prod. eeryskies

[Lyrics]

(JHOAN)
When I talk
People listen, that's the right call
Don't wanna take my life off
Live forever that's the end goal

If I die tomorrow they show
All their fake feelings spilling out cause I said so

Laying in my bed face up
And I gave up, but like straight up
She wanna wake up and then make love
I wanna go to work and go home
I wanna break up just to shake up whatever we had going on

I didn't think it was great at the time
Looking back it was the time of my life
Treated her like she was my fucking wife
She was really my partner in crime

(SmokeXYS)
Partner in crime
We put black and white together like on a mime, huh
Not back in time
We go out tonight I hope that she gon be mine, huh
All through the night
We go back in forth in bed and I'm feeling high
Back in black all when we finish the fight
She wasn't there with me seeing eye to eye

I won't tell her that I miss her and need her, my mind is going racing racing 
I won't tell her that I care that she left and I'm sitting here in my room bad face and pacing, huh
Contemplating I should die, huh
All I really do is sigh, huh
Thinking bout then when she lied, uh
Why the fuck would that bitch lie

I told that girl that would break me and then she went ahead and did like the many
Did like the many
Leave me to die in my mind and I'm out on the road in my hand, that there is fuckin Henny
I sat here and thought that this bitch was really worth my time my money I done bought her Fenti 
They say that there's other fishes in the sea so then why did this bitch go pick me when there's plenty

I'm fucking pissed, yeah
That I gotta tell my mother the better bitch I was with
Took my heart and broke it making me go light a spliff
And then I got inside my car while hoping that I will get hit, huh

Till then I will fucking wait
Never forgetting her name
Desi-Desi-Desireé
Desert desert desert red

(JHOAN)
Desert desert desert red
Who really thought I was dead
Left me leaking, want me dead
One shot to my head

Two shots to my head
I really thought I was dead
Desert desert desert red
Desert desert desert red

You just had a heart of gold
I don't want to see you go
But since we're talking through the phone
I just had to let you know

Nothing ever mattered
I was like this before I met her
Broken heart had been shattered
I really wanted me dead, I

Really opened my third eye
Tears that I never shed, I
Never even said a fucking word, I
Flipped the bird and ended up with hurt guys

If I'm gon be honest to you, never even gave a single fuck about her
Leaving me cold, girl, you're leaving me hurt
Stomp my heart and put that shit up in the dirt
Uh, uh

Contemplating I should die
All I really feel inside
Desert desert desert red
Desert desert desert red

Desert desert desert red
Who really thought I was dead
Left me leaking, want me dead
One shot to my head

Two shots to my head
I really thought I was dead
Desert desert desert red
Desert desert desert red

Desert desert desert re-ed
Everyone thought I was de-ead
One shot to the he-ead
Who really thought I was de-ead

Desert desert desert red
Desert desert desert red
Leave you leaking in the head
Everyone thought I was dead

Desert Red

JHOAN - DESERT RED feat. SmokeXYS

prod. nvrfrvr.

[Lyrics]

We'll be fine
Take it slow
Cry my eyes out
But they're not for show

Alone on my island
I know I was wiling
Give the silent treatment
Dive into the deep end
Weekday to weekend
Ain’t meet the Reaper
But that's how it ends
So I play pretend
I'm faking my smiles and hoping they laugh
When I talk about my pain and my past
My life's moving fast
As fast as it can
And I just can't hide it
I can't pretend no more

Just set your attention to me
Try to hide it
It's harder than it seems

I’ll stop faking smiles
And stalling my life
I take it as it comes
And don't falter back

I'm weak in my mind
But strong in my head
And I have these demons
Wishing I was dead

They're my best friends
Setting their attention to me
It's so easy
Just set your attention to me

Try to hide it
It's harder than it seems

Just set your attention to me
Just set your attention to me

still want you

ATTENTION

prod. Arcane Beats

[Lyrics]

I let them talk behind my back cause I don't care
Every single word they say is bout fake as their hair
Wasn't there before so why would I just now go share
When I walk around I'm still not used to all their stares

I'm so cold
You fake you know you faux
You got me feeling old
Cause I be dealing with all the stuff that they be saying

Face up
You can try to take my place, yuh
Was not satisfied with my way of life everything changed with the pay stubs

Everything changed with the money I make
Seperated all the real from the fake
I can't even trust nobody not even you, look at you, man, cause

I know that you hate me, hate me
Jealous of the music I create, be crazy
You could do it if you weren't so lazy, lazy
Want a better future stop complaining, 'plaining
Want a better feature then come pay me

I'm so cold
You fake you know you faux
You got me feeling old
Cause I be dealing with all the shit that they be saying

Everything don't look like beaches to me when yo papa get caught and get taken by ICE
Shit not so nice when you blow up a little and let all your life be dictated by lies
Now I got people depending on me, lemme tell you right now about all of the eyes
All of them thinking that I could be better but what do I do if I don't reach the highs

Who do I disappoint going from one of these months to the next to the next to the next
What do I do if one day I get cancelled for sending like one little meaningless text
Who do I call if I'm gonna get jumped in a year just for texting my 7th grade ex
I'm just a boy from Miami to Tally, don't owe any money, don't even know how I should flex

