Back in June 2019, I bought an ESP guitar, and this is the first tune created with it. The bones of the song sat for nearly 3 years on my hard drive before its resurrection. I then structured it properly, added a middle 8, then procured the services of Eric Castiglia to sing it before putting on the finishing touches. Turn the volume up to 11 and enjoy!

Going Under (Feat. Eric Castiglia)

I dreamt the chorus of this song just before waking up a few days ago. It was crystal clear, including all the instrumentation and lyrics, so I got up, ran to my guitar and quickly recorded myself into my phone. Four days later, I've added other sections and fully recorded the whole song. If you think I've ripped off another song, please send me a message :)

Nobody Told Me

Another driving rock song featuring the amazing singing of Eric Castiglia.

Lyrics
On a world where nothing grows
In a place nobody knows
I stand alone on this cold barren land
Without help, there's no way out
Fading hopes, now only doubt
Communication lost with High Command

Across all space and time
Can you hear my cries?

How I hope that you can rescue me
I'm holding on, just one last try
One last chance to get it through to you
I'll send a message to the sky

Nothing here but only pain
This uninhabited domain
Had no promise, we should never came

Across all space and time
I'll try to stay alive

How I hope that you can rescue me
I'm holding on, just one last try
One last chance to get it through to you
I'll send a message to the sky
 
You told me this was dangerous for me
I knew this from the start
But trapped here all alone without you by my side
Is tearing me apart

How I hope that you can rescue me
I'm holding on, just one last try
One last chance to get it through to you
I'll send a message to the sky
The sky

Rescue Me (Feat. Eric Castiglia)

An ambitious heavy track with ideas I could never have used without the top-quality vocal talent of Eric Castiglia, who did a superb job, and will be the only person to ever hear me sing this one!

Lyrics
Gather round Sisters and Brothers
I'm a power of death like no other
I'll be on your side when you're slipping away
(And you'll know where you're going)

Pray to humanity's cancer
Accept the unsavoury answer
Dive into the mind of a monster of hell
(Don't question intention)

You'll be my servant

You'll believe in me 
It's your destiny
It's the way
(BELIEVE IN ME)
Kneel before me
I'm your deity
I'm your God

Are you ready to give your life to me
To sacrifice all that you could be
You've nothing to lose but your mind
And free will
(You're nothing without me) 

You'll be my servant

You'll believe in me 
It's your destiny
It's the way
(BELIEVE IN ME)
Kneel before me
I'm your deity
I'm your God

(Scream)

Listen up, I'm here to reign over you
Subjugate
I will control you
Turn the page, read my commands
Obey me now
Fulfil my demands
Under the guise of freedom, I'll rule you
Under a wave of hope, I will drown you
Take a spark and start another fire
Spread it to the world
Fulfil my desire

You'll believe in me 
It's your destiny
It's the way
(BELIEVE IN ME)
Kneel before me
I'm your deity
I'm your God

HOO!
HAA!

Believe In Me (Feat. Eric Castiglia)

A moody but uplifting rock ballad including vocals from the big lungs of Christina R.

How come I can't read a sign that's right in front of me?
How come I can't reason why, or reason what'll be?
How come I lost sight of what you see?
How come I couldn't see the best in me?
How could I have been so foolish to lose myself
While losing my way?

From deep inside my heart, you pulled an empty frame
Then filled it with a picture of the woman I became
When the shadows shake reality
When the chains of life are breaking me
When I make mistakes I know
You'll be on my side
And that's when I rise

Free, making me rise, rise to where you are
Just see me fly, far beyond the stars
Painting divine pictures in the sky
A dazzling sight, we'll watch their spirits rise

Stopped them picking me apart, quit taking all the blame
Burning all the pieces of the puzzle I became
Every time I close my eyes, I see the deep red stains
They wanted me to bleed

Free, making me rise, rise to where you are
Just see me fly, far beyond the stars
Painting divine pictures in the sky
A dazzling sight, we'll watch their spirits rise

I saw a future with nothing worth solving
No way to stop misery's wheel from revolving
I thought I was falling
But fate then came calling somehow

Free, making us rise, rise to where you are
(We'll rise up, we'll rise up)
Seeing us fly, far beyond the stars
(We'll rise up, we'll rise up)
Painting divine pictures in the sky
(We will rise, we will rise up, rise up)
Flying so high
(High)

