Why I keep showing up for everybody else
But I never show up for myself
And why I keep dodging all the love that's handed out to me
I think I need some help
Yeah, yeah (I think I need some help)
I'm in the field, yeah
I'm in the
I'm in the
I'm at the part, where I don't wanna go back to the start
But I don't know if I wanna keep going
And, I don't wanna regret my life, years down the line
So, I can't do slowin
I can't start slowin' down
I can't do slowin' down
But I'm getting real tired, putting my pride to the side
Can't control my life, cause everything right
In front the cameras and lights
Gotta think twice
If I still got the sight, buried inside of my mind

Why I keep showing up for everybody else
But I never show up for myself
And why I keep dodging all the love that's handed out to me
I think I need some help

Uh (They never gon know)
Imagine if I wasn't (If I keep on hiding, they never gon know)
Let's go (If I keep denying)
Imagine if I wasn't (I'm never gon show, If I keep on lying)
Imagine if I wasn't really a whole lost cause (I'm never gon know)
Imagine if I really got rid of all my flaws
Imagine if I really acted on all my thoughts
(I already connected)
I already connected the dots
But I had to make sure the lines were broken
My brain started losing the plot
I had seen all of the patterns of coping
Emotions started to get blocked
I never talk
Just feel the blood rushing
I'm hoping, I get me a clot

Why I keep showing up for everybody else
But I never show up for myself
And why I keep dodging all the love that's handed out to me
I think I need some help

(They never gon know)
(If I keep on hiding, they never gon know)
(If I keep denying, I'm never gon show)
Imagine if I really (If I keep on lying)
Got rid of all my thoughts (I'm never gon know)

in the field

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