Stream Shadowselflove: https://bfan.link/shadowselflove

Shadowselflove

Get so tired of feeling sorry for myself
I’m a liar but only to myself
Take me higher
Don’t wanna ask for help
So take me out yeah

But I know that you’re a bandaid yeah
Going on another bad date yeah
So I can feel less
And get dumb
And feel numb
Feel numb

I feel numb
I feel numb
I feel numb
Oh
I feel numb
I feel numb
I feel numb

I should make another tiktok tiktok
Or maybe get a day job day job
Or open up an onlyfans yeah
Got options yeah yeah
So many options

And I might just get a waist size two
Yeah I bet that you would like that
Heck I know I’d probably like that too
If only I looked just like that
And I’ll say that it’s for me no you
Like the industry have taught me
Repackaging my beauty to pour it back into my coffee

And I know that it’s a bandaid yeah
Going on another bad date yeah
So I can feel less
And get dumb
And feel numb
Feel numb

I feel numb
I feel numb
I feel numb
Oh
I feel numb
I feel numb
I feel numb

I should make another tiktok tiktok
Or maybe get a day job day job
Or open up an onlyfans yeah
Got options yeah yeah
So many options

I should start up on the tiktok tiktok
Or maybe get a day job day job
Or open up an onlyfans yeah
Got options yeah yeah
So many options


I feel numb
I feel numb
I feel numb
Oh
I feel numb
I feel numb
I feel numb

Options

How you doing now 
It’s been a while since you’ve gone
Have you slept at all
No me too it’s been real hard 

I do I like a little game of chess
Im doing my time in my home arrest
Please babe come here, damsel in distress

Uh Uh Uh yeah

(When u hold me) 
I forget the world when we 
(Moving Slowly)
Boy u know

 Without you these night’s too long
 I can’t help it when I’m starting feeling lonely 
Losing sight of what I want now I don’t know 
Still remember how I felt when you were on me
 These night’s these night’s too long  

Kinda want u when I’m starting feeling lonely
I want you to take me home
Rather stayin up with you until the morning
Than spending nights, these nights alone

Never wanna stop 
But I know we can’t keep going on and on and on
(even though I’m so lonely)
Why u so good so wrong

  I do I like a little silliness 
I’m having my fun nothing serious 
I want u near, way too obvious
Uh uh uh yeah

(When u hold me)
I forget the world when we 
(Moving Slowly)
Boy u know

 Without you these night’s too long 
I can’t help it when I’m starting feeling lonely 
Losing sight of what I want now I don’t know 
Still remember how I felt when you were on me
 These night’s these night’s too long  

Kinda want u when I’m starting feeling lonely
I want you to take me home
Rather stayin up with you until the morning
Than spending nights, these nights alone

You hit me up when you’re drunk
Sending me is it a crime
It’s not a crime
Wanna watch you go down down down down
Hope that I’m not out of line line line line line

Hope we can do this without getting hurt
‘Cause you know just how to put in the work like that that that
Hit it from the back back back

Without you these night’s too long 
 I can’t help it when I’m starting feeling lonely 
Losing sight of what I want now I don’t know 
Still remember how I felt when you were on me
 These night’s these night’s too long  

Kinda want u when I’m starting feeling lonely
I want you to take me home
Rather stayin up with you until the morning
Than spending nights, these nights alone

Stream

Nights2Long

Lyrics //

I’ve been falling out of love with you
It’s taken me 6 months
It always does

I’ve been losing sleep bout what to do
You act so sweet
You always do

But don’t make a home in your pain
Just because we can’t make one
We can’t make one, no
Don’t be so quick to proclaim
You hate me now
You hate me now

All the other boys never made it this far
But you’re still a boy
But you’re still a boy

All the other boys never made it this far
But you’re still a boy
But you’re still a boy

And I don’t wanna make you change, no
That is just a losing game so
Can I let you go with grace
Or is that just wishful thinking oh
Gotta let you know it’s time to
Be back on our separate ways
Even if it hurts like hell
Even if it hurts like hell

All the other boys never made it this far
But you’re still a boy
But you’re still a boy