Rise (feat. Christina R)

All of the pieces I have found
Scattered on the ground
The jigsaw puzzle incomplete
A world no longer at my feet

They said that I should start out anew
But now is not the time (it's not the time)
Only memories left to taunt
So I'll find another life (another life)

You can't see
These lies behind my eyes
A dreamt life in parallel
It's real
Now that I'm lost inside
I'm lost inside my paradise

Now you watch as I head out to sea
The secrets stay with me
And upon this ocean you'll never find
The island where I hide

They said that I should start out anew
But now is not the time (it's not the time)
Only memories left to taunt
So I'll find another life (another life)

You can't see
These lies behind my eyes
A dreamt life in parallel
It's real
Now that I'm lost inside
I'm lost inside my paradise

I see myself as a stranger
My life is not my own
Inside my paradise

You can't see
These lies behind my eyes
A dreamt life in parallel
It's real
Now that I'm lost inside
I'm lost inside my paradise

I'm lost in my paradise
Lost inside my paradise
I'm lost in my paradise
Lost inside my paradise

Lost Inside (My Paradise)

This is a rework/remastering of the track - backing vocals greatly enhanced and reworked, bridge completely reworked to change pace, and added backing on ahhh section, many other production enhancements/fixes.

Going Under (2024 version)

High-energy rock track featuring vocals by John Long.

I am not the enemy
Looking for a remedy
Bring a better destiny 
One step closer

Hoping you can understand
Want to be a better man
Just taking cover
Until it's over

Now it's all turned bitter
Just how did it come to this?
Things are getting sicker
A fight's gonna brew

So why do you want to break me?
If you cared then you'd just want to save me, so tell me
Why are you feeling so angry?
Why do you, why do you, why do you want to break me down?

Feelings to the contrary
Nothing of sincerity
Reflecting insanity
Back from the mirror

You can't understand me
The trip gong signals misery
Fight to the end
A new Zeitgeist draws nearer

Now it's all turned bitter
Just how did it come to this?
In the echo chamber
The mindless can change reality

Why do you want to break me?
If you cared then you'd just want to save me, so tell me
Why are you feeling so angry?
Why do you, why do you, why do you want to break me?

Why do you want to hurt me?
These wounds will never desert me, please tell me
Why are you feeling so badly?
Why do you, why do you, why do you want to break me?

Slow this down
Let's bring it all around
Turn this cacophony
Into a symphony
Together, understand, we'll build a plan
With some humanity, we can understand

Now it's all turned bitter
But we can get out of this
Epistemic bubbles
Are destined to burst

Why do you want to break me?
If you cared then you'd just want to save me, so tell me
Why are you feeling so angry?
Why do you, why do you, why do you want to break me?

Why do you want to hurt me?
These wounds will never desert me, please tell me
Why are you feeling so badly?
Why do you, why do you, why do you want to break me?

Why do you, why do you, why do you want to break me?

Break Me

Piano ballad remake of an old electronic track.

Out across the empty void of space
You'll never ever find a colder place
Than the one that stares upon your face right now

The kind of thing that tears a man apart
Causes not a flicker in my heart
While your love's always been mine never starts to be

  I've got synthesized feelings
  No, I don't care
  And I don't need healing
  No pain to share
  I've got synthesized feelings
  It's all display
  My words concealing an unnatural way

I can laugh throughout your happy day
I can cry when nothing goes your way
And I can be there when you need me near
I can pretend to love, pretend to hate
Mourn the dead and the newborn celebrate
But I'll never ever understand the world around me

  I've got synthesized feelings
  No, I don't care
  And I don't need healing
  No pain to share
  I've got synthesized feelings
  It's all display
  My words concealing an unnatural way

I'm not sorry I have no empathy
It's just who I am fundamentally
I've got synthesized feelings
I've got synthesized feelings
I've got synthesized feelings
I've got synthesized feelings

  I've got synthesized feelings
  No, I don't care
  And I don't need healing
  No pain to share
  I've got synthesized feelings
  It's all display
  My words concealing an unnatural way

I've got synthesized feelings

Synthesized Feelings (Piano Version)

I love to write songs in different genres, but very focused on melody. It's all just for fun and fulfilment.

Bankie

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