official music video: https://youtu.be/Z__f86LJ2P0
written performed and mixed by bedhead
produced by remghost
recorded @ goblin haven

ALL PLATFORMS

nightscape (+ remghost) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

recorded @ goblin haven
written, performed, mixed, and mastered by bedhead
produced by remghost

its ok 2 eat fish (+ remghost)

written performed and mixed by bedhead
produced by nezu
recorded @ goblin haven

forest moon (+ nezu)

written, performed, and mixed by bedhead
produced by nezu
recorded @ goblin haven

slowdance (+ nezu)

crimson dawn (+ nezu)

originally written, produced, and recorded by zedd and hayley williams
performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by malori
recorded @ goblin haven

stay the nite (+ malori)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
featuring sophie as mrs. claus
produced by tekki1k
recorded @ goblin haven

i am santa (+ tekki1k)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by keyblayde808 and remghost
recorded @ goblin haven 3/2/22
art by bedhead

a nest in my room (+ keyblayde808 x remghost)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead & wstdyth
produced by donttrustlando & tgwog
recorded @ goblin haven
art by bedhead
lyrics:
I don’t wanna talk bout drama
Baby get money not mad
And I raised you all if I’m honest
Calling me mommy not dad
I keep it true to the facts
Don’t gotta thank me for that
I was asleep at the pad when my power was cut and my blankets were trash
My heart is could to the touch
Hotter than yours is too much
I’m only saying it once
If you listen closely you’ll be stunned
See me on a TV when I stunt
Rock me like a riff that’s hella grunge
Thought that I could be your only one
But I never thought that that would be enough
Drink a redbull slowing down the clock 
Got these wings like a albatross 
I wander but I'm not lost 
I wonder if these dice are tossed 
Will I roll snake eyes 
I can read your mind so don't say lies 
It's always up and down I guess c'est la vie 
That V on your shirt looks so lame brah
Feel like the Citadel how I got all these ricks yeah 
I'm at the wishing well Imma throw in my chips yeah
I luv the kush smell resin over my lips yeah
Walk on my tiptoes by the light of the moon
Why you wanna see me lose
Imma cash in all my blues 
Feel so sick catching the flu 
Fashion piled up in my room

if u listen closely w/ wstdyth (+ donttrustlando x tgwog)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by benjithemachine
recorded @ goblin haven
art by bedhead
lyrics:
All I wanna do is hold you for one more night
Tell you everything I told you before we had to fight
And I know it isn't right baby Imma make it right
If I learn the dark side I could save your life tonight
And you broke my heart but I’m still alive
I don’t wanna be without you I don’t wanna do the time
I don't think that I could face you at the end of the line
If you wanted I could chase you to the edge of my mind
This is my world now it was written in the sky
You could read between the lines if you really wanna find out
How I got where I am where I’m at now
I don’t wanna go back down to the background
Finally found a way to save you from my nightmares
I could see the future every vision you were right there
We were twin blades doesn’t mean that you fight fair
All I ever wanted was a life up in the arm chair
Don’t tell me you don’t care baby I’m so scared
We’ll split up no pairs lets just not go there
Let’s get away now before it’s too late
Before we end up stuck between the line of love and hate

splinter of the mind's eye (+ benjithemachine)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ goblin haven
art by Allen Rogers
lyrics:
Find me at the airport girl I’m coming home
And I got it in my jansport they don’t even know
I was tryna hit the pavement til I hit the road
But I’m chasing down a payment loan it for my soul
The collateral damage security deposit
Don’t know how I manage I wish that I could stop it
Got me on your homescreen he was in your locket
Keep me at a distance can’t breathe in your pocket
You know that I’m unsafe both of us in danger
Didn’t anybody tell you stay away from strangers
Ever since I met you I’ve been feeling stranger
The thing is that I felt you when you were a hater
And I understand why you’re wanting me to quit
But if I was given choices it would take a minute
I cannot decide if I'm out or I’m in it
I’m on and I’m off one don’t wanna admit it
Tracking every move staying on me like a fitbit
Couldn’t tell a lie to you wouldn’t wanna risk it
Couldn’t cut me off it would take more than a wrist slit
I’m never really gone but I’m always gonna miss this
This is how it’s always felt for me
I’ve fallen for your apathy
My fallen order friends that leave
You’ve never not been there for me

