I love this music makes me feel like I'm not alone so thank you so very much gives me something to hold on to when I got nothing else

🖤💜🖤💜🖤💤💢💤💢💤💢💤

I listen to you everyday besideds a small group of very under appreciated Individuals.  I love your music and i want to share your music but i find it so personal to me, im scared that they will make it something its not. This keeps me going every night into the morning. 
 -Love Neptune 

The Upload

Book of Thomas | Track 6 : The Parable Flow

Ft: https://soundcloud.com/fats_e
Prod: https://soundcloud.com/sheltr666

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Let go w/ Fats'e (Prod. sheltr )

produced by nofeeling
@killstation
my vocals m/m by @prohibeo

nothing left to say ft killstation (prod dysphora)

Produced by: @fish_narc
Mix/mastered: @lilnarnia 

Pop another perc and I'm crazy about you 
I don't think I'm living if I'm living without you 
Pop another pec and I'm crazy about you 

Pop another perc and I'm crazy about you 
I don't think I'm living if I'm living without you 
Pop another pec and I'm crazy about you 

We're so young 
Its so dumb 
Im anxious and wholesome 
Sober when you look me in the eye

Young love
That drunk love
I'm yelling 
My heart out 
I love it 
When you're hanging by my side 

Hanging by my side 
Looking in your eyes
Don't be scared of what 
We create in time 
Cause I know 
I still like it when were far apart
And you're the only fucking person 
That can break my heart 

Break my heart 
Baby don't you break my heart
Baby don't you break my heart
Baby don't you break 

We're so young 
Its so dumb 
Im anxious and wholesome 
Sober when you look me in the eye

Young love
That drunk love
I'm yelling 
My heart out 
I love it 
When you're hanging by my side 

Break my heart 
Baby don't you break my heart
Baby don't you break my heart
Baby don't you break 

Pop another perc and I'm crazy about you 
I don't think I'm living if I'm living without you 
Pop another pec and I'm crazy about you 

Pop another perc and I'm crazy about you 
I don't think I'm living if I'm living without you 
Pop another pec and I'm crazy about you 

Pop another perc and I'm crazy about you 
I don't think I'm living if I'm living without you 
Pop another pec and I'm crazy about you 

Pop another perc and I'm crazy about you 
I don't think I'm living if I'm living without you 
Pop another pec and I'm crazy about you

Drunk Hearts and Sober Smiles (Prod. Fish Narc)

Breathe (prod. betteroffdead x captain crunch)

music video- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJALZiJuSyM

five year plan

TOSSING AND TURNING ALBUM OUT 2/28/18
prod https://soundcloud.com/taylor
vocals mixed by https://soundcloud.com/iamrellim

when I’m fucking dead
don’t take the time 
to bury me
just throw me off a bridge
or toss me on the side of 
the median
decompose 
into the earth
to make up for my sins
i don’t believe in god
but a hell surely does exist
what do you make of this
this fucking idiot 
following his passion
what the fuck is wrong with you
shouldn’t you be over this?
every stupid 
inconvenience 
eating at your
sole existence 
40 minutes
till you quit it
close me up
back to wasting
at the same 
dead end 
place that
holds me back
in more ways than 
one

please just
let me be done
im so fed up
living life
going through the motions
living life
just hoping
every action taken
is working
everything I’m
hoping for
comes true today

imma do the one thing
you dont wanna see
thats me succeeding 
the one thing i dreamed of
thats making music 
for the rest of my life
you cant change the facts
i made up my mind

cheer up (prod taylor morgan)

Hitting up my phone like "Whasup I got you dirty"
Telling me you Love me though I know that you still hate me
Die alone Die alone
Kissing on my lips while everything seems so tasteless
All my love is gone i dont even want to take this
Anymore. Anymore
I dont want to miss you but thats how im feeling lately
Numb myself away to forget all the things you said.. Shit
Hold me close, Hold you close.
I dont wanna hurt you but you never give me space bitch
Never let me go though you can see that I am hurt bitch
Let me go Let me go

And if I
Kissed your scars
Would you say last goodbyes
That everythings alright
With angels you will fly

tasteless - Lil Wiz (prod: BoyFifty)

bitch come for me
i dont have to touch u and you run from me
did you go to highschool you look dumb to me
i stay makin bread and you got crumbs to eat
so go on makin fun of me
but your man wanna love on me
my juice like sunny d

im a scary bitch
you a snail ill call you gary bitch
that burberry fit
take a jet u ride the ferry bitch
and my bars crazy think i need a therapist
finger got the karats spoil myself and i aint sharin shit

