Traveling Alone

Hold Me (voice memo)

Irony- zander ft. Evan Whitney

right person, wrong time.

i wish you the best even though i wanna die
i dont wanna live in this life if im a lie
im hitting random guys up online
just to maybe spite you and have what you have
but its not working
why is it not working?
they said "tryins' perfect"
but tryins' only hurtin
me more
im so bored
of trying so long for nothing

all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully

ive never been more ready, or maybe im not
cause ive learned life ignores you when youre blocked
just like your love did
and i know that it hurts, baby, you dont have to 
explain to me how bad it sucks
staying up, waiting, draining, fuck
and maybe this is compensation
but online is all that i have 
and ever will.. yeah ever will.

all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully

i tried to feel love for so long
everything i tried is soloft
im so gone

all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully
all i will ever have is me
and all you will ever have is him
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully

all i will ever have is me.
and all you will ever have is him.
it makes me sad that i cant be alone peacefully..

so long for nothing. (heydium)

vvv

movin at light speed ive been glowing honestly
think i couldnt be doing better pain is hard to see
taking red n blue up inside my odyssey 
dont hit me up im out of reach
im in my own world
im in my own zone
conspired this all inside my dome
now its all right here and i finally found my home
its you 
its me 
im starting to believe and talk to my inner child  and not ignore her
im so sorry i know that i treated u like shit for months
youre still my baby angel and i never meant to hurt u, love
it wasnt my intentions it was the man with the red hair
if im bein honest w u i dont think he ever cared
id tell you it was a facade but u prolly do not know that word
i know how he hurt you and i hate em bout much as you loved him
but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.
I been 
Blowin toxins
in my  room
i been doin fine
w out u 
yeah i loved him but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.

inner_child (jabarionthebeat x jelly x dreamboyy)

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Lyrics
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I don't pick up my phone
But I'm sorry I saw you rang
I've been feeling alone
I guess I don't feel like changing that
I'm in my zone 'cause I smoked and I sang
I don't know if it's really good for me
But I don't know the way back
I get in my head
When I'm focusing on the pain
'Cause my actions are to blame
And isolation is the payback
I know it's what I said
I can see it in their face
'Cause I've crossed too many lines
But there ain't time for me to say that

Long nights I don't mind
But it's harder when I waste my time
On petty lies
I make them up just to eat me away inside
Dull my knife and my skin's been sliced how 'bout that
Tell me, tell me why
I take it out on myself when my friends just want me to be alright

As I write this I'm ignoring messages
I'm' fucking spineless and way too much to ever quit
As the sun sets violet like an amethyst
I'll be up for hours more pretending that I don't exist
When my heart rests how much of it will I miss
And when the beating stops I know what's my final wish
That I could see more and didn't shut the door
I don't wanna go with my vices

Long nights I don't mind
But it's harder when I waste my time
On petty lies
I make them up just to eat me away inside
Dull my knife and my skin's been sliced how 'bout that
Tell me, tell me why
I take it out on myself when my friends just want me to be alright

Petty Lies [Prod. Cian]

BREAK (PROD. RYINI)

music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ppe3xn_JXY

Problems
Money and fame ain't gonna change 'em
I thought that she would calm down
But she don't care
She's still lashing out
The city like a bombshell waiting to fall
She's in my t-shirt and she's so evil
I'm waiting for a comedown I'm pacing my heart
I can't feel anything

Kiss me on the fire escape
You made me wait for so long
I am way too wide awake
With too many questions for no one in particular

Problems
Money and fame ain't gonna change 'em
I thought that she would calm down
But she don't care
She's still lashing out
The city like a bombshell waiting to fall
She's in my t-shirt and she's so evil
I'm waiting for a comedown pacing my heart
I can't feel anything

Kiss me on the fire escape
You made me wait for so long
I am way too wide awake
With too many questions for no one in particular
Kiss me on the fire escape
You made me wait for so long
I am way too wide awake
With too many questions for no one in particular

Problems
Money and fame ain't gonna change 'em
I thought she would calm down
But she don't care
She's still lashing out
City like a bombshell waiting to fall
She's in my t-shirt
She's so evil
I'm waiting for a comedown pacing my heart

spotify

fire escape (p. iof)

prod. Metlast

What the fuck was you thinking man
stepping in danger without a plan
I try to cry but I got bloodshot eyes and i'm just tryna think out where this began
seeing through you, you're a cyclone
I'm in the eye she stay disguised tonight I can't go 
perception changing rearranging thoughts and I know
I'm latching on but when you're  gone I think might show

signs of giving up again I need a friend
I think that I'll try to tie up the loose ends
I worry this will dwindle like a flower in
the winds that hit you like a missile when December ends
I'm smoking all the blends
I'm losing all the calluses the signs that I am in
a stable mind
I look behind 
my mind is muddled 
I will find a way out
petals falling
I'm balling my fucking eyes out
I will grow through the cracks to find my own way out
up of my headspace, I'm deadweight when you just called now
I can't think at all wow, my mind just fucking blacked out

What the fuck was you thinking man
stepping in danger without a plan
I try to cry but I got bloodshot eyes and I'm just tryna think out where this began
seeing through you, you're a cyclone
I'm in the eye she stay disguised tonight I can't go 
perception changing rearranging thoughts and I know
I'm latching on but when you're  gone I think might show

Doubt

Suicidal prod. Celestialmusic

PRVBLMS (prod. Hubstcy)

I'm back guys
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strings of dreams
she got everything she needs
gotta keep myself so clean 
cause these demons live in me
wash my eyes for the grief
hold my soul don’t you leave 
i swear all my friends are going
cause they don’t care bout me 

(so what i got drunk last night 
i fucked up last night 
i stayed up last night 
i gave up last night) x2
it’s all for you i swear 
said it’s all for you i swear

she got glitter on her eyelids and her hair down low 
even in a room of people she feels so alone
fucked up in the head and hurting in the bones 
nobody answers calls so she isn’t getting home 
check the door 
check the phone
check the watch oh no 
yeah this girl she in her zone
and she isn’t on her own

(so what i got drunk last night 
i fucked up last night 
i stayed up last night 
i gave up last night) x2
it’s all for you i swear 
said it’s all for you i swear

5 gold rings on my left hand
i got 4 gold chains round my neck fam
sitting here listening to pop bands
thinking bought the times when i really thought i had her
take a spirit bad thoughts turn into laughter 
i don’t remember last night or what happened after

BREAK (PROD. RYINI)

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