at the airport (+ homecomingqueen)

official music video: https://youtu.be/qkDC2JUfOWY
written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by benjithemachine
recorded @ goblin haven
art by Allen Rogers
lyrics:
Give me one sec I could make this right in a bit
On the flight back I decided I would’ve quit
Told her syke yeah I told her it was always a trick
I rode a bike to your house and you do me like this
And I do you like that and it doesn’t make sense
And I’m feeling so bad but I’m paying my rent
And I’m getting out of bed and I’m getting these checks
Things aren’t that bad but I’m not my best
When I’m at my worst and I’m feeling like this
I was writing down a verse and I’m looking for a hit
If they always give me lemons I’ll make something out of it
I made something out of nothing right beside you where you sit
And beside all that you said 
I still guessed the number that you’re thinking in your head
I don’t want no other sending me off in the end
I don’t wanna say goodbye to a friend

MUSIC VIDEO

not my best (+ benjithemachine) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by colby rue
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 7/10/22
art by bedhead

vi (+ colby rue)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by yung skrrt and sphere merchants
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 7/23/22
art by bedhead
lyrics:
i just wanna get so hi i forget my own name
and this happens all the time so i treat it like a game
something eats away inside of me way deep up in my brain
knife fighting w/ anxiety i brought a gun today
brought a yung buck body never more ready 2 play
i’m a pop punk shawty even born down by the bay
mother says imma make it and i trust what mother say
running man i can’t fake it any longer in this place
something is about 2 give but this time it will not be me
i don’t wanna have 2 live inside of this hypocrisy
i kno who i am and what it is is what it used 2 b
u just hold me back u hold me down u couldn’t grow w/ me
everybody wanna glo w/ me
that’s why everybody want shows w/ me
everybody thinks they’re gonna blow w/ me
cuz it’s me becuz it’s me
everybody always wanna glo w/ me
that’s why everybody doing shows w/ me
everybody thinks they’re gonna blow w/ me
cuz it’s me but u don’t kno me
u could never rly kno me sorry but it’s tru
im not sorry cuz it’s u everything we said we’d do
imma get it on my own raise myself up out the roof
had me climbing out yr chimney i was covered in the soot
had me covered in the smoke wearing stupid man suits
all my homies lmk girl this doesn’t suit u
and i said that i would go but it was hard 2 choose 2
it’s so hard to b alone but it’s easier to do

what's my name again? (+ yung skrrt x sphere merchants)

u dont seem 2 notice u say titles when theyre wrong
long time friends i dont feel like i belong
family sends sumbody similar their luv but
i cant let em know it isnt me or itll stop
get it where i can all my time spent at a job
could u hold my hand mine arent close enuff 2 god
u dont understand that yr everything i want
wish that i could b u instead of sum1 that u taunt
5 hr drive not a chance that id see u
gotta look alive hit yr town like i need 2
hit u up at nite but i kno that yr asleep 2
leavin when its lite maybe next time ill meet u
made me feel alright when u say it i believe u
bby hold me tite i got bad times 2 speed thru
miss u everytime im alone and when im not 2
no 1s coming close 2 the way i feel i kno u
keep me in yr mind but just enuff 2 not control u
leave me on the line u gotta show me i dont own u
such a long time since the start not gonna hold u
as long as were alive our souls r tied theyre gettin old 2

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by rotel
recorded @ the gloss temple 11/29/22
art by bedhead

5 hr drive (+ rotel)