All the other boys never made it this far
But you’re still a boy
But you’re still a boy

I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you
I’m not waiting for you to grow up

I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you
I’m not waiting for you to grow up

But don’t make a home in your pain
Just because we can’t make one
We can’t make one, no
Don’t be so quick to proclaim
You hate me now
You hate me now

All the other boys never made it this far
But you’re still a boy
But you’re still a boy

All the other boys never made it this far
But you’re still a boy
But you’re still a boy

I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you
I’m not waiting for you to grow up

I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you to grow up
I’m not waiting for you
I’m not waiting for you to grow up

Still a Boy

prod. Kerstin Ljungström

Every time I start to doubt myself
My thoughts dancing overhead
With a life of their own
They won’t leave me alone

And I start to reminisce upon
All the ways that I’ve gone wrong
Like believing in words
Only spoken to hurt
‘Cause the night time comes and parts that broke
Keep breaking and healing again
I’m healing through hurting again

When the morning comes and all my loose ends
Get tied up and untied again
I’m braiding my wounds up again

This is what it feels like
This is what it feels like
And this is what it feels like
When will I get used to it
Used to it
Used to it

This is what it feels like
This is what it feels like
And this is what it feels like
So better get used to it
Used to it
Used to it

I’ll keep breaking and healing and breaking and healing again

Every plan that I’ve made has crumbled
All the spinning makes me weak
I keep losing my grip
No one’s there when I slip

Thought I was done with that shit when I came here
Chasing a dream but it feels like a nightmare
How do I deal with it
Deal with it
Deal with it
Better get used to it
Used to it
Used to it

When the morning comes and all my loose ends
Get tied up and untied again
I’m braiding my wounds up again
This is what it feels like
This is what it feels like
And this is what it feels like
When will I get used to it
Used to it
Used to it
 
This is what it feels like
This is what it feels like
And this is what it feels like
So better get used to it
Used to it
Used to it

I’ll keep breaking and healing and breaking and healing again

Breaking & Healing

Sweet Spot

Otra Vez

I’m not reaching for my phone when I wake up
Had a lot of time to get to know myself
Knew I wanted better so I did me better
Had to find a way to put it all together

When I look back it’s so strange
Thinking ‘bout the way things used to be
Truthfully I don’t care if I get things wrong sometimes
But I’m not going back to my old ways
I’m not tryina’ prove anything no more
All I wanna do is to let that go
And find a different flow

I wanna know what it feels like
To be in it for me
To be all that I need
I wanna know what it feels like
To be in it for me
To be all that I need

Don’t pick sides
If I really have to
I’mma pick mine
‘Cause somebody got to
Don’t wanna feel guilty about it
When they try to make me doubt it
I’m not ever gonna do something I don’t want to

When I look back it’s so strange
Thinking ‘bout the way things used to be
Truthfully I don’t care if I get things wrong sometimes
But I’m not going back to my old ways
I’m not tryina’ prove anything no more
All I wanna do is to let that go
And find a different flow

I wanna know what it feels like
To be in it for me
To be all that I need
I wanna know what it feels like
To be in it for me
To be all that I need

To be all that I need
For me, yeah

Wanna know
Wanna know
Wanna know

To be all that I need

For Me

Stream: https://ffm.to/likeyouusedto

Lyrics:

Where did the passion go
I know it’s in there somewhere
Been keeping it bottled up like a potion
Waiting to be opened

I forgot how much I needed it 
Now I’m a loner
I got so lost in the hills
I turned into a stoner
Like everybody there
Forgot my natural high
And I left you behind

When we meet again
You got my consent
Will you make love to me
Like you used to make love to me
You you you 
Like you used to 
You you you 
Like you used to 

Would you read the signs
‘Cause I want you
Like I did before
It got hard to
Separate the past from the present
Never a question
If I got time for you

I forgot how much I needed it 
Now I’m a loner
I got so lost in the hills
I turned into a stoner
Like everybody there
Forgot my natural high
And I left you behind

When we meet again
You got my consent
Will you make love to me
Like you used to make love to me
You you you 
Like you used to 
You you you 
Like you used to 

