I don’t know if I can keep this “Charade Called Breathing” up…

Heisman (prod. baredex)

in my shoes

fading out the memories
im writing my own melodies
i cut down too deep and now im draining out my energy 

a piece of me is broken
you cant fix it 
leave it open

i’m a wound
i’m fucking hopeless
i’m so rude but they don’t notice

i just wanna die at the right time
need to come up with a good lie

doing anything to ruin my life
maybe i should just do it tonight

maybe i can’t finish the fight
scratch and bite cus i dont mind
recklessly control my life

i just wanna feel
something not painful 
but it all feels the same
carve it out until it feels numb
am i insane

can't fix it [hero]

Huge shout out to my brother @halfhearted for his verse.

If you enjoyed listening, we would appreciate any support on the song, thank you all :)

**lyrics**

So tell me how you lost your feelings in such a quick matter of time
I could lose sleep over who you’ve been texting, but those arent matters of mine

Breaking my spine just so you can survive, and Id do it again if it gave me more time
Just to ask how you’ve been, if you’re feeling all right
I get too attached now there’s nowhere to hide

So was I important to you-
Or is that just a thought in my head?
Am I more than a fool for believing in things that we said? 

Maybe if I could change the structure of all that I am,
It wouldn’t be so hard for me to let go of your hand.

(Halfie)
I could lose my sleep over things that don’t matter, like how my tears splattered on the bedspread
I been sevenfeet with my fear and I’m drowning
Don’t tell me there’s a chance it’ll go right to my head 

She’s the monster deep inside my closet 
Can’t call her, she’s only talking nonsense
I don’t feel alive anymore, but I’ll digress
(Yeah I’ll digress, yeah I’ll digress)

Cause you know, I’m happy to walk around in circles
just avoiding the blame or any people
I’m scared i know, i gotta be a better man but my eyes are closed
im just waiting for your hand

ashed w/ halfhearted (everest)

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:
i guess this is goodbye
have you ate, or do you try?
i wish you well, so please don’t cry
cuz i’ll be here no matter if ur not mine ♡
so i guess this is goodbye
but how’s june, does he still fight?
is he calmer now, or does he bite?
and does he still leave the house at night?

ʙᴜᴛ
ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ
ᴡᴀꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴜ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ
ʟᴇᴛ’ꜱ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴘʀᴏᴍɪꜱᴇ
ᴜʀ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ʟᴇᴀʀɴ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜɪꜱ
ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴏ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ
ᴊ ʏᴇꜱ ᴏʀ ɴᴏ

2023 we made a promise
it failed within a month and ill be honest
u couldn’t keep ur word so our loves tarnished now
oh no

so take away the both of us
cuz i know you hate it just as much
as me
the love of ur life is me

ᴅᴏ ᴜ ᴀɢʀᴇᴇ?

ᴊ

when ur heart begins to rot
and the things u always thought
won’t be the same
because one day you’ll fall in love
and then next you hate her guts
well nothing changed
even if you go and break
knowing you, you probably hate
how i was made
gotta make this life my best
and pray god will fill the rest
then i’ll be okay

love of my life

Nuke - Opps [p. taz]

https://youtu.be/1JqUXCRxDcM?si=H2IIc4Y56LASMNS3

lyrics:

knew this girl from the east 
spent a band on me
2015 rick with some wax on me 
tryna wax me @ the sto 
they tryna bag on me

wouldn’t treat me like this
wouldn’t treat me like that 
wouldn’t treat me like them 

couldn’t let you in 
i knew you’d turn yo back 
if u saw me like that 

you ain’t seen what i seen
tryna feed the whole team 
you ain’t get what i mean

& i don’t got what you need
i can see the whole scheme 
lay your head on my jeans

treat me like that (◞‸◟,, ) @seanpotter597 @vntisami ( mv in desc )

mv: https://youtu.be/Zlh3Ar52bGk
prod. @bonxxx
cover art by @michael_murder on ig

i been fukt up
she said im stuck up
i dont care, i dont evvvven give a fuck noOOoow
and she said she only need me when she drunk now
i been gone off the drugz, feel no love now

lately i dont feel shit
droppin xanz in the cup so i dont feel sick
i know sometimes that life can be a real bitch
i remembered who i am n thts real shit

i been fucked up on my own
doing drugz inside my home
n lately i dont even feel the need to touch my phone
she said she luv me, idk
told that girl to leave me lone
i just get this money n dats just all i knoOo

i been fukt up
she said im stuck up
i dont care, i dont evvvven give a fuck noW
and she said she only need me when she drunk now
i been gone off the drugz, feel no love now 

x_X

fk’d up (vid in desc)

