
Or have no honesty 
Have we no shame or we out for personal gain  
Can you blame me if I ever acted the same
Let’s play the blame game, wanna make your mark  a name, you never made me a part, you treat me the same 

Underestimated I guess you never calculated 
Invalidated, now I’m feeling frustrated 
If I’m now a monster I’m one that you created 
They never really friends
They were all ill fated 

No harm was meant 
I did consent 
But I can’t trust nobody
How does this end 
It was meant meant 
But now there is no money 
I’m terminated
complicated
I think it’s getting bloody 
These are not thoughts or feelings I embody  

Escape these feelings
Shady dealing 
Midnight meeting 
Friend deleting 
Unbelieving 
Wrong perceiving 
Am I bleeding 
I’m not healing 
Do I have to watch what you intend on stealing   
You had it all now Romeo is bleeding

The Cost Of Living

Smalltown Minds

This is what would of been an outtake lost on my computer, I remember working on it  first last year thinking it could be something but it wasn’t really working, but decided randomly to try it with a female vocal recently. I think it was the correct decision. 


                                        Half-Light
                                        (Harvey)
I dream of beauty 
Things that I’ll never feel
Stay with me, never doubt me cause I’m 
Breaking my kingdom in two
If I’m worthy of your love
I would die here on this earth
There are forces far above humanity 
If my heart was all to blame
Cut it out on to the flames 
But then who am I, who am I

Inside my mind, just a half-light
tongue tide, black eyed, just a Half-light

Empty streets
Empty roads 
I got nowhere else to go 
Flashing lights 
Violent fights,
could be be someone that I know
Empty souls 
God only knows 
Still have nowhere else to go
Time moving slow 
Left long ago 
No one I can hold

If I’m worthy of your love
I would die here on this earth
There forces far above humanity 
If my heart was all to blame
Cut it out on to the flames 
But then who am I, who am I

Inside my mind, just a half-light
tongue tide, black eyed, Half-light

Half…. Light
Half…. Light

Half-Light

Brand new song from session 25/6/23, 

Probably a tongue and cheek look at being skint. I'm having trouble deciding what genre to give this track, hip hop would be the closest maybe funk but no option for that. I was influenced by a lot of tracks from the early 90's, like De-lite, Young disciples, Nenah Cherry, Band New Heavies


The Cost Of Living 
                                                             (Harvey)

she’s living in some bedroom 
On some back street from the station 
She’s Just working for a penny
In a lonely tribulation 
Are ends now hard to meet
Down the food bank down the street 
All the troubles that I see 
How I live this life I lead 

Is the cost of living
Unforgiving 
Somethings missing
It’s not giving out 
The landlord wants you out 
Is the cost of living 
unfulfilling
I get the feeling, just not working out
We need to sort this out

Working in a factory 
12 hours till I’m leaving 
money’s running out 
Will I it need it at the station 
I got a family now to feed 
Got food and clothes and things they need
If things get get it’s down on me
Futures hard to see

Fat cats in the boardroom
Keep you in your situation
shareholders holding power
They don’t care for liberation 
Telling you lies, that you’re free
Owning nothing, be happy 
We could control your destiny 
Save me

Sunday is new song day, been working on this on and off for a couple of days. Not really finished idea yet.

Not really about one person, but the song is about trust or connecting to others, putting yourself in the firing line, sometimes you get stung, sometimes you don't, but some people don't open up in anyway so you could say people limit themselves ether way.

Limitations 
(harvey)

Are coming up for air to breath
Your heads been under water 
It’s only comfort that we need 
But we seek disorder 
Why can’t we be just be medicated 
normality is underrated 
Here we go again and sabotage ourselves 

Look at all that we’ve done 
All that’s dead and gone 
Feels I’m the only one 
In conversation 
Make it hard on ourselves 
Trying to be someone else 
In fact it’s hard as hell 
With Limitations 

If you’re coming back only to leave 
Our days are getting shorter 
you feed my insecurity
If that’s what this life has taught you
I say it's brave, you say naive 
To have a heart or empathy 
Think I found my start, i'll watch you leave

Look at all that we’ve done
All that’s said and done
Feels I’m the only one
In rumination 
Make it hard on ourselves
Trying to please someone else
sometimes it’s hard as hell
We've Limitations

Limitations
Limitations 
I wish you well
your teach yourself communication

Limitations

what's going to be an into for the album or a track on the album, i may expand on it and make it a full track, maybe if inspiration hits me.

Intro : The Revolutions Here

Track Story: 
This is a new version of a track i originally recorded in 2020
                       
                           Chasing Highs 
      (Music & Lyrics Written by Jay Harvey)

You only want what you can’t have
You're gonna take anything to stop you feeling bad
Been getting high when I’m asleep
So many secrets you can't keep
You're climbing walls when the feelings over
You ask for money all the time so no ones coming over.
I’m at work when you’re asleep
I didn’t get you what you need

We’re looking for a piece of crack you dropped on the floor
You know the sessions over now but you’re clucking for more, 
your dealers not picking up he wouldn’t tick you a score, 
the best friend you robbed just threw a brick at your door,
sell your games and DVD’s down the pawn shop down the street, 
strip the house of everything to feed the monster within.
Got a 20 for a rock, 
smoked it all by 2 o’clock, 
put your shoes on and your socks,
robbing bacon from the shop,
people look but not in shock, 
attitude in strop,
grassed you up, called the cops,
jump the fence, ripped your top,
in a loop it never stops.
But at this moment I think not.
Maybe next week at the doc’s,
I like my downers, like your up’s

I say I’ve smoked the last time, but I go and get more,
I got a mate getting 80, his never smoked it before. 
Dealers taking long, said he’d get here by 4, 
I’m starting to feel anxious, listen out for the door,
Is my mate acting shady or is it me being flakey,
up 3 days feeling shaky, spend my time getting waisted, 
wanna future, make plan, try around here if you can.
You say it like it’s simple but would you even care to expand.
You don’t need to tell me that my life is waisted, 
I hear it all the time I’m constantly all the time reminded
Don’t you think I try to fight it 
to many people try to hide it,
feeling trapped in this life and getting out I feel divided.

Songs Of Self Destruction

Chasing Highs(You Only Want What You Can't Have)

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Chasing Highs (Demo Version)

My names Jay, I'm a songwriter, ideas man from Cambridgeshire in the UK , I'd like to write for other people or an Artist with a shared vision, the dream would be that i guess.
Awkward Fellow is a Hip-Hop, Pop, Jazz, R'n'B, lo-fi fusion with an Oldschool vibe.. I've started writing for an up and coming album "The Cost Of Living" (Well at the moment it's gonna be called that)seems to be the vibe of the times, No fillers hopefully.

Influences: Sault, Massive Attack, Prince, De la sol, Little Sims, Portishead, Avalanches, Beastie Boys. in terms of my own music but i listen to a lot more.