Thank you for waiting... Compiled this as a gift for you, hope you like it.

Theme: The long-awaited artist has returned, Let me tell you a story. I've dealt with major depression in the past, Lost a few friends, Lost my lover, until I finally lost myself, became the black sheep of the family, I was down bad. I let the darkness consume me, the worst part is, I didn't know what the cause was, A part of me felt crazy, mostly because I was starting to enjoy the darkness, I started enjoying being alone, I started replying and conversing with the voices in my head, I made friends with the monster that was under my mind, I wasn't afraid of the dark anymore, I was something else in the dark.. closed off from everyone, lost, broken, invisible... Searching for validation, low self-esteem... I felt like no one understood me.

Lucky for me, a person I admired, one could say my idol, but I call him my friend... I reached out to him, & He reached out back to me, held my hand, listened to me. Didn't judge me, instead uplifted me with positivity. I slowly started to heal... The more I grew up is the more I realized I was just being affected by childhood trauma. After passing on, everyone became distant, haven't seen my sister in years... Bet, you didn't even know I had one. Nothing made sense, everything was juggled... All that burning rage on the inside, but I was calm on the surface. I walked with this burden on my shoulders for about 4 years... High school to be exact...

It took for me to realize that I couldn't live like that anymore, I couldn't stand being hungry all the time because of sadness and depression. I wanted to do better and be better instead of thinking "What If..." Actually, what If I had a million dollars, what if I'm late for a meeting because it was too windy for the helicopter to land... Those are the types of problems I would rather face. I couldn't live my life in a box anymore... So I started meditating, and searching for, actually, Instead of searching for love, I started expressing love, most importantly, to myself as well. I started looking towards the brighter side of life... There was a lot of havoc and chaos around me, but I chose to be happy... I chose to deal with my shit before it dealt with me. (Am I allowed to curse, PG 13)It was a process, a 2-year process to be exact until I found peace and accepted myself for who I was.

Now I'm happy, I don't ever want to go back to that mystery, sometimes I slip up, but most of the time I'm doing alright, I'm not perfect after all... But I'm trying to be a good person, trying to be the best version of me, and to me, that's good enough. Kendrick Lamar once said "Look inside of your soul and you could find gold and maybe get rich" I didn't understand then, but I do now...

Thank you for waiting on me as I went through this therapy session and discovered myself.

You're awesome.

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