ig @1axhelini
produced by yunny goldz
(you can find this song on any platform)

- Lyrics -

Oh I just want to feel alive,
So break me when I'm on the ground.

I would've done anything for you
But you never cared like I did
So I'm not sorry that I didn't pursue
Cuz you tried to kill my inner kid

Falling behind, what's on my mind?
Leaving tonight? Doesn't feel right
Take me by the hand let's leave this place
I know that you want it, yeah I can tell

I wanna cry in my bed,
Get you out of my head.
But the things were said,
So I'll sing instead.
Just let me clear my head tonight.

I wanna scream and shout, tell what's on my mind.
All the things they did I got stabbed from behind.
But you think that's okay after all you're evil.
Cuz you don't know that there's also kind people. [x2]

Closing my eyes, tired of lies
I wanna sleep but I'm having trouble
Haven't slept once, decided to double
I don't think I miss you
No, I don't wanna kiss you

I wanna scream and shout, tell what's on my mind.
All the things they did I got stabbed from behind.
But you think that's okay after all you're evil.
Cuz you don't know that there's also kind people.

I wanna cry in my bed,
Get you out of my head.
But the things were said,
So I'll sing instead.
Just let me clear my head tonight.

teeth

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. trynacommunicate
soundcloud exclusive

- Lyrics -

Too late
To call out your name
I try
To do it my way
Every mistake I make
Every step that I take
I try
To forget your face

i still try to forget your face [unreleased demo]

@1axhelini on ig and tiktok
produced by heydium
you can find this song on all of my music streaming platform (axhelini)

- lyrics -

(Valentines Day)
You lost feelings (feelings), that's what you said.
I'll never forget it again, the feeling of pain.
On valentines day, surrounded by people who say, "such special day".
Not for me, tho. (Valentines Day)
I never thought it would've been the way to go.
I hope you're happy with the thing you did,
Cuz I'll never be able to love the same-
Again after Valentines Day.

Scrolling on my phone, seeing stories full of love.
Am I jealous? (No!)
I see what you post "I have let it all go"
Did you tho?
Cuz I can still see your eyes
Hiding behind your lies
"I'm Fine" yeah I know, but
I'll never be able to love the same,
Again after Valentines Day.

You told me that you love me, I'm worried
Cuz after what you said,
I'm falling apart, yeah I'm falling apart.

Again after Valentines Day
Worried that I'm not good enough
Was I too rough?
You want to go back, I'm feeling attacked.
Is it goodbye?

(Valentines Day), (Hello?)

valentines

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. by 66smokey
soundcloud exclusive

- lyrics -

1,2,1,2,3,fuck-
i don't wanna talk
i'll mute my phone
so i can avoid
every single conflict
don't want any drama
i just want my trauma to end

avoid [unreleased demo]

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. neverforever
soundcloud exclusive

- lyrics -

hollow
my body is hollow
i don't know who to follow
why's it so hard to swallow?

my voice stuck again
it's like i have a chain
wrapped around my throat
guess i'll write a note instead

hollow [unreleased demo]

@1axhelini on ig and tt

Main Artist - axhelini
Producer - 66smokey
Co-Producer - axhelini

this song is currently soundcloud exclusive, it's coming out 01/01/2025 tho

- lyrics -

1,2,1,2,3,fuck-
i don't wanna talk
i'll mute my phone
so i can avoid
every single conflict
don't want any drama
i just want my trauma to end

seven missed calls i won't answer
if i did i'd be in danger
call me once i'm done hiding
cuz now i don't feel like fighting
know i should be dead
escaped death twice instead
it's chasing
it's chasing me
everywhere i go it follows
leave me alone
i need to catch my breath

i don't wanna talk
i'll mute my phone
so i can avoid
every single conflict
don't want any drama
i just want my trauma to end

avoid

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. farber
soundcloud exclusive

- Lyrics -

Day after day
More distant than in may
I closed the door
Saw dead bodies on the floor
If you want to talk in private
Give me time I have to think
If it's better to stay quiet
Or to talk and take the risk

Of being misunderstood
Third time today
I'm tired of talking
Please, go away
I knew it'd be like this for eternity
I've always feared infinity
And since you've left

You feel so far away
Cuz I've made mistakes
It's like you're miles away
I didn't have what it takes
Come back
I still miss you
Come back
I still miss you

