it's been years and this is still my all time favorite emo trap album

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

no samples
guitars by 1080p dreams
prod. @prodbyglacier

LYRICS:

laying in my bed, once again
trying to convince myself
that all those times we shared didn't mean that much to me
like every pointless afternoon in your room
watching your dvd collection
i always failed to mention that your favorite movies are dumb
and i hate them
but i still love you
even though you left me feeling lonely, empty and confused
what the fuck was that about?
now i'm trying to find a lesson
but i'm stuck with all these questions 
at a dead end
and i'm stressing
it's depressing cause i feel like i lost my best friend
do you know that feeling too?
and no, i'm not naive
i know you have your reasons
and i'll try my best to see them
and not be bitter and resentful
but i couldn't help think of our potential
couldn't you see it too?
i guess not
now everything we were is just an overused melody
everything we were is just me singing loud out of key
everything we were is just an overused melody
in this shitty song that i created when i was sad and all alone
(sorry about last summer when i broke your heart into a thousand pieces, just wait until wintertime to see if you'll be okay)

i'm sorry about last summer(prod. by glacier)

prod: @blacklunged

lyrics:
i love it when she lies to me
i love it when she wants to die with me
i cant recall a single good thing
unless we were high or were fucking
please dont come back
my life so trash
i dont need you
to come and fuck me up again
please dont come back
my life so trash
im too far gone
but im tryna get it back
hold up

ive been tryin
and rhyming
the hymens
that keep me going
ive been waitin
and patient
bury me
down with the ancients
cuz i know that youll remember
that yesterday is what made us

girl, get the fuck up out my world
and babe, get the fuck up out my brain
yeah youll, see me blown up or dead
before i say im sorry 
and let you crawl in my bed
you can take what you want
if you leave me hollow
an empty bullet casing
thats the best role model

Follow me <3

too far gone (prod. blacklunged)

young mess - you and i (prod. haaru)

a playlist to feature our friends we believe in

93FEETOFSMOKE - Black Lungs [Prod. Wrcktngl & 93]

i say i wanna take it 
one day at a time
how much longer can 
i tell myself the same lie
scared more than ill admit
for what my future holds
trying more than ever 
to break this mold
i want to be known
for what my music brings
not the image
behind the screen
am i doing the right thing
moving in the direction
that i should be 
in 5 years from now will i be happy
maybe if you ask 
for the rest of your life
you’ll feel something
i been sitting in this basement
every night for months
perfecting this craft
to take it on
the road 
perform some shows
get some bitches 
score some drugs
just the green shit
nothin else
i been sitting in this basement
practicing more than
ill admit
on the same old shit
you know the fucking story
but not the half of it
i been doing this for so long
feel like I’m gonna
fucking explode
before i can make it up
i just gotta make it up

will i ever get these feelings of doubt
away
do you know what all of this is about
today

decisions to make (prod deckwine)

things in pain (feat. lil thuey)[prod. 4evr & nversad]

I cant get over those green eyes
so pale but she's so full of life
I've never seen somebody so lovely
wonder if there's really something
or if I'm just fucking up again
I cant get over those green eyes
her hair her face the way she smiles
im fuckin dead
I love hearing about how you've been
thought about you every single day since
cant believe someone so perfect exists
I cant get over those green eyes
I swear her heart has flowers inside
so beautiful
words cant describe they don't even come close
send you my love inside of a blue rose
just say goodbye and ill leave you alone
I cant get over those green eyes
her hands are so cold just like her fuckin heart
swear that I love how you tear me apart
draw with my blood like its more of your art
miss you so much but I know that you arent
missing me the same
feel so alone now
thought you cared about me
did you ever even feel anything
or was it all in my head
was it all in my head

her heart has flowers inside (prod. slidinmoon)

w/ @cpt_sad

guitars by barren
mix and electric drums by yesterday


live drums written and performed by
Jordan Davis
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bloody fingers
soakin up all over me
you can hold me accountable
for everything i wont admit to be
if you wont ask me
i wont say a thing
i try not to live in the past
but its harder than it seems
know that nothing will last
my heart cant take
another love that cant pass
the tropes of my insanity
the hope that died inside of me

jim bean whisky
right next to these speakers
the more i do these drugs
the more i feel weaker
jerrys upstairs getting in a quick nap
imma chill in the basement
and write to this slap
gotta do this shit quick
this projects bout done
stop hitting us up
just a bunch of fucking bums
been peepin the swag
since day fucking one
smoke a million cigarettes
to wreck my voice before i flop

no one will know who takes the fall
passing the bottle back and fourth
fuck, its my turn and ive had enough
turn off my phone, tonights so rough

pass it to me
im not quite done
i cannot begin
to tell you
every detail of my life
im still on the run
catching up
to my pace
its never my place
say all behind my back
no ones in front of my face

cant take me anywhere
i never had really cared
fuck you for never being there
im sorry if i always stare
i know i come off very weird
been different since i shaved this beard
been thought i was in the clear
but i couldnt have been more wrong
got to put it in this song
you say im the worst
but watch it get better
one of these days i won’t be so tethered

our love
moves with the weather
find the right angle and 
pull on the trigger
don't hold back now
ill stand still right here
will you put me down 
like the dog that i am?
i dont wanna pretend 
i dont wanna feel this way no more
i dont wanna make friends
i dont wanna pretend

decisions to make (prod deckwine)

barren

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