(30 in my cup i can feel my heart beat
i just wanna make u mine
came 2 the party just 2 c u
but its dark and i cant find u and i realized i wasted my time
we were on the molly and u didnt turn the lights off
talking 2 u felt like a ghost
it was like a nightmare or a fairytale
thinking i could hold u close)
u sit there w yr arms wrapped round yr knees
wanna scream so loud in the library
hot pink dyed hair hope no one sees
staring off into nothing but the neon green
1 cough 2 hi not a clear lung
public spaces u dont rly fear none
u would trade places if u knew sum1
made the same paces less close 2 the sun
boxes ive packed myself in
release my soul for profit
dont kno just y it happened
think i need 2 get off this
train on a loop of a track going 1 way
always never coming back around in the wrong way
right time 4 it but i saw it on the wrong day
next stop on the timelines such a long way
away from me u moved yrself
i had 2 b w sum1 else
2 realize the mental hell
yr in is where i am as well
and if its in yr interest well then
hope the leave yr taking will treat u well then
im a whole other person than how i felt then
treat me like u deserve me i never felt it
i guess i just dont deserve 2 b treated well then
holding grudges like yr climbing out a well then
mix the metal w fire just like im welding
i just never know what 2 do cuz i cant b selfish
familiar w the feelings u felt 4 the fact i held them
longer than the hope that i had 4 u c it seldom
anything thats valuable 2 me yr saying sell them
u kno u would b the lowest bid at the auction
how low will u go now
yr hands dirty the ground
yr on shakes @ the sound
u scream but never loud
enuff 4 them 2 hear
check back w u in a year
c where im @ cuz i kno that
neither of us can stay here
(how will i get 2 u and tell u heart 2 heart
theres a 30 in my cup
and i need u and i need u 2 feel my love
how do i get 2 u and tell u heart 2 heart
theres 30 in my cup
and i need u and i need u 2 feel my love)
trash bag like yr throwing me away
bagged up bagback i’ll be gone for days
i still smell your clothes here i’m want for waste
i can’t tell if ur sincere in trauma chased
on gang i’m rolling the wrong way
your holding on to my face
i’m blowing like pompeii
swerving the marque
it’s always a dark day
read it all in my face
i’m trying i can’t change :/
i found a way to be with someone
who would never leave me for
that seasons that became before
ur still moving the same way
of course
i still touch in the rain
the force
scars can’t measure the pain
we walked over the lane
it’s in the back of my brain
i can’t give up anything that i claim
forever the same

written by bedhead, lil wet wet, and Reghan Patynski (borrows from heart2heart/30inmycup https://soundcloud.com/2envii/h2hfinal)
performed, mixed, and mastered by bedhead and lil wet wet
produced by cascadia
recorded at the gloss temple and the dollhouse 03/04/2023
art by bedhead

neon green w/ lil wet wet (+ cassie) [2envii sample]

new skin, not even new clothes
i took my sweet time to see where that goes
to see without eyes, does anyone know?
to truly be blind you'd have to lose hope
lights in my eyes, kinda like how it blinds me
i stand aside til you push from behind me
onto the tracks and it kinda reminds me
of in the past, only held on to bind me
but i'm proud that you could let go, it isn't easy
i'll be hard to find, harder than it was to please me
i just hope you know in the end what it means to me
taking my life in your hands so to speak
so it’s cheap like everything you talk
i’d buy it at the store but it’s just way too far to walk
and i don’t want you anymore cause i cannot be stalked
and i cannot be stopped, and you can never stop me now
i’m on tour, you got yours, i got more
i got everything i ever asked for
you got left in the dust that’s for sure
come and see what the dirt has washed up ashore
kinda fitting now how i’m washed up of course
i just sent a message in a bottle to your door
and you won’t even read it lest the glass hit the floor

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lightsinmyeyes2

through love we find power
through power we find love
through love we find revenge
long live goblin queen
when the mouth to the cave opens up
at the bottom of the mountain to the top
you’re sure to get there when the others flop
they say it’s not fair girl go do your job
if i wore moncler out then i’d get robbed
an easy lick so i’m dressing like a bum
queen of the goblins overthrew the scum
fill up the goblet and drink it til you’re numb
you’re steady gossiping, i’m just on my own
don’t think you exist if you’re not in my phone
gotta do this quick if i wanna take the throne
only want it for a bit before i leave it all alone 
gotta leave it all behind, gotta put you out my mind
and a piece of me has died and i know you think im lying but
i was always trying like all of the time and
i can’t put the time in, i just need the quiet
the peace that im missing
the piece of my soul that you took from me’s splitting
off into parts cause i know that you’re listening
i don’t have to start giving out my forgiveness
it’s not something that’s coming to you
to me it’s just not a virtue i carry
i don’t wanna hurt you, it was scary
but i had to desert you
for both of us, it’s not just me
i know you trust that society
will know what’s what, what’s right for me
i can’t be lost up in your dream
long live the goblin queen
oh, oh, long live the goblin queen