Every time I see you
I feel like you're not there
You're so close, yet
Feels like we're miles away
I've missed you so long
But I want you to know
That we used to be close
Now we're not feels so wrong
I still miss you the most
Even made you a song

Day after day
More distant than in may
I closed the door
Saw dead bodies on the floor
They look like me in every way
Cold hands and empty stares
Body rotting away
They look like they want me next

miles away

@1axhelini on ig and tt
@1axhelini_ if you want to hmu on discord
prod. michael harrison (love this guy's beats)

- lyrics -

Lost in a world where I do not belong
Feels like I'm trapped, can't find my way out
Don't know where to go, don't know what to do
Just trying to find a way to break through

Can anybody hear me?
Feeling so alone
Looking for a way
To go home
Feels like I'm trapped, I can't see light
But when I look at you I feel bright

I know I'm not the only one
Felling like I'm on the run
Running from mistakes
I've done in the past
I just can't seem to get away
Stuck in my head
Forgot my name
I might be scared
Someone's calling me
I turn around
There's no one there
What's happening?
Surrounded by people
I do not know
I'm really scared
Get me out of here

Can anybody hear me?
Feeling so alone
Looking for a way
To go home
Feels like I'm trapped, I can't see light
But when I look at you I feel bright

axhelini - home (prod. michael harrison)

@1axhelini on ig and tt
@1axhelini_ on discord
join the discord server (in my links)
prod. 66smokey
you will find this only on soundcloud
keep in mind it's not finished, i'm just not sure i will be finishing it.

-  lyrics -

You broke me down, again
Yet I trusted you, my friend
I don't know you anymore
I act like you're not there
We're strangers yet again
I don't know you anymore
I'll just act like you're not there

You broke me down, again
Yet I trusted you, my friend
I don't know you anymore

idk u anymore [p. 66smokey]

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. sickboi
join the cord (bio)

- lyrics -

you always made me feel
like i don't belong
and i reached out my hand
when u had no one
(u had no one)
you always made me feel
like i don't belong
and i reached out my hand
when u had no one
(u had no one)

you fucked up all my friends
they didn't wanna talk
they started all to hate
and all they did was walk away

i had to explain
every single action
you'd always complain
it gave you satisfaction
get out of my head
you see there's no reaction
and i know that attention's
your only attraction

you always made me feel
like i don't belong
and i reached out my hand
when u had no one
(u had no one)
you always made me feel
like i don't belong
and i reached out my hand
when u had no one
(u had no one)

i reached out my hand when u had no one

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. all we left unsaid

- lyrics -

help i'm trapped inside my head
every thought in here is deadly
and i guess it won't let me
repeat a word it said
i'm trapped inside my head
every thought in here is deadly
and i guess it won't let me
repeat a word it said

every minor inconvenience 
turns into a grudge between us
i can't help it i'm a mess
nothing more and nothing less
every time i try to grow up
i just end up being worse
i just guess i shouldn't show up
i feel like i am a curse

every thought in here is deadly

@1axhelini on ig and tiktok
produced by Rafiki Music

- Lyrics -

I like it when we're alone, (Let's disappear)
Nobody on the phone, (I like it here)
I could talk with you for hours, (I want you near)
I could even get you flowers, (I love you, Dear)

So come on and take my hand,
Let's go and make our way,
There's something I want to say,
I'll love you 'till the end.

I'll hold you tight, won't let you fall.
Let's meet tonight, or talk on call.
Just let me know, once you're alone.
Cuz when you're close, I feel at home.

I like it when we're alone, (Let's disappear)
Nobody on the phone, (I like it here)
I could talk with you for hours, (I want you near)
I could even get you flowers, (I love you, Dear)

i love you

@1axhelini on ig and tt
produced by neverforever

-lyrics-

i am scared of trying things
and i'm only sixteen
i'm an introvert who hides
when i hear the word eighteen
i don't want to grow up
scared of being responsible
i think i will throw up
yeah, it's just impossible

let me grow slowly
i don't wanna go
i was just ten
a minute ago

and now i'm in my junior year
only one more yet to go
all those years have passed by
and i don't know where to go oh no
oh no, oh no

and now i'm in my junior year
only one more yet to go
all those years have passed by
and i don't know where to go oh no
oh no, oh no

sixteen

@1axhelini on ig and tt
produced by Kire
join the cord: https://discord.gg/hvkh7Xt4Bj

