Heaven's in our hourglass

A million years couldn't pass me by
Without a tear to cry
I know to keep you by my side is right
Your fire burning ever bright

You see the mountain with the sky clouds high
Rolling river beneath your eye
You catch the sun, the wind you wonder why
Feelings deeper released in time

I have you
Helping discover through and true
You have I
Two wings for the one bird our love begins to fly

Heaven's in our hourglass

For heavens aches

This is basically my break up blues

Beautiful Zero - Without love

Beneath the slope, the slope that slowly rolls me home
To take her time out of my mind the sun it skins my bone
I haven't time for money now though some would disagree
As subtle breezes in my face lights the weary whole
I know there's bliss, I know there's joy, I know there's fantasy
Shattered by a fireball sky
That I've been dreaming on
That should be dreaming on me

Admit I must the village dust of daily misery
Is dragging on without a love, only my family
And soon the days will not be mine and also for that yours
A smile as broken as my voice, the cigarette burns on
I should know better

Love become me
(In the night when you're not there)
Love become me
(A space to breathe my lonely soul)
Love become me
(I cannot find my home at home without love)
Without love

Without love (2016)

I want to sail away

She's a little loving voice inside his loving mind
He's reaching out to her side
A dream of all the things that are
He's got her on his mind
He gets himself into her sight

She says

Ohhhhh you've got me sailing seven seas in the darkness of your night
And the choice of someone else is what I've got to kill inside 
So keep yourself inside my sight

I want to sail away into your world
I can't conceive of doing you wrong
The world outside is dull
People doing silly things 
Will it ever turn around?
I can't say

I'm just sailing in the world
And I would like to see it all
I've been sailing in a world
Its inside of me
It's a lonely way

I want to sail away into your world
I can't conceive of doing you wrong
The world outside is dull
I keep doing silly things 
Will it ever turn around?
I can't say

I Want To Sail Away ft Uncle Dave

You're Your Own Sunrise

A Gift From The Beyond

The only thing in life that doesn't change is the fact that everything is in a constant state of change 

Paradox

Water For The Trees (2014)

A bruise in the night (2014)

Universe seems to know

Dream dreamer (Dream The Night Away)

I love only you

Written at the end of a very meaningful relationship and feeling depressed with the news happening at the time in 2015

Epiphany (Remastered 2023)

The remedy 

He stops the clock 
he knows that she’s out there
A voice in his soul 
Yet an illness 
His soul bear 
A world that appears so mundane, cold and unfair 
Oh no 

But the greatness theres been and all the potential 
Or the love of the strong for the gentle 
It cannot all be incidental 

And when he feels her 
Yes he knows
On a wind that’s set free far away 

A life without love is a life without reason
A life without reason is no life at all 
A life with some meanings a beautiful venture  

Something to feel 
Float away like he’s falling 
But he’s not sure in which way he’s going 
It’ll sort out I’m sure in the morning 

But his futures far from him 
All his missing world it seems outside 

And when he feels her yes he knows 
Like a wind that’s set free far away 

So as he’s feeling her 
It feels as though she’s feeling him too
Yet she keeps getting away 

Out of the blue 
The sun shines upon a truth 
The clouds in his mind break up
He can’t seem to realise true love without her

There’s nothing to do 
He feels her too
While looking through the pain of something blue 

But he can’t seem to realise true love without her 

She keeps getting away 

And its all in play 
While he’s all alone 
Out of it
She keeps getting away

The Remedy

Incubation (In your halo)

Video link
https://youtu.be/8Af5JNeBtaA

Winter in Spain

Slowly goes the day,
keeps me under,
while we see some light.
The moon she keeps her poise.
She'll be back around, no choice.

Chinese whispers of lie, it shared no worth.
Though the winds just rolling by it's a struggle for my mind.

All my colours in shade like a winter in Spain.
All my colours in shade like a winter.
Like a winter.

Winter In Spain

'Just be' feat Jaq Gallier

A song that resembles the darker shades in all of us. Being able to sit with those parts to tame them, letting your inner child beat the ghosts of the things that haunt you. To the brighter days, knowing you were never meant to be taunted, even by yourself and letting the bright ones in. Brighter days

Just be

Where dreams don’t fall apart 

There’s something bout the girl 
That can’t be there
Something bout her that just can’t dispel the past 

Caught up in everything 
Somewhere between the sheets

There’s something bout the way she’s just herself 
Pushing through her way with life facing forward 

She shouldn’t doubt what he sees in her
Yet he doubts what she sees in him 

Another day passing  
Another year after 
With the story untold for all to come 
Separate spaces and separate traces 
He fears he’ll be outloved and left with a broken heart 

