words:

soda pop and ritalin
I’m afraid i’ll be just like my friends
stuck in the dumps, thinking bout death
hey I’m tryna live, why we thinking bout death?
when we could be up in the sky
soaring’ high high high
hold up, TSAs screening my emotional baggage
I’m 16 pounds overweight
shits hard to swallow, must be why I’m 16 pounds underweight
don’t know why I’m starving
there’s way too much on my plate
I’m tryna feed my team
yet i keep ending the day smoking green
its the way i run from my fiends
bc i only see 62 in my dreams
I may be crazy, at least my straightjacket’s designer
gotta look good when i meet my healthcare provider
man, i should be in LDN w valentine. killing it
but I’m way out here lookin like an american idiot
what ever happened to banana split? x 2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SA8v3B1SxR0

the son of rage & love

horseshoe crab by slothrust (cover)

lyrics:
let me crash on the couch in ur head
ya the elephants take up room in mine
i lost my gills when i crawled out of the sea
since then its been hard to breathe
got a human brain its a funny thing
distorting realities
to find a picture to fit in
no one looks the same in my family portraits
stopped cutting in high school, it doesn’t matter unless it kill
but i wanna feel pain
i wanna feel like i got a nail inside my brain
breaking like a fever
wear my karma show it shows
i could fake the moon landing
w the effort it takes to know
I’m alive, 
tried self care. what i learned from mac is i cant even trust myself
going back to the water. i think I’m gonna drown
take me to the lighthouse.
I’m afraid of virginia
do u believe in ghosts?
they believe in me
ya I’m afraid of virginia woolf

WOOLF

lyrics:
this is my room that i grew up in
this is my room where i laugh w my friends
this is my room where i dream of u
this is my room this is my room

we play uno on my shag carpet
and listen to king krule
off the turntable
ur sitting on my bed
and I’m sitting on the floor
watching u talk about the earth
like we’re playing zathura
but you’ll go home  and i’ll stay here
w the monsters in the closet
kiss me goodbye
if i go outside i might hurt myself

this is my room that i grew up in
this is my room where i laugh w my friends
this is my room where i dream of u
this is my room this is my room

i refuse to carry mirrors in here
they remind me of the fact that i look like a boy
david bowies on my wall
next to kate spade
next to amy winehouse
i got records from the 60s
toys from japan
books on my shelf, theres a world in here
but my teddy bear knows the truth
about where these fingers have been
down my throat, in other people
gripping razorblades
cutting out distractions till i realize its just me in my room

this is my room that i grew up in
this is my room where i laugh w my friends
this is my room where i dream of u
this is my room this is my room

this is my room where i can wear dress
without someone pulling my pocketbook
this is my room where i take lsd
and blast deftones. no one tells me whats real
ya this can be my last room
this will be my last room

MY ROOM

lyrics:
 I’m always running away from the hand that feeds
Im a bag of bones. its hard to eat
I’ve been alone so long, now everything is private
no i don’t have friends like that anymore

i don’t talk to jack, no i don’t to sarah 
when i left u everyone left me
here i am playing music in the dark
on bowie’s piano
ground control can’t reach me now
earth is not the place for alien activity

I’m not the boy that you remember
no I’m not a boy at all
u won’t recognize me if we meet again
i’ll make u feel brand new
if u let me back in i'll make u feel brand new

the only thing that i regret is walking out that door
I’m sorry. im sorry that i wanted more
here i go again try to play flawless notes on broken strings
i only recall being safe in ur arms