I forgot how much I needed it 
Now I’m a loner
I got so lost in the hills
I turned into a stoner
Like everybody there
Forgot my natural high
And I left you behind

When we meet again
You got my consent
Will you make love to me
Like you used to make love to me
You you you 
Like you used to 
You you you 
Like you used to 

Like you used to
Will you make love to me

Jag glömde det nästan

Like You Used To

Frio (Omar Apollo Rework)

Ayelle x Tamaraebi - Presence

Breathe

Produced by Simon iosef
Artwork by Tradiio

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Machine

Prod. @sixviiv
Mixed & Mastered at Waterworks 
Artwork. @ocoyuwtvr 

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@nakalaviiv
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Rush - Single

Rush ft. Nakala

'Stay Calm' out now
https://fanlink.to/StayCalm

@calpermusic
https://www.instagram.com/calpermusic/

@ayelle
https://www.instagram.com/ayellemusic/

Calper x Ayelle - Stay Calm

prod. @crayonoff <3
artwork by @ocoyuwtvr

show luv:
https://hypem.com/track/2pveb/Ayelle+-+Silverplates+(prod.+Crayon

out now via @majesticcasualrecords

// 

Are you the only one
Is that what you proclaim
You don't need to say it
It's written on your silverplate
Have your food and brush away the crumbs

Drink me in with your gaze
All you want is a taste
Crave it, crave it till you got it
When you get it you find out that you don't want it

So you say you wanna touch me
But you don't know how to touch me
You can't find me on your silverplate
You can't find me on no silverplate

Silverplates (prod. Crayon)

<3

prod. @alexlustig 
artwork by @ocoyuwtvr

stream <3

Young (prod. Alex Lustig)

prod. by @muckybeats & @j83
artwork by @ocoyuwtvr
released via @majesticcasualrecords <3

He used to see stars in my eyes
I wonder what he sees now
I used to eat his words like fruit
And I always had an appetite

Two starving souls in the limelight
of the scene that we set ourselves
And we played it all out

That boy don't love me no more
So I've had to love myself
Somehow, but I'm doing okay

That boy don't love me no more
So I've had to love myself
Somehow, but I'm doing okay

I died at his hands a thousand times
And he drank the poison
He heard what I said a thousand times
While I lost my voice and
Had to live off of him
And I tried to
I tried

Two starving souls in the limelight
of the scene that we set ourselves
And we played it all out

That boy don't love me no more
So I've had to love myself
Somehow, but I'm doing okay

That boy don't love me no more
So I've had to love myself
Somehow, but I'm doing okay

Boy (prod. Mucky & J83)

~ you know my body inside out

artwork by @ocoyuwtvr <3

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- lyrics -

You draw circles on my skin
I trace these thoughts down your fingers
Then you ask me what I think
As if this feeling won't linger

You know my body inside out
You know my body
You know my body
But do you really know me
Do you really know me
Do you really know me, or just my body?

Where I end and you begin
You consume what I've become
Boy you like the taste of sin
No slowing down once we've begun

You know my body inside out
You know my body
You know my body
But do you really know me
Do you really know me
Do you really know me, or just my body?

Ayelle x Alex Lustig - Body

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO3puzUcenU
prod. @bbviiv
keys @nakalaviiv
artwork @ocoyuwtvr

//

What are you even saying
What do you want from me
Is there a way to stay
With what your thoughts might be

What can I do, what can I do
What can I do, what can I do
How do I come back from this place in my mind
Never any doubt that you’re there in my mind
And you’re keeping me there

I think you could make me go mad for you
I could go insane
Could really lose my way
Leave traces in my brain for you
And never be the same for you
I’ll never be the same for you

I think you could make me go mad for you
I could go insane
Could really lose my way
Leave traces in my brain for you
And never be the same for you
I’ll never be the same for you

What are we even doing
Is there something I should know
What is it you’re not saying
When can we let it show

What can I do, what can I do
What can I do, what can I do
How do I distract from this craze in my mind
Taking up the air in this space of my mind
And keeping me there

I think you could make me go mad for you
I could go insane
Could really lose my way
Leave traces in my brain for you
And never be the same for you
I’ll never be the same for you

