A song about not ever wanting to be a jaded dick, but also feeling like you care about everything less and less and less. The only thing that matters is people.

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EVERYTHING IS ASININE
 
I just don’t care anymore
Haven’t felt good tug at my chest for way too long
I just don’t care anymore
But I still need your everlasting love

I just don’t care anymore
Nothing really matters and everybody’s dumb
All that stress just to end up six feet down
So just give me your blind and hopeless love
 

Girl, it’s freaky 
In my head
And I’ll admit it honestly:
I’m worried and upset
I don't believe in anything
I hope it doesn't stick
Cause I never want to be a jaded dick
 

Everything is asinine 
Everything is asinine 
(Except you)
You’re the only thing that doesn’t make me want to puke
(Except you)
You’re the only thing that doesn’t make me want to puke
 
I just don’t care anymore
And I wish I felt the way I did when I was young
I just don’t care anymore
But that doesn’t mean I’m unemotional
 
Girl, it’s freaky 
In my head
And I’ll admit it honestly:
I’m worried and upset
I don't believe in anything
I hope it doesn't stick
Cause I never want to be a jaded dick
 
Everything is asinine 
Everything is asinine 
(Except you)
You’re the only thing that doesn’t make me want to puke
(Except you)
You’re the only thing that doesn’t make me want to puke

You’re the only thing that doesn’t make me want to puke
You’re the only thing that doesn’t make me want to puke

I just don’t care anymore
Guess I'm getting older or I’m faded or I’m bored     
I just don’t care anymore
But I still need your everlasting love

I just don’t care anymore
I just don’t care anymore
I just don’t care anymore
I just don’t care anymore

Everything is Asinine

Sometimes we press the self-destruct button and we don't know why. 

"Honestly, I don't know what comes over me when the urge to prove something comes knocking at my door."

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IT'S NOT RIGHT BUT I DID IT

It's not right but I did it
Everybody's got a limit
It’s not right but I did it
And the whole time I was thinking of you 
It's not fair but I did it
I made my bed, and I’ll sleep in it
It hurt like hell there for a minute
But the minutes feel so long
 
But just stay with me
Even if I say that I want to be
Alone 
 
It's not right but I did it
No use saying that I didn’t
It’s not right but I did it
And I know you felt it too

It's not cool but whatever
Fuck man nothing is forever 
I’ve been with dancing with the devil
But I’d rather be dancing with you
 
Honestly, I don't what comes over me
When the urge to prove something comes knocking at my door 
But just stay with me
Even if I say that I want to be
Alone
 
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone

This Comedy of Errors is my life story
But I feel every single solitary thing
So I throw a cold one back 
And try to hold my heart in tact
For you
 
It's not right but I did it
Everybody loves a villain
You’re all stressin and I’m chilling 
But I wish that I was chilling with you 

It's not right but I did it
Come on man don’t make me relive it
I fucked things up there for a minute
But I want to start all over with you
I want to start all over with you

It's not right but i did it

It's Not Right But I Did It

An over-sharey Joe Meeky song about narcissism, emotional frailty, snuggling, and begrudgingly admitting you love someone. 

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SORTA STUPID

Whoa.
I've never felt so uncertain
But I’m keeping my cool
For when you go away
I don’t want to pull back the curtain
Girl, I don’t wanna know
If you don’t wanna stay

I loved how deeply you loved me
And I wanted it to work out of vanity 
I've always been lonely
And I only stuck around because I was weak

And I still don’t know why I didn’t do it
I shoulda tapped out but she beat me to it
I still don’t know why I didn’t do it
Sometimes love just makes you sorta stupid
Sometimes love just makes you sorta stupid

Whoa. 
I've never felt so uncertain
I’m keeping it cool  
In case you pull away
My indecision is my burden
I stumble into these things
But don’t know how to stay

I loved how deeply you loved me
And I wanted it to work out of vanity 
I've always been lonely
And I only stuck around because I was weak

Needles and pins while your heart’s caving in
I know your struggle
I'm hoping it works it out, and I’m full of doubt
But I’m willing to snuggle

Sometime love just makes you sorta stupid
Sometime love just makes you sorta stupid

Sorta Stupid

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MY CHARMS
[sober]
I tell you jokes
I tell you jokes because I like to make you laugh
And yeah I'm goofy 
You know I get my sense of humor from my dad 

But you don’t care
You're just perpetually unamused 
And you don’t care about the things that  I  do
Are my charms wasted on you?
 