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

LLGQ

learned too much just a little too quickly
move too much and you’re gonna get dizzy
loves’s like drugs saying “baby do you miss me?”
can’t be touched think i want it til you’re with me 
i wanna be perfect, you don’t want the power
don’t think i deserve it, share it like it’s ours
so ready to force quit, lost so many hours
save it with a purpose, burn it if it sours
tell it to the queen but don’t forget about the prince
if the universe in which he is the king really exists
he can get down on a knee 
and on my ring give me a kiss
i made a vow before i leave 
to oversee the damage fixed
but it was never cause of me 
they found the worship that they missed
you could sail the seven seas
you’ll never find me where i hid
and i’ll go back to hiding before 
they know everything i did
the king is dead long live the haters
thank me later for my sins
for my sins, thank me later for my sins
you can thank me for my sins

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

my sins

i took the train from underground
to get away, i’m skipping town
the mess i’ve made, the wedding gown
the cherry stain, my bloody mouth
there’s words to say, can’t get em out
you thought i’d stay, it’s all going south
reaching for your projection
i’m not in your collection
i could never be sentenced, nah
i’m not one to be messed with
you better finish your sentence
before i get arrested, yeah
i don’t clean up my messes
i can’t tell if i meant it
i just hope you can let it go
sounded bad when i sent it
knew that i had to say it
if i was gonna let you know
i can tell when u listen
ain’t seen that in a minute
do i need to say this more?
i prescribe your prescriptions 
but i am no politician
and you don’t have your cast that vote
clearest windows, not tinted
motivation not hidden
what’s there to be sorry for
what’s there to be sorry for

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

srry4

don’t know what to call that
don’t know if you saw that
sky is falling down 
and everybody wearing ball caps
look into the future 
but i never counted on that
what you’ve said in the past 
will count against you if they want that
they don’t wanna build you up
they want to break you
always take your name in vain
it’s beautiful to say you
everybody asks what dreams are made of 
and i thank you
you showed me the way
i have to kill you off to save you
god is not an alcoholic mom
that’s just an excuse
that things will never really get
better when they say they do
put a lot of work in what i’ve made
but i can’t stay with you
your vision of me’s flawed
in your eyes i tried to play you
i could play whatever side i want to
i was made to
you hate marijuana
but sip bottles likes it’s grape juice
got a taste for you
its been hard enough to shake you
oh you stir me up
don’t even know who i should pray to
pray tell
what was that you’re saying in the bedroom?
praise hell
you were on your knees and had a breakthrough
breaking cellphones
the only thing that made me hate you
now i’m all alone
i’ve found a different kind of faith too
faithful to a cause 
that doesn’t pay off how it should do
shrug your actions off
when i don’t understand how could you
there’s no other option 
said you’d die without me soon too
told me in the end
there’s nothing for me if i lose you

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

praise hell

hit the bottle quick, don't think about it much
looking for you never quit, all i wanted was your touch
though you knew me for a bit cause you thought you did too much
i think i just did too much cause since you've been gone
i can't breathe, there's no one to talk to that i'd wanna need
i've been letting my thoughts stew like you did for me
i hate that i want you more than you hated me
on the surface it seems like a couple of deeds
i could do would get past you but i'd have to be clean
i've been meaning to ask you are you friends if you're mean?
justify it in the end or whatever it means, whatever the means
stay down with me at the safe house
lay down, you’ve been in the rain but i got towels
made it out alive a couple times always raised hell
city’s on fire in my eyes but i was raised well

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

city's on fire

sometimes when i sing i think i'm wasting beats
and these nights i don't wanna walk on city streets
most times i be jumping off the balconies
of my loves just to get up out of what i need
but i don't need you, you're just haunting me
i'm not gonna taunt you in case you believe
that i'm gonna stop you from death in my dreams
i'm not wearing a costume but it's tearing the seams
you keep staring at me, why's it so hard to believe
that i could really be someone i wanted to be?
i'm not a bee to be kept, you're not a promise i'd keep
don't have a tear to be wept so cry another for me
you keep staring at me, why's it so hard to believe
i'm not a bee to be kept, you're not a promise i'd keep
don't have a tear to be wept so cry another for me
yeah, yeah i brought a couple monsters to the rave last night
and i drove without a problem officer, it's just the light
and for two more days i couldn't hear you from the
right side of my face, i didn't see you in the nighttime