LO(VER)

lyrics:
never found oz since i left kansas
they say theres no place like home
but idk what that means
cause i live life alone
yeah i live like a snail
ruby slip-ons sipping on tin man
crashing hot wheels n matchboxes vroom vroom vroom
I’m a one-door mazda zoom zoom zoom
driving the car and sitting shotgun
I’m my own ride or die x2
I'm driving the car and sitting shotgun
I’m my own ride or die x2


cherry colored vans. black council tee
just like my funk they cry behind me
ya I’m the deer standing in ur highbeams
used to ride the concrete wave
now I’m green day, demon days
dog days are over on my bedroom floor
where i used to sip bombay
w friends that i don’t got anymore
been drinking more since i left AA
I’m no good. i feel like winehouse
wires frayed. I’m in between days
if my friends were here what would they say?
i miss a place where we drive on the left side
back of the favela smashing bottles w the gringos
chaining darts, get the lingo
ya all my friends were my best friends when i was cool
 all my friends were my best friends

I’m not dead or alive I’m somewhere in between
I’m not a boy or a girl I’m someone in between
where’d u go? whats the deal?

doing my best scarecrow impression when I’m standing in ur field
i’ll be the big crying kid still wondering if anyone will talk to me
u tell me to go somewhere else
i might go drink something else
i don’t wanna be by myself
always crying in public. restrooms n parking lots
I’m in this car by my self imma ride or die all by myself

KANZAS

lyrics:
in this room so long that I’m counting by fives
take it slow like a dive
now I’m drowning in goodbyes
got my back to the dirt shoegazing at the sky
where u live. ya I’m down to earth
but the floor is lava. so thats gotta hurt
guess thats why ur parents left us all ur shirts
if ur in that hearse i wanna be sitting shotgun
rolling on a perc till i see god come

looking at the sky today
praying to the guy again
x2

black band t, slip on vans
ya I’m still the kid w the toys in the backpack
sitting in the back i aint going like 2pac
sitting in the back i aint going like 2pac
don’t trust the night can’t see in the dark
I’m staying right here ur gonna wait for me
this UFO has no wings
and ur still the kid w the earth in his eyes
u passed the chain like mic to ur brother
I’ll play pretend. i can be king kong
I’m on top of the world. u know whats next
whats obvious to me isn’t obvious to u
buried underground, in 5 years thats where i’ll stay
but just for now try and have a nice day

looking at the sky today
praying to the guy again
x2

ANGELBOY

lyrics:
I’ve been at ur doorstep so many times
its avon calling
I never had a key
i just come to sell you the sweetest things
but it seems I’ve rotten u to the core
the cavities break inside ur bones
ya had to kick that habit
u had to kick me out
crying out in ur neighborhood
u got over me faster than cigarettes
15. our first kiss
i'll fuck it up and always miss
feels like lisa frank when u traced the stickers on my skin
but u act like kate winslet when u don’t see me
oh my darling clementine
i want the river to take me away
now I’ve drowned and gone astray

i see im doing nothing but interrupting ur getting over me
sometimes i dream i didnt leave but i know i had to so i could be me

and if ur rome than I’m the romans
u know i miss u the same way time tests David
I’m patiently waiting to figure out how many days it takes to give up
its been a year since we last spoke
idk who u are anymore
i didn’t know you’d be my last home
life peeled back to the start
i dont speak w my mouth i speak w my heart
thats how i learned i love too much
i was the pop rocks n u were the coke
now you’ve grown i make ya stomach sick
I’m loveless I’m shoe gazing. I’m tripping I’m hopping
I’m the dummy
I’m not the dancing queen but I’m coming clean for the first time

i see im doing nothing but interrupting ur getting over me
sometimes i dream i didnt leave but i know i had to so i could be me

I’m that irritating game on ur phone 
that u couldnt stop playing
next time i call you won’t answer
had to cut out that addiction
i got everything i asked for now I’m alone
my face is a rubrics cube that u couldn’t solve
i know u'll always care bc u  believe in me
u said id be a star but i wanna be yours
all over ur body. kiss me kiss me

i see im doing nothing but interrupting ur getting over me
sometimes i wish i didnt leave. oh yeah i wish that i didnt leave
now u see it, now u dont
red doesnt remind me of blood anymore
just the colour of your nail polish

RED NAIL POLISH PT.2

CNCL CULT - Crying In The Moshpit
she/they

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