Control me

track #12 of *s*t*r*a*y***m*u*t*t*produced*by*loser_table

#12_SPiTBALL-EMOTIONS_prodby tRip_diXon #STRAY #MUTT

Emptiness

guard dog w/ blissful fields

original song by wstdyth and blackwinterwells

balanced meal (cover)

little cake walk shawty -- pord. pretty pacc -- Artwork by Clout Cohen

House of Cards (Prod. pretty pacc)

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1W8tSHLnTM
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4SDrYcibOoKqswDN3Y1Kb8?si=Frc39TndQH-Xq90uCpOe3g

Lyrics:
Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Memories on reread we can't reset
Drowning in the deep end every weekend
I've been searching I've been seeking fighting demons
Needing something to believe in need a reason
So stay with me lil bae
Don't play with me no games no way
So stay with me lil bae
Just lay with me run away with me

Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Feel like a burden I feel like a waste
Blunts I be burning take two to the face
Memories lurking wish I could erase 
Driving and swerving like this shit a race yuh
Lately been running in place
Drugs that I'm taking got me outer space 
Can't get no love and not notice the hate
Talking online but in person they fake yuh
I'm tryna cop me a wraith
Finest interior match with the bape yuh
I used to be such a saint
Kids looking up to me now but I ain't nah
I just be stacking my dividends 
Out there somewhere by the river bend
Used to be down on my luck I was down in the dirt
Found my purpose now I wanna live again
Can't do this shit again 
I been indifferent diamonds drip glistening
That shit don't matter just that u listening 
Hope that u listening

Wish I was a kid again
wish I was a kid again
X2

Got this burden in me stirring tossing turning
Working on a better me is it worth it worth it
You deserve it thats what she said
But she's perfect I'm the only she'll regret
Woah there don't you go there that's what she said
No fair you don't know where I've been sleeping
No care you were nowhere blank and speechless
But she's perfect I'm the one she'll regret

Music Video

Burden (prod. AIRAVATA) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Beckrauhl - Not Given (Prod. Uncle Delema)

thank you for everything i learned a lot 
art by @birdiiiiiiiii

peroxide

(LYRICS)   ft @hammy     prod. @droozzzy
ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling
laying on the floor and the walls r moving closer

writing these songs just to get it out
i can see my own life and its fading now

      
I can see my own life and it's fading
I can see my own life and it's

life keeps fading 
mind is always racing
out in public 
hide my face 
like im Jason 
got the razor on me
if you hating
got my team around me
we just hanging

we just posted 
smoking potent
my hands are shaking 
I hope she doesn't notice 
I hate my mindset
it's hard to focus
when everything fucking seems so hopeless 

I don't want friends
I just want the end
I just wanna rest 
spend the day in bed 
I'll lay here till I'm dead
can't get out my head 
It's cause I'm trapped inside
It's such a lonely night

I live a lonely life
half the fucking time 
I don't feel alive
I know it's not alright
but I don't have the drive
to do anything
motivation inside 
keeps withering


ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling

SPOTIFY

used to it +hamilton (prod. droozy)

wallhack freestyle #Gx [prod. curtains]

Above The Clouds (prod. RGH)

@me
do u know where we are
what were on
dnt look back
just move on
i think abt it alot
though im young
life is fast
almost done
cant think abt it enough

@gangppg
gimme
1 pill
do this shit again
ican not feel
u been in my head
so real
can u tell me wat u said
and my
heart racing
molly what she facing
im on drugs lik a patient
i won talk like a basic
i dnt want no conversation
do drugs
jus to wake up on the pavement

love lost
love cross
n i found it again
wont stop 
cant stop
ima do it again
im addicted to my old ways
take me bak to the old days

prod me :(

think abt it

think abt it w/ppgcasper

Yelnats (Iris) (prod. Glasear x Jinn)

In my sleep in my dream baby wake me
Sleepwalk back to the time that made you hate me
Ask me if I'm sad, in the past, it was maybe
But I'm not going back just to change what it made me
And all I do is dream baby wake me
Sleepwalk back to the time that made you hate me
Ask me if I'm sad, in the past, it was maybe
But I'm not going back just to change what it made me

I admit I've still got lots to learn but you lost your ability to voice concerns on my part
My affinity for you was full from from the start
Everything I ever do is just to recharge the way they see me but I can't restart
They wanna be me but I've grown apart from myself and I, it's just me now
Hard to see why I would even wanna reach out
Smart of you to keep your wits around, around
I just wanna prove you gave me my way out, and I got out

In my sleep in my dream baby wake me
Sleepwalk back to the time that made you hate me
Ask me if I'm sad, in the past it was maybe
But I'm not going back just to change what it made me
And all I do is dream baby wake me
Sleepwalk back to the time that made you hate me
Ask me if I'm sad, in the past it was maybe
But I'm not going back just to change what it made me