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

a beekeeper's promise

unfounded hate, find me at the bottom of the lake
why do only beautiful souls take
to your grave here's a promise i could make
secret's safe, imma leave it in the bank
worked hard now you get to take a break
i see through you, i can see the fake
a redo with you i could never take
can't fake a need for you, never got to say
look on the bright side, everything's okay
everybody's fine and it's just another day
and you'll wake up every time thinking "oh what a disgrace
i am to everyone in life that i love and push away"
we're one in the same cause my state of mind's
exactly like the ways that you describe when we always type
at night and i don't get to sleep a wink cause i turned out the lights
but you don't give me any chance to think about my dream tonight
i don't have a dream i gave up when i started living life
push your propaganda on me i'm just not the reading type
type but never send, you'll not respond ever again
why would i wanna talk as friends if it's just means up to your ends?
you gotta kick me in my knees if imma buckle to the trends
i used to feel so small and weak and here you're saying it again
i don't know what i should believe the thought police are in my head
so now i gotta get my sleep so i can put these thoughts to bed

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

oh what a disgrace i am

hit me up and leave me hanging never respond
i was dying when you met me then i respawned
something's stopping us from getting what we both want
i won't keep you prisoner, don't let your ghost haunt
me in the future, stay in my past
i don't wanna do it to you, i can't take it back
and i said it wasn't you but it's more than that bad
we can't get it back now so don't even ask
i said i wouldn't let it get to me
but then i kinda let it get to me
you said all you want's to rest in peace
and now in my head you're dead to me
i don't let it be, i can't keep it up
i don't wanna say it, but i don't wanna stop
ok maybe i'll stop complaining when i'm standing on the top
all cause i popped off now they wanna flop
when i pop the top off, he might take my top off
gotta get a lot up off my chest taking socks off
running barefoot through the grass to the cobble rocks
mossy stones dirty toes in the parking lot
catgirl with my dogs so we bark a lot
straight hair no curls, it gets dark a lot
eyebrows on fleek at the record shop
spin another and i'll do it til my body drops
(just don't let it get to you
i can tell when it gets to you
can't help but feel like i'm less than you
can't help as much as you asked me to
just stay in the past for me
every time i look back i see
all the ways that you were 
using me, abusing me
but was it really your fault? nah
i don't really blame it all on
someone that won't take the fall, nah
imma always take the fall, yeah
but i don't ever let you go
i can't let you in my life, i can't ever let you know
i can't ever let it up, i won't ever take it slow
no, no, no
baby don't go, leave me in the cold
playing in snow, miss you when i'm old
wish that we could grow, wishing you could grow
i'm already grown, god i feel so old
catgirl with my dogs so we bark a lot
straight hair never curls it gets dark a lot
eyebrows on fleek at the record shop
spin another just for me)

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

just don't let it get 2 u

fake an aesthetic? i don't even think i have one
everyone inspired but no one knows who inspired em
i was in the fire, you were burning your obsession
certainly impressed but i have some corrections
come correct in the building when i step in
came to collect, i can see the way you're spending
i spent too much of my life without a weapon
shawty you could be the knife up where my chest is
call me on a burner phone cause it's the only one i own
if you don't wanna be alone right now
cause i spend too much time at home and you're the one i wanna hold
and i'm not trying to be bold, pipe down
wanna put me in my place, got a ace up your sleeve
i could see it in your face, nice scowl
making heaters in my space, halloween's a couple days ago
but i'm not taking off this cowl
oh, did somebody run too close to the sun?
i cannot believe what i've found
something must be done if this war can't be won
in our favor then imma back down
i'm not a leader, in school was a cheater
the teachers would all look down
but tonight i can see her, the one that the king thinks he'll take on
will take the crown
i thought i told you to bounce
i'm on another planet that you can't pronounce
now that i know what your plan is, your ways i renounce
i never backed down but i had to dip out
your knees won't give out
if you walked a mile in my shoes to the town
let em see the water dripping off you while i drown
i can't make an offer, you won't stop if i'm around
uh, uh, i thought i told you to bounce
all i need to see is your hands right now
right hand on your left hip now
you could be the star of this whole entire house
i'm tired, you're plotting
so inspired, it's exhausting
extinguished fires, not the smoke screen
loving liars, never joking
oh where you gonna run? think you're brighter than the sun?
i know the day's not even done but the battle has been won
let the cattle out the pen and leave the rest to the dogs

