I always sheilded the little hope
I'd turn into somebody soon
We drove so hopeful to the city
But it was clear there was no room
The military of opinions
Left bootprints on my soft grass
The days turn their faces away
Like billboards that we pass

Could my faith fall
Did I let my faith fall

In the dusk my little mirror words
Bent weak like playing cards
My love crying pulled away
From my driveway arms
I told her I'm so close to making it
But when she said goodbye I knew
Cause if I could I swear I would have left me too
Yeah if I could I swear I would have left me too

I lingered outside in the blue
A jetstream gleamed like the seam of the sky
And we could fold it a hundred different ways
Like your hands would fold round mine
We bathed in lakes of mattresses
And I believed in you
How I used to turn in my sleep
When I had someone to turn into
 
I always sheilded the little hope
Someday I'd turn into someone
Maybe I was sleeping all along
Maybe my dreaming's done
I always thought somebody here
Might need my songs
Now I don't know I could tell you
I believe in that at all

Faithfall.

Written & Produced by Ben Zaidi

Lyrics:

I was hollowed by you
I'm still followed by you
I was hollowed by you
I'm still followed by you

Will you stop calling you're all on my phone
I know you want me to come but I won't
This time I'm strong enough I'm going home
Yeah I'm going home
All of your messages, hollow the tenderness
All of the venom you said now you're sending this
Yes I'm incredulous, look at this evidence
Weeks of you screaming I'm pushed to the precipice
Girl I've been exhausted by you
I was hollowed by you, why can I not deny you
But here I go, walking to your room again
I'm knocking and no sooner than I come in and you begin
Blaming me you curse me out, I feel so worthless now
Don't know why I'm here I'm crying like let's try to work this out
Baby listen to me, I wanna––I wanna try to
I cannot deny you, girl I was exhausted by you

I was hollowed by you
I'm still followed by you
I was hollowed by you
I'm still followed by you

I know that I should leave you
Don't tell me that I'm wrong cause I know that I'll believe you
And it's more than I can take
Last night I drove my car down to the water by the lake
Above the skyscrapers red lights flash
I caught myself wishing I had a little light like that
So everybody's planes would know
Not to fly so low

I was hollowed by you
I'm still followed by you
I was hollowed by you
I'm still followed by you

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Hollowed By You.

Written & Produced by Ben Zaidi

Lyrics:

Here in the halfway...we crumble
Here in the halfway, here...

Who the hell did I think I was
Somebody who mattered too
Who the hell did I think I was
Somebody good enough for you

I see it now
Sharp as a silhouette
As the edge of the buildings I ain't outgrown yet
I see it now...

Who the hell did I think I was
Somebody who mattered too
Who the hell did I think I was
Somebody good enough for you

Who Did I Think I Was.

Written & Produced by Ben Zaidi
Percussion by Jake Gambitsky

Lyrics:

I always shielded the little hope
I'd turn into somebody soon
We drove hopeful to the city
But it was clear there was no room
The military of opinions
Left bootprints on my soft grass
The days turned their faces away
Like billboards that we passed

Could my faith fall
Did I let my faith fall

In the dusk my little mirror words
Bent weak like playing cards
My love crying pulled away
From my driveway arms
I told her I'm so close to making it
But when she said goodbye I knew
Cause if I could I swear I would have left me too

Could my faith fall
Did I let my faith fall

I lingered outside in the blue
A jetstream gleamed like the seam of the sky
And we could fold it a hundred different ways
Like your hands would fold round mine
We bathed in lakes of mattresses
And I believed in you
How I used to turn in my sleep
When I had someone to turn into

Could my faith fall
Should I let my faith fall
 
I always shielded the little hope
Someday I'd turn into someone
Maybe I was sleeping all along
Maybe my dreaming's done
I always thought somebody here
Might need my songs
But I couldn’t tell you now
If I believe in that at all

Written, Produced, and Mixed by Ben Zaidi.
Trumpet by Tree Palmedo.
Recorded in Seattle, WA and Cambridge, MA.
Mastered by Matthew Wolk.
Special thanks to the Euyang family for the use of their Grand Piano.

Lyrics:

Take me back to that field
I know that what I felt was real
You lay by my side
Dappled in the sunday light

I thought it would never end
But now we’re coming round the bend
And we’re so much older now
I feel the time is running out

In the halfway light
You said ‘baby I’d choose you twice’
‘I’d choose you twice’
You said ‘baby I’d choose you twice’

You said ‘if we had one more night
I’d be spending it by your side’
I’d choose you twice
You know baby I’d choose you twice

In the kitchen there
Your arm extended in the air
What was I to say
When we could see the end of days

All the places we never went
And all the books we never read
Isn’t it much too soon
I can’t believe I’m losing you

But in the halfway light
You said ‘baby I’d choose you twice’
I'd choose you twice
You said ‘baby I’d choose you twice’

You said ‘if we had one more life
I’d be spending it by your side’
Kissed me one last time
You said ‘baby I’d choose you twice’

Choose You Twice.

