This is an instrumental mix because there are lyrics - but I wanted to get this out on my birthday. They're also very personal so I want to make sure I get them right. Every sound in here was performed, recorded, and mixed (if you could call it that) by me.

This is my first time recording and finishing a song in a proper DAW. My previous demos were all in Garage Band, and SSCW in Audacity. This was a great exercise in everything I've been learning over the past 3 years - music theory, guitar playing, audio engineering, etc. It's not perfect but it's nice to be able to smoothly put out something competent.

I really needed the experience of recording and finishing this song. June's been a hard month for me for a lot of reasons. If I ever get around to recording vocals for this you'll get why. But working on this was my reason to get out of bed, to spend time doing something other than thinking about the worst parts of my life. It changed my mindset from "I'll start in 30 minutes.." (which eventually became an hour, two hours, the next day, etc.) into "I'll work on this for another 30 minutes." But it wasn't a distraction from those things - it's an example of what I can do even when I feel like I can't do anything. It's not perfect but I'm satisfied with it at this moment. Right now that's all I need.

Listen to the bass at 1:30 that shit is dope as fuck.

All I Can Hope For [Instrumental]

little two hour demo a friend and I made.

Andrew - Guitar, Drums
Cliff - Organ, Synth Bass, Production.

7/15/21 (Demo)

Levi Feil - Piano, Drums
Cliff - Cello, Glockenspiel, Guitar, Adt'l Drums

Gumpeel - 7/17/21

solo bass piece
deleting this later because i plan on adding more instruments

solo bass -delete later-

Vent track. Performed and recorded by me.

1/21/22

Everyone is terrified, no one is happy, and we all want the same thing.

Recorded in Garage band at 8 a.m. on November 4th, 2020.


Guitars & Organ - Cliff

Seth