@2hollis @bekkep

2hollis took this beat off of my youtube channel
original sc upload: https://soundcloud.com/2hollis-archive/holland-pluggnb-holland?si=71d7ac1c80a9483e9c91a24409d4890b&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Holland (prod. becker)

https://youtu.be/cCjcgftroV8?si=_mX1bfsje-XDnWuC

@pastelhendrix

I could teach u how 2 jugg
I could teach u how 2 jugg sum
Stand up on the table
Make a toast
I raise the cup up
She so Promiscuous
& she stuck up
Put the safe in the floor
Had 2 roll the persian rug up

She a model & her skin on 10
Yoga pose
She put her body inna bend
I jus left champs
Got sum new breds
Jus hit the jugg
On the plugg
Smoke this brand new blend ya

In the Ferragamo store
Guess ima Ferragamo whore
Why these jeans stupid long
Deez some skinny Dior's
Ya im swervin thru the Altamont
Im passing Livermore
I got ultraviolet ammo
In the top right drawer

Got ahunnid blue bills on me
Couple blue pills on me
Kno dis doja from iran
You smoking boof thats afghani
She a pretty hoe
I make her tsunami
Black&Yellow coupe
This a brand new Bugatti

Promiscuous [MV IN DESC]

https://youtu.be/rniIGQVxVPs?si=Ky-XgdQuS9UEweWV

@pastelhendrix @vldxicn6 @user-kisuisdivine

@zanelynchetti
waking up everyday with a nosebleed
Chanel makeup mirror make sure that her nose clean
i don't know if you don't know
if she find out she gon' kill me
know you know
of course i'll show
i'm the same way and i'll still be

get me right need you tonight
i'll pick you up from church
Calvin Klein can barely type
all the letters blurred
know i know you
all the way down to your nerves
drag me down that road left my teeth biting the curb yeaaa|

@myspacemark
we go together
like Dolce Gabbana
theres not a moment
ive nvr been on one
i wont go back to whatever
we once was
she love takin pills
turn her pain into
Freedom

i turn this money
into millions
ya im in London
countin euros
feelin brilliant
ive made it obvious
what my decision is
& when i touch this mil
kno ima turn it into billions
then ill turn it all to trillions

get u Dior & Clinique
she dont use no Maybelline
got the club turnt up
like its new years eve
Lamborghini all white
& the guts lime green
kno we up all night
waking up 2 nosebleeds

Freedom @@zanelynchetti [MV IN DESC]

Sealed Tomb (Jett x Sithkei Ma)

ATTITUDE (prod leovisa & remghost)

New Leovisa music produced by 1204 x Paul M x WhoIsWonder  Engineer by Justicefrthankyou

LOST MY MIND (1204 x Paul M x WhoIsWonder)

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ｍｙ ａｐｏｌｏｇｉｅｓ ｗｏｎ＇ｔ ｂｅ ａｃｃｅｐｔｅｄ．

(w/ @ggravee)

[ggravee]
laying on the floor and my hands around my neck
i dont wanna feel i just want you out my head
getting hard to breath with this weight all on my chest
the sun is coming out i should probably go to bed

lips are getting dry and my bodies going numb
i try to call my friends but i really have no one
always feeling lost but i dont kno where to run
time is always slow i dont even know the month

hands are black blue match the holes all in my walls
dont know what to do or if i even should go on
dont wanna tie the noose, cause im scared ill slip and fall
i just wanna talk to you but i dont even try at all

i wish that i could move but im running out of time
farther im from you is when i start feeling blind
i dont wanna go cause i feel safer inside
i hope that i can grow and i can get this out my mind

[smalltalk]
we all gotta go its just a matter of time
you thought we should go, said it would be fine
i didn't wanna leave i had other plans in mind
knew i should have stayed inside

sign your name on my casket
like i got a cast in
and you can smoke my ashes

like a bad habit, feeling drastic
breathe me in with a passion
i know i got you feeling fantastic
do you feel me in your lungs, like its magic
do you hear me in the wind like i'm static
do you see me in your dreams like imagine

in a way its romantic, when its cold
light me up i'll keep you warm like a jacket
i'll keep you warm like a jacket
yeah my love, you can have it

running out of time (w/ ggravee) (prod. ʎpoqou)

What you see is what you get... I promise not to switch up  for the worse. Cross my broken 💔... 😉

in my shoes

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