-lyrics-

you're the only one i need
you're just like adrenaline
you're my only medicine
call me twice to tell me that you love me
cuz just once is not enough

you make me feel so alive
you make me feel so alive
you make me feel so alive
you make me feel so alive

you're my only medicine
you're my only medicine
you're my only medicine
you're my only medicine

you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline

you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline

ever since i've met you
i've been feeling so alive
and i have always known
that all this shit is just a lie
so don't you worry anymore
cause i am on your side
so don't you think about them
in my mind they already died

let's run away from the drama
i want to go home
i'll be taking you with me
cause i don't want to be alone
i'll take you with me every where
i'll never leave you behind
cause you're my-

adrenaline, adrenaline,
adrenaline, adrenaline
adrenaline, adrenaline,
adrenaline, adrenaline

you're just like adrenaline
you're my only medicine
call me twice to tell me that you love me
cuz just once is not enough

you make me feel so alive
you make me feel so alive
you make me feel so alive
you make me feel so alive

you're my only medicine
you're my only medicine
you're my only medicine
you're my only medicine

you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline

you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline
you're just like adrenaline

adrenaline

@1axhelini on ig and tt
produced by Bowsa
join the cord: https://discord.gg/hvkh7Xt4Bj

-lyrics-

breaksdown 
(breaksdown)
i always end up breaking your trust
(breaking your trust)
and i can't get away from lust
(away from lust)
just hold my hand so i won't drown
(hand so i won't drown)

whole my stupid life
i'm just trying to be something
but i'm just a stupid kid
i don't know anything, anything
so just hold me when i tell you that i'm nothing, nothing
every time i make mistakes i end up laughing, laughing

it's a defense mechanism
i want to be clear
(i want to be clear)
deep inside i'm screaming
i'm shivering in fear
(shivering in fear)
so take me away
(take me away)
every time i try to fix anything
(every time)
everything just-

breaksdown 
(breaksdown)
i always end up breaking your trust
(breaking your trust)
and i can't get away from lust
(away from lust)
just hold my hand so i won't drown
(hand so i won't drown)

stuck again in an endless loop
(stuck again)
i just want to be here with you
(here with you)
hold me i miss you
(hold me)
all i want is to kiss you
(kiss you)

breaksdown 
(breaksdown)
i always end up breaking your trust
(breaking your trust)
and i can't get away from lust
(away from lust)
just hold my hand so i won't drown
(hand so i won't drown)
breaksdown (down)
everything just breaksdown

breaksdown

main artist - me
producer - michael harrison
@1axhelini on ig and tt
https://discord.gg/hvkh7Xt4Bj - join the cord

-lyrics-

You have one unheard message
And- for.. A- and for all this time
I've- I- I've been trying to tell you, that.. 
I.. I'm sorry

The things I've said
Been keeping me up
You thought I meant all of it
And I wouldn't stop
And now we are tied again
Standing eye to eye
You stand here unknowing
I still miss you now

It happened so quickly
I didn't prepare
You wanted to help me
I was in despair
I didn't want help
And I pushed you away
(Pushed you away)
I don't wanna talk
I don't want it 'bout us

I never meant to push you away
(No, no I don't want to talk)
Just needed some time
And you barged in instead
(I just needed some time) 
I tried to apologize
You told me to be a man
And now we're 2 miles away

No, no I don't want to talk
I just needed some time
Everything would be okay
But now we're 2 miles away

The things I've said
Been keeping me up
You thought I meant all of it
And I wouldn't stop
And now we are tied again
Standing eye to eye
You stand here unknowing
I still miss you now

miles away II

@1axhelini on ig and tt
prod. by racky and me
join the cord: https://discord.gg/hvkh7Xt4Bj

-lyrics-

i don't want to talk
don't want to show up
i just want to rest
it would be for the best

i don't want to show my face
don't want to share my age
let me walk in my pace
we're not on the same page

lately i've been emotional, antisocial
trying to be somewhat nice
looking down, avoiding eyes

living in denial
suicidal
i don't even want to die
but maybe it's a lie

lately i've been scared to talk
i'm too scared to talk
i'm avoiding all
i'm avoiding all

antisocial

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