I think you could make me go mad for you
I could go insane
Could really lose my way
Leave traces in my brain for you
And never be the same for you
I’ll never be the same for you

I’ll never be the same
No, I’ll never be the same
I’ll never be the same
No, I’ll never be the same

ft. @nakalaviiv 
prod @bbviiv
artwork @ocoyuwtvr
<3
 //

I know you get distracted
Thinking of yourself
And what it is you need, what it is you want
I know you’d like to think
You’ve got good intentions
But don’t pretend
‘Cause you do these things and you know what you do
So don’t pretend
When you do these things that you don’t wanna see through

But you act like you do
Forever the actor
Don’t kid yourself
You don’t care for no one else
But you act like you do
You act like you do
Until it suits you
Forever the actor
Forever the-

Act like you mean
Act right, I mean it
You don’t act like 
You mean it
Act right, I mean it
Girl you ain’t stupid, knew what you was getting into
Told you I only intended getting in you
So take it easy
Take it back please
You know you gon’ change your mind so take it easy
Same shit different time
Girl why are you lying
Only thing that suited me was you
Put the pussy on a pedestal
Shooting me but I wear armour
Feeling there’s something you’re lacking
Swear you’re addicted to drama
Maybe that’s why I’ve been acting

Act like you mean
Act right, I mean it
You don’t act like 
You mean it
Act right, I mean it

But you act like you do
Forever the actor
Don’t kid yourself
You don’t care for no one else
But you act like you do
You act like you do
Until it suits you
Forever the actor
Forever the actor

stream

Actor (ft. Nakala)

produced, mixed and mastered by @bbviiv
co-production by @jonahviiv
artwork by @ocoyuwtvr

lyrics //

Is it just too much
Did it get too heavy
First you made me blush
But you weren’t ready
Are you ever ready

All you ever wanted was a good time
How can it be wrong to have a good time
It’s not like you told me that that’s how you feel
Now it don’t really matter how you feel
But now you wanna
Talk about your
Feelings, feelings, your feelings

But now you wanna
Talk about your
Feelings, feelings, your feelings

Now you wanna talk
Now you wanna talk
Now you wanna talk

Was I on your mind
Did it make you nervous
Wanted me around
But only at your service
Thinking you deserve this

All you ever wanted was a good time
How can it be wrong to have a good time
It’s not like you told me that that’s how you feel
Now it don’t really matter how you feel
But now you wanna
Talk about your
Feelings, feelings, your feelings

But now you wanna
Talk about your
Feelings, feelings, your feelings

Now you wanna talk
Now you wanna talk
Now you wanna talk

Slow Clap - EP

Talk

prod. @jonahviiv and @bbviiv
art @ocoyuwtvr
photo by Melissa Chu

lyrics//

You told me and I listened
If only the distance
Wasn't on our mind that much
We would never bring this up

I think that it's obvious
That I'm hella crazy about you
You think that it's obvious
That you feel the same way bout me too

Whenever I'm over we act like we always knew
And I already told you and you already told me too

We should say it more
We should say it more
We should say it more
I want you to know
You want me to know 
We should say it more

We should say it more
We should say it more
We should say it more
I want you to know
You want me to know 
We should say it more

We tried it like we pictured
We fought it like we misheard
Everything we wanted here
Cause we were overcome by fear

And I think it's now obvious
That I'm hella crazy about you
You think that it's obvious
That you feel the same way bout me too

Whenever I'm over we act like we always knew
And I already told you and you already told me too

We should say it more
We should say it more
We should say it more
I want you to know
You want me to know 
We should say it more
We should say it more

We should say it more
We should say it more
I want you to know
You want me to know 
We should say it more

stream x

Obvious

written by @akacia & @ayelle
produced, mixed and mastered by @bbviiv
artwork by @ocoyuwtvr

I'm sorry I said it
Be sure to regret it
Do you sometimes wish you could unsay

Shouldn't have said it
Do you get sick of pretending
Everything is always okay

Sometimes I wonder what it feels like
To lose your mind
And I wanted to try it
Just one time
To let my heart say what's really on my mind
I didn't wanna have regrets this time

