you got my heart in a to go cup do you realize all the
all the power that you got over me 
why can’t you see me
mmm
and there’s things I wouldn’t wouldn’t want you to know
but this is none negotiable I can’t hide it anymore from me
mmm
maybe a month or year from now i’ll find my way some how 
back to myself again
any day now
any day now
I know I will
I know I’ll find my way soon
any day now

to go cup demo2

helium fall 17
If I could I would tie you to a string
but you’re not the kind a cowgirl can tie down
star of the show faster than sound
sign the autographs I’ll wait around
cus you’re not the kind a cowgirl can tie down
I can’t change your mind no
I can’t change your mind
cus you’re just not the kind this cowgirl can tie down

helium cowgirl demo

notes on a future home after scrolling on pinterest: 

it would be light 
ceiling made of glass 
counter space an ashtray
for when grandma comes to visit me
space to think
green apples in a bowl 
I could settle down 
let it be something of my own

and I might have to get a real job
to get the couch that I 
want

and I think
I think I could be happy there
read more
rise early on a sunday morning
play my records 
dance freely on the hardwood floors 
I could settle down 
have something of my own

and I might have to get a real job
to get the couch that I 
want

counter space 1am voice memo

helium cowgirl is out june 17 on streaming services yeehaw !

song 4 beach

a bit out of tune just like my life rn ! <3

persuasion inst

quite comfortable inst

removed my vocals from this track liked it better as an instrumental but I wanted to share the lyrics anyways :))))

lyrics:
I’ll give you space if you need
yes i’ll give you room to breath
I will pretend like I don’t know the scent of your skin so close to me

and I know that we’ll never be
whatever it is that I wish
I won’t let this feeling swallow me whole 
and it’s sad and it’s lonely and awful
but it’s probably in our best interest 

I won’t be sad I won’t weep
I’ll be normal when I see you next week
I promise to not keep my hopes up on us
and It’s fine kinda lonely 
but it’s probably in our best interest 

</3 :)
also if you're gonna go and use my stuff in your stuff please don't be boring & rude and give me some credit / support I really need it to keep on making songzzzz <3

best interest

greet the sun in the hills in the morning 
and the ocean by the shore in the evening  
and the love you lost you gained in a friend
but nights alone you wonder will you ever dare to love like that again

and you knew it would end just didn’t know when
finding peace space finding patience
and you thought it would be sweeter
you thought soon you’ll dare to love like that again

dare 2 love again demo

sweet so sweet inst

you learned to drive 
you learned to swim 
you learned to lie 
keep some things within 
you learned to write 
you learned to read
you leaned to tend to
other people’s needs

you will learn how to live without him
you will learn how to live without

you learned to walk
you learned to breath 
you learned to fight 
to get back on your feet
you learned to change
you learned to listen
you learned what is right and what  just isn’t

you will learn how to live without him
you will learn how to live without him

learned behavior demo

pling plong pling 
poorly mixed sorry but i like it :)

if you're going to use it in your videos please give credit in description don't be rude !

june inst

soup inst

found this old instrumental from 2022 i was a very sad girl when i made this :( but i like it better now it feels hopeful in some way
pls give me credit if you use any of my tracks in your stuff don't be rude<3
xx

old instrumental

lyrics:
what’s a movie with no ending
or a horse without its fields 
what’s a car good for without an engine 
or these songs if you don’t want to hear them
nothing they’re nothing 
nothing they’re nothing 

what’s a dance floor with no music 
or a show without a crowd 
what is love good for if it burns you
or a life without 
nothing they’re nothing 
nothing they’re nothing

I like this song it's cute
written by me and produced by me and Leo Bengmark

they r nothing demo

another sad demo yeeeeeeeeees

lyrics:
there’s no place that I hate more 
there’s no place that I’ve loved harder
I can’t return here anymore I keep crying to my mother 
there’s no place in this body there’s nowhere to contain 
the shame that I feel for how I handled things

we shared an adress where we shared a life 
we shared a mattress without a doubt 
somehow it all remins while being gone
but I know it’s over when I return

cut those ties too many times and I know it’s for the better
got a list to prove I’m right but now I miss it like nice weather 
wasn't it just enough to be to just be loved by somebody
now nothing remains but the adress stays in place

we shared an adress where we shared a life 
we shared a mattress without a doubt 
somehow it all remins while being gone
but I know it’s over when I return
-
pls give credit if you use my songs in your stuff don't be rude !

return demo

this song is now available on streaming platforms !!! 
pling plong pling da daaaaa 
pling plong da daaaaaaaa

the mix is as shitty as always but I love shitty demos !


if u want to use my songs in your stuff please give me 
some credit don't be rude<3

ferry song

i believe it is time to change. spring will be here soon.





if u want to use my songs in your stuff please give me 
some credit don't be rude<3

new moon new start inst

lyrics:
you can not make him stay 
nothing to do about the rain
just let the seasons change
soon there might just come a day
you wake to the sun in your face 
and you will not feel this way

what’s the use in holding on to the night as it turns to day
what’s the use in trynna make somebody change if they’d like to stay the same
you feel the weight on your shoulders
It’s so tiring fighting getting older
nothing left to do
may will turn to june

you can not make him stay 
nothing to do about the rain
just let the seasons change
soon there might just come a day
you wake to the sun in your face 
and you will not feel this way

-
if u want to use my songs in your stuff pls don't be rude and give me some credit I really want to quit my day job it sucks <3

seasons change demo

pls don't be rude and give me some credit if u use my stuff in your creations I need to pay rent </3

alone inst

not going according to plan
some things I just won’t understand
never controlling the ways i’ve been molding
folding up time in your hand
I wouldn’t be surprised 
if daylight breaks 
and you can’t stay 
you got places to be
it would still be enough for me

fold demo

around the lake

one take improv from my video diary on youtube :)

if you're using my stuff in your creations pls be a decent person and give me some credit it's rough out here being a small indie artist</3
xx

time to go

seabird

instrumental from 2021 when i was hot but made bad music

don't be rude give credits if you're gonna use my songs in your things ! 
in this world you have to eat and pay rent life is hard and it makes you ugly

instrumental from 2021

I don’t know why I try he doesn’t care if I live or die
I should know i’ve seen both sides
but you’re such a great guy must different this time
takes one to know one doesn’t it
I’ve been around

let me know if it’s too much
it gets too close
when it’s time hit the road
call it off wrap up the show
when it’s time to let you go
let me know

did my best way back then so I can’t complain I bet you’re doing the same
first one out won’t be the last one left
if you beat me to it then congrats you’re the best
takes one to know one doesn’t it
I’ve been around

let me know if it’s too much
it gets too close
when it’s time hit the road
call it off wrap up the show
when it’s time to let you go
let me know

lmk demo

give me some credit if you want to use my songs in your creations don't be rude<3

no sleep inst

my boy demo

pls don't be rude and give me some credit if you're going to use my songs in your stuff I need to pay rent </3

columbia road inst

please give me some credit if you're using my songs in your creations
don't be rude I need to pay rent <3333

mimi bay

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