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

the crown

i could love you like tomorrow isn't promised
don't think the future ever comes if im honest
brought a chocolate to you at the college
i want all this, we can skip the falling
i need to be calling up someone who wants me too
and i would ask who's up but wouldn't talk to you
by now i've given up, there's nothing left to do
your name is in my phone, i'll walk a mile with you
and when there's nowhere left to walk and there's nothing to do
i hope you know that we can talk when it's just me and you
built to spill all of my problems and it's all i do
making music doesn't solve em i just think it's cool
you got problems, i don't have a problem
telling everyone about the scars or how i got em
totally forgot you, then i went and lost you
all my thoughts are consumed
by you but they're not true
don't know who we are now, i think it's alright though
you just had a rough day i got in a life boat
always sailing sideways, wont see me outside though
surfing on an interwave, find me with no telescope
talking bout a winter day, i just think it's always cold
i don't got a lot to say, i got away from being bold
god, but you even had games on your telephone
playing with my head i even bought you the nintendo
friendship should last in the end it depends though
i'm not keeping friends around that wanna act just like they know
everything that's better for me in my life than what i've chose
i know i could never be your wife cause i'd have nicer clothes
can't admit it to me but i'm right and you know it though
i think you know, i hope you know, i know you don't
i hope you will, i know you won't

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

tomorrow isn't promised

uh, lights in my eyes, kinda like how it blinds me
i stand aside til you push from behind me
onto the tracks and it kinda reminds me
of in the past, only held on to bind me
but i'm proud that you could let go, it isn't easy
i'll be hard to find, harder than it was to please me
i just hope you know in the end what it means to me
taking my life in your hands so to speak
new skin, not even new clothes
i took my sweet time to see where that goes
to see without eyes, does anyone know?
to truly be blind you'd have to lose hope
same eyes but need a new nose
i need to eat more so my same thighs grow
i hate to waste time i spend like i'm broke
my friends will be fine, they never gotta know, uh

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the microwave
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lightsinmyeyes

i miss your toxic talk your texts were constant always on my phone
i can't seem to put you off and you just can't ever leave me alone
and it doesn't hurt my head as much if i just hit it off the dome
but it hit my gut like a sucker punch, i'm never going home
and i guess i miss bedhead even though i'm not dead yet
i miss having a set to rep, i miss the way that the homies met
why can't it ever go back to that, it feels like i'm stuck in the past i guess
i miss acting like a hazmat but i'm as toxic as i've ever been
and i just got good at unmasking that 
so now i don't let anybody else in
the people that love me that asked for that 
are now the ones asking me where i've been
but i can't go out looking like a mess 
and i'm such a mess i just shut myself in
i'm leaving my car on the street for the rats
when driving i think of the crash i'm not in
when sleeping i think of the life that i have 
and i daydream of one that i'll never live
when i'm making a bunch of songs in the lab
that i love i never end up dropping them
and there's not a reason i have for that
except thinking i'm not good enough to exist
as the person that they used to love for that
when i'm gonna force em to watch it switch
watch the way i fall apart, tell me that it's lovely
pick myself up in the art and now you think i'm ugly
i don't wanna play a part i just want you to love me
being an adult's so hard, nobody here to hug me
being here alone i saw you every night
i thought about you lots, i wish i had the light
the forgiveness i lost, the feeling that i'd fly
away from you, the cost i paid for you to try

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

always on my phone

i gotta show em why i do it how i do
why i gotta explain myself when i walk in the room
i thought i had trained myself to handle your abuse
you see that i'm changing now and think it's cause of you
but i'm kind of inspired by the way you got me mangled
all up in your life i can't believe how long you've tangled
me up in your lies but girl tonight i think i'm able
to get myself untied and excuse myself from the table
might not be too nice and i'm sorry if it's painful
to hear it but between us neither one of us is stable
and i couldn't take care of myself with you i got hateful
save for the times you were mine and not an angel
uh, everybody dies old faithful
out of sight, out of mind, blind every angle
dead to the world, deaf to the unfaithful
unholy sinner from the cradle