[drunk]
I stay out laate
I stay out late because Iknow it makes you mad
I'm a button pusher
You know I get my anger issues from my dad

But you don’t care
Your face is buried in your phone display
And you don’t listen  to  athing  that  I say
But I still love you anyway
 

My charms are wasted you
And I reek of all the shit you put me through
I guess I let myself be wooed 
My charms are wasted on you
And your girlfriends too, 
I know I’m sensitive about it  
I know I’m sensitive about it 
 
[angry]
I’m not very romantic
I’m not very romantic
I wish you weren't so pedantic 
But I guess that's your shit

You don’t care
There’s derision in  your every glance
Man, you never really gave me a chance
But I still love you anyway
 

My charms are wasted you
And I reek of all the shit you put me through
I guess I let myself be wooed 
My charms are wasted on you
And your girlfriends too, 
I know I’m sensitive about it  
I know I’m sensitive about it 
 
I know I’m sensitive about it

My Charms

I think I’m gonna fuck it up
I’ve never been very good at this stuff
I ask her to stay and then she pushes away
And I fall a little deeper in love

I think I'm gonna reign it in
I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin
Thank god for the small talk, baby
I’ll try to keep up

I don’t know what shirt to wear
Or how I should do my hair
How do I get your attention?

I don’t know / what you might say 
Or how to ask you on a date
I’m a boy afraid
I’m a boy afraid 

I think I’m gonna fuck it up
I’ve never been very good at this stuff
I ask her to stay and then she pushes away
And I fall a little deeper in love

 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love
 I fall a little deeper in love

Boy Afraid

caveman garage-pop 

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Man of God

This life is unpredictable
but I feel at ease in the end times
Your love is hypothetical
I never felt a thing but it’s all right

I took so many stances in my youth
but now that fire in my belly is gone
I tried to walk that straight and narrow path
Could never hack it as a Man of God

We’re all biodegradable
and that’s okay with me 'cause it's the end times
Move over just a little more
I’ve got a new tattoo of your mother
(Was she your mother?)

I took so many stances in my youth
but now that fire in my belly is gone
I tried to walk that straight and narrow path
Could never hack it as a Man of God

It’s Tuesday, Sunday’s so far away
And I don’t feel at home in this place
I don’t believe. So I don’t believe I’ll stay.

Man Of God

An over-sharey, gloomy lo-fi pop song that re-lives the awkwardness (and inner monologues) of first love.  

Also: getting randy to Modest Mouse.

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DANIELLE

I  lost  my  virginity 
Listening  to a  Modest  Mouse  CD 
I was 18
She was 23 (I think)
 
I fucked it up 
Like with every other girl
She poked a hole 
Even she could never fill
  
Darling, darling, not yet
This isn't how I wanted things to end
Not yet
Danielle

I remember everything
Like how I’d always mis-pronounce her name

I fucked it up 
Like with every other girl
She poked a hole 
Even she could never fill

Don't shake the sheets off
Don't go

I never felt a part of it
You were an island

Darling, not yet
Donny, Donny, Danielle

Danielle

Sometimes we get ripped and go down the deep dark rabbit-hole of obsessing about death and dying and growing older and feeling like we're losing time and fearing regret and cataloguing unmet dreams, and, after we've gotten ourselves all worked up, we go to sleep, wake up, and hope we don't repeat the whole thing again tomorrow.
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ROSHAMBO
 
Avoid direct eye contact
And don’t let your feelings show
I’m over analytical
Every decision’s a roshambo
 
Who’s gonna miss me when I’m gone?
I will live unendingly 
Well I guess there's still the tick-tick-tick-tick

I guess it’s just all in my head
Nothing ever really makes sense
Another wasted day hungover 
(I swear i'm gonna get sober)
I guess it’s just all in my head
Nothing ever really makes sense
Yesterday was drunk and stoned
Tomorrow is a roshambo

Avoid direct eye contact
And please don’t cause a scene
I’m feeling misanthropic
Or is it maybe just the weed?

Well I guess it’s just all in my head
Nothing ever really makes sense
Another wasted day hungover 
(I swear i'm gonna get sober)
I guess it’s just all in my head
Nothing ever really makes sense
Yesterday was drunk and stoned
Tomorrow is a roshambo

I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head
I guess it’s just all in my head

Roshambo

[Youth]
The outcasts drop out of school.
Rif-fraff, man those kids are cool.

Taught me "the badder the better."
Followed it right down to the letter.
The youth group. Anxiety.
Punk rock Tooth & Nail CDs.

Backsliding on the double.
I'm in so much trouble.
 

I’m too young to die 
I feel like I’m running out of time
 
[Love]
The love clock. 5am.
I think I’ll just go back to bed.
Love’s intensive.
"I’m so introspective."
 
The shoe drops. She's out of steam.
Fire underneath my feet.
She departed.
I’m so broken-hearted.
 
But I’m too young to die
I think I love you
I think I’m running out of time 

Man, it sucks getting old.
I try to let it go.  

We listen to heavy metal 
And drink until the lights start to settle.
We’re all sentimental
And drink to make it feel a little better.

[Adulthood]
A crisis every day.
I hoped this all would go away.
I’m a creep floating aimlessly.
The watch-hand, waving farewell.
Everything has gone to hell.
I’m stressing
Getting older is so depressing.


I’m too young to die 
I think I’m running out of time

Hypothetical Love

Too Young To Die

Moody lo-fi surf pop. Obsessed w/ '80s coming-of-age movie soundtracks.

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