Don't even know if I should
Wish I could just get my money right now so that I could be good
I'm just a boy from Suburbia, I never came from the hood

So what does that mean
Where in the spectrum does that leave me
Does that mean that none of my issues are valid 
Do I even matter
Are all of my problems as bad as they seem

Am I somewhere in between
I've never struggled with percies or lean
Lemme just give you a date that I hope you remember that's 06/06/2019
That was my main papa's birthday
I was only 15
Same thing happened almost 2 years later man I almost killed myself at 17

I let them talk behind my back cause I don't care
Every single word they say is bout fake as their hair
Wasn't there before so why would I just now go share
When I walk around I'm still not used to all their stares

I'm so cold
You fake you know you faux
You got me feeling old
Cause I be dealing with all the stuff that they be saying

FAUX

the.NET

night trrs

FLWRS

LUVLTTR

zzelda (feat. SmokeXYS)

Drnk + Lnly

1987

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_LD5wGGW_M

prod. Arcane Beats

[Lyrics]

I, I can't be here when you want
I got too many problems
I'd hate to bleed on an angel
I know I'm not doing this right
I'm putting you through a hell of a ride
But before I leave tonight, I ask
Will you find
Someone who can share my pain
Someone who'll remember my name
And hold him so tight that he can't say goodbye

I'm leaving
I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm sorry I can't say goodbye (goodbye's not goodbye)
Tomorrow's a concept I can't even fathom, oh I

I'm sorry for leaving so soon
I'm scared, I don't know what to do
I just want to be here with you
But if that means you're leaving, I'm sorry
Cause I can't bring you all that pain
I wish that I could say the same
But I can't heal at all

It's getting so hard to stay
It's getting harder every day
I don't have no words I can say, except

I'm leaving
I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm sorry I can't say goodbye (goodbye's not goodbye)
Got problems on problems with no way to solve them, goodbye
(I'll see you at a later time)
When somebody asks me if I'm good, I tell them I'm fine
(I'll see you on the other side)
But baby I, I lied

I lied
Don't tell them I lied
Just tell them I'm fine

I'm Leaving

[Lyrics]

I, I can't be here when you want
I got too many problems
I'd hate to bleed on an angel
I know I'm not doing this right
I'm putting you through a hell of a ride
But before I leave tonight, I ask
Will you find
Someone who can share my pain
Someone who'll remember my name
And hold him so tight that he can't say goodbye

I'm leaving
I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm sorry I can't say goodbye
Tomorrow's a concept I can't even fathom, oh I

I'm sorry for leaving so soon
I'm scared, I don't know what to do
I just want to be here with you
But if that means you're leaving, I'm sorry
Cause I can't bring you all that pain
I wish that I could say the same
But I can't heal at all

It's getting so hard to stay
It's getting harder every day
I don't have no words I can say, except

I'm leaving
I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm sorry I can't say goodbye
Got problems on problems with no way to solve them, goodbye
When somebody asks me if I'm good, I tell them I'm fine
But baby I, I lied

I lied
Don't tell them I lied
Just tell them I'm fine

I'm Leaving - Acoustic

bien exotica, bien ricaaa

[Lyrics]

Bien exótica, bien rica
Pero de su lado no se quita
Si llamas, ella deja que repica
Ella es misteriosa, no se los detalles
Solo se la pasa perreando en las calles
Ni sé cómo se llama

Se enamora, relaciona
Junta con cualquiera pero la sonri' se borra
Porque al final de la noche queda sola
Que hijo de puta pa' romperte ese corazón
Trato de respirar
Pero no se me llega y no lo puedo explicar
Porque cuando te veo
Me pellizco y no hace nada y otra vez no me lo creo
Todos están en casa haciendo nada
Menos yo
Tú sabes que estas

Bien exótica, bien rica
Pero de su lado no se quita
Si llamas, ella deja que repica
Ella es misteriosa, no se los detalles
Solo e la pasa perreando en las calles
Ni sé como se llama
Hoy salgo a las 12 pa' irte a buscar
No tengo telli más pa' llamar
Pero yo sé donde tú vives
Me recuerdo de to' los momentos
Que tuvimos juntos en la casa

Te tengo en el fondo del espejo, aye
Porque en mi memoria te veo lejos
Sabes que lo mejor te lo deseo, aye
Pero así se va la vida mi bebé

Es muy peligroso
Cuando te quedas solo
And I don't want to wait around anymore
You love it when I come through
It's hard to say no to you
But I hope you find what you've been looking for
I've been looking for ya
I know that your man gon' fuck around ignoring ya
Si no te da anillo, yo tengo la joya
Y no te jodas
Si no te desea, pues que gonorrea no verte
You've been looking for me
Don't want to find love in a new city
Toda la confianza lo destruí
En mi futuro no te incluí
Tú me texteás
Diciendo que tú extrañas to' las bellaqueras
Tú quieres el perreo, te gusta la sistema
Y con las noches sucias, te volviste' enferma, awogh, aye

Bebo el venenito
Olvido un poquito
Yo no tengo más que dar de mi parte
El uno para el otro
Quítate el disfraz
Mi amor te sobra y ya lo verás

JHOAN (@ayejhoan)

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