Written, Produced, and Mixed by Ben Zaidi.
Trumpet by Tree Palmedo.
Recorded in Ben's bedroom in Seattle, WA (some additional sounds in Monticello, MS).
Mastered by Matthew Wolk.
Painting by Andy Denzler.

Lyrics:

You were all I had on saturday
I was coming home to love you love you down
And now I still forget on sadder days
That you're not at home, that you're not around

Living with your pain all autumn
Ain't a soul who could solve em
But I could've been more there for you
I could've told you that I cared for you
I should've said something that night
When you looked me in the eye and
Told me bout the time when
You were eighteen and you wanted to die
So you went and laid down in the dark on the highway
You said you were there just laying
But no cars ever came and
After half an hour you got up and you went back home
Cause you got sick of waiting
You laughed when you told me that story
And so I did too, but
I should've been more worried
I should've known what you would do

In my mind I'll always keep it close
One more time, before I let you go

You were all I had on saturday
I was coming home to love you love you down
And now I still forget on sadder days
That you're not at home, that you're not around

In my mind I'll always keep it close
One more time, before I let you go
In my mind I'll always keep it close
One more time, so I could let you know

That you were all I had on saturday
I just wasn't home in time to love you down
And now I still forget on sadder days
Which of us is gone, and which is still around

Our August.

'Our August.'

On Saturday.

Written, Produced, and Mixed by Ben Zaidi.
Upright Bass by Schuyler Karr.
Recorded in Ben's bedroom in Seattle, WA (some additional sounds in Perdido Key, FL).
Mastered by Matthew Wolk.
Painting by Andy Denzler.

Lyrics:

Penitent love, I was a fool for more
It was always changing, it was always changing

I thought of you today
Thought I saw you on my way
I was walking by the sea
In the place we used to meet
Where I took that photograph
And I caught you as you laughed
You were looking at the sun
And life had just begun

Penitent love, I was a fool for more
It was always changing, it was always changing

Then I looked around the room
It was now the afternoon
And I was all alone
Where did we go wrong
Funny how we still believe
In the people that we lost
What we want is who we see
What we get is who we are

Penitent love, I was a fool for more
It was always changing, it was always changing

Penitent Love.

Written, Produced, and Mixed by Ben Zaidi.
Trumpet and Additional Synths by Tree Palmedo.
Recorded in Ben's bedroom in Seattle, WA.
Mastered by Matthew Wolk.
Painting by Andy Denzler.

Lyrics:

I made a refuge of you
When the storm came through
And now I don't know what to do
I made a refuge of you

I made a refuge of you
Because you told me to
So now tell me what to do
I need the refuge of you

I don't know what you wanted
I guess I didn't have it
But you laid with me all august
And I still can't understand it

I made a refuge of you
Because you told me to
So now tell me what to do
I need the refuge of you

Refuge.

“Plant” is the debut single from Doubles, a Philadelphia-based 4-piece formed by members of O-FACE following their break-up. “Plant” posits the world as ever-changing. It insists that growth is not only natural, but necessary. It admits that friends and family, intentions and aspirations, and even tastes can change. Sometimes you must announce your exit; “I gotta go!”

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Plant

Doubles - Plant

Written, Produced, and Mixed by Ben Zaidi.
Recorded in Seattle, WA and Brooklyn, NY.
Mastered by John Webber for AIR Studios.

Lyrics:

With a gesture I could make it all come down
With a gesture I could make you look away
With a gesture I could fault you for it all
With a gesture I could play

Ivory... Ivory...

In attempt to make you laugh I dropped my glass
In attempt to slow it down I went too fast
In a tempting tone of voice you said alright
What a temporary choice we made that night

You told me I don't know much but when it comes down
I ain't sleeping on the ground
I don't know what you thought you were saying
But I ain't sticking around
You said there ain't nothing you could do for me baby
That I couldn't live without

And I agree... Ivory...

I didn't know how to say it to you...

Ivory.

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Written, Produced, and Mixed by Ben Zaidi.
Trumpet performed by Tree Palmedo.
Recorded in Seattle, WA, Brooklyn, NY, and Boston, MA.
Mastered by John Webber for AIR Studios.
Artwork by Yunhan Xu.
Thank you to Andrei Matorin, Tree Palmedo, Alex Graff, Jerome Blumstein, and Madeline Holland.

Lyrics:

Oh Irene I've been your neighbor
For forty years or more
Oh I used to see you get the paper
Or standing at the door
I didn't know you very well
But I saw it on the news
Oh Irene, Irene
What is there to do?

Oh the people hear the gunshots
But they don't do a thing
And somehow the songbirds above us
Still find a voice to sing
I wish I was a swallow
So I could fly away
Oh Irene, Irene
What is there to say?

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Oh Irene I met your daughter
At the memorial today
Oh you know she was so gracious
I bet you raised her that way
I'll try to be a better man
Than the one you knew
Oh Irene, Irene
What am I to do?

Faithfall.

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