There’s something bout the girl who wants her way 
And while he’s dreaming whose bed will she be in next? 
Aloneness casts its spell 
He thought he knew her well 

The moon it shines gracefully 
For another year after 
She crosses his mind with a dagger straight to the heart 
He’ll keep on dreaming of
Of a better start somewhere 
A dream of two where maybe dreams don’t fall apart 

Fall apart
Fall apart 
Don’t fall apart

Where dreams don't fall apart

'Keep running wild'

It's the illusion that something was mine, knocking me off an another imaginary line
Treating it as another god given sign 
Im working it out but something ain't quite right
Keep running wild in your thoughts
Though you don't know

She says please please hold me
Taking my time while paradise hides from our minds
It's uncovered in your life
Hope you get yourself with everything that is right

As its all dying its dawning
As its all dying its dawning 

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Archimedes said, "Give me a fulcrum and I will move the Earth"; but there isn't one. It is like betting on the future of the human race — I might wish to lay a bet that the human race would destroy itself by the year 2000, but there is nowhere to place the bet. On the contrary, I am involved in the world and must try to see that it does not blow itself to pieces. I once had a terrible argument with Margaret Mead. She was holding forth one evening on the absolute horror of the atomic bomb, and how everybody should spring into action and abolish it, but she was getting so furious about it that I said to her: "You scare me because I think you are the kind of person who will push the button in order to get rid of the other people who were going to push it first." So she told me that I had no love for my future generations, that I had no responsibility for my children, and that I was a phony swami who believed in retreating from facts. But I maintained my position. As Robert Oppenheimer said a short while before he died, "It is perfectly obvious that the whole world is going to hell. The only possible chance that it might not is that we do not attempt to prevent it from doing so." You see, many of the troubles going on in the world right now are being supervised by people with very good intentions whose attempts are to keep things in order, to clean things up, to forbid this, and to prevent that. The more we try to put everything to rights, the more we make fantastic messes. Maybe that is the way it has got to be. Maybe I should not say anything at all about the folly of trying to put things to right but simply, on the principle of Blake, let the fool persist in his folly so that he will become wise.

Alan Watts (6 January 1915 – 16 November 1973)

Keep Running Wild

The time of our life 

And if I leave this world behind I know you will always be there
Sometimes it hard to know why lm all alone
With time marching on
The signs are showing
I need to make you see that there is more to this
Then we can see
The time of our life

The time of our life

I won't leave you

I won't leave you
I need you in the midday sun
You need to see your wishes through
I plan to see you next time round
Where with open eyes you'll follow me
Open eyes to the mystery
Floating diamonds in the sun
The better way is sure to come

I won't leave you
I feel you through a moonlit blue
No need to take your records back
The view is clear while love's intact
And the angels sing on the devils back
The hope is white while my fears are back
A feeling of you holding true
Cool spirit watching us slide through

I Wont Leave You

Take me up (Never wanna die)

Take me up make yourself a home
Take me up and make yourself at home

Take me out 
I never wanna die
Take me out 
You'll never wanna die
Take me out 
You never wanna die
Take me out 
You never wanna die

Take me up

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Trapped as a wasp
Baking away from cool
Loving everyone and everything but from a distance to meet with a passing word that felt the core

Euphoria I'd like to share isn't mine and never would be
A gift I feel so that I'm thankful until it enters again
To join with you is something I despise as I find myself further away being pulled by something greater than I'll ever be 

A wasp with poison that is not meant for death 
The humble bee wasn't so lucky 
Or was it its choice to feel it's sting upon its aggressor as it ascended past the honey suckle 
It fed the world for the world wanted it's colour 

It didn't know
As I don't 
Or do I? 
No feeling for me 

but wait 

euphoria again
To share I'll fall and let it take over again

the hope in me

Take me up

Dream on

You've got the motion let's get it straight,
but the feeling never lasts.
We're caught between the land and sky of all we're meant for.
While you're battling yourself, trying to shine a light and you know it well,
It's something you know naturally.

There's nothing better to a lost soul in a lost world.
Nothing better than what you give me.
Nothing better that's best to be chosen,
but maybe the look in your eyes is but a disguise.

The old life may have gone to the dogs, when you lose on the big one.
And the treasure you seek from a heart could be gone forever.
As the loneliness felt draws you back to the centre,
could you build a new fire from the embers?
From the nightmares you flee see the dawn as a new one.

And dream on...

