i don't care

I'm Still Here Problem Is Me

Still a jerk

Hypocrite

Nowhere home

They Wont Meet

New Moon

dunno

Well you got your new lover and I got an apartment
I sleep on a camping mat that smells like cat pee
and I have blankets for doors and I'm not sure
if my roommate even wants me here

well I tried being in an open relationship I don't think I was ready
and I don't think you did it right
when I saw that hickey on your neck I felt like shit
I don't know why I wanted to cry
This is what I get for putting all my energy into you
back to staying up late on my computer
reading articles and looking at random peoples ok cupid profiles
it's not hopeless I hope
even though that might be the best word to describe my feelings now
it's a big relief
it's a big fucking relief
it's a big relief

hopeless i hope

Fuck, this really sucks
I already wrote all of the cliché, bad breakup songs
WHy am I still feeling like this?
Why am I still holding on?


Fuck.

You were always telling me my computer was too slow
too old and too shitty
but now I don't notice now that you're going
it's fine
it's totally fine

Feeling kinda wreckless
maybe I'll go out and drive my bike 
around town with no lights
my roommate did it 
he was fine
he was fine 

old friend you are back again
the desire to diappear
you never quite left did you
you never quite left did you

there's sunset talk around town
I just notice so many people with other people 
and it makes me sad
I'm tired of this town 
I might just ride off now
I can ride off anytime 
I might just ride off anytime

ride off

why is it everything or nothing with you
why can't we exist inbetween the lines?
it's either long term sexual/romantic monogamy or nothing at all
nothing at all

what if I want you right now but can't promise you that?
Why should that just get swept away? 
But I'll respect your needs and I know there's probably
a lot of dudes who use polyamory deceitfully
deceitfully

But I want to hold you and I want you to hold me 
and I wanna cry in your arms I just think I can't make you my everything, cause I tried that once before and it really sucked
it really sucked
why do I not, why can I not
Cause I tried before and it didn't work
Now the only person I'll make any promises to is me
me and my own heart
me and my own heart
me and my own heart


me and my own heart

I came here to work
but now I'm distracted
seeing those birds in that cage
cause when you do it to them
you do it to me

I wanna smash this cage apart 
and watch them fly away
or bring them somewhere safe
away from you
And destroy this fucking culture that sees
innocent animals as pieces of of meat
Fuck everyone involved in this atrocity
Fuck everyone involved in this atrocity

Distacted

Don't feel it
if you don't have to
a waste
a waste

Cold hands
cold feet
where to
where to

Now I'm
ashamed
now i'm
ashamed

No Clue

No more prisons
no more slaughterhouses
no more landfills
no more racialized or genderized violence
no more sweatshops
no more fucking cops
no more military
no more 4x
no more clear cutting
no more poverty pay
no more oil companies
no more animal farms
no more false promises from heroes in suits
no more victim blaming
no more looking away from systems of violence we perpetuate
no more 4x

no more

I wish I knew you
five years ago
you used to be
someone who cared
now you're just tired
full of apathy
seeing you like this
really scares me
I need allies
more than I need friends
though I kinda doubt
we'll be either

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