prod. cxrter

Prod. Ryini Beats

https://open.spotify.com/album/6g99YaIkXS9B1iBeMWE0q2?si=f734407593734aa7

[Chorus]
How can I feel okay
When I am so afraid
That you come back and I think of you

And how can I get you back
When all I see is you with someone else that's not me

[Verse 1]
I don't wanna feel like I'm okay anymore
Writing bops when I'm sad
Feeling like I'm men in back
Trynna rap, i got no flow
And I dont wanna feel like this
Cuz I know that you dont really love me anymore

And how can I feel okay
When I am so afraid, that you'll come back and I think of you


It's hard to love me, yeah baby i know
I got no one that I call my own
Just need somebody to hold me more close

How can I feel okay
When I am so afraid
That you come back and I think of you

And how can I get you back
When all I see is you with someone else that's not me

how can i feel okay?

lyrics:
I'm pickin up the broken glass this time
seekin back these moments to rewind
feelin they were stolen insight
but I wanna relive them inside
i'm pickin up the broken glass this time
seeking back these moments to rewind
feeling they were stolen insight
but I wanna relive them inside

here I am fallin down without you
while I'm lost in time
here I am caught all up on my knees
as I cry
cause I knew that this day would come I was so fine I
looked far back in the rearview as were drivin
saw you pack all your things I was so silent
solemn for you while I was left quiet

i'm pickin up the broken glass this time
seekin back these moments to rewind
feelin they were stolen insight
but I wanna relive them inside
i'm pickin up the broken glass this time
seekin back these moments to rewind
feelin they were stolen insight
but I wanna relive them inside

if all is lost but were piecin our love I know
that I can go pick up my line and call your phone
i just need to cool and breathe
oh

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broken glass

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

Lyrics¬

Ohh its alright
Ive heard these words a thousand times
And it doesnt get easier
No it doesnt get easier
But i dont mind
If you lie to me tonight
just lie with me, alright?
I know its kinda sad
Thinkin about the times when 
we were alright

So hold me tight
tell me bout the things you like
And lets do this together
Ill take care of you forever i dont mind
keep you warm in stormy weather its alright
Never know how to react, when, we fight
but we always work it out by the night

And i looooooove you
and i cant help my-jealousy
But ill take care of it
if you take care of me

And i know
That of
Everyone
You know the most
I get too attached and i hurt myself 
On loving those
That care for me the most
And i still dont know how
To control
My feelings all
Emotions overflow

i cant stay afloat
heartbreak overdose
Wondering what to do 
and where to go
Only god could know

Ohh its alright
Ive heard these words a thousand times
And it doesnt get easier
No it doesnt get easier
But i dont mind
If you lie to me tonight
just lie with me, alright?
I know its kinda sad
Thinkin about the times when 
we were alright

a thousand times (iof)

*thank you to @lxstboymusic for adding a verse to this song! make sure to check out his music

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle and @lxstboymusic
produced‌ ‌by -‌ fantom
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Written by Senzu
Mixed Mastered and Engineered by Senzu
Produced by Giovanni

Deadshot (Giovanni)

tell me to fall and i will

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @lil-p_nut
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
I can’t help but
Let my insecurities
Get the best of me sometimes
These thoughts still linger in my mind

Maybe she’s out with friends trying to have fun
Maybe her phone is dead
And I’m worrying too much
Or has she finally had enough

Am I so undesirable
To actually believe that she would cheat
Maybe she just fell asleep on me
I’d hate to be a rain cloud
That follows you around
Or an anchor tied up firmly to your feet
Maybe you’re better off without me

(pnut)
What you talking 'bout baby 
I’ve been going crazy in my head  
I’m sorry if I’ve been ghosting
I’ve been holding back my threads with these useless pins
‘Cause I don’t want you to know me
Shit always goes sour when we’re more than friends 
I fight that I want you to hold me 
I’d prefer to stay back where it never ends

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