Make me try a little harder 'til it breaks me
Fake it 'til you make it all better then replace me
Maybe I could go a little further if you chased me
But Imma slow down to make it easier to face me
Do you taste bitterness you think I harbor for you when I talk sweet
More than I want this I adore you, believe me it's real to me
I've got everybody trynna bring me down to their level
Trynna keep me mid but I'm staying in the treble
You keep me out of trouble, I keep you in your head
We keep each other on our toes until we're on our feet again

In my sleep in my dream baby wake me
Sleepwalk back to the time that made you hate me
Ask me if I'm sad, in the past it was maybe
But I'm not going back just to change what it made me
And all I do is dream baby wake me
Sleepwalk back to the time that made you hate me
Ask me if I'm sad, in the past it was maybe
But I'm not going back just to change what it made me

prince goblin

ALL PLATFORMS

sleepwalk (+ taylor morgan x mental)

produced by @opal707
mix/cover art by me

i can never do shit first try ill get it next time
second chance and i promise imma give it all i have
hopefully ill get it next time
ill get it next time- (ill get it next time dw)

its the best feeling
i cant believe it
ur the best person
im not worth it

bnb theres bottles on the floor
(got a bad review)
all i need is you and nothing more
(i swear its true)
spend it but ill get it back for sure
(get a bag for u)
ill do whatever u want me too

i did my best but i still came in second place
( came in second place )
i dont want to speak my mind if its not my place
( if its not my place )
always last choice i cant rejoice
im not trynna seem obsessed i just love ur voice
never outdoors love when it pours
i cant focus when i think cus theres to much noise
(too much noise)

first try (opal)

shown sum luvv wit @tonserrr <<##33 ##fishin 

prodd @angelus7k arena @1vessel

[fishrman bons]
chilln wit tonsr buh n we ##upp #0.o#
hop intha clubb n we shownn sum <<##33
popn a bttl,, pour upp a cupp *~*
bb tha beltt,, wit sum ##truus ##okok giv a fkk ;;P

twistd off tha ##juic in my own room 
y u tryna tlk,, lil buh idkk u ! ;;*
i bn goinn hardd yh i gt monee in my coat2
n i bn runnin upa checc lik im supsd2 ;DD

fight or flightt bb its so wrongg or rite ? 
i dnt wna fkn tryy,, i dnt wna playy it nice ://
i cn c it ##2020 thru my eyz,, seein rite thru all ur lies
ur everythn tht i despis ._.

pushn thruu,, ill mk it outt o.p
bt wit no cluu,, n wit no route ##lost

[fishrman tonsr]
She wanna leave I don’t wanna go 
Hot like Moss, u already kno
she said she likes me, said she likes my bro’s 
I really really wanna keep her close 
When I get offers, all I say is no
When we go out, yeah I buy her clothes 
I really really wanna keep her close

I wanna be with u
I wanna change for u
Hop on a plane for u

I’m with buhsai on a track, and I have my bb belt on
Father cooking steak I don’t wanna have it welldone
My girl she wants it rare, it’s a family dinner 
Looking in her eyes, I kno what’s happening later

She says she likes me
She says she likes this song

kp her clos ++ tonser [p. angelus + arena + 4am]

Lyrics

I think I’ll be alone forever
Sometimes I wish u wanted me so we 
could be alone together
I’m all alone I’ll probably be alone forever
I been alone maybe it’s better

Tell myself that so I feel better
But I never feel better
I’m like “becky gotta get it together” 
I gotta get it together

Crying in the bathroom, wipe the tears on my sweater
Walked out like I got it together
But I never really got it together 
Maybe one day I’ll feel better

Maybe one day I’ll feel better will that day even come like ever? 
Maybe one day I’ll feel better, if I keep working on myself to get it together

Get It Together (prod. Kaktus)

make a wish (+ homecomingqueen)

last ambient song for a lil i think

@blackwinterwells @pincode8485 @1sonvta @kggn

tonight w/blackwinterwells & 8485 (sonvta + kuru)

featuring @d1vwv
produced @opal707 & @sg37
cover art, mix and master by me

who does that? i never got that
when i look at you id like it if u looked back
but tbh i dont blame u if u dont like what u see
if i acted really bad would u go and leave me be

youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me
its not that i dont want you cus i really want u here
in my head i start comparing makes me wanna dissapear
youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me
youre just to good for me

i stay awake all night just to get a sign from you
and i know i never try i could try with you 
baby i know that im wasting time so many things that i want to try
all day all night i just stay awake something bout u baby i dont wanna stay away
but i had to let u go cus
it was getting to my head
u didnt listen to a single thing i said
u say i overthink but i dont wanna sleep alone in my bed
the only thing i really care bout now is my bread

it just doesnt have to be so hard
i know that im overcomplicated
what i do u seem to disregard
i just think that it was me u hated
i cant get over it, i cant get over it no matter how bad i want to
i cant get over it, i cant get over it no matter how bad i want to
i cant get over it, i cant get over it no matter how bad i want you

who does that + d1v (opal & sg37)

I’m still
         https://www.instagram.com/bamscarr/

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