Am I stuck Or am I moving
All the days that I exist in
Find it hard to pay attention
Times where I find pains relentless
What to make of indecision
Cutting deep like an incision
When I find my powers choice does that make each choice the mission
Right now I guess I’m just venting 
Not asking for an opinion 
No point getting criticized through critics eyes 
When critics lie
had a fire burning in my soul even in winter time 
On the day you burn me down to cinder let my embers rhyme 
Only matters if you get this message don’t remember I 
Cause really I don’t actually exist in your fictitious mind 
We’re just atoms suspended in space so don’t get inclined 
To think I play survival games like most I or fear if I die.
And on that day them cups might be solo but lift spirits high 
came from earth returned back to earth and now I'm in the sky
Please don't ever feel like we are separate cause we're intertwined 

Am movin am I stagnant 
Just an addict that's relapsing 
Is my passion poems raps or
Is this just some time I've wasted 
Times in solitude I wonder 
If on day I'll really make it 
Others times sit in hurt as I'm left to just embrace it 
And I guess question is what brought me here on this occasion 
At the edge of this depression how long will I sit here waiting 
It feels like I'm suffocating its seems like I suffer daily 
Sometimes crazy feel as if there is no other choice but hate me

Someone please free me from my illusions

Someone help me see I knew conclusion 

Am I still or am cruising 

Am I stuck or am I moving

Barry C.Gilmore