Dear Diary,

A private entry about loss, shame, fear, hate, and doubt.

Sorry, Sincerely, Somewhere,
bod

they told me sleeping alone builds character

i don't miss you

angel diary

blackwinterwells + 8485 + romancerelic

meuko! meuko!

music for accepting decay

music for valuing simplicity

music for defensive apathy

music for safe memories

music for finding other music

00:00 - 02:55 [1] a blind spot
02:55 -  07:40 [2] nobody's watching 
07:40 - 10:24 [3] class traitor

video: https://youtu.be/z4RA3EgTC6g

this track is longer than 10 minutes, so it cannot be monetized. please go buy it on bandcamp.

000000000 (开系先知印记)

regrettably beautiful

https://youtu.be/D9F4UJsoNM8
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0-tolerance (E+)

acquire with capital

sign here (all my friends live forever)

you can do it i believe in you

abandon music

no time

"no need to be cryptic when it's a diary"

a music box she found

shut it off
[all Chinese is redacted]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

Buy This Album

what it feels like to dress like me

i'm going to (____) myself here

[all Chinese is redacted]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

abandoned building located

don't forget i've always been here waiting for you to come back :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

things whispered while asleep [interlude]

[all Chinese is redacted]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

hymns for an airplane

a call to arms

we love to feign

what places you want to remain

report this cold

feel all this skin that contains

a call to arms

you'll never see me dead again

what will i pray

when this conversation ends

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

its cold enough that nobody is outside

you're so fucking annoying
you're so fucking annoying
wake the fuck up i'm literally

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

as you wish, darling

every time it feels like a secret
doesn't let me drown doesn't let me breath yet

when it passes every time it feels like a secret

quiet in the message
i think every time that it means
you will forget

base it all on regret
maybe it's time that i can start to forge it

i don't want to miss you
but if it calls then the water's surface

but if it calls then the water's surface

it feels like a secret

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

please try to be patient with this

feeling like this one

search in my mind

boy says i see some

and there is parallel

and it's all perpendicular

searching mind, still can't find

feeling like this one is the time

feeling like

this one

will be mine

parallel, i will not allow

search in my heart

feeling like this one

search in my mind

voices i see some

and there is parallel

and it's all perpendicular

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wOuMoyN2hs

this way our lives intersect

table collapse of sequential systems
space
in no places ever driven
space
in placement colon
space
0 hyphen music is an illusion of silence
space
in placements driven binary colon
space
1 hyphen silence does not exist hyphen it is all music semicolon even in disorganization
space
in placements driven trinity colon
space
0 hyphen nothing semicolon silence and music in their sameness hyphen these are of the same immaterial comma sourceless
space
1 hyphen everything is nothing semicolon music is forced into existence from silence hyphen they are of the same immaterial source 
space
2 hyphen of everything comma against nothing semicolon music is the ordering of sound and silence hyphen a material source in silence

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axial prayer crucible + Phoebe Isobel + Drogas + Losty

holy (water, earth, metal, fire, wood) + Bloodz Boi 血男孩

antiselytism - (noun)
an·ti·s​e·​ly·​tism /ˌæn.tɪˈsɛl.ɪˌtɪz.əm/

1: the act of becoming or condition of being an antiselyte : aversion
2: the act or process of antiselytizing


usage: 
from proselytism (n.), proselytize (v.)
1670s, "to make proselytes," from proselyte + -ize. The transitive sense of "convert (someone) to some religion, doctrine, etc.," is by 1796. Related: proselytized; proselytizing. The earlier verb form was simply proselyte (1620s). 
to antiselytism (n.), antiselytize (v.)
2020's, as written in online texts attributed to "bod [包家巷]," the last publicly self-identified antiselyte

https://youtu.be/HTnBYSn_olU

antiselytism

PARAMORE X WALKING IN THE SNOW - bod [包家巷] (no longing home edit)

STOP
you're listening to the sublimation of reality

right here on ideological premises

where the end of your thoughts

is the beginning of your actions

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