in my own collective thoughts hurting rn

featuring @luvwillow
produced by @imxofilo

@imxofilo
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, idc if its all fake
cuz i be at my lowest, i cant handle all this pain
yea it will never ever ever ever feel the same
(x2)

@luvwillow
tell me that u love me
ur love is sweet like honey
girl i think its kinda funny when u try to touch me
ur so toxic im in love
my hearts flying like a dove
do you see that when i cry?
thats how i know ur all mine
cut ur name into my arms
do u wanna see my scars?
baby i'd do anything
cuz baby ur my everything
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, even if its fake

@imxofilo
im so lost in the dark
there is no light
tell me that u love me idc if its a lie
cuz ur the only thing thats keeping me alive
and if ur not here with me, i think i might just die
i wanna disappear but idk what to do
i dont feel alive
the only thing i want is u
ur like a drug to me
i love u endlessly
i might be ending me
it might be recklessly
i feel like i have nobody to go to
everyday i come home crying here to u
darling dont leave me
hold me in ur arms
tell me ur here for me pls dont break my heart

even if it's fake +luvwillow (xofilo)

not it v1

in my head [prod. acey]

lyrics :)

it’s difficult to speak .. 
so i’m losing everything we built
it was blooming
and i can’t even breathe
when ur not here
i need u here with me
and i’ll prove it

it’s every day that i’m here alone in my room
i can’t help but think about being with u

i was just a child when i met u
i did everything i did to impress u
now i’m growing up and it upsets u
bc i’ll never be the girl you confessed to

forever, special someone ! :) [prod. acey]

:(

"my dog just ran away
and i am feeling pretty bad
i've been sneaking out at night
and my parents are real mad
i’ve been taking lots of drugs
cause they teach me not to care
yeah, i guess that’s how you cheat
because life doesn’t play fair

my brother told me
that he's gonna
kill himself tonight
with a whole bottle of prozac
or a shiny kitchen knife
he said that when he is dead
ill have his nintendo 64
and i can play all it night long
sitting on the basement floor

my girlfriend told me that
she doesn't love me anymore
and i wish i didn't care but
i thought she was really cool
so i drank a ton of liquor
then i threw up in her sink
she said next time use the toilet
then she offered me a drink"

original sample: https://ifidieinmississippi.bandcamp.com/track/nintendo-64-alex-g-3

winter 2009 ❄️💙

unreal [prod. acey]

★never felt better, guess i'll see u never★

[artwork]
myself lol

[producers]
@benjithemachine
@recyclexbin

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/never-felt-better-prod-benji-the-machine-x-recyclebin-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
why you act so sad
guess you fucked up real bad
can't you see that

hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

verse:
they just wanna see me go and fall
a few times
guess they always did when i look back
in hindsight

never wanted anything
more than this
guess it goes to show
which friends are ur closest

if u hate on me
then ur a goofy sorry
you think i wouldnt
hear the shit u talk

ha hardly

why u such a lame bro
u should go outside tho
maybe touch some grass
but its up to you tho

bridge:
you both stay here
while i go up yeah
i dont fuck with goofys
get out of my life quick

while i cop some new clothes
i dont care what the price is

repeat hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

★streaming★

★never felt better★ (prod. benji the machine x recyclebin)

you’re living your life
no consequence 
while the time passes by
i still feel like this
i want it to go
get away from the past
hoping and praying
that nothing lasts

you’re pretty but rotten
hard to forget
caught in the echoes
of the moments we’ve met
i want it to happen 
i want you to go
a shadow that fades
then the light starts to glow

it’s time to forget you 
i’m tired of your games
if you wanted i’d let you
play with the flames

i’m scared to forget you
the time that i gave
so lost when i met you
i’d do it again
but i’d do it again
boy i’d do it again 
for you

(spoiler this is actually about a woman!!! i just didn’t want her to know it is)

pretty but rotten [moneo]

Held on too long  (piano version)

blood moon rising by nardine sanderson.wav

em0000000000aa

teenage dream

lyrics about sum1 special , i love you wid all my heart and ur rlly so beautiful to me. (⁎˃ᆺ˂)

waiting for you to call :/
i've been on my own
all day 
tryna get you on the phone
without you i feel so alone
and i hate it :(...

haven't seen you in months 
but i still love you
month after month
i wanna kiss you
''love'' after ''love''
i got to meet YOOUU o_o
wish i was enough :(
you say i please you.. 

do i really please you?
are you lying?
everybody lies ..
but i stay silent :x
every time i smile :)
i feel like crying ;-;
every time i speak :o
we end up fighting ..

ur SOO beautiful to me <3
every night i question
??? why ???
you're still in love with me
is it my personality?
i would never fall in love
with any part of me :(..

ur SOOO beautiful 2 me <333
every part of you is
so beyond pristine >w<
felt a sensation when you kissed me :*
now i can't feel your lips
so i feel empty :(

ur so beautiful <3 ..

beautiful song by @emotegi
https://soundcloud.com/emotegi/talent-show
<3
guitar/piano/drum programming/mixing/mastering by mee

talent show

I Want U 4 The Rest Of My Life

☆spread your wings, just like a fairy!☆

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/adharmasatru

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/uglyzucc

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/fairy-w-adha-prod-uglyzuccnitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
ever since i heard you lost your wings
but still did your best to not give up
to try to face him regardless
i wanted to hold u just like this 

i know how hard it must've been
im proud of you

hook: (scoobert)
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow

bridge:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

verse: (adha)
fairy wings on an angel
when im with the worlds less painful
i feel confident and i am able
to love myself could u make me so grateful

you build me up
and you changed my life
and i fell so hard
i didnt even have to try

years pass, tears fall
waiting for your call
but ur calling me
like every night

i wish that i could find
the words to say to you
although i tried
nothing comes closer than

i love you

repeat hook:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow
--------------------------
happy new year ily <3

★spotify★

★fairy★ w/ adha (prod. uglyzucc)

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unreal [prod. acey]

sim (babycybr)

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