Dream on

Video link
https://youtu.be/jja2_cosC8M

Zodiac

Lets fly with the sun
Spin with the moon yeah the night is on fire
Into the unknown
Into the unknown where love hangs by a wire
He's burning it all
He's coming alive yeah hes coming to life
Don't we know
With the colours of his soul
He's tasting it all
It just takes two tastes to be whole

Lets fly with the sun
Spin with the moon yeah the night is on fire
Into the unknown
Into the unknown where love hangs by a wire
He's burning it all
He's coming alive yeah hes coming to life
Don't we know
With the colours of his soul
He's tasting it all
It just takes two tastes to be whole
It just takes two tastes to be whole
It just takes two tastes to be whole

Yeah we fly where we fly
Yeah we fly where we fly
Yeah we fly where we fly

Candleboy & Beautiful Zero - Zodiac

Whirlpool II

Whirlpool of your mind spinning around
It's hard to take when you're in the mud, I'd help you out now
Yes I'll help you 
Don't let the sun go down
It'll find you as you sleep
We'll set sights on the world under it all
Will you slip into us beside the dark?

It makes you feel alone again, makes you cry
Don't you know, don't you know it?
While we hope its alright in love

In love, half a way won't do as we sway
I'll meet you at the slip road to fight it off again

Whirlpool, whirlpool spinning around

Whirlpool II

Video link
https://youtu.be/dTqCAta-9KE

Rare blue sky butterfly

I count your soul a rare blue sky butterfly
That's caught inside of my life
Coz since I was seven I've been dreaming of the love on the way
I need love

I'm wanna find that lady to hunt my time
I'm gonna breathe in the burning sun till I find that girl, some night
coz love is always up and leaving
and by the time that I think I've won it's a world away
but its enough to let me know

Let me know

Rare blue sky butterfly

We have all the time in the world

Never ending dream alone 

Dreams to pass another passing day 
What’s the world? It’s not for me to say 

Why let mind just slip again?
When you slowly feel the love behind words you mean to say 
Put a stop to the rush that fools the very being 
Can’t let this life slip away 

Is it a dumb attitude when you can’t find a reason for a thing that you should do? 
In the wilds again 
Hoping to see you are the same 

Dreams to pass another passing day
What’s the world? It’s not for me to say 
Looking back you were always the same through change 

Dreams to pass another passing day 
The life that is has burst from a sacred flame to keep the mind from feeling insane 
Patience and love were never to blame

Neverending dream alone

Stars in us 

Is there something more to you than meets the eye?
Is there something more to us than what we think we know?
All must lead onto glory 
They’ll say to you “In times things are better”
Though, we feel we’ll eventually fall down.. you could still know better

When you feel small and need a sign the world holds you lonely 
Brace yourself for the loving that you thought you would know 
The rest is a moment in time

Do the stars that sit above cry out there loneliness?
Lost in a chasm of eternal space with no way to reach the other 
Or do the shine from out the dark?
To assure all hurts are far apart
From way out where we do not know
Our little world that spins below that’s lost and found and lost again
That spins our dreams way out of sight, but we we supposed to know a gain? 
From a single rush too bright to end, our dreams that clash and bring the rain 
To allow our love to bloom past all pain and through the clouds we’ll see again
The found and lost and found again

A reason to believe that it's alright

* Based in Nottingham, England * An accompaniment to your dreams * All songs free to download * Music maker * Video maker * Although I set out for my music to be heard by everybody it's actually quite freeing to be unknown. Like I have a secret that only very few really know about * But I'm sharing in the hope it does reach more still * Painting out my soul through sound * No AI or voice correcting technology * Best of work highlighted here * Other accounts J R Watkins and J R Watkins II linked underneath * Search 'Beautiful Zero' on YouTube for videos and other highlighted work * Best blasted out of decent speakers * INFP 4w5 459 * Beautiful Zero is J R Watkins, all instruments and production * The dream remains * Each song resembles a part of me that I felt I needed to express at that particular point in life * So I like to feel each song has it's own soul * I first started recording at the age of 18 in 1998 * I was in a band with my brother and two best friends (The Haze/Dirty Kanvus) * We went on to support Ocean Colour Scene for a few dates in the late 2000's * OCS being a band I loved even before I knew I could play an instrument * Home recording has always been my preference as I am free to express myself exactly how I wish without compromise * I always wanted to write my own 'White Album - The Beatles' * I may not have done that but I hope you enjoy and feel the love I've put into my work that I'm sharing * Peace, love and the stars above. J R Watkins x *



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https://soundcloud.com/j-r-watkins

J R Watkins II link
https://soundcloud.com/jrwatkinsii

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