I'm sorry I did it
I already regret it
I sometimes feel like I'm not safe
I'm sorry I said it
I get so sick of pretending
Everything is always okay

Sometimes I wonder what it feels like
To lose your mind
And I wanted to try it
Just one time
To let my heart say what's really on my mind
I didn't wanna have regrets this time

Ayelle x Akacia x BB - Regrets

music video: https://youtu.be/VEF2zX5_tGQ 

prod. @bbviiv
artwork @ocoyuwtvr

I'll never know who you really are
You'll never know who you really are
I thought it through when we were apart
You said you'd rather not spend your heart
I'll never do what you really want
You'll never do what I really want
I guess that that's been the hardest part
Too easy loving you as you are

As if we had a choice
We felt our self control
Just slip out of our hands
As if there was a road either one of us could go
That would make us understand

You cannot admit even tho u wanted it
I got parts of you, I got parts of you
I cannot admit even though I wanted it
You got parts of me
You got parts of me

Ill never know who I rly am
You'll never know who I really am
Its easier to ignore the facts
I hope it never will come to that

As if u didn't know 
I lost all self control
I thought u wouldn't know
I tried to let it go
as if its only u who
thought you felt it too
you said u always knew
that we had to see it through

you cannot admit
even though you wanted it
I got parts of you
I cannot admit 
even though I wanted it
you got parts of me
you got parts of me

you cannot admit
and though you wanted it
I got parts of you
I got parts of you
I cannot admit
even tho I wanted it
you got parts of me
you got parts of me

Parts - Single

watch

Parts

ft @naji
prod. @bbviiv & @jonahviiv
artwork @ocoyuwtvr

I don't get like
This for anyone
You've got me like
What's been going on

'Cause I want you in the worst way
Your lips they leave me thirsty
What's the use of a summer fling
When I don't want it to ever end

'Cause I want you in the worst
Now I'm flying back on thursday
Won't even get to see you
When will I get to see you
I didn't wanna need you
But boy I really need to

Say something I need to
Do something for me to
Be someone for you who
Doesn't feel the need to
Tell you that she needs you

Oh, do you?
Tell me, girl, what's new?
You need love
Guess I need it too, ooh

Don't be bashful
You know I won't
Be afraid to hold you down

You know I never forgot
Any of your triggers 
I know your weak spots
Love it when you quiver, you're

Butterscotch on my lips, mhmm
Your hips keep me in bliss, mhmm
That's why you call me sometimes
Now you trying see me tonight

I wonder why

'Cause I want you in the worst way
Your memory's got me thirsty
I cannot deceive you
I feel as if I need you
Though I don't really mean to
I know I gotta see you
I don't mean to get to overwhelmed by this no
'Cause I want you in the worst way

Say something I need to
Do something for me to
Be someone for you who
Doesn't feel the need to
Tell you that she needs you

Say something I need to
Do something for me to
Be someone for you who

Worst Way - Single

Worst Way (ft. Naji)

prod @mathstimejoy
artwork @ocoyuwtvr

I'm only here for the ride
When I've got time to kill I give it to you
And you seem down to chill
I know it can't be so bad
'Cause I've got things to feel
I give them to you
And I don't mind the thrill

Of knowing too little and going too fast
But I'm still aware that nothing lasts
And I'm okay with that

'Cause this feels so intense right now
And I can't wait to love you down
We might be talking bout forever
We might be talking bout eternity
But then again I don't mind 
If I get to have you right now

You only ever decide
That you got things to do
No slowing you down
But I've got news for you

'Cause I'm not ever gonna hold you back
I wanna see you get all of that
I know that you deserve it
I love it when you work it

Though we both know too little
And we're going too fast
And it might be the case that nothing lasts
I'm okay with that

'Cause this feels so intense right now
And I can't wait to love you down
We might be talking bout forever
We might be talking bout eternity
But then again I don't mind 
If I get to have you right now

'Cause this feels so intense right now
And I can't wait to love you down
We might be talking bout forever
We might be talking bout eternity
But then again I don't mind 
If I get to have you right now