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

mangled

can't even forgive you won't ever forget you
sorry for the things that i said that upset you
you were never sorry cause your head was such a mess too
least i tried to fix you how i'd never let you
i'm not who you thought but you were right about a lot
hardly an adult but i can't get the clock to stop
maybe imma fail but i can never give it up
when the ship sets sail away from neverland i'm gone
keep me in a box i didn't fit in when it closed
i still couldn't breathe even after you poked the holes
i don't wanna see anymore cause i know
that the only one for me is who is left when i'm alone
but i still see the shape of your cheeks and your haircut
someone every week tries to whisk me off to their spot
sweep me off my feet but i don't feel a thing at all not
cause you can't be beat but cause that's something i would never want
everything we did imma relive til i'm dead
greatest hits and worst cases playing out up in my head
i can't sleep up in my bed it's as perfect as i've said
but the doubts you had me sold on have me chained to my debts
to my debts to my debts, to my debts, to my debts, oh

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

4giv 4get

on my own terms
living slow burn
really it don't hurt
i can tell you that it's worth it now
with the confidence that i just found
but am i allowed
to say something mean
i might make you cry
and i know it might seem
like for all of this time
there was no honesty
i'd tell you the truth 
but you like lies you believe
can you believe in me 
when i say who i am
you don't believe in anything 
and i just can't understand
i really love everything 
you hate the world in your hands
i hid the world from your plans
i had to pay your demands
seven hundred fifty i don't have
i probably gave you double that
said you didn't wanna be selfish still
but i wanted a spoiled brat
every single time you came my way
you left same day and doubled back
and i know that you wanna be friends
but i keep my friends close and we're so much more than that
i got so much more than money i got honeys coming over
i got something in my system cause it's so hard to be sober
but it's over, oh thank god its over
i'll live without the closure
oh thank god its over, i'll live

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

lies u believe

https://soundcloud.com/kaceylind
vox: bedhead, kacey lind
guitar: bedhead
synth: bedhead
mixing: bedhead, trashboy

u hate when i run w/ kacey lind

OFFICIAL VIDEO: https://youtu.be/fU28WqbVibE

https://soundcloud.com/bedhead2001/sets/private-playlist/s-HOot2SSDTyk

private playlist (p. drosh) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

i sense when u freeze up, tell me whats the rzn
i can b a diva and u cant keep a secret
and i think yr complacent so i dont wanna stay
tell me im complaining 2 much when nothing seems 2 change
and i rly hate the way that we r
but i luv u so i dont wanna cause any harm
is it my name that youve been scratching into yr arm?
it isnt ok but u kno how 2 stop the alarms
when they go off, and u just wanna blow off
everything i bring up so i just sit alone in the dark
and u show off cuz u dont want me going very far
and u show off im not going far
im a secret, u dont wanna keep it
seems im only yrs whenever its most convenient
can u say u luv me, only if u rly mean it
broken down so many times im still in pieces
ride me like a carousel, i could make u dizzy bby
i got all these study drugs, im going 2 use em and
i mite fry my brain 2 mush, she mad i put dope in it
i dont think ahead no more no i dont even hesitate
i miss her face, she m.i.a. like i dont kno her
ive made mistakes, u break me babe cuz im not sober
but i wish i was 4 u and me
but i cant change shawty, gotta chase this dream
i been wearing the same fit for like a week
i been doing the same shit and its all on me

u only get so far showing off u kno w/ lilbearshawty (p. remghost + sanctuary)

swing badder badder w/ jackie platinum (+ homecomingqueen)

https://soundcloud.com/goblinhaven/guarddown

on guard! w/ 8485 (+ remghost x twintailz)

music video: https://youtu.be/-LUpKJNiumY

i like the way the lights look in the rain
makes me think about the time u looked me in the face
told me everything was fine and we'd end up ok
it echoes in my mind
i hear yr voice in my brain
i wish u were here but i kno that yr safe
and thats all that it takes for me to survive the day
if u left i would cry but i would still feel the same
if i left i would die bcuz theres no other way

yr my nicotine
yr not my drug u got me clean
and yr all that i need
wut i say is wut i mean
dont look away
just keep both of yr eyes on me
u say its hard 2 be brave
4 me u make it hard 2 breathe

ALL PLATFORMS + VIDEO

lightsintherain (+ remghost x twintailz) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

featuring https://soundcloud.com/keyblayde808
prod https://soundcloud.com/remghost and https://soundcloud.com/crybabycam
recorded @ key's house 
writen, performed, mixed, and mastered by bedhead and keyblayde808
produced by remghost and crybabycam

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