lookin pale pointy nails ima lick her like the mail
toopoor lookin chick crush that filter then i inhale
hearts all on her cheek uh
she a freak uh 
jaw drop to ya seat uh
louis sneaks uh
with my flow im a pro so its best you go home
for my hoes ima throw so you better lay low
know my skin always glow my face beat like van gogh
put them rings in my nose and its givin me a cold
i flex on your grandaughter
like a manslaughter
bad bitch in a black collar
eat a big mac off er
if you sassin im like sweetie
put on glasses still cant see me
all my bitches lookin peachy
make these dudes start actin geeky
order fries i like em cheesy
make my fingers get all greasy
lick em off cuz i act freaky
and im sippin on that fiji
you need some mouthwash
breath smell like a sashquatch
wish wash gargle and it splish splosh
drip that hotsauce
dribble on my wristwatch
tell her get lost
talk shit now that bitch botched

hook

scared of me cuz im a queen and my resting face look mean
and my style look so scene and im bad like billie jean
i spit bars like a machine flip it like a trampoline i look like its halloween 
make you shake tambourines
bitch im blessed im gettin checks rubbin on that spf 
i call shots like im a ref ima cook ya like a chef

TOOPOOR (prod. by desro)

our home still stands in my mind
take me there when i run out of time

home (prod. killstation)

prod and mix/mastered by me

I feel like a ghost bitch I’m transparent 
Smoking thrax up in the hills in the clouds bitch I vanish 
All these fucking thoughts I can’t manage
All these fucking thought up in my brain it needs a bandage 
I'm at a disadvantage 
Tryin not to panic
Not the best at planning
Some days barely standing 
The door inside my mind is locked shut
So what big deal big bags shits real
The door inside my mind is locked shut
So what the key to the door is the drugs as of late
I’ve been staying up late not answering the phone making music smoking strong pop another to keep calm 
They just mad at me 
Oh trust I know 
I’ll just smile as I blow another o like

Driving down the road at night
Confessions to the star light 
I want a bag and bag and another bag
Yeah I know it’s sad know you’re mad yeah I know it’s bad 
Yeah I want a bag and Benz and another bag and another bag
I’m just wrapped up in my old ways 
Same songs blowing haze in a daze I hope it stays like this 
Can’t hurt like hurt like this
Just numb like this 
Took 2 more percs just to stay like this

i feel like a ghost (prod. kryptik)

lyrics:
fell hard but flexed up i knew could 
won't stop till me and my brothers good 
i love the way that you're doubting me
shape shift like i'm doing alchemy 
fall back y'all dropping some mid wow 
fucked past I'm living for right now
find me with all the lights down 
i'll see you around 
yeah i'll see you around 

time passed, can't get that shit back 
picked up myself now to get racks 
don't care about what you're saying 
can't stop until we make it 

same kid, stuck with the same dreams 
one day you'll see me shining 
right now, we go hard we grinding 
imma star, it's just the timing 
fell off, but now i am climbing 
like a diamond imma gleam with the bros 
looking stupid imma leave you looking froze 
i don't think i wanna die anymore 
i just wanna feel alive in the morn 
couldn't grow until i was torn 
think i died but now i'm reborn

do or die (prod ʎpoqou)(video in description)

https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

whip broke again and i still aint shit
you don’t what id do to fucking make this
you don’t know the road I’ve been down
just to stay here
pick it stick it flip it then erase it
check back try to relax 
dont mistake this as me coming clean
i aint sayin shit filler for an empty room

just to ease the pain in
roll a couple light em get up
for a minute now I’m changing
every line i right
i despise em all
i can’t stand this
delete another song
write another bar
just to hate it
work another day just to make enough
to get what little i want
that aint doing shit but rearranging
every fucking  thought 
i should have pushed way back
I’m just hanging by the thread 
we’ve sewn together
to make this bed
that we now lay in
have you even been
listening to a word I’m saying
so many delays
I’m losing count
tractions fading
I’m blasted in the black
lustful wishes
giving me a fucking
heart attack
this the tenth joint
I’ve smoked
in the past hour and
a half
fuck a fucking show
i just want my money back  

hop up in it
oh we back again
round for round
i be smacking hits
know you lames
all fuck with this
y’all be dropping duds
but they fuck with it
don’t you care a bit
change things up
maybe try to switch
sticking to the script
seems to work the best


putting my heart in to be washed away
waking up checking the fucking plays
lets see who aint gone respond today
another blog posting all the shit that i fucking hate
what the fuck is it gonna take
i love it and hate it all so much
i need a fucking break
watching the people move up 
who i want to cave
negative energy is all i can muster myself
to fucking bring
i don’t see why i can’t even think
a positive thought long enough
to keep me sane

still aint shit (prod killedmyself)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbP7EYPuWsI&feature=youtu.be

3 7 13 - Three Summers In A Row (VIDEO IN DESC)

everything really hurts 




lyrics : 





i’d do anything to get out of this mindset
get out of this fucked head
make myself alive

i wish i could make u feel better 
than you do girl 
i just want to make you feel like you can smile 

i been getting too high 
tryna reach the same one i did 
when i met u for the first time 

memories they pass by
just like the wind in the night time
when you can’t sleep cause u keep crying 

broken from the inside
i see pain in your eyes

will we always be this cold
i don’t know
i want to go home

cheer up (prod taylor morgan)

barren

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