Right Now - Single

Right Now

music video: https://youtu.be/Qr6I1DYQB28

prod @BAYNK
art @ocoyuwtvr & @subiroll

How's it feel not to feel
What's it like to not be real
To no be real
Why so sad, why feel bad
What's the point if nothing's real
If nothing's real

I remind myself that you are
Just a figment of
What my mind makes up
I remind myself that you are
Just a product of
What your mind made up

Maybe psychopaths are happier
'Cause they don't love like us
'Cause they don't love like us
They never hurt like us

Maybe psychopaths are happier
'Cause they don't love like us
'Cause they don't love like us
They never hurt like us

What's the day, what's the time
Why's it matter when we lie
When we lie
How to say, not to see
We can't ever let things be
Let things be

I remind myself that you are
Just a figment of
What my mind makes up
I remind myself that you are
Just a product of
What your mind made up

Maybe psychopaths are happier
'Cause they don't love like us
'Cause they don't love like us
They never hurt like us

Maybe psychopaths are happier
'Cause they don't love like us
'Cause they don't love like us
They never hurt like us

Maybe psychopaths are happier
'Cause they don't love like us
'Cause they don't love like us
They never hurt like us

Demo

Psychopaths

music video: https://youtu.be/4XDY-q354fI

prod @mathstimejoy

Lyrics //

I've been thinking of it all week
Taste of salt and wine
Hands all over my mind and body, and body

Since I left you I've been in a haze
Got me counting hours, counting days
You've been wondering where I'm at
I just want to let you know that

You, you got me
You got me mind and body
You got me
You got me mind and body
You got me
You got me mind and body
Mind and body

I've been praying for it all week
Playing on rewind
The things you do to my mind and body, and body
Since I met you I've been up in space
Got me feeling things I can't explain
You've been wondering where I'm at
I just want to let you know that

You, you got me
You got me mind and body
You got me
You got me mind and body
You got me
You got me mind and body
Mind and body

Throw it on the floor
Beggin' you for more
It'll all in the decor
Hang my panties on the door
What you waiting for 
What you waiting for

You, you got me
You got me mind and body
You got me
You got me mind and body
You got me
You got me mind and body
Mind and body

Mind & Body - Single

Mind & Body

Mind and Body

prod.  Stavros
artwork @ocoyuwtvr

lyrics //

I was fine when I met you
Just fine when I met you (Just)
Was about to forget you
Was about to forget you (Trust)

Then we had to go ahead and talk until the morning
Said you wasn't sure, you always left me with a warning
Like I could be bad for you
Like I could be bad for you
Trust

Sometimes I'm a nightmare
Sometimes I just don't care
What you think of me 
Sometimes I wanna to self-destruct
And I find clever ways for stupid things to fuck us up
But sometimes you're a nightmare
Sometimes you just don't care
What I think of you
Sometimes you seem to self-destruct
And you find clever ways for stupid things to fuck us up

You were fine when I met you
Just fine when I met you (Just)
Was about to confuse you
oh I know that I still do (Trust)

Then we always find some kind of way to keep on falling
Even when you say you've had enough you keep on falling
Like I could be bad for you
But then I'm so good for you
Trust

Sometimes I'm a nightmare
Sometimes I just don't care
What you think of me 
Sometimes I wanna self-destruct
And I find clever ways for stupid things to fuck us up
But sometimes you're a nightmare
Sometimes you just don't care
What I think of you
Sometimes you seem to self-destruct
And you find clever ways for stupid things to fuck us up

Nine times out of ten I would've left you
But I could never validate a reason to regret you
And I try any odd excuse to let you take the blame
I turn it all around to make you misbehave

Nine times out of ten I would've left you
But I could never validate a reason to regret you
And I try any odd excuse to let you take the blame
I turn it all around to make you misbehave

Trust

Sometimes I'm a nightmare
Sometimes I just don't care
What you think of me 
Sometimes I wanna self-destruct
And I find clever ways for stupid things to fuck us up
But sometimes you're a nightmare
Sometimes you just don't care
What I think of you
Sometimes you seem to self-destruct
And you find clever ways for stupid things